Today is the day.
Inaayusan ako ng mga makeup artist na galing pang France but they are all Filipinos. My relatives, particularly my aunts, insisted that I should have the best makeup artists because my wedding is special.
The wedding of the Salazar business prodigy is special. I laugh at the thought.
As if I and Zachary genuinely want to marry each other! Kaya ko lang naman siya pakakasalan ay dahil iyon ang gusto ng mga magulang ko at mga magulang niya! I also plan to use him against his fool of a father. The one I know who killed my parents!
At hindi niya rin naman ako gustong pakasalan! Kaya nga umabot ng isang taon bago natuloy ‘tong kasal na ‘to!
Well… the truth is, he doesn’t want to marry me immediately that’s why we both insisted to date for a while. Sinakyan ko lang ang trip niya. At hindi ko naman inaakala na aabot iyon ng isang taon dahil lagi niyang sinasabi kapag binabanggit ko sa kaniya ang kasal na masyado pang maaga para roon at dapat muna namin kilalanin ang isa’t isa.
Hindi naman kaso sa akin ‘yon, pero dahil nga may mission at mga plano ako laban sa pamilya niya, nade-delay nang nade-delay ang mga plano ko. Although my plans include seducing him and make him fall for me, hindi naman iyon naging successful dahil halatang hindi siya interesado sa akin at mukhang… may gusto siyang iba.
Sinuot na sa akin ang gown. It’s a simple all-white mermaid gown with silver linings on the lower part. Mahaba ang saya noon pero hindi naman mahirap lumakad suot suot ‘yon. It’s also a long-sleeve but the sleeves have ocean-like designs on them kaya kita rin ang ilang parte ng braso ko.
Nang matapos akong ayusan ay ibinigay na sa akin ni Tita Cynthia ang mga bulaklak. All of my cousins with all my relatives are probably at the venue by now with all the guests. Ako na lang siguro ang hinihintay.
Sumakay na ako sa limousine.
Abot abot ang kaba ko nang tumigil ang sasakyan sa mismong tapat ng red carpet ng El Hotel Salazar. Mataas ang hagdan patungo sa mismong entrance ng hotel.
Lumabas ako ng sasakyan at tumigil sa pinakadulong bahagi ng red carpet. Mas lalo akong nakaramdam ng kaba nang magsimula na akong maglakad sa red carpet at nagsimula nang tumugtog ang orchestra sa labas.
Nang makapasok ako sa loob ay itinuloy ng orchestra sa loob ang tugtog at tumigil naman ang nasa labas. The door of the hotel closed. And I continue walking on the red carpet patungo sa unang ballroom kung nasaan ang lahat.
I stop in front of the ballroom door and it opens. Kita ko ang paglipat ng tingin ng lahat mula sa harap papunta sa akin. They are all smiling. But I couldn’t.
Hindi ako gumalaw. Nanatili lang akong nakatayo roon kahit dapat nagsimula na akong maglakad patungo sa kaniya at sa altar sa harapan.
I want so bad to back out, but I have every reason not to. And so, I start walking… toward him.
Kita ko ang pagkamangha sa mga mata niya. I smile sweetly at him and I know that he wants to look away because of my teasing but he didn’t. Nanatili ang kaniyang mga mata sa akin.
I don’t know but there’s something more in his eyes that I can’t name. My heart feels bothered by it. But I remind myself that I have a mission to destroy his father.
And my soul may be burning in hell now as I walk down the aisle but I couldn’t care less as long as I succeed on avenging my parents.
“You may now kiss the bride…” the pastor called.
Dr. Ricaforte holds my hand and makes me face him. I look at his eyes. Sunod niyang hinawakan ay ang wedding veil na nakaharang sa mukha ko at iniangat iyon at nilagay sa likod ko. He’s looking at me intently now without anything in between our faces.
Lumapit ang kaniyang mukha sa akin.
“Smile,” aniya. “You look like you’re being held captive. This is your wedding if I must remind you, Marthania Jade Louise…” The way he calls my name send shivers down my spine.
I scratch the thought away. Pirmi akong tumayo roon at ngumiti nang bahagya; pumikit at hinayaan na lang ang lahat na mangyari.
And the second his lips touches mine, the crowd claps their hands to congratulate us.
It was just a peck but it felt like it lasted for over 5 minutes.
Nang mumulat ako ay nakatingin na siya sa aking mga mata ngayon. Muling bumaba sa aking mga labi ang tingin niya at hinalikan ako ulit na siyang ikinagulat ko. But my eyes close again.
I hear the crowd cheers a bit louder this time and my heart didn’t. Our hearts didn’t. Because we both now that everything is all pretentious acts.
Pagkatapos ng nakakapagod na araw, bagsak akong humiga sa kama ko. We are now living under the same roof but will be sleeping in different rooms. Bukas ang alis namin papuntang Maldives for our honeymoon.
I covered my eyes with the back of my hand, but then I feel the coldness of the wedding ring on my ring finger. Inilayo ko sa aking mukha ang kamay ko at matamang pinagmasdan ang singsing na nasa daliri ko. Kasama noon ang engagement ring ko. Both rings scream wealth and elegance despite how simple and small they are.
Napasinghap ako dahil halatang mga magulang niya ang nagpagawa ng mga singsing na ‘yon. Ayaw niya nga akong pakasalan, e. Imposible na paglaanan niya pa ng oras ang pagpili ng singsing para sa ‘kin!
Napabangon ako nang may maisip. I want to party!
Naligo ako nang mabilis at sinuot ang damit kong pang-night out. I smirk as I put on a light makeup on my face. Tinali ko rin ang pinatuyo kong buhok into a messy bun.
I’m still in my early twenties so I’m allowed to still party, right? And screw that wedding and marriage. We’re only pretending anyway!
Pinatay ko ang ilaw ng aking k’warto at dahan dahang lumabas doon at bumaba sa ground floor. All the lights are off so it’s really easy for me to sneak out. He’s probably sleeping already because of how tiring the day is.
But oh well, kahit pagod ako ay magpa-party pa rin ako!
Pinaandar ko ang sasakyan ko at bumyahe na papuntang BGC.
“A glass of strawberry cocktail and two shots of tequila, please. Keep the set coming every after I finish all my drinks…”
Nag-order agad ako pagkarating na pagkarating ko sa isang exclusive bar na pagmamay-ari ng pinsan ko. One of my grandfathers was the first owner of the bar and he entrusted it to his direct grandchild.
Pagkalapag ng drinks ko, agad kong ininom ‘yong tequila at inubos ‘yon. Then I sip on my strawberry cocktail drink. Hanggang sa maubos ang cocktail ko, iyong pangalawang shot naman ng tequila ang ininom ko.
Pagkababa ko pa lang ng shot glass ay naka-ready na ‘yong panibagong set ng drinks ko. I seductively smile at the bartender at nahihiya siyang ngumiti pabalik sa akin.
Inabala ko ang sarili ko sa pag-inom habang pinapanood ang iba na sumasabay sa tugtog ng music sa bar. Ilang minuto pa akong nanatili sa may bar counter at uminom hanggang sa maramdaman ko na tipsy na ‘ko.
Then I pay for my drinks and go to the dance floor to dance. Sinabayan ko ang tugtog at agad kong naramdaman ang paglapit ng iilang lalaki sa akin. Hinayaan ko silang sumayaw sa paligid ko at inabala ang sariling pagsayaw.
I sensually slide my hands from my waist up to the sides of my chest then to my hair while slowly rocking my body to the sound of the music.
Ramdam ko na ang kalasingan ko pero hindi ako tumigil sa pagsasayaw. Hindi ko rin pinapansin ang minsanang paghawak sa balat ko ng mga lalaki nasa paligid ko. But then I feel someone claims my body to his.
He’s behind me but it seems like he’s already marking his territory. Napangiti ako.
You want me, huh…
Hinawakan niya ang magkabilang baiwang ko at sumabay siya sa pagsayaw ko. Ramdam ko ang mainit niyang hininga sa may leeg ko. Suddenly, I feel a tingling heat inside me.
“I think we should go home now…” aniya pero hindi ko iyon lubos naintindihan dahil sa kalasingan.
Humarap ako sa kaniya at kahit magkalapit kaming dalawa ay hindi ko maaninag ang mukha niya. But he’s damn tall. Tumingkayad ako para maabot ang labi niya pero lumayo siya.
“Not so fast, baby…” nakangiti at marahan niyang sabi.
Hinaplos niya pisngi ko at hinawi ang takas na hibla ng buhok ko mula sa aking mukha. He’s holding me gently. Not my type of guy.
Tumigil ako sa pagsayaw at aalis na sana roon nang bigla akong higiting muli ng lalaki palapit sa kaniya at hinalikan ako. Napapikit ako dahil doon. And it seems like his lips feel so familiar against mine.
It was a long kiss but I couldn’t get enough of it, so I pulled him closer to me and I snake my arms around his neck and deepen the kiss more. His lips part and I claim them more. I thought he wasn't a good kisser because I was the only one taking the initiative and I thought that he doesn’t know how to kiss expertly but I was wrong. His kisses are melting me down to my core. It feels so good, I don’t know why.
Napansin ko na lang ang sarili kong hinuhubaran ang kahalikan ko kanina at nasa isang k’warto na kami ngayon. I remember kissing him in his car or mine, I don’t know… and he wasn’t driving.
Nagpatuloy ang paghahalikan namin hanggang sa mahubad niya na rin akong mga damit ko. Marahan niya akong binaba sa kama. Ang kaniyang kamay ay nakaalalay sa aking ulo, inaalalayan ito.
He’s so gentle that it’s turning me on! Damn it!
We continue kissing until both of us are fully naked on the bed, dancing to the burning sensation of our bodies in extreme heat.
“Fuck…” d***g ko sabay hawak sa aking ulo na sobrang kumikirot sa sakit.
I move a little and I groan again because of the sudden soreness I feel. Mabigat ang tiyan ko at parang may nakadag-an doon. Napamulat ako nang sunod-sunod na naalala ang lahat ng nangyari pagkatapos ng kasal ko.
I cannot believe myself!
I slept on someone else’s bed! I… already cheated on my husband with a stranger… hours after our wedding? What the fuck, Marthania Jade Louise?
Hindi ako makapaniwala sa aking ginawa. Nilibot ko ang gulat kong mga mata at nakitang nasa tabi ko pa ang lalaking hinalikan ko sa bar kagabi! Nakabaling ang kaniyang ulo sa kabila kaya hindi ko matignan ang mukha niya.
Babangon na sana nang maramdaman kong gumalaw ang braso niyang nasa ibabaw ng tiyan ko at hinapit pa ako palapit sa kaniya.
Napapikit ako nang marahang tumama ang gilid ng aking ulo sa kaniyang dibdib at ipinulupot niya ang kaniyang braso sa akin.
Fuck! Paano ako aalis sa p’westo kong ‘to nang hindi siya nagigising?
He’s still naked. And I’m already wearing a large and a lose polo. I think it’s his polo. Minura ko ang aking sarili sa aking isip bago sinubukang lumayo sa lalaki pero agad niya ulit akong hinigit at mas niyakap pa.
Napaangat ako ng tingin and I saw his adam’s apple moves as he gulps. His scent is familiar.
Nakatingala siya matulog pero unconsciously niyang inayos ang kaniyang ulo at marahang ibinaba ‘yon hanggang sa mahagip ng labi niya ang noo ko.
Shit…
I look at his face and my eyes widen even more when I realize who it is.
The man I kissed last night at The Antares E. The man I kissed inside his car and made out with until we reached his home. The man I had sex with last night.
Unti unting luminaw ang kaniyang mukha sa alaala ko simula kagabi sa bar hanggang sa matapos kaming dalawa sa nangyari kagabi…
Fuck… I just had sex with Dr. Zachary Alastair Ricaforte! My husband!
So, technically… I didn’t cheat on him, right? Because he is actually the one I had sex with last night? But still, this is inappropriate! At least for us who are just pretending!
Halos masamid ako sa iniinom ko nang makita siyang bumaba ng hagdan. May towel na nakapatong sa balikat niya at nakasuot na siya ngayon ng white T-shirt at maong shorts. Nang mahagip niya ako nang tingin ay napatigil siya at biglang namula ang mukha.
I smirk and look away. He’s so innocent.
Bigla akong nakaramdam ng confidence dahil sa naging reaksyon niya. It seems like I don’t need to worry that much about him because he’s literally an innocent one. Maybe it’s his first time based on his reaction right now.
Sumimsim ako sa kape ko.
Maybe making him fall for me is not a difficult task at all, huh…
“Good morning. I cooked breakfast,” matamis kong sabi nang balingan siya ulit ng tingin.
Ngumiti ako sa kaniya na parang walang nangyari sa amin kagabi.
“I’ll just eat on our way to the airport,” aniya at pabalik na sana sa taas nang mabilis kong inabot ang kamay niya.
He turns as his eyes widen in shock. Para siyang napaso at muling namula nang magtama ang mga mata naming dalawa. Agad niyang hinablot ang kamay niya pero tumitig sa akin, nagmamatapang.
I smirk under my breath.
“Sayang ‘yong niluto ko…” pagmamakaawa ko.
Huminga siya nang malalim at nilagpasan ako para makapunta sa breakfast counter. Umupo siya sa stool chair at nagsimula nang kumain nang tahimik. Pero ilang minuto pa lang ang nakakalipas ay bumaling na siya sa akin at ibinuka ang kaniyang bibig.
He’s probably going to ask about what happened to us last night. Ngingiti ngiti akong tumitig sa kaniya at hinintay ang sasabihin niya.
“You don’t have to pretend to actually like me especially when we are alone, you know that, right? I just don’t… feel comfortable around you…” malamig niyang sabi pero may galang pa rin ang tono ng pananalita niya.
Nawala ang ngiti sa mga labi ko dahil sa sinabi niya at walang ano ano akong tinalikuran siya at pumanhik na sa ikalawang palapag ng bahay namin.
Tahimik kong pinagmasdan si Dr. Ricaforte na ilagay ang mga maleta namin sa SUV niya. He’s about to take my large body bag but I move it away from his reach. Tumitig siya sa akin at marahang tumango. Pagkatapos ay pinagbuksan niya na ako ng pinto ng passenger seat.Sumakay ako at pumuwesto sa kabilang dulo sa may tabi ng bintana. Sumakay na rin siya at tumabi sa akin. The driver in front maneuvered the car and starts driving.Tahimik kaming dalawa buong byahe. Nakatulog na rin naman ako kaya hindi naman naging awkward. Mas mabuti na ‘yon kaysa naman buong byahe papuntang airport akong gising tapos siya ay tahimik lang na nagbabasa ng case studies niya.Hello? Isn’t he excited? This is Maldives we are talking about!I am on a vacation so I’m going to spend the most out of it. Kung ayaw niyang mag-enjoy ay bahala siya. Basta ako… I’ll make myself happy for the rest of the trip.But then again… I remember th
I never should have done that! Kung alam ko lang na ganito ang mangyayari ay hindi ko na sana siya inasar pa. Sana ay sinabi ko na lang agad na pinsan ko ang tumawag sa akin 3 days ago! Now, he doesn’t take his eyes off of me for 3 days! Kung saan ako magpunta ay naroon din siya. Well except, of course, in the bathroom! But still… hindi niya inaalis ang tingin niya sa akin. I’m getting so conscious already. Was he really jealous? Talaga bang nagugustuhan niya na ‘ko? Because that would be a good thing, right? Mas mapapadali noon ang mission kong gamitin siya laban sa ama niya! But still… this is frustrating me! Huminga ako nang malalim at ngumiti nang bahagya para itago ang inis ko. Humarap ako sa kaniya at mas ngumiti pa. “Are you seriously going to watch my every move, babe?” Even though I’m smiling, the irritation didn’t escape my tone. Tumitig siya sa akin bago bumuntong hininga at umiiwas ng tingin. Lumayo siya sa akin at bumalik sa sofa
Our honeymoon trip ends and we’re back home. Naiinis pa rin ako sa nangyari last time kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pinapansin si Dr. Ricaforte. Though, I always notice how attentive he has become when I’m around.Pansin ko ang madalas niyang pag-sulyap sa akin kapag magkakasalubong kami sa bahay; kapag nasa dining room siya at kukuha ako ng tubig, at kapag nasa living area ako at pupunta siya ng kitchen. Ganoon ang naging setup naming dalawa for the past few days after we came back from our honeymoon.But I know na hindi dapat ganito. Alam kong inis ako but I should prioritize my mission.Bumuntong hininga ako nang hindi na talaga mapakali. Kaya naman nang matapos ang lahat ng meetings ko for the morning schedule, mabilis akong umalis at nag-drive papunta sa FUMC.I smile at everyone as I walk inside the hospital. May dala pa akong healthy sandwiches for my husband’s fellow residents and seniors. I talk to some of them as I give them
“Apologize for what?” wala sa sarili kong tanong.But then I remember that he made me leave his office... in a cold and indifferent way. Mukha ngang sobra siyang na-guilty sa sinabi niya.Tinikom ko ang aking bibig para pigilan ang pagngisi. He’s cute. Kitang kita ko mula sa kinatatayuan ko ang sobrang pamumula ng kaniyang tenga at leeg.I sigh as I step toward him, nearing him more.“It was my fault, Dr. Ricaforte,” pormal kong sambit na siyang nagpabalik ng kaniyang tingin sa akin. “I was disturbing your work just as you said. Clearly, I was a nuisance...” dagdag ko pa.I am guilt-tripping him, alright. Kanina, wala naman iyon sa akin. Natawa pa nga ako. Pero ngayon... ibang iba na ang nararamdaman ko. It seems that my pointing it out loud has some kind of effect on me as well.I suddenly feel... disappointed.Umalis siya sa pagkakahilig sa hood ng sasakyan niya at bahagyang lumapit sa akin.
I busy myself with work. As much as possible, ayaw kong mabakante ang utak ko dahil lagi kong naaalala ang ginawa ni Dr. Ricaforte a few nights ago! He kissed me in his office while I was pretending to be asleep! And I hate myself for always remembering it kahit ayaw ko. Gaya nalang ngayon. Naalala ko na naman! “Ugh!” I slap my cheek a little to reset my mind. Inabala ko ang sarili ko sa trabaho kahit naiinis lang ako dahil mali mali ang pinapasa sa akin ng mga interns. I also attended a lot of meetings. Ni-rush ko ang ibang meetings na dapat ay sa mga susunod na araw pa dahil lang sa gusto kong maging busy ako at maraming ginagawa. Pagkatapos ko sa huling meeting ko ay dumiretso na ako sa office ko. Napatigil ako nang makitang may nakaupo sa swivel chair ko at nakaharap iyon sa glass wall at nakatalikod sa akin ang upuan. Kunot noo akong lumapit at naisip na baka si Dr. Ricaforte ‘yon. However, on second thought... he won’t be sitting on my c
I am beyond frustrated. I hate him! Sobrang galit na nga ako sa ama niya, dadagdag pa siya. No wonder he’s the son of that man. Wala siyang modo. Sobrang lamig at walang pakialam. Sobra pa kung makainsulto. I never even once expected that there would come a point in my life that I’d receive such insults and indifference. Lahat ng tao ay gusto ako because I’m smart. I’m pretty and I’m likeable. At kung mayroon mang galit sa akin ay takot na lang nilang ipakita sa akin iyon! But that Dr. Zachary Alastair Ricaforte! Ang buong pagkatao niya ay nakakainsulto! I can’t help but regret... so, so much that I married such a man! I thought he’s a gentleman. An innocent one but no! He’s far different from that. At ang kapal ng mukha niyang ignorahin ako matapos niya akong insultohin. I am mad at him but it seems like he’s the one who’s mad at me. The audacity of that man to ignore me? Ako ang nainsulto ng mga binato niya sa akin noong isang linggo pero siya pa itong may
I just go back to the company, feeling disheartened for some reason. I try to finish all my paperworks in the afternoon until night surfaces. Hindi na ako kumain ng tanghalian kahit sinabi niya dahil nawalan na ako ng gana.Never in my life have I experienced such cold treatment. Tinaboy niya ako sa sobrang lamig na paraan. Because he’s so busy talking with his childhood friend and first love.First love.I scoff just thinking about such ridiculous words. Pero napatigil din nang biglang maisip na kung ako ba ang nasa katayuan niya, ganoon din ba ang gagawin ko? Ipagtatabuyan ko ba ang asawa ko kapag nasa harap ko ang first love ko? Or... am I really going to marry someone else even though I’m already in love with my childhood friend?Napabuntong hininga ako sa mga naisip.When I finish everything, I just take a rest for a little bit. Gabi na at uwian na ng mga workers under my company. Even my secretary already went home. Ako n
Dr. Ricaforte and I are having a dinner with his parents at an exclusive restaurant I personally booked. Tahimik lang kaming lahat habang kumakain. It feels really awkward and I don’t know how to break the silence. I don’t know what to say. Bumaba ang kamay ko at ipinatong iyon sa hita ni Dr. Ricaforte. I feel him stiffen a little which makes me chuckle. I lean closer to him and whisper. “Talk,” utos ko. Napansin ko ang pagbaling sa amin ng parents niya kaya ngumiti ako sa kanila. “Son,” tawag ni Tito Zachariah sa anak niya. “Dad,” tugon ni Zachary. “How’s your research going? I heard from your Tito Zico that you’re planning to submit your on-going research for grant in U.S.?” Natigilan ako at napaangat ng tingin kay Tito Zachariah nang sabihin niya ‘yon. Agad akong bumaling kay Zachary, gulat at hindi maintindihan kung ano ang mayroon. But I feel... weird. Is he... planning to leave... for his research? Zachary sighs b
Pagkababa namin sa parking lot ay hila hila niya akong pinapasok sa kotse niya. “What do you mean by us, Gil?” I asked him as he put his seatbelt on. His jaw was clenched hard and he didn’t answer me so I called him again. “Gil, please. I can’t let anyone know more about this. They might kill Klaus. I don’t want people dying on me anymore.” “And I can’t have you dying on us, Jade!” he exclaimed. “We’re gonna figure this out, together.” I sighed and covered my face with my hands. I was still trembling but I was lucky enough that I wasn’t having a panic attack right now. I couldn’t have myself losing my sanity right now. I need to save Klaus. We arrived at the place. It wasn’t a restaurant, though. It was my grandfather’s private property. Agad akong lumabas ng sasakyan ni Gil pagka-park niya nito. He was behind me when I was about to call for him. “What are we doing here?” I asked him. Malalim ang kaniyang buntong hininga at mariing tumingin sa akin. “I told you, we’re going t
I’m not sure what time Zachary left, but by the time I woke up. He was already gone. I felt him kiss the top of my head, though. And I felt him leaving the room but I was too tired and too sore to even get up or wake up. We had a rough night. We made love until we’re both exhausted.I sat down and stared at the door. After a while, I decided to get up already because I still need to work. I took a bath and did my morning routine. Then I went downstairs and ate the breakfast Zachary made for me before he left. I was smiling the whole time I was eating.Maaga akong nakarating sa office ko. I immediately started all the paper works left on my table. I also read a lot of proposals for a new project the company is planning. Not a single one fit my plans so I rejected all of it.“Jade, Lolo told me to invite your for dinner later sa bahay niya...” Gil appeared by the door of my office. Nakahilig siya roon habang nakatingin sa akin nang seryoso.“Hindi pa rin siya umuuwi ng States?” I asked
I cooked and prepared our dinner for tonight. Zachary messaged me that he’d be home by nine in the evening. Pagkauwi ko galing office kanina ay nagpahinga muna ako bago magluto ng hapunan. I was happy. I enjoyed cooking for us. For him. I hope he'll love the food. Iniwan ko ang nakahandang hapunan sa hapag at tinakluban iyon para hindi mapanis at masira agad. I went to my room and continued the preparation I’ve been doing since I decided to continue my investigation. But before I fully continue this, I wanted to find Klaus first. Wala pa rin akong balita galing kay Klaus and I still couldn’t find the right opportunity to ask Gil about him. I really want to find Klaus, but I don’t know where to start. I tried going back to the hotel where he was staying before but I found out that he already moved out. I don’t know where else to find him. If I ask Gil about Klaus, he might find out what we’ve been doing behind his back. Ayaw kong mag-isip ng kung ano ano, pero hindi ko mapigilan ang
“You can’t hear me?” Zachary said something again but I couldn’t understand it. Hindi ko iyon marinig. His lips were moving and I knew that he was speaking. Pero hindi ko iyon marinig. My ears are acting up again. It has been a while since something like this happened. I thought I would be okay but I was wrong. I forgot that I wasn’t fully healed yet. And now, it’s starting again. “What are you saying?” I asked despite not being able to hear what I said. “I’m sorry, my ears. I can’t hear...” I could feel my lips trembling. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. I didn’t bring my hearing aids. Zachary came to me. Lumuhod siya sa harap ko. His eyes were worried and bloodshot. He looked like he’s pitying me. I suddenly felt awful. “I’ll rest now. I wanna be alone while I rest. You can sleep in the guestroom,” I told him. “MJ...” I read the movement of his lips. He was close to me which was why I was able to understand what he said. “I can’t leave you alone. Why are you asking me to leave you?
[ Zachary’s Point of View; A Flashback ] I was there when my sister died. I failed to notice her struggle and pain because I was too busy studying so I could gain our father’s approval. My little sister, Zoe, was my comfort. The very reason why I wanted to become a doctor. I wanted to cure her illness. But before I could even do that, she died. And it was because of my own negligence. “I’ve had enough of your defiance, Zachary. For once, I need you to do as I say. Marry the woman I want for you and I will let you continue your career. Defy me, and I will do everything in my power so you can never set foot in the medical field again!” That was my father’s bargain when I first told him that I would still continue my residency and my research. I didn’t want that. All of my life, I tried everything to make him proud. Even if it’s not from the field he wanted for me. I thought that if I became the best in my field, he would finally acknowledge all
“We can stay here for a few minutes more if you want…” Zachary said as he held my hand with his.Pinagmamasdan niya lang ako ngayon habang nakatingin pa rin ako sa puntod ng mga magulang ako. Ngumiti ako at bumaling sa kaniya. Then I shook my head a little.“I already told them what I wanted to say. We can go now. I want to rest,” sabi ko.Tumango siya at mas hinigpitan ang hawak sa kamay ko.I feel so lucky to have him beside me. When he hugged me, I felt safe and comfortable, I never want to let go.When my parents died, I never experienced such a comforting love again. But with Zachary, I knew it was more than that. It was more than the love I felt when my family was still complete. Kahit ramdam ko ang kulang dahil sa pagkawala ng mga magulang ko, Zachary was able to easily fill its gaps with his gentleness.The day was over before we even knew it. Zachary and I rested the whole night and slept peacefully. I
“Are you sure you’re okay now? We can visit them tomorrow instead,” Zachary said as he helped me get inside our car, his voice like a fire that calms my soul in the midst of a cold winter. It was enough to soothe my heart. More than enough. “I’m okay. Let’s just go.” I smiled to assure him that I’m really fine. Habang walang tigil ang pag-iyak at paghikbi ko kanina sa office ng Daddy ko, Zachary was just there embracing me. He was like a soft pair of large wings that protects me from pain. And I realized that I became more and more dependent of him. I really have no idea if it’s a good thing or bad one. For once, I wanted time to stop. I wanted to stay in that moment. To keep him close to me. Before closing the door on my side, Zachary leaned down to touch my cheek, caressing them. He was looking at me with so much affection in his eyes I couldn’t help but want to drown in them. Pinagmasdan niya lang ako at hinayaan ko siya. I held his gaze as
We arrived at the airport. Kinuha ni Zachary ang mga gamit namin bago kami lumabas. There was an SUV waiting for us outside and we immediately hopped in.Tahimik kaming dalawa sa byahe. It was probably because of what we discussed back in the plane. We talked about my parents and his family. I told him that there was something I still wasn’t telling him. He respects everything. Ang galit ko sa kaniyang ama. Ang gulo sa isip ko tungkol sa mga hindi ko sinasabi sa kaniya. He respects my pace. He respects me.I don’t really know if I should allow myself to be this dependent on him. He’s not asking anything in return. It was so natural to him. Ang pakisamahan ako. Ang intindihin ako. Our differences were mode defined this time. I felt like I’m taking him for granted. No… I really am taking him for granted.Simula pa noon lagi niya na akong iniintindi. He was so good at putting up with me and my shortcomings. I was so high-maintenance I
We were both panting after doing a lot of make love rounds. My body was already exhausted even before we stopped but I just couldn’t get enough of him. I was lying on top of him, still panting. I also could feel his heavy breathing. Nakayakap siya sa akin habang marahang nilalaro ang dulo ng buhok ko. “Thank you…” he whispered. “For coming back to me.” I looked at him and kissed him again on his lips. I licked his lips and urged him to open up for my tongue. I kissed every corner of his mouth and he did the same. “We should shower and eat breakfast.” I chuckled after our kissing. Tumango siya at bumangon sa pagkakahiga, dala dala ako. Then he lifted me up and carried me all the way to my bathroom. Pagkatapos naming maligo ay dumiretso na kami sa baba para magluto at kumain ng breakfast. Zachary was busy cooking some fried rice with spam and egg. Nagluto rin siya na hiwalay naman ang spam at egg sa fried rice. After cooking, he placed t