SIRAIt had been two days since I walked away from Eros when he came down to my apartment and still everything felt like a dream.First, I had to kiss outside the foyer while only the stars and night watch and the second was walking out on him when he showed up at my apartment.It was hard concentrating, even harder dealing with everything that was going on through my head at the moment, I felt like I was pushing everything too far.I was still surprised that he was yet to deal with my whole reaction and how I had been acting out this whole While.I kept asking myself what else was wanted, the truth was even with the fact that I was mad at him I couldn't stay that way forever.He was in mind every single moment and it was hard keeping the thought of him away.It was the main reason why I had to prove to them that I wasn't out down by the fact that he wasn't showing me any affection.Though, I was dying in my heart I had to keep the thought of him away and continue with my chores for
EROSI waded in a pile of my alcohol soaked clothes and walked out half-drunk, half-sophisticated. The former, took over most of my soul and I felt compelled but it as I walked to the sink and watched my face.I was in a total mess and I wore that same look on my face. In a way I seemed quietly disapproving of anything that had to be me thinking about her in my mind and already I took this morning signs seriously.I needed to run badly…Until now, apparently, as I have a lot of drink IS in my closet than clothes as I felt the sudden urge to always drink, nothing could take my mind away from the fact that She might as well not come back to my life.I caught my reflection in the mirror: a taller, less- manly version of what I used to be staring right back at me like I was there all for the taking. It was frustrating to see myself looking this way but at the same time I couldn't help it.I hated the man staring back— He was weak and feeble and In every way not me.I decided that I neede
SIRA.I stood near the doors, leaning against the wall as I looked around the party, in a way I could feel everyone's eyes around me immediately I walked in and it was hard for me to explain, the gaze of everything moving cane to my direction as it looked as though I was the life of the party.The first person I looked for was Cansil, he was the one I was here for anyways.He had his hands in pockets. With his black suit lit by sparkling lighting, he could pass as a handsome gentleman.One only needed to glance up and see that he was a bit mischievous at times, at times there was always this thought that beneath all this I was seeing there was still something that I felt blinded by watching me .It was hard to explain but the feeling was right there, I couldn't get rid of it at least not at the moment.It was as though all the look in his eyes was only smoke and he had something deep down.What worried me the most was thathis stare, edged with something I couldn't refuse…No matter
EROSSeconds passed before she ripped herself from my grip and took a step to go outside, my face red with disdain as I turned to see if anyone saw us .Cancel watched the exchange with neutrality as he was occupied by whatever he was doing, still it was in his face and couldn't be ignored. It was something close to displeasure and it played behind his eyes when he looked at me.Cancel and i were not really at war as a matter we were never really had a reason to go at it, the distaste on his face was for another reason than I stepping in,but I wasn’t sure what.I knew she liked him, it was like he was part of a universe that I didn't want him to be a part of.Perhaps, it had always been the reason why she was changed from being allgentle, reserved, but at the slightest infraction, it looked like she was nothing but a wolf in sheep’s clothing after all this while.I stood with her…she was right there with me but didn't look like she wanted to be .She barked. “Leave.” it was the t
SIRAEven though I knew that I took away a whole lot of breaths the moment I stepped into that party. It comes to me naturally. I managed to derive this kind of reaction out of people any time I walked into a new environment for the first time. I do not even need to try to gain anyone’s attention. All I needed to do was breathe, and then every attention was drawn to me.Today wasn’t an exception. As I stepped into the party, clad in my knee length emerald green dress which marched the color of my eyes amazingly, I knew I was going to have fun tonight.I didn't even put much effort in my looks, just a bit of arrangements here and there and I pulled it off quite well I had to say. Even I knew no woman Within the walls of the party house came close to me in everything physical.While most of the men stared at me with longing, their women counterparts would rather see me out of the place and the face of the earth if possible. The scowl they threw my way anytime I made eye contact with any
SIRAWalking back Inside I felt bad for how I had just treated him. If I could take back my words, if I could take back time, certainly I would have done exactly that at that moment, but it was far from impossible, far from what I had to do.We walked back in because of the rain as we couldn't stay outside after it started raining heavily.This time I was the centre of attention, I let my self enjoy every thing that was coming my way.There was nothing to distract me this time —As it has been his custom every year, Cansil had thrown a party to mark the new phase of his life.Money didn't pose any problem to him, so everything was done in excess.Talk about the varieties of food, drinks, and the rest.Because of the crowd he had invited for his party, he had to involve the services of Myrtle Ushers to assist the waiters and waitresses.I stood at a corner of the room as I ran my eyes through the large hall that held 100+ invitees.Everyone was upbeat as they ate and drank without caut
EROSMy rapid heartbeats counted the whole event again. I couldn't believe that she did this to me , no matter how much I tried to push it to the back of my mind it kept popping back in, In a manner that was so frustrating.I remembered the gurgle of Censil words, the cold sweat encasing my body, and soul.I could picture the moment again when he kissed her and at this point in time I was pissed.I could still feel his presence even if he wasn't mine. The light scent of his cologne consumed me and everything pissed me off.I could still picture him at the back of mind kissing her, I didn't know how to describe it but it was right there and I was left with nothing else than to feel the pain of everything that was happening, at the moment the only person I could hate more than any other thing was myself.I hated myself for putting my soul in all of this, I wished I could change the hands of time somehow I wished I had not seen them kissing.It was hard to take back, it left me with so
SIRA For a long time, my gaze remained on Eros' retreating figure.Cansil's eyes were fixed on him, but he didn't say a word.Just when I thought I would be able to reach out to him, Cansil tightened his grip around my hand, then began to pull me inside the hall.I wanted to resist, but an invisible force kept pushing me forward.I didn't know I was drooling until he mentioned it to me.“Is it about that waiter? He must be drunk that's why he did that” Cansil said.“He is not drunk” I screamed in my head as I replayed his retreating figure.I wished I could dash out of the hall without Cansil noticing.I shook my head to shake off the thought of Eros off, then began to feed my eyes with the guests who were loitering around.I couldn't wait for the party to wrap up so that I could retire home.As for Neara, she was nowhere to be found.For some weird reasons, , I wanted to know where she was and what she was up to.I was about to mention her absence to Cansil when the master of ceremo