EROSI waded in a pile of my alcohol soaked clothes and walked out half-drunk, half-sophisticated. The former, took over most of my soul and I felt compelled but it as I walked to the sink and watched my face.I was in a total mess and I wore that same look on my face. In a way I seemed quietly disapproving of anything that had to be me thinking about her in my mind and already I took this morning signs seriously.I needed to run badly…Until now, apparently, as I have a lot of drink IS in my closet than clothes as I felt the sudden urge to always drink, nothing could take my mind away from the fact that She might as well not come back to my life.I caught my reflection in the mirror: a taller, less- manly version of what I used to be staring right back at me like I was there all for the taking. It was frustrating to see myself looking this way but at the same time I couldn't help it.I hated the man staring back— He was weak and feeble and In every way not me.I decided that I neede
SIRA.I stood near the doors, leaning against the wall as I looked around the party, in a way I could feel everyone's eyes around me immediately I walked in and it was hard for me to explain, the gaze of everything moving cane to my direction as it looked as though I was the life of the party.The first person I looked for was Cansil, he was the one I was here for anyways.He had his hands in pockets. With his black suit lit by sparkling lighting, he could pass as a handsome gentleman.One only needed to glance up and see that he was a bit mischievous at times, at times there was always this thought that beneath all this I was seeing there was still something that I felt blinded by watching me .It was hard to explain but the feeling was right there, I couldn't get rid of it at least not at the moment.It was as though all the look in his eyes was only smoke and he had something deep down.What worried me the most was thathis stare, edged with something I couldn't refuse…No matter
EROSSeconds passed before she ripped herself from my grip and took a step to go outside, my face red with disdain as I turned to see if anyone saw us .Cancel watched the exchange with neutrality as he was occupied by whatever he was doing, still it was in his face and couldn't be ignored. It was something close to displeasure and it played behind his eyes when he looked at me.Cancel and i were not really at war as a matter we were never really had a reason to go at it, the distaste on his face was for another reason than I stepping in,but I wasn’t sure what.I knew she liked him, it was like he was part of a universe that I didn't want him to be a part of.Perhaps, it had always been the reason why she was changed from being allgentle, reserved, but at the slightest infraction, it looked like she was nothing but a wolf in sheep’s clothing after all this while.I stood with her…she was right there with me but didn't look like she wanted to be .She barked. “Leave.” it was the t
SIRAEven though I knew that I took away a whole lot of breaths the moment I stepped into that party. It comes to me naturally. I managed to derive this kind of reaction out of people any time I walked into a new environment for the first time. I do not even need to try to gain anyone’s attention. All I needed to do was breathe, and then every attention was drawn to me.Today wasn’t an exception. As I stepped into the party, clad in my knee length emerald green dress which marched the color of my eyes amazingly, I knew I was going to have fun tonight.I didn't even put much effort in my looks, just a bit of arrangements here and there and I pulled it off quite well I had to say. Even I knew no woman Within the walls of the party house came close to me in everything physical.While most of the men stared at me with longing, their women counterparts would rather see me out of the place and the face of the earth if possible. The scowl they threw my way anytime I made eye contact with any
SIRAWalking back Inside I felt bad for how I had just treated him. If I could take back my words, if I could take back time, certainly I would have done exactly that at that moment, but it was far from impossible, far from what I had to do.We walked back in because of the rain as we couldn't stay outside after it started raining heavily.This time I was the centre of attention, I let my self enjoy every thing that was coming my way.There was nothing to distract me this time —As it has been his custom every year, Cansil had thrown a party to mark the new phase of his life.Money didn't pose any problem to him, so everything was done in excess.Talk about the varieties of food, drinks, and the rest.Because of the crowd he had invited for his party, he had to involve the services of Myrtle Ushers to assist the waiters and waitresses.I stood at a corner of the room as I ran my eyes through the large hall that held 100+ invitees.Everyone was upbeat as they ate and drank without caut
EROSMy rapid heartbeats counted the whole event again. I couldn't believe that she did this to me , no matter how much I tried to push it to the back of my mind it kept popping back in, In a manner that was so frustrating.I remembered the gurgle of Censil words, the cold sweat encasing my body, and soul.I could picture the moment again when he kissed her and at this point in time I was pissed.I could still feel his presence even if he wasn't mine. The light scent of his cologne consumed me and everything pissed me off.I could still picture him at the back of mind kissing her, I didn't know how to describe it but it was right there and I was left with nothing else than to feel the pain of everything that was happening, at the moment the only person I could hate more than any other thing was myself.I hated myself for putting my soul in all of this, I wished I could change the hands of time somehow I wished I had not seen them kissing.It was hard to take back, it left me with so
SIRA For a long time, my gaze remained on Eros' retreating figure.Cansil's eyes were fixed on him, but he didn't say a word.Just when I thought I would be able to reach out to him, Cansil tightened his grip around my hand, then began to pull me inside the hall.I wanted to resist, but an invisible force kept pushing me forward.I didn't know I was drooling until he mentioned it to me.“Is it about that waiter? He must be drunk that's why he did that” Cansil said.“He is not drunk” I screamed in my head as I replayed his retreating figure.I wished I could dash out of the hall without Cansil noticing.I shook my head to shake off the thought of Eros off, then began to feed my eyes with the guests who were loitering around.I couldn't wait for the party to wrap up so that I could retire home.As for Neara, she was nowhere to be found.For some weird reasons, , I wanted to know where she was and what she was up to.I was about to mention her absence to Cansil when the master of ceremo
SIRAAt first I didn't want to let him kiss me, but he was insistent and soon I was giving in to him.As soon as she could reach me, as soon as he did, he grabbed my nape, threaded his fingers into my hair, and then buried his face in my neck.I could perceive his scent, and it was intoxicating. I could feel his energy as he kissed down my neck, as he did …He made a masculine noise of satisfaction that I could feel deep in my stomach , it was as though he was kissing soul.I leaned into him, I could feel the energy he was kissing me with, I could taste the anger that was in it as well, as it was all over me— a feeling filled deep inside of me before it settled into a weight between my legs. I rocked back, not fighting him.I could feel the lightning bolt exploding in my chest and fizzing through my veins at that moment, the dark feeling was radiating through my veins…My breasts pressed against his hard, warm abs and a shiver rolled through my entire skin. He ran his face up and do
SIRADriving down there was the hardest thing ever for me at this moment, I hated the guilt that filled me as his scent filled that call, it was there every where it was infinitely him. How I was suffocated in hisspace in a way I couldn’t find unpleasant.I drove with caution and speed, already my phone was ringing and looking at it, it was him.I tore my gaze from the phone, I didn't want the situation where he would show up and ruin thing's.My hand fit the wheel, as I sat in the driver’s seat with an unpretentious confidence and courag, I was driving crazily, I drove above the speed limit as if to maintain the façade that I was really scared.The wind pulsed through me and the music it played in my ears was melancholic.It reminded me of the soft sound of fabric hitting the floor in death, or the sound Of teeth on the nape of ma neck, the tug of my hair and strangle.What ever way it came to my mind, the wind reminded me of death.My pulse drifted between my heart as I felt i
SIRAAt first when he talked about seeing me the previous night my heart had skipped, for some funny reason I knew that Cansil coming here could spell trouble for the little bit of peace that was around.Mu heart still felt heavy, in a way I couldn't change the fact that I had been trailed here just last night.That bit of darkness was still around me unwilling to depart, it was as though enveloping everything that had for do with my soul at that moment.While all of this is going on, he came in with another bad newsWhat?It was hard to believe what had just happened under our own noses, my finger's were literally trembling.It meant no one was saved, I was starting to think this had to do with both Davina and Neara, but at the moment I know that bringing that up would disrupt anything that was going on at the moment.I could not think about what to do about the whole situation, I was confused about what to do and how we were going to go about it."Are you sure of what you are sayi
EROSThe next two weeks were all about Sira and me. We spent every moment ofevery day together. I was letting her in slowly into my life In a way I never thought possible.At that moment she was no longer Sira the maid, she was more precious to me than even that, She practically moved into my room at first I thought I was mean to her by taking her phone, so as the days proceeded I handed it back to herShe was over.every night and I loved it. I knew it was still very important for me to connect with her as I could picture myself starting a family already—She was carrying my child anyways.At that moment , I felt everything was perfect. It suddenly seemed like all I had to do was trust her, it seemed like the missing piece, perhaps if I had dropped my pride at the beginning, it would have been so easy for me to deal with.And yes, her mother came in once in a while. Suddenly it looked like I was standing right at the end of the tunnel with the light all shining down right at my fac
SIRASeeing no one I hastened my step, I could literally feel the sound coming from my heart as it was heavy with a thundering sound.“Who is there?” I breathed.I directed a sarcastic gaze at the dark part of the wood.As the hour minute ticked I could hear it in my heart, I took steps back cautious that I wasn't alone.The words I was going to say were pierced in my chest. I knew it had to be something out there or someone… It hurts all the same, the manner at which my heart was beating.A frustrated sound traveled up my throat, but I kept it locked in. It was better to be quiet than having any emotions at the moment. I avoided the gaze into the dark, though it burned me deep in my soul.The Pressure in me burst into tingles and flame. My veins burned up like a line of fire willing to ignite shooting flames of light behind my eyes.A shudder fluttered through my body as anxiety poured through my bloodstream, before a languid heat spread.As I calm down, I realized my leg wa
SIRA POV.I stood still, obviously shocked, this was obviously what I dreaded the most.I really don’t like Eros and Cansil meeting each other, because it doesn’t end well.“So this is it Sira?” He asked me with a very annoyed glare which managed to send chills down my spine.“You should mind the way you speak to her,” Cansil stepped in and that was when Eros faced him with an irritated look.“And who invited you?” Eros demanded with rage written all over his face.“You can’t just speak to Sira anyhow in my presence and expect me to keep quiet,” Cansil said without an ounce of fear, and Eros glared at him angrily.When all these was happening, I just kept mute and watched them bicker.I stared at Eros deeply, and I managed to figure out that he was very jealous.His face showed how bitter he felt at that moment when he saw I and Cansil together.He quickly turned to look at me, and his stares that moment felt like......It felt like he was suspecting me and was also beginning to doubt
SIRA Bright Light struck my eyes followed by a loud honk. I shut my eyes due to the immense pain I felt and by the time I opened it, I noticed a man staring at me.Soon, I guessed it was the cab I ordered. I wanted to give him a scolding of his life but not while I was standing on the walkway by the roadside so I took my seat and told him my destination.As soon as the car took off, I began lamenting.“Do you want to get me blind?” I spoke authoritatively.The next thing that followed was an immediate and reckless halting of the car. He stepped on the break not caring if I was going to bang my head against the seat.“Now you want to end my life?” I uttered, angrily this time.He turned to face me as he soon gave a reply, “I did what I did so you’d notice I already came to pick you up sooner if your eyes weren’t glued to your phone and so I had no other choice than to flash my car lights at you.”After saying this, he rudely just turned on the engine and continued driving without even
EROS POVThere was a yummy chicken Marsala placed before me. The aroma of the food was capable of sweeping you off your feet, but I wasn’t happy.In fact, I didn’t have any appetite to eat as I felt disappointed earlier today.“Why didn’t she want to see me?” I couldn’t help but ask myself as I remembered what happened exactly today.“She watched me leave, which is very unlike her?” I couldn’t help but ask myself in surprise.“Was Cansil there with her, and that was why she probably didn’t want to see me?” I couldn’t help but ask myself, as different thoughts rummaged in my head.I kept on stirring the food before me, without making an attempt to eat it.“Your highness,” The new maid walked in, with a light smile on her face.I hissed lightly and shook my head, prepared to ignore her until she made the next statement.“Your highness, A lady is here to see you,” She said with a light smile, as I quickly turned to stare at her.“Who?” I couldn’t help but ask“She said her name was Sira?
SIRAI was in my room, going through some certain things on my phone when I suddenly began to feel nauseous.Quickly, I rushed into the restroom to throw up, which I eventually did and it managed to get me confused.“What’s going on?” I couldn’t help but ask myself as I walked out of the bathroom slowly.I sat on a vacant chair as different thoughts ran through my head.I just couldn’t help but think that moment.Slowly, I got up and went straight to my closet, picking a blue baggy jeans and a red crop top.Different thoughts ran through my head, but I decided to go to the hospital so I could confirm if I was okay or not.“Why exactly am I suddenly feeling nauseous?” I couldn’t help but ask myself with a crumpled look.I shrugged and quickly dressed up, before I picked up my bag.Briskly, I walked out of my apartment and flagged down a cab as I headed straight to the hospital.The drive was just about ten minutes or so, but I didn’t know when I got to the hospital.On getting there, I
SIRAGrrr…My alarm clock rang, thereby interrupting my blissful sleep.I turned the clock off then tried to go back to sleep, but it was to no avail.I was fed up because I still wanted to sleep more.With a sour expression, I groped my way to my bathroom then did my morning routine as quickly as I could.On my return to my room, I decided to check my messages before going about my chores.“Sira” mom yelled just when I was about to click on a message from Karen.“Ma'am” I yelled in returnI was tempted to open her message but because I didn't want to scroll through thirty messages when I returned, I tossed my phone on my bed then walked towards the door.We were supposed to hang out yesterday, but because of Eros, I had canceled our meeting.I was certain she had flooded my phone with the pictures she and the girls took at the girl's night out that was held the previous day.I was about to walk into the living room when I bumped into mom, who was on her way to fetch me.“When are you