SIRAWalking back Inside I felt bad for how I had just treated him. If I could take back my words, if I could take back time, certainly I would have done exactly that at that moment, but it was far from impossible, far from what I had to do.We walked back in because of the rain as we couldn't stay outside after it started raining heavily.This time I was the centre of attention, I let my self enjoy every thing that was coming my way.There was nothing to distract me this time —As it has been his custom every year, Cansil had thrown a party to mark the new phase of his life.Money didn't pose any problem to him, so everything was done in excess.Talk about the varieties of food, drinks, and the rest.Because of the crowd he had invited for his party, he had to involve the services of Myrtle Ushers to assist the waiters and waitresses.I stood at a corner of the room as I ran my eyes through the large hall that held 100+ invitees.Everyone was upbeat as they ate and drank without caut
EROSMy rapid heartbeats counted the whole event again. I couldn't believe that she did this to me , no matter how much I tried to push it to the back of my mind it kept popping back in, In a manner that was so frustrating.I remembered the gurgle of Censil words, the cold sweat encasing my body, and soul.I could picture the moment again when he kissed her and at this point in time I was pissed.I could still feel his presence even if he wasn't mine. The light scent of his cologne consumed me and everything pissed me off.I could still picture him at the back of mind kissing her, I didn't know how to describe it but it was right there and I was left with nothing else than to feel the pain of everything that was happening, at the moment the only person I could hate more than any other thing was myself.I hated myself for putting my soul in all of this, I wished I could change the hands of time somehow I wished I had not seen them kissing.It was hard to take back, it left me with so
SIRA For a long time, my gaze remained on Eros' retreating figure.Cansil's eyes were fixed on him, but he didn't say a word.Just when I thought I would be able to reach out to him, Cansil tightened his grip around my hand, then began to pull me inside the hall.I wanted to resist, but an invisible force kept pushing me forward.I didn't know I was drooling until he mentioned it to me.“Is it about that waiter? He must be drunk that's why he did that” Cansil said.“He is not drunk” I screamed in my head as I replayed his retreating figure.I wished I could dash out of the hall without Cansil noticing.I shook my head to shake off the thought of Eros off, then began to feed my eyes with the guests who were loitering around.I couldn't wait for the party to wrap up so that I could retire home.As for Neara, she was nowhere to be found.For some weird reasons, , I wanted to know where she was and what she was up to.I was about to mention her absence to Cansil when the master of ceremo
SIRAAt first I didn't want to let him kiss me, but he was insistent and soon I was giving in to him.As soon as she could reach me, as soon as he did, he grabbed my nape, threaded his fingers into my hair, and then buried his face in my neck.I could perceive his scent, and it was intoxicating. I could feel his energy as he kissed down my neck, as he did …He made a masculine noise of satisfaction that I could feel deep in my stomach , it was as though he was kissing soul.I leaned into him, I could feel the energy he was kissing me with, I could taste the anger that was in it as well, as it was all over me— a feeling filled deep inside of me before it settled into a weight between my legs. I rocked back, not fighting him.I could feel the lightning bolt exploding in my chest and fizzing through my veins at that moment, the dark feeling was radiating through my veins…My breasts pressed against his hard, warm abs and a shiver rolled through my entire skin. He ran his face up and do
SIRAWhen I checked the caller's ID, it turned out to be Cencil.My first instinct was to decline the call, but after a few seconds of weighing my decision, I allowed my phone to ring until the lines disconnected.Pushing my phone back into my pocket, I returned my gaze to Eros, only for my buzzing phone to cause another distraction.Knowing, fully well, that it was Cencil, I decided to ignore it but Eros asked,“Isn't it important?”I didn't want to let him know the identity of the caller, so I flashed a smile at him as I rose.“I will come around” I said, then turned to leave.I was glad when Eros didn't try to stop me.When I got to the road, I immediately flagged down a cab to take me to my mother's house.I needed someone to speak with, and it turned out she was the only one available to hear me out.All through the ride to my mother's house, my phone was ringing non-stop.I wasn't in the mood to speak to him, at least for now, hence I ignored it.The day was bright, just like my
EROSI was pissed when Sira's phone rang for the second time.Just when I thought I would be able to share my thoughts with her, someone decided to steal her away from me.After checking the caller's ID, she slipped her phone back into her pocket and the next thing was, she was set to leave.She didn't even give me the chance to speak before she left my home after spending barely ten minutes with me.When she left, I groped my way to the kitchen, then emptied the remaining content of the bottle down the drain.I had lost interest in the liquor.Before leaving the kitchen, I took the liquid to cure any impending hangover.My next destination was my room.After a cool bath, I fell on my bed and almost immediately sleep enveloped me.When I woke up, it was already past noon.I was feeling light and dizzy.Thanks to the liquid, I didn't feel the acute headache that comes with a hangover.Yawning tiredly, I made my way to the kitchen to quench my hunger pangs.I was not in the mood to prep
EROS It was hard loving her when in fact I loved another …The chatter was low, as a song played from the room that looked too quiet .The soft lighting sparkled off the glass view of the room, I stood there in my midst as I stood in my black-suited form only highlighted it as he stood near the window.I didn’t know how it had happened, but I was drunk.The situation was warmth and filled with complacency, I couldn’t stop myself from heading toward what had to be the woman again.A couple of hours ago I had been a bit embarrassed when I had mistakened her for Sira, she didn't say anything but walk away with a smug look on her face that I couldn't describe.The problem was, if I stopped to show her how bad the whole situation was she would want to take advantage of me, there was the thought of Sira in my head.Deep in my mind, I wish I could have Sira all to myself even after what had done but it was hard to get over it .Or maybe that was only wishful thinking . . . She probably on
EROSI continued to stare at Davina as I wondered what was going on.I tried kissing her again, yet the same thing happened.For more than five minutes, I just stood there, staring at the lady in front of me.The more time I spent staring at her face, the more I regretted not reconciling with Sira.Strife isn't a good thing, yet we find it hard to let go and move on with life.We always held on to it like our second skin when there is a brighter side on the other end.If I had reconciled with Sira, the elders wouldn't have imposed anyone on me.It wasn't too late yet.There was still a glimmer of hope.“Hey, what are you staring at?” Davina asked as she leaned close.I took my eyes off her and turned aside.With each step she took towards me, I took two because I didn’t want to have contact with her.She irked me to the barest minimum, and I was ready to do whatever it takes to get rid of her.Suddenly, she flopped on the couch then buried her head in her thigh.I wondered what she wa
SIRADriving down there was the hardest thing ever for me at this moment, I hated the guilt that filled me as his scent filled that call, it was there every where it was infinitely him. How I was suffocated in hisspace in a way I couldn’t find unpleasant.I drove with caution and speed, already my phone was ringing and looking at it, it was him.I tore my gaze from the phone, I didn't want the situation where he would show up and ruin thing's.My hand fit the wheel, as I sat in the driver’s seat with an unpretentious confidence and courag, I was driving crazily, I drove above the speed limit as if to maintain the façade that I was really scared.The wind pulsed through me and the music it played in my ears was melancholic.It reminded me of the soft sound of fabric hitting the floor in death, or the sound Of teeth on the nape of ma neck, the tug of my hair and strangle.What ever way it came to my mind, the wind reminded me of death.My pulse drifted between my heart as I felt i
SIRAAt first when he talked about seeing me the previous night my heart had skipped, for some funny reason I knew that Cansil coming here could spell trouble for the little bit of peace that was around.Mu heart still felt heavy, in a way I couldn't change the fact that I had been trailed here just last night.That bit of darkness was still around me unwilling to depart, it was as though enveloping everything that had for do with my soul at that moment.While all of this is going on, he came in with another bad newsWhat?It was hard to believe what had just happened under our own noses, my finger's were literally trembling.It meant no one was saved, I was starting to think this had to do with both Davina and Neara, but at the moment I know that bringing that up would disrupt anything that was going on at the moment.I could not think about what to do about the whole situation, I was confused about what to do and how we were going to go about it."Are you sure of what you are sayi
EROSThe next two weeks were all about Sira and me. We spent every moment ofevery day together. I was letting her in slowly into my life In a way I never thought possible.At that moment she was no longer Sira the maid, she was more precious to me than even that, She practically moved into my room at first I thought I was mean to her by taking her phone, so as the days proceeded I handed it back to herShe was over.every night and I loved it. I knew it was still very important for me to connect with her as I could picture myself starting a family already—She was carrying my child anyways.At that moment , I felt everything was perfect. It suddenly seemed like all I had to do was trust her, it seemed like the missing piece, perhaps if I had dropped my pride at the beginning, it would have been so easy for me to deal with.And yes, her mother came in once in a while. Suddenly it looked like I was standing right at the end of the tunnel with the light all shining down right at my fac
SIRASeeing no one I hastened my step, I could literally feel the sound coming from my heart as it was heavy with a thundering sound.“Who is there?” I breathed.I directed a sarcastic gaze at the dark part of the wood.As the hour minute ticked I could hear it in my heart, I took steps back cautious that I wasn't alone.The words I was going to say were pierced in my chest. I knew it had to be something out there or someone… It hurts all the same, the manner at which my heart was beating.A frustrated sound traveled up my throat, but I kept it locked in. It was better to be quiet than having any emotions at the moment. I avoided the gaze into the dark, though it burned me deep in my soul.The Pressure in me burst into tingles and flame. My veins burned up like a line of fire willing to ignite shooting flames of light behind my eyes.A shudder fluttered through my body as anxiety poured through my bloodstream, before a languid heat spread.As I calm down, I realized my leg wa
SIRA POV.I stood still, obviously shocked, this was obviously what I dreaded the most.I really don’t like Eros and Cansil meeting each other, because it doesn’t end well.“So this is it Sira?” He asked me with a very annoyed glare which managed to send chills down my spine.“You should mind the way you speak to her,” Cansil stepped in and that was when Eros faced him with an irritated look.“And who invited you?” Eros demanded with rage written all over his face.“You can’t just speak to Sira anyhow in my presence and expect me to keep quiet,” Cansil said without an ounce of fear, and Eros glared at him angrily.When all these was happening, I just kept mute and watched them bicker.I stared at Eros deeply, and I managed to figure out that he was very jealous.His face showed how bitter he felt at that moment when he saw I and Cansil together.He quickly turned to look at me, and his stares that moment felt like......It felt like he was suspecting me and was also beginning to doubt
SIRA Bright Light struck my eyes followed by a loud honk. I shut my eyes due to the immense pain I felt and by the time I opened it, I noticed a man staring at me.Soon, I guessed it was the cab I ordered. I wanted to give him a scolding of his life but not while I was standing on the walkway by the roadside so I took my seat and told him my destination.As soon as the car took off, I began lamenting.“Do you want to get me blind?” I spoke authoritatively.The next thing that followed was an immediate and reckless halting of the car. He stepped on the break not caring if I was going to bang my head against the seat.“Now you want to end my life?” I uttered, angrily this time.He turned to face me as he soon gave a reply, “I did what I did so you’d notice I already came to pick you up sooner if your eyes weren’t glued to your phone and so I had no other choice than to flash my car lights at you.”After saying this, he rudely just turned on the engine and continued driving without even
EROS POVThere was a yummy chicken Marsala placed before me. The aroma of the food was capable of sweeping you off your feet, but I wasn’t happy.In fact, I didn’t have any appetite to eat as I felt disappointed earlier today.“Why didn’t she want to see me?” I couldn’t help but ask myself as I remembered what happened exactly today.“She watched me leave, which is very unlike her?” I couldn’t help but ask myself in surprise.“Was Cansil there with her, and that was why she probably didn’t want to see me?” I couldn’t help but ask myself, as different thoughts rummaged in my head.I kept on stirring the food before me, without making an attempt to eat it.“Your highness,” The new maid walked in, with a light smile on her face.I hissed lightly and shook my head, prepared to ignore her until she made the next statement.“Your highness, A lady is here to see you,” She said with a light smile, as I quickly turned to stare at her.“Who?” I couldn’t help but ask“She said her name was Sira?
SIRAI was in my room, going through some certain things on my phone when I suddenly began to feel nauseous.Quickly, I rushed into the restroom to throw up, which I eventually did and it managed to get me confused.“What’s going on?” I couldn’t help but ask myself as I walked out of the bathroom slowly.I sat on a vacant chair as different thoughts ran through my head.I just couldn’t help but think that moment.Slowly, I got up and went straight to my closet, picking a blue baggy jeans and a red crop top.Different thoughts ran through my head, but I decided to go to the hospital so I could confirm if I was okay or not.“Why exactly am I suddenly feeling nauseous?” I couldn’t help but ask myself with a crumpled look.I shrugged and quickly dressed up, before I picked up my bag.Briskly, I walked out of my apartment and flagged down a cab as I headed straight to the hospital.The drive was just about ten minutes or so, but I didn’t know when I got to the hospital.On getting there, I
SIRAGrrr…My alarm clock rang, thereby interrupting my blissful sleep.I turned the clock off then tried to go back to sleep, but it was to no avail.I was fed up because I still wanted to sleep more.With a sour expression, I groped my way to my bathroom then did my morning routine as quickly as I could.On my return to my room, I decided to check my messages before going about my chores.“Sira” mom yelled just when I was about to click on a message from Karen.“Ma'am” I yelled in returnI was tempted to open her message but because I didn't want to scroll through thirty messages when I returned, I tossed my phone on my bed then walked towards the door.We were supposed to hang out yesterday, but because of Eros, I had canceled our meeting.I was certain she had flooded my phone with the pictures she and the girls took at the girl's night out that was held the previous day.I was about to walk into the living room when I bumped into mom, who was on her way to fetch me.“When are you