SIRA My heart thumped loudly as I stormed into my house. I seemed to have interrupted their hearty conservation as they both turned to look at me in shock. My mom and dad were sitting in the living room, their faces laced with concern.“Honey, it’s so good to see you today. What’s wrong?” I heard my mom ask me as tears began to trickle down my cheeks. My hands began to shiver as I quickly wiped them off. “You look so upset. Is anything the matter?”I chuckled sheepishly, “I’m fine mom. I’m just tired, I need to rest.” I said and power walked to my room before they asked any more questions. I didn’t want them worrying about me. I closed the door behind me before locking it.I began to pace back and forth as I felt the tears welling up once again. A wave of regret rushed over me as I realized what I had just done.“I just… I just quit my job.” I said to myself as I began to recall all what transpired between Eros and me a few moments ago. I knew what the consequences of my actions may
EROSIt has been two days since she left and in a way I couldn't get her out of my head. Funny hi time, she should merely be a woman who was a maid to me yet I found myself in this unwanted state I couldn't describe.I wanted her, I wanted her more than I had ever wanted anyone and it was so sick.For the first time in my life , I felt that it was to be treated like I wasn't worth it.It was still a wonder about how I was going to pull through all of this,the embarrassment and reproach I was getting from everyone present here …it just simply be ignored."Please, help me." The woman's voice again.I was standing under the heavy downpour drenched and almost shivering as I tried to process my thoughts as it seemed distant with the thought of Sira heavy in it.It was frustrating but at the same time I couldn't let go of the woman standing there, not in the state that she was in.A part of me that was deep in distress just wanted to walk away but something held me back.I was still filled
SIRAMy phone began to ring for the thousandth time that day. I wasn’t even able to get any sleep because my phone wouldn’t stop ringing. It was becoming annoying.It started to ring again. I just grunted in frustration as I threw my phone across the room. I started to scream in my pillow right after. I wanted to pick that call but I was hesitant too. Who knows, maybe he just wants to talk down on me again. He wasn’t helping matters too because I genuinely needed to sleep. My head was still banging and my ring tone seemed like noise at that point. I could have put my phone on silent. I should have, but I just liked seeing his name on my phone.As if on cue, I sighted my mom standing right in front of me with a tray in her hand. “I’m beginning to get worried for you. Is everything alright? I brought you tea.”“Mom. I’m not fine. I lost my job and my boss won’t stop calling me.” I sighed. I screamed into my pillow again. I started to narrate all what happened that fateful morning, from
SIRAHe stood there looking at me as though he couldn't believe that I was right there waiting to speak with him, I looked around the room and even in my annoyance I knew very much that I missed everything that had to do with the Space I found myself.He had his eyes settled on me not saying a word, I looked back at him in annoyance at the entire situation, my eyes had narrowed slightly before glancing at his face only to find he was alreadylooking at me.T hat was how the glaring occurred—i would have called it accidental if it didn't have so much expression in it as well.But I could hardly convey that to the man, why I was there alt least without having myself come off condescending, so I just . . . went with the glare and hoped it was enough.His gaze had hardened a flicker, it showed the excitement in his heart that he tried so much to hide.It was only a second of heavy eye contact, that we were having and he returned his attention to his phone that beeped like I was noth
EROSIn my mind I was thinking about what it was going to take to get over this feeling that I was having deep inside my mind, it was hard to explain but at the same time I had to deal with it .It took eternity for me to make that decision. I took my wolf on a run just to clear my head after listening to everything the woman had said and came to the conclusion that it was the only sane thing I could do.There was no way I could just sit down right there and watch as while I wonder what could be going through the mind.There was no use guessing as I made my way up to her house, before I could stop myself I was right there in front of her house.Knocking the door and waiting for her mother.In my mind I had involuntarily gone over what it would take to get out of this madness out of my mind and it turned out that it had everything to do with myself — I was in control of everything and it would just do me some good speaking with her.I knew exactly what I would do. My family was known f
SIRAIt had been two days since I walked away from Eros when he came down to my apartment and still everything felt like a dream.First, I had to kiss outside the foyer while only the stars and night watch and the second was walking out on him when he showed up at my apartment.It was hard concentrating, even harder dealing with everything that was going on through my head at the moment, I felt like I was pushing everything too far.I was still surprised that he was yet to deal with my whole reaction and how I had been acting out this whole While.I kept asking myself what else was wanted, the truth was even with the fact that I was mad at him I couldn't stay that way forever.He was in mind every single moment and it was hard keeping the thought of him away.It was the main reason why I had to prove to them that I wasn't out down by the fact that he wasn't showing me any affection.Though, I was dying in my heart I had to keep the thought of him away and continue with my chores for
EROSI waded in a pile of my alcohol soaked clothes and walked out half-drunk, half-sophisticated. The former, took over most of my soul and I felt compelled but it as I walked to the sink and watched my face.I was in a total mess and I wore that same look on my face. In a way I seemed quietly disapproving of anything that had to be me thinking about her in my mind and already I took this morning signs seriously.I needed to run badly…Until now, apparently, as I have a lot of drink IS in my closet than clothes as I felt the sudden urge to always drink, nothing could take my mind away from the fact that She might as well not come back to my life.I caught my reflection in the mirror: a taller, less- manly version of what I used to be staring right back at me like I was there all for the taking. It was frustrating to see myself looking this way but at the same time I couldn't help it.I hated the man staring back— He was weak and feeble and In every way not me.I decided that I neede
SIRA.I stood near the doors, leaning against the wall as I looked around the party, in a way I could feel everyone's eyes around me immediately I walked in and it was hard for me to explain, the gaze of everything moving cane to my direction as it looked as though I was the life of the party.The first person I looked for was Cansil, he was the one I was here for anyways.He had his hands in pockets. With his black suit lit by sparkling lighting, he could pass as a handsome gentleman.One only needed to glance up and see that he was a bit mischievous at times, at times there was always this thought that beneath all this I was seeing there was still something that I felt blinded by watching me .It was hard to explain but the feeling was right there, I couldn't get rid of it at least not at the moment.It was as though all the look in his eyes was only smoke and he had something deep down.What worried me the most was thathis stare, edged with something I couldn't refuse…No matter