"This is the day," Daisy happily said. She's standing in front of the full-length mirror while holding her wedding gown carefully."For sure, you'll be the most beautiful bride," I commented. She looked at me through the mirror and gave me a smile.I couldn’t contain my happiness. I'm happy she's getting married. I'm happy she doesn't have to be alone in raising her baby. The make up artists who will do our hair and make up finally came. They have a few people they need to take care of but Daisy was the priority.When the make-up artist was done, I went ahead and went to check on Daisy. She’s also almost done with her make up so I informed her I need to go first to the church to check everything- just one of my many duties for today as the maid of honor. "Mommy?" Andrei called and I turned to look at him. I was talking to the event organizer. She instructed me what to do since I wasn’t here when they were doing the practice. She said I shouldn't worry because my partner can guide m
I’ve been at the garden for what felt like forever. I don’t want to go back inside just yet. I need to calm myself down. I need to get my senses back.Everything happened so fast and I don't like the way it's making me feel. It was like I was standing in a dimension where my mind won’t cooperate with my body. Not to mention the eyes that were all focused on us, making me freeze and vulnerable.I'm wearing a blush spaghetti-strap dress. It has a very thin fabric, which allows the cold to get into my skin. I don’t have a jacket on, but I’d rather freeze to death than go back there. I wanted to ask if we could go home but it seemed like they were enjoying themselves and I don’t want to be the one who cuts their joy for today. I was just silently sitting on a bench, facing the dancing fountain that was surrounded by sunflowers. On normal days, I would enjoy it because the flowers are so pretty, but today’s far from normal.I was just looking at the beautiful fountain as I let my thoughts
"Good morning, Ma'am Aira," Jelyn greeted when I entered the office."Do you have my schedule for today?" I asked."Yes, Ma’am," she said as she followed me to my table. She opened her iPad and told me my schedule for today. I have meetings with my staff at 10 am, and a site visit after lunch with some of our Junior Architects."Is Arch. Morales here already?" I asked. "She has a presentation to prepare for and I'd like to see it before she presents it to the client.""She’s not here yet, I believe. But I’ll let her know to come straight to you when she gets here,” she said. I nodded and opened my laptop. It's when I noticed the to-go cup of coffee and small paper bag beside it. I haven't had my caffeine this morning because I woke up quite late. I had to take care of Andrei’s morning routine and I had to drive him to school since Zandrey can’t do it because of his shift. Because of all of those, I was not able to have any breakfast."Thanks for this," I said to Jelyn as I showed her
Daisy invited me to stay at their house for a night. She said we’ll have dinner together and will do a sleepover. She said I could bring Andrei since she's also inviting Thaniel.When Thaniel knew that Daisy was pregnant, he's pretty much always around. Daisy even said that she feels like he wanted to live with her. I'm sure Thaniel will be a good Uncle. The kid’s not yet born, but I could already feel his love for the child. It was past 5 pm when Andrei and I arrived at Daisy's house. "Hello, Auntie!!!" He greeted the moment he saw Daisy. He happily hopped off from the car and ran to Daisy who's waiting for us near the door. "Hello, Superman!" She replied. Andrei opened his little arms and hugged Daisy. Andrei then poked her stomach. "Hello there, baby." I smiled as I watch him do it. I think whatever my son does, I would find it adorable. He brings a smile to my face each time. "Let’s go inside?" Daisy invited. I nodded as I followed her inside. "Daddy!" Andrei exclaimed as h
Daisy needs to stay at the hospital because she still needs to be monitored. I heard there was a mild abruption and she needs to stay here for further monitoring. I didn't go home just yet, so I stayed with Dom. She's already inside a private room so we’re just the only people here. She's still sleeping and Dom is beside her, sitting on a chair beside her bed. While I sat on the small sofa at the corner.I feel like my entire body lost its energy after what happened earlier. So I just sat there with all these thoughts in my head. But a knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. It slowly opened until it fully revealed Zandrey in his white coat. I didn’t notice him earlier in his white coat because of the panic. But now that I do, I could see how much it suits him.I've always pictured him in his white coat before and I was right when I thought that it would look good on him.It really looks good on him."Hey..." Zandrey mumbled to Dominic. He then looked at me and gave me a tight-lipp
It was like I saw a ghost- a ghost from the past. I froze on the spot while the two of them continued looking at me. I don’t want to feel. But if there's something dominant with my feelings- that is confusion. Because why is she here? Or maybe my eyes are just playing tricks with me? But why does she look exactly like my biological mother? Why does she look like she’s so surprised to see me? Why does the familiarity feel so strong? If this is indeed her, who did we bury years ago? I couldn't say a word, and neither could they. I could feel the tension between us. I feel bad because it's supposed to be a happy day for my son and he's too young to understand things. "Mommy, are you crying?" I heard Andrei ask. Zandrey was carrying him in his arms and they were looking at me. I didn't realize that tears were already falling down from my eyes. When Andrei pointed it out, I quickly wiped it with my hands. "Baby, Daddy's still at work and he's quite busy. Maybe this is enough. We s
I finally had the courage to contact Zandrey. I asked him if I could meet him... and her. That's why I couldn’t contain my nerves right now while I was going out of my car. He gave me the address to their home. He took a leave so he's there. He even volunteered to take me but I was firm in going there by myself. I saw Zandrey waiting for me by the gate. It was a two-storey house that had a huge lot. There's either a pool or a huge garage. That, I'm not sure yet. Zandrey gave me a tight-lipped smile when I was nearing him. "Hi," he greeted. "Hi," I replied. If there’s something dominant about what I’m feeling right now, that’s nervousness. I couldn’t chill while I was on my way here. Good thing I was able to drive safely earlier. I'm gonna see her again. And even if I tried to prepare myself for that meeting, I still feel nervous. I'm scared of what I'm going to hear. I'm scared of what I might feel after hearing her explanation. "She's waiting for you," he said. Upon en
I feel like I was a walking zombie. I have so much on my schedule the past few days and a lot of things keep on happening. Everyone is restless. I don't even know how I managed to accomplish all my work. It has been almost a month since I heard my mother's explanation. I still think about it pretty much everyday and as each day passes, I feel like the pain is also slowly subsiding... or maybe I'm just getting used to it. It’s also been a month since I stopped talking to Zandrey. The coffee continued and he would often go to my office to visit but I never allowed him inside. My mind will just get messier if I see him. I need to reflect on everything and in order for me to be able to reflect well, I need not to see his face. Dad seems okay. It was easier for Dad to accept everything and maybe that has something to do with Mommy Miranda by her side. I wish I also had someone to be with in times like this. I can’t see Daisy that often since she's still advised to have a bed-rest. And I
Months swing by so fast. It gets slow when you're feeling lonely, but when you're in glee, it's like the clock is in a race.I was having all the fun while Zandrey is here with us. He's so good at taking care of me. Everyone cares a little extra of me after knowing we're having another baby. It's strange, but I admit that I like it. I'm getting used to it and it makes me sad that it's almost ending. But I'm certain it's a different kind of joy when the new baby is finally here.All of them are so excited to meet the baby. So when we decided to finally have the gender reveal, everybody was so excited. They couldn't wait to know the sex of the baby. Even I can't wait. I've had two boys, and I'm secretly wishing it's a girl. But whatever the sex is, I know for sure that we'll gonna love her/him so much."I bet it's a girl," Dominic guessed. It was clearly his guess because he's wearing a pink dress shirt.We are still waiting for all the guests to arrive. Daisy and Dom came first so we'r
I woke up to a quite heavy morning sickness. Weird stuff were going on inside my stomach that I just felt like puking. So the moment I opened my eyes, the first thing I did was stand up quickly and run to the bathroom as fast as I could.Zandrey probably heard me because a few moments later, I saw him following me. I looked at him for a brief time, unable to say a word because I was pre-occupied with my situation. He gathered all my hair for me, allowing me to focus more on my thing. That way, I didn't worry about my hair getting in my way.I feel bad because he's supposed to be sleeping as he only slept for about an hour or so. He just got home from his graveyard shift. But even if he was tired, he's still helping me. I realized just how easier really things are ever since he came here.Just like what I'm supposed to do, I still stayed in bed rest. I avoided work or doing heavy chore as what the doctor instructed. I can only do those things if we're in the clear already. I admit I m
I just watched the two of them unsmilingly. The woman was being so touchy and I have this urge to slap her hands away. They were in public, yet they seem to have their own world, and it made my head ache. "You know, we should catch up some time. How about coffee? When will you be free?" I heard her ask. I don't whether she's oblivious of my presence or she's choosing not to acknowledge me. There's a pregnant with Zandrey, but her eyes seem to only capture him entirely. It was so annoying. She was annoying. "I'll head first," I told Zandrey. I didn't wait for him to reply and just went ahead and left them. I just couldn't stand being around them. I was already a few meters away when I realized I don't have the keys to the car. Zandrey was the one who drove us as I'm not allowed to drive. I could feel my temper boiling up. I looked back at them with a frown. They were still talking. Actually, it was the girl who kept on talking. Her hand was on Zandrey's arm. It looks as
Since I wanted Zandrey close to me, we decided to stay in one room. Actually, it was dad who suggested it. He said it would ease his concerns if I have someone with me in my room. Both Dad and Andrei are upstairs, while I'm here on the first floor. Zandrey was busy taking out his clothes from his luggages. I was just sitting on my bed, watching him fixed his clothes. I already emptied a closet for him. It was weird. I have mixed feelings while looking at him unpack his stuff in a room we'll be sharing together until I give birth. But I'm quite sure the baby's happy. For the first time, I'll be living with a guy. I mean, sure, we live in the same house with my Dad and our son. But a guy who's not blood-related staying with us is definitely new to me. Sometimes, I regret not dating around when I was younger. Maybe if I did, I'd have more experience ehen it comes to men and I should have known better. But i chose to prioritize my studies and work. And well, the twins came so I really
Everybody now knows about the baby and it was indeed a good news for them. They even started planning for a gender reveal party, baby shower, and whatnot. But for now, we decided to have dinner together- an intimate one where all of the people close to my heart are present.It was just a small dinner and it was just really with family and friends. I was definitely looking forward to it because this time we don'y have any secrets to keep. Daisy and Dom just arrived. They brought a cake with the message, "Congratulations Ai and Zandrey!" My Mom also brought a pan of her baked lasagna. Auntie Gina prepared all of my favorite food.It is a happy night. I couldn't count how many times I smiled just tonight."What about you, Andrei? What do you want your sibling to be? A girl or a boy?" Daisy asked the kid. We were all gathered in the living room, just talking about things. We just finished our dinner and we're having the dessert here at the living room. I was eating the pie I asked Zandre
I don't know until when can I dodge that question. When no one asks me, it's me who questions myself. It was an easy question, yet answering it was hard. Being asked if I love him is something I think I will never be prepared for. I cannot find the words to describe what I feel for him yet. Or maybe I do. Maybe I'm just being in denial. But when will I ever be sure of what I really feel when everything's still clouded with memories of the past? I tried to look away from my Mom. The ways she stares at me shows she is trying to read me. And I'm scared. I'm still afraid of the things that might happen in the coming days. Even when Zandrey says he loves me, I really still cannot bring myself to easily believe. It can still change. Maybe he loves me now. But the real question is... until when? And why would he love me? Do I have something he's looking for in a woman? Do I possess something so extraordinary? I'm just a mediocre architect girl when we met. We live in the same world, but
I felt Zandrey squeeze my hand while we were waiting for Dad. We arranged a dinner for us- Zandrey, Mommy Emily, Dad, Andrei, and me. We decided to tell it first to them then we'll think about how to tell it to Daisy.Zandrey and I are sitting side by side on the table. I could feel the erratic beating of my heart. I know Dad won't be mad as I'm already an adult. But I still won't feel uneasy unless I've told him. "What's this dinner for?" Dad asked. We just started eating, and I knew he's been meaning to ask it since he came. Why would we invite him out of the blue, he must wondered."Uhh..."I rehearsed what I was gonna say to my Dad a hundred times. I already knew what exactly to say and how to say it. But the moment he asked, I feel as if I lost the ability to speak and my mind can't seem to process anything at all."Mommy, I want the chicken," Andrei suddenly said. I couldn't even move, so Zandrey got the chicken for him instead. "You good?" I heard Zandrey ask the kid."Yes, D
I woke up to a white surrounding. I was lying on a bed and I still feel so weak. When I looked around, I saw Mommy Emily looking at me. Even Zandrey was staring at me, probably waiting for me to open my eyes. "How are you feeling?" Mom asked. I tried to get up dlowly and Zandrey was quick to help me. "You were advised to be on bed rest, Ai," Zandrey mumbled. "Does she know?" I asked, pertaining to Mom. I remember how she was with me when I passed out. For sure it was also her who rushed me to the hospital. "I know," she answered. There was a smile on her face when she went closer to me. She fixed the few hairs that covered my face. "Don't worry. If you want me to keep it a secret, I will definitely keep it to myself." "And the baby?" My heart began beating so fast inside my chest. I quickly shifted my gaze to Zandrey. "How's the baby?" I could even hear the trembling of my own voice. "The baby's fine," he said softly. "But you have to be on bed rest for the time being, Ai. You
Our weekend was quite eventful. After the beach getaway, we spent a few hours at Mommy Miranda and Andres' graves. But it's really true that when your happy, it seems like time passes by so fast. Monday came quickly and I almost don't want to get up from my bed. I was tired from all the activities last weekend that I just wanted to stay all day in bed. But I still have work and I can't just not go to work. I have responsibilities. So even if I feel a little heavy, I got up and prepared myself for work. If I could just use my pregnancy as excuse, I would, but I can't. Nobody else knows about my pregnancy yet aside from Zandrey and I. "Good morning," Jelyn greeted upon seeing me entering. I smiled at her in return and let her follow me to the office. I need to know what are the things that I need to do today. But I have to sit first. I kinda feel nauseous. Jelyn then proceeded to telling me the tasks for the day. "Are you okay, Miss Aira?" she inquired. I looked up at her. My