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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Broken and Abused Was
left to suffer;Cried and Begged to Be Loved and Cared for"Ashma Rauniyar
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I was broken; I was abused; I was left to suffer on my own; I kept on crying and begging to be loved; to be cared but no one heard my plea of songs. I was left alone to fight; alone to survive; alone to fight with my worst nightmares; left alone to fight the depression. I was left alone by my own family to die.
How more a young girl like me can go through more difficulty than i already had; how more can i take the cruelty of my fate; how more can i be broken than i a
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