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My Life So Pathetic
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2020-12-09 09:41:26Ava Max - Sweet but Psycho
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"Your child is this beautiful?"
"What do you want now?" I asked quietly while walking on the spot. I could not take a step, and nails stabbed my feet in both soles. My feet are heavy, just stepping because my heart was heavy when I saw the reality that was not according to expectations.
To be honest, I'm disappointed. Very disappointed! My expectations, meet him. And now I met the angel of death. Witches, inhabitants of hell's crust. Humans unworthy of life, who are on the list of people I don't want to meet in this world. But in the end, meet this witch here in a foreign country.
"I am curious about your child. If your genes are mixed, it will be this beautiful. Because, I know. You are an itchy woman, pregnant also do with other men. In fact, being pregnant but everyone is teased. teased. How did it feel to be humiliated at school? How did it feel to have a miscarriage? " asked the witch with a s
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