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2024-10-29 19:42:56Who am I now the girl questions her identity and this is the quote that describes her the best. The broken Bond of her parents made her question; though she is small but she was smart to understand everything and she kept questioning who she is even while growing up without her family support; without her mother; will she ever find the happiness again in her or the dark cloud will break her apart!
"Am I a broken Bond
A starving soul or
The love that's gone
The smell of flowers
The rainy breeze
This cold weather
Let's my heart freeze
Beyond the horizon
I am the truth
I am the old memories
What can't be understood"
- Neelesh Mishra
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