I’ve been at the garden for what felt like forever. I don’t want to go back inside just yet. I need to calm myself down. I need to get my senses back.Everything happened so fast and I don't like the way it's making me feel. It was like I was standing in a dimension where my mind won’t cooperate with my body. Not to mention the eyes that were all focused on us, making me freeze and vulnerable.I'm wearing a blush spaghetti-strap dress. It has a very thin fabric, which allows the cold to get into my skin. I don’t have a jacket on, but I’d rather freeze to death than go back there. I wanted to ask if we could go home but it seemed like they were enjoying themselves and I don’t want to be the one who cuts their joy for today. I was just silently sitting on a bench, facing the dancing fountain that was surrounded by sunflowers. On normal days, I would enjoy it because the flowers are so pretty, but today’s far from normal.I was just looking at the beautiful fountain as I let my thoughts
"Good morning, Ma'am Aira," Jelyn greeted when I entered the office."Do you have my schedule for today?" I asked."Yes, Ma’am," she said as she followed me to my table. She opened her iPad and told me my schedule for today. I have meetings with my staff at 10 am, and a site visit after lunch with some of our Junior Architects."Is Arch. Morales here already?" I asked. "She has a presentation to prepare for and I'd like to see it before she presents it to the client.""She’s not here yet, I believe. But I’ll let her know to come straight to you when she gets here,” she said. I nodded and opened my laptop. It's when I noticed the to-go cup of coffee and small paper bag beside it. I haven't had my caffeine this morning because I woke up quite late. I had to take care of Andrei’s morning routine and I had to drive him to school since Zandrey can’t do it because of his shift. Because of all of those, I was not able to have any breakfast."Thanks for this," I said to Jelyn as I showed her
Daisy invited me to stay at their house for a night. She said we’ll have dinner together and will do a sleepover. She said I could bring Andrei since she's also inviting Thaniel.When Thaniel knew that Daisy was pregnant, he's pretty much always around. Daisy even said that she feels like he wanted to live with her. I'm sure Thaniel will be a good Uncle. The kid’s not yet born, but I could already feel his love for the child. It was past 5 pm when Andrei and I arrived at Daisy's house. "Hello, Auntie!!!" He greeted the moment he saw Daisy. He happily hopped off from the car and ran to Daisy who's waiting for us near the door. "Hello, Superman!" She replied. Andrei opened his little arms and hugged Daisy. Andrei then poked her stomach. "Hello there, baby." I smiled as I watch him do it. I think whatever my son does, I would find it adorable. He brings a smile to my face each time. "Let’s go inside?" Daisy invited. I nodded as I followed her inside. "Daddy!" Andrei exclaimed as h
Daisy needs to stay at the hospital because she still needs to be monitored. I heard there was a mild abruption and she needs to stay here for further monitoring. I didn't go home just yet, so I stayed with Dom. She's already inside a private room so we’re just the only people here. She's still sleeping and Dom is beside her, sitting on a chair beside her bed. While I sat on the small sofa at the corner.I feel like my entire body lost its energy after what happened earlier. So I just sat there with all these thoughts in my head. But a knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. It slowly opened until it fully revealed Zandrey in his white coat. I didn’t notice him earlier in his white coat because of the panic. But now that I do, I could see how much it suits him.I've always pictured him in his white coat before and I was right when I thought that it would look good on him.It really looks good on him."Hey..." Zandrey mumbled to Dominic. He then looked at me and gave me a tight-lipp
It was like I saw a ghost- a ghost from the past. I froze on the spot while the two of them continued looking at me. I don’t want to feel. But if there's something dominant with my feelings- that is confusion. Because why is she here? Or maybe my eyes are just playing tricks with me? But why does she look exactly like my biological mother? Why does she look like she’s so surprised to see me? Why does the familiarity feel so strong? If this is indeed her, who did we bury years ago? I couldn't say a word, and neither could they. I could feel the tension between us. I feel bad because it's supposed to be a happy day for my son and he's too young to understand things. "Mommy, are you crying?" I heard Andrei ask. Zandrey was carrying him in his arms and they were looking at me. I didn't realize that tears were already falling down from my eyes. When Andrei pointed it out, I quickly wiped it with my hands. "Baby, Daddy's still at work and he's quite busy. Maybe this is enough. We s
I finally had the courage to contact Zandrey. I asked him if I could meet him... and her. That's why I couldn’t contain my nerves right now while I was going out of my car. He gave me the address to their home. He took a leave so he's there. He even volunteered to take me but I was firm in going there by myself. I saw Zandrey waiting for me by the gate. It was a two-storey house that had a huge lot. There's either a pool or a huge garage. That, I'm not sure yet. Zandrey gave me a tight-lipped smile when I was nearing him. "Hi," he greeted. "Hi," I replied. If there’s something dominant about what I’m feeling right now, that’s nervousness. I couldn’t chill while I was on my way here. Good thing I was able to drive safely earlier. I'm gonna see her again. And even if I tried to prepare myself for that meeting, I still feel nervous. I'm scared of what I'm going to hear. I'm scared of what I might feel after hearing her explanation. "She's waiting for you," he said. Upon en
I feel like I was a walking zombie. I have so much on my schedule the past few days and a lot of things keep on happening. Everyone is restless. I don't even know how I managed to accomplish all my work. It has been almost a month since I heard my mother's explanation. I still think about it pretty much everyday and as each day passes, I feel like the pain is also slowly subsiding... or maybe I'm just getting used to it. It’s also been a month since I stopped talking to Zandrey. The coffee continued and he would often go to my office to visit but I never allowed him inside. My mind will just get messier if I see him. I need to reflect on everything and in order for me to be able to reflect well, I need not to see his face. Dad seems okay. It was easier for Dad to accept everything and maybe that has something to do with Mommy Miranda by her side. I wish I also had someone to be with in times like this. I can’t see Daisy that often since she's still advised to have a bed-rest. And I
I woke up with no Andrei beside me. When I looked around, he was also nowhere inside the room. It's officially his birthday and everybody in the house is so excited for it. Toy story is the theme of the party. Andrei specifically asked for it. He already knows what he wants and what he doesn't want, and just thinking about it kind of makes me well up with tears. He's really growing up. Even if I wanted to stop it, I know it's impossible. I just want him to remain this bubbly kid that he is. I wanted to protect him from this world's cruelty. I don’t want him to grow up and go through the problems adults go through. I slowly stood up and went to the bathroom to clean myself up. The party’s at 3 pm so I still have much time to prepare. I really took a leave from work just so I could attend. I also requested for Janine to close the shop so she could attend. Some of my staff who are not busy are also invited. I also heard from Zandrey that he will take a leave today. This is the first