I’ve been inside his car for a few minutes now, but he still has not spoken. He was just looking ahead, like he’s thinking about something. He's been asking me for a chance to hear him explain, but now that we're here, he can't seem to find that courage to give answers to my questions. "My dad was abusive," I heard him start. My eyes instantly fell on him. He was still just looking ahead still. "I made myself believe that we're fine. Because in the eyes of other people, we're the perfect family. He’s a doctor and he has a son who’s following his steps. No one wants to let the world know how he would hurt me and my mom every time he would lose his temper because we think no one would even listen." I didn't know this part of his life. Well, I didn't know much about him before. We never got to that part where we got to know each other more because before we could even do that, he ran away. "When my stepmom and I finally got the chance to leave him, we took it," he murmured. "I wanted
When Saturday came, Daisy asked if she could borrow Andrei for the day. She said she will just take the kid to the mall so I just let her. I know she'll take care of my son. And it made her really happy when I said yes. She’s been sad lately so I’m glad to see her happy whenever she’s with Andrei.Daisy told me last week about her 'one night stand' that happened weeks ago. I didn't say anything because that's her life. She's an adult now. But still, I worry about her.She keeps on saying that she wants to get pregnant, even if she would have to take care of the child alone. I wanted to tell her how difficult it is but I couldn't bring myself to say so. I was on my way home from the shop and it's almost 6 in the evening. I decided to call Daisy to ask where are they now. But I have been calling them a few times already but she’s not answering. I called home and asked if Andrei's there already but Mommy Miranda said he’s still not home. My chest tightened when a thought came into my m
"Where's my daddy, Mommy?" What Andrei said kept on replaying in my head. The time I'm scared to come is here. He's asking who his father is and I don't know what and how to answer him. Seconds have passed and I still can't come up for an answer and Andrei is looking at me expectantly. I could feel my inside trembling- of fear, uncertainty, and sadness."Andrei-" I was cut off when I heard somebody knock on the door. I looked at Andrei and I want to say how sorry I am but I remained quiet as I opened the door. It revealed Mommy Miranda who's smiling at us. "Dinner's ready," she announced. I gazed at Andrei, who's also gazing at me at the moment. "Let's go?" I asked Andrei and he just nodded. I sighed again. Maybe it's really not the time just yet to tell him. I took his hand and we went to the dining room together. If it wasn't for Mommy Miranda calling us for dinner, I probably have broken down in front of my son. And I don't want that to happen. I know he still won't understand
"Who is he, Mom?" Andrei inquired. His gaze shifted from me to Zandrey. "B-baby.." I uttered. I knelt in front of him and held his face with both my hands. He looked at me and I could see the worry on his face when he saw my tears. "Why are you crying?" He asked, his voice also shaking now. I don’t know if destiny’s playing a game with me now. The past few days, I've been thinking about Zandrey and telling him about Andrei. I was preparing myself for that. But things didn't go my way. And now, on the most random day that we thought of visiting Andres, he's here... and I don't know how to tell the two of them about their existence in each other's life. I never thought this day would come this soon. I was preparing myself for meeting Zandrey. I thought of telling him first then I'll bring him to Andrei. I'll give us time to cry and sink everything in first before I let them meet. Not like this. Not a surprise for all of us like this. "You're asking who's your daddy, right? This ti
"Hi," Zandrey greeted. We decided to meet at a cafe near Andrei's school. I just nodded at him as I took my seat in front of him. I got the menu that was on the table and scanned it. I was busy doing just that when I realized that Zandrey is just sitting there. His intertwined fingers were under his chin and he was looking intently at me. I positioned the menu even higher, enough to cover my face so he couldn't see me. I feel so conscious with the way he looks at me. What happened yesterday felt like a blur for him. It was like we never fought and I never said bad things towards him. I was hurt by my own words. But how come he doesn't seem as hurt as I thought him to be? I ordered first because I was already starving. I had quite a day at work. My head even ached because of the number of report I had to check. I also have a site visit this week. I’ll be very busy for sure. "What?" I asked when I saw Zandrey just staring. He’s just plainly staring at me. There's not even a smile o
When I arrived at the shop one Saturday morning, Daisy was there, waiting for me. I was quite shocked that she was there as I was not expecting her. She didn’t tell me she’ll be visiting. She already told me about what happened when she told Dom about the baby. She was expecting Dom to want to be out of it, but he said he wanted to be in the baby's life. I thought of how similar our situations are. It seems like we’re going through something quite similar. The only difference is that Dom asked her to marry him. I kind of have the feeling that he has feelings for her since college and the recent happenings just confirmed my thoughts. But Daisy was still hesitant about it and just told him to give her time to think about it. Dom agreed and gave her all the time she needed. Now, weeks have already passed since he said he’ll marry her and I don't know if Daisy already made up her mind. Her belly will be bigger soon so I think she probably has a decision now. "Have you decided already?
What Dominic said never left my head. But everytime I think about it, what happened years ago would also pop in my mind. Even if he said what he “knew”, I still don’t want to believe. It’s hard to believe things these days."I think I’m hungry again," Daisy suddenly said. Every weekend, I have been staying at the shop because I’m helping Daisy with their wedding preparations. She wanted to have it as soon as possible since her stomach was growing. So whenever I don't have site visits on a weekend, we‘re always together.She would always tell me what happened between her and Dom. While I was still not 100% convinced about his intentions, I can see he really cares and I think that's important. At least Daisy has someone who takes care of her while she's pregnant. "Let’s have lunch, Ai?" Daisy mumbled. She already ate almost the whole pizza I ordered. Almost because I only ate 2 slices. And I thought she wouldn't be going to eat lunch, but she was even the first one to ask for lunch.
"This is the day," Daisy happily said. She's standing in front of the full-length mirror while holding her wedding gown carefully."For sure, you'll be the most beautiful bride," I commented. She looked at me through the mirror and gave me a smile.I couldn’t contain my happiness. I'm happy she's getting married. I'm happy she doesn't have to be alone in raising her baby. The make up artists who will do our hair and make up finally came. They have a few people they need to take care of but Daisy was the priority.When the make-up artist was done, I went ahead and went to check on Daisy. She’s also almost done with her make up so I informed her I need to go first to the church to check everything- just one of my many duties for today as the maid of honor. "Mommy?" Andrei called and I turned to look at him. I was talking to the event organizer. She instructed me what to do since I wasn’t here when they were doing the practice. She said I shouldn't worry because my partner can guide m
I instantly felt how much I missed his lips the moment it touched mine. I knew I miss it. I just didn't know I miss it this much.His kisses were slow but I don't feel the need to take it fastly. It was like both of us were savoring the moment and just don't want it to end.I know he was thinking about me and my bikini. There was fire in the way he looks at me. I was expecting him to be ruthless at this moment, but it is not ruthless at all. In fact, he was careful yet passionate.I know I wanted something to happen between us, but suddenly, just kissing him like this was enough. It felt like nothing will surpass the feeling his kisses give me.When we parted, our noses remained touching each other. My eyes were closed, feeling his minty breath on my face. I don't know if he's closing his eyes as well. I don't want to open my eyes just yet, because the moment might end once I open my eyes to our reality.I felt the back of his hand touching my cheek. "You're cold," he mumbled.I slowl
After our "photoshoot", I went back to the villa. Daisy decided to stay there to play with Andrei. Dominic also followed so he's with Zandrey right now. They say they wanted to go to the deeper part of the beach.I don't really know how to swim so I couldn't care less right now.While they're enjoying the blue water, I spent my time sleeping. That's why when I woke up, I was in a very good and light mood. A good sleep can really contribute a lot to my mood.It was already dark when I woke up. They're already preparing to go to the resto to have dinner. Thaniel also followed us because he wanted to relax, as he said. But he just got teased by Daisy, saying she knows he's not here to "relax", but to observe the place. Him and his businessman self."Hey, quit observing the place," Daisy muttered when she saw Thaniel looking around. We're already in the resto, waiting for our food.Thaniel quickly looked at Daisy and knitted his brows. "I'm just admiring the place."Daisy raised a brow, w
I really wanted to tell them that Andrei's going to have a sibling soon. But I still wanted to be firm with my decision in keeping it first until everything's okay. I know they'll be happy about it. Daisy seems okay about it. But I'm still not confident in telling them. I still need more time.When Zandrey looked my way again, I saw how he's suppressing his smile. I wanted to widen my eyes at him, or pinch him because he's being too obvious. But I tried my best to control my reactions and actions as well. That would make everything more obvious then."Daddy, I wanna swim," Andrei said."Did you finish your food already?" I asked."I'm full, Mommy," he said. He then pouted, trying to look cute. He doesn't have to try so much though. Andrei really got his charm from his father. And he knows how to use it so well.He really got so much traits from his Dad. I can't help but also think, who will the upcoming baby take after? Will he or she still looks like Zandrey? Or will he or she look l
"Do you want to just go home?" Zandrey asked while rubbing my back. I was still puking and it doesn't feel good at all. It's probably because of what I ate- from salty and sour to sweet."No, Andrei will definitely look for us," I quickly said."Okay. But are you sure you'll be fine?"I just nodded as response. I don't think I want to say more words after I vomitted like a mad man.Zandrey handed me the water bottle he took when he got out of the car earlier. I quickly took it to rinse my mouth with it. God, I can still taste that nasty taste..After I felt like the puking is really over, I stood up and headed to the car slowly. Zandrey was tailing me, with his hand guiding my back, like he's afraid I'll fall."Does anything hurt?" He asked while putting on the seatbelt. I buckled mine as well and fully leaned my back on the backrest after reclining it. I need to steady my head or else, the possibility of vomitting again will rise."Nothing hurts. It's just probably because of everyth
Zandrey should know because he's a doctor. I wanted to ask him, but I suddenly felt conscious. Even if we've done it many times, I still have an ounce of shyness in me.I saw him walk towards me. He's carrying our son in his arms. I saw how the kid ran to him earlier and how excitement filled his face when he saw his father. And now, the kid was talking non-stop while they were on the way towards me, yet Zandrey's gaze remains on me.He has that usual smile on his face. He looks so carefree and problem-free. He's always glowing. I feel like the world is really unfair because those who has stressful jobs are the ones more glowing. Zandrey is a walking example. He's busy with his job and does not have much time for himself, but he still manages to smile like that.He radiates so much positivity, and I just realized how much I needed someone like him in my life. I feel like we compliment well. Even when we just knew each other, we already clicked. I know he's a good person and has a good
"Are you joining in the van with us?" Daisy asked. They're currently loading all the stuff we need to the van. Dominic will be driving. All their stuff are already inside. They just dropped by here to get the stuff we will bring. After that, they'll go to Mommy Emily to get her. As for Zandrey, I'm not sure. He's not here yet. "I'm not sure," I answered. They did almost everything, while I just sat there watching them. I wanna help but I know lifting heavy stuff isn't for me, especially right now. I get clumsy sometimes so I should move as less as possible. "Where's Zandrey?" She added. He has work last night. I just don't know if his shift is over. His schedule often changes and he wasn't able to inform me. "I also don't know," I replied. I kind of feel sad that he's not here yet, but I cannot do anything about it. "Can you give me some of that?" I added. She was eating some chips and she was eating it with gusto that I felt the need to eat some as well. She handed me the pack. I
We weren't able to push through our plan of going to the beach after my birthday. When I knew I was pregnant, I told everyone we can't go because I was not feeling well. Maybe I lied well in that part because they never doubted me.However, maybe we were bound to go one way or another, because Daisy decided to set another date. And this time, I was not able to invent a lie, unfortunately. "This will look good on you!" Daisy mumbled. She handed me the hanger with a pair of swim suit. I frowned at her. I shouldn't wear something like that. I'm not sure how visible my bump is. We're currently at the mall, buying stuff for our beach getaway which wil happen this weekend. She wanted to buy some new stuff for herself so I just tagged along. She ended up choosing things for the both of us. "I don't like that," I said. "This really suits you," she insisted. I shook my head and tried to look for something else. I don't want something so revealing. "What do you want?" She asked as she put
Since we haven’t told anyone yet about the pregnancy, we were very careful when it comes to doing things. He wants me to stay at home for now, and maybe work from home too. But I don't want to. People will definitely wonder why I’m not doing my normal routine. So here I am, in the office and doing all the things I’m supposed to do. I even drove myself coming here while Zandrey drove Andrei to school. “Good morning, Ma’am Aira,” Jelyn greeted when she saw me coming. I smiled at her and gestured to her to follow me to my office. This time, I was not wearing heels and was walking as carefully as possible. I'm still afraid I'll trip and fall. Of course, I don’t want that to happen so I’m being extra careful. Jelyn then proceeded to tell me all the things that I need to do today. That includes some meetings and site visits. But I declined the site visits. It's too risky for now. “Can you ask my Dad if he can do the site visit instead?” I asked. “Yes, Ma'am. I'll inform him
I’d like to think that this is my pregnancy hormones craving for Zandrey, craving for his presence and all of him. I’m definitely not the clingy type but I have this feeling that I just want to see him all the time. I want to feel his presence all the time. I want to hear his voice all the time. I’m getting used to this feeling of wanting him to be just around all the time. It has been two weeks since we knew about my pregnancy. I haven't said anything to anyone just yet. Even Zandrey hasn't said anything too. It’s just the two of us who know I’m carrying his child. We have already been to the OB-Gyne. I was so nervous. I was reminded of the time I also went to the OB-Gyne when I was pregnant with Andrei and Andres. I was also very nervous that time. But unlike now, I have someone I can hold when I’m trembling in fear. Before, I used to go to my appointments with Dad or Mommy Miranda. But being accompanied by Zandrey hits different. The entire time I was being checked by the d