Amnesia- 5 Seconds of Summer.
Write while listening to this song. It looks like it fits this chapter well.
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Pregnant!
One word, a terrifying spectre that I avoid entirely. I am starting from the word pregnant, the beginning of the destruction of my life.
Suppose repeated in the history of my life. I'm devastated by the word pregnant. Again, the disaster came to me. As if nature conspired to punish me.
Yes, I started everything. I am willing and pretend to be pregnant so that all my plans run smoothly. However, there was an obstacle the size of a mountain waiting before me, and now I was stumbling, stumbling, unable to get back up because of my stupidity. If I wasn't that ridiculous to pretend to be pregnant and lie to my mother, this might not be my fate. Problems come insistently because of the word pregnant. The woman was pregnant, so that made me have to run away and go far to the country's tip, and now I am pregnant
Selena Gomez - Lose You to Love Me (my fav song)About this story, the ending is like this song. ππ. They don't end up together.πππ―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―"I know you will definitely come. I know, we are a couple that will not separate. Don't make me, to leave you again. I can't, I'm tortured, you must be right felt the same?" I sobbed in his chest. The most comfortable chest I ever felt. I gripped his hoodie as hard as I could, hoping he wouldn't leave and wouldn't go away and away from me, my life was in vain without this man."I love you. Don't disappoint me, because I have high hopes for you. I'm quite disappointed now, but ... Everything just goes away, when it comes to you." I buried my head in his chest and inhaled the pheromones of his body which was my favourite. I hugged his body as tightly as I could."I also don't want to separate you from Kelsea. I don't want to be a selfish mother. Just Angel should go. You don't stay away from me
One Direction - They Don't Know About Us.π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―I still looked around the room. I don't know where it is now, I saw David beside me and in front of me was an old man, okay, a doctor, to be precise. What else is this disaster, God? I just looked at the doctor with a stupid look. The doctor was also watching me."Miss needs treatment." finally the doctor opened his voice."What am I?" I asked like a fool."You have, mental illness." I'm just crying. I'm crazy! I just shook my head, so it was stressful for my mental health. If, physical illness can be cured, but if it has attacked the psyche, one of the surefire ways is to get closer to God or die."Not all mental illnesses end up in a mental hospital. You just need to be treated. Sorry, but Miss is hallucinating. The sensation when someone sees, hears, or feels something that is not real. You experience it, you feel that the person is causing the pain. is around us. Yet, all of
I knew you curious about how Rara and David met. So here we go.Flashback (incident, after chapter 40)Shadow- Austin Mahone (favππ song)πΌπΌπΌπΌπΌπΌπΌπΌπΌπΌπΌπΌI felt a tremendous emptiness and emptiness. Instead of diminishing, I felt the burden of my life getting heavier. By opening my eyes, I just realized my body was naked.I saw Kelsea's which is ini her box. My daughter sleeps with a face so peaceful. I went to Kelsea's bed and kissed her. Her cheeks are so round. I looked at my daughter's face slowly, not wanting to stand on the painful reality of life. I can't accept everything, sincerely.I walked towards the mirror. And see my appearance that is so messy. Tangled and limp hair, over-puffy eyes. Swollen lips, and dozens of red marks all over my body. So disgusting! I closed my eyes and opened them again. I saw my naked body. There are many faded colors. Suddenly the hair on my neck bristled. I feel disgusted with myself. After
Shawn Mendes - ImaginationI'm sorry it's more narrative than conversation. I want to tell you how they feel. Sorry if it's getting boring.π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―Was hugging her again just through my imagination? Only through my dreams? I never forgot the slightest bit. Two years passed, every day, I was haunted by guilt, fear, regret, numbness. All things I feel. I was just like a living corpse, helpless, nor effort to get up and move on. There is not the slightest attempt to forget it because I don't think I'll be able to ignore it.The woman I love, but that affection I have repaid with a betrayal that is so heinous. I realized I was a jerk. Everything beyond my control, if you swear at me. In hindsight, everything wasn't 100% my fault. Ah, I know you guys must have thought I was defending again. No, for God's sake, why would I defend myself if everything was like this? It's just, and all this is not entirely my fault everyone took part in this prob
Mercy - Shawn Mendesπ―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―"No! Fuck no." I said firmly. I shook my head hard. Alisia unpacked all of Rara's clothes and wanted to throw them away."How much longer do you have to keep all of this woman's belongings?! We agreed on everything! You messed up everything, while still keeping the things left behind!" shouted Alisia in front of me. Oh shit! Why should it be like this? Why are women so demanding?"I still need time. If you can't be patient, leave me." I said dreamily. I tried to love Alisia. As a result, my soul is empty. I don't feel anything. I don't love her. This fact made me hate myself. I can't accept another woman into my life, only that short woman when the first time seeing her made me determined to be mine. And now there are strangers? In the slightest, I can't forget Rara. Only she and she are filled in my brain and heart."How dare you!" Alisia shook her head. I heard my statement. I can be gentle, kind, and
Daniel Skye & Cameron Dallas - All I Wantπ―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―All-day, I feel too tired. Too many customers. I can't take a break for a moment. Just sitting, I can't. Every second, I worry about my child. Is she playing? What is sleep? Cry? Or is there anyone who roughed it? My heart can not calmly leave it.However, we have a life necessities. My baby can eat well, and her milk is expensive. I, too, am in college. I need a fee. The cost of living abroad is so high. But I am grateful for all of this, and it's just that I worry too much about Kelsea when she is away from me. I was too scared, and something made her sick. She fights. Even though Kelsea is not a child who keeps quiet when being tortured, she will fight back. But even the tip of my fingernail, I never gave up on someone else's violence, which made her sad. She must be the happiest child in the world. Kelsea must not know the word sad.T
Ava Max - Sweet but Psychoπ―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―π―"Your child is this beautiful?""What do you want now?" I asked quietly while walking on the spot. I could not take a step, and nails stabbed my feet in both soles. My feet are heavy, just stepping because my heart was heavy when I saw the reality that was not according to expectations.To be honest, I'm disappointed. Very disappointed! My expectations, meet him. And now I met the angel of death. Witches, inhabitants of hell's crust. Humans unworthy of life, who are on the list of people I don't want to meet in this world. But in the end, meet this witch here in a foreign country."I am curious about your child. If your genes are mixed, it will be this beautiful. Because, I know. You are an itchy woman, pregnant also do with other men. In fact, being pregnant but everyone is teased. teased. How did it feel to be humiliated at school? How did it feel to have a miscarriage? " asked the witch with a s
BeyoncΓ¨- Halo (fav song)π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦π¦I just cried all day. Feel so despicable and low. Someone, who never feeds me, is willing to cross the sea to make fun of me who looks so pathetic. When they brought my life down shamelessly, asking me to come back as if I was a bargain as cheap as possible. I'm like a junkyard.Gerald ... the effect of your actions on me was devastating. I am so humbled. You look down on me too? Because I'm a stupid woman? Crybaby? I look stupid in your eyes because I love you. I remember that boy and keep me hooking up with all the bad luck it gets.Do you not love me in the least? Are all the things we've been through just your pretense?My tears don't stop flowing. I'm having symptoms, mental illness again. I feel like the start of being betrayed. The madwoman had unpacked the pain I had locked tight. I have recovered and live comfortably now, but people in the past again expose the pain of the past. All the pain I
I'm lying in the roomβme time. I just lay there watching TV. I just saw moving images on the plasma. Because on purpose, I didn't raise the voice.My physique can be in the room, and my mind wanders far.The sound of the door opening. My heart immediately warmed. This is what I'm waiting for."Mom." I miss that voice. No matter how selfish and no matter how strong my heart refuses and hurts with past events. I remain, take this man back, and forgive him without knowing it."Why?" I asked dryly. A week, he didn't fill this room."Daddy missed you. Sorry for everything. Honestly, I can't be away from you. Ah, I'm crazy there. I can't be apart from my children, and I can't be apart from you either. Please, mom, you can punish anything, but do not separate. This is torturous. " I looked at Gerald, saw the sincerity of the words that came out of his lips."Where's Skye?""Playing outside." I just nodded.Gerald followed me to bed. He hugged
I watched the faces of my two daughters. Their faces were similar, and one would not mistake them for siblings. Kelsea is beautiful, Verena too. However, where Verena's hair was taken from, her hair was slightly wavy and coppery brown. Even though mine and Gerald's hair are straight. Ah, whichever is important, my children are healthy.From her wavy hair, you can tell Verena's lashes are curled. Verena and Asher have gorgeous lashes; what I like most about Kelsea, her smile—even though she was pouting, still looking cute. My daughter, that one is not tired of being looked at. Her face is beautiful, so pretty. Sometimes I don't believe that I have such a beautiful child, even though her behaviour makes you shake your head.Moreover, Kelsea, a person who likes to take sour.Kelsea is more dominant. Genes are mine. However, it still looks crossbreed: Verena, more hair. Asher, I don't see my genes at all. He's a real G
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingGerald's PovI am ready, and my hands are itching to kill people. It is not irrelevant.Rara immediately knew my attitude.She stroked my hand, even though I was clenching mine as hard as possible. My opponent might faint at all times."Gerald, don't." said Rara. Seeing my woman begging with puppy eyes and pleading, I gave up my mind. Even though my emotions are already on the crown, and I'm ready to go to prison right now."Oh, this kid made Rara a mess. And now she shamelessly comes as if there is no sin." Said the madman with songong. I don't remember and don't know his name. But what I remember he had felt my punch.It felt like I wanted to run over there and kick his evil mouth.I've been rushing. Rara pulled my hand.My breath is already one by one, so holding back emotions."Actually, what else do you want to come here for?" Asked that damn uncle calmly, but very harsh sarcasm.
I'm a little excited. After five weeks, I was down. I try to be sincere and accept everything. I'm trying to live a normal life without a lover. Yes, I didn't think this was the longest record without a partner. Usually, in two days I've got a replacement. And I don't think I'll get a partner anytime soon or maybe for the rest of my life.I can't move on. Even though this relationship has only been a few months, it is so lasting. I do not want to keep grieving and lamenting fate. I will try to forget everything and hope to find someone who helps me forget it."Nanana." I sing like crazy. I am ready to live a new day, and positive energy permeates my soul the last few days.Incidentally, today is a holiday."You sugar .. yes, please. Would you come and put it down on me?" I sing and go downstairs. I intend to help my mother. It's a coincidence that you have to give me a thumbs up. I never tidy up the
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingGerald's PovMomentary emotions make things messy.Sorry, really sorry. I, who originally wanted to meet my lover and fix everything, instead, with an uncontrollable emotional state and jealousy everything fell apart.My relationship is on the edge, aka aground I think. And I regret my stupid deeds that I will regret for the rest of my life.Stupid, stupid, stupid! I cursed my stupidity. For hurting the person I love, and the wound will definitely remain and will be remembered for a lifetime. This suicide is her name.My lover, I really am very sorry. I who was initially filled with anger saw hee lying and helpless. Make me regret it. And now only regret I guess.I helped hee, when she passed out. I have always been her hero, and will remain her hero.But when I brought it into the house, and Rara's mother always looked unhappy, especially since I had made her child pass out. Plus the gol
Sorry for the typoEnjoy readingMy world stopped spinning. Yes my world.I woke up, and when I woke up I was in the hospital. I could say I'm sick, but my heart hurts more.All my life, I just had this pain. Broken my heart, I feel.It's hard to breathe, my breath is short. Thinking about all this, just thinking about it gave me a headache and a stomach upset, suddenly wanted to go to the toilet, but when I went to the toilet nothing happened.Paralyzed, my brain is paralyzed to think.It's been a week I didn't go to school, I dropped. Really drop and rushed to the hospital. I lacked fluids because there was no food coming in and cried all the time, my eyes might be blind too much crying.Poor mother, who is tired of taking care of me and I can only be a bother.Mother is always loyal and painstaking taking care of me. Myself is out of shape anymore. My eyes are sunken already. My face is pale, my lips are pale. And I think I lost
Gerald's PovMy world collapsed, I didn't expect my angel to be like a devil.Really. Just really.I lost my words to express it, I lost energy, lost everything. I lost everything because of her.There is no need to describe what I am anymore. You can imagine for yourself. You don't need to imagine. I just feel it.My world is upside down. My God, my world. My woman.I really didn't expect. I hope this is all a dream. And when I wake up I'll find her still by my side. I mean it still resides in my heart.My heart is dead, my taste is dead. Buried and carried away at the same time as the confession.It's killed me!This is no longer killing me slowly, but precisely stabbing the dagger of my heart. I no longer have a heart. I feel hearthless now!Damn! Because of women.I've never experienced anything like this before.Oh God, my woman! Do she still deserve or not consider her my woman? I really really
Anyone - Justin Bieberπ°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°We've changed clothes, respectively. Yes, indeed, a date that I will never forget."Ready to date?" I smile. I'm excited now. If we can't be lovers, at least we've had different experiences. As my request, Gerald is wearing a purple shirt, and I am wearing a pink shirt, just like the other couple goals. I also asked him to wear a hat, very handsome of course. And I was told to tie up like a schoolgirl and wear glasses, really like a nerd. I wear big round glasses, and they droop a lot."I'm a nerd." I held out my hand."I'm a bad boy." Gerald introduced himself."No. You're not.""I am." I laughed and hugged him."Let's go." I don't remember if this was the last day I had fun. After this, it's all just memories, which will put me down as much as possible."Before the date, it looks like we need to eat.""Right," I said, confirming the word lover a day."But
Hold On - Justin Bieberπ°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°π°I could only cry and sat on the floor, watching Gerald move away. I'm still holding it down my stomach. It hurts so much.I deliberately felt it down. I was afraid my ass was bleeding because of the force of gravity downward."Wake up." Mas Rangga stretched out his hand. I feel more and more devastated."Thank you." I wiped my tears while sitting on the bench earlier."Rara wants to go home." My mood fell apart. I'm not in the mood for what to do. My lower stomach hurts too. I better go home and rest.Mas Rangga knows my broken mood. Luckily I had time to eat."Thank you for your kindness, Mas. Rara prayed hope you will find the perfect companion." I immediately ran into the house. I do not want to hear what Mas Rangga said.I just cried and cried, regardless of what was going on around me._____________________"This is what I said before, make sin not to re