"Where's my daddy, Mommy?" What Andrei said kept on replaying in my head. The time I'm scared to come is here. He's asking who his father is and I don't know what and how to answer him. Seconds have passed and I still can't come up for an answer and Andrei is looking at me expectantly. I could feel my inside trembling- of fear, uncertainty, and sadness."Andrei-" I was cut off when I heard somebody knock on the door. I looked at Andrei and I want to say how sorry I am but I remained quiet as I opened the door. It revealed Mommy Miranda who's smiling at us. "Dinner's ready," she announced. I gazed at Andrei, who's also gazing at me at the moment. "Let's go?" I asked Andrei and he just nodded. I sighed again. Maybe it's really not the time just yet to tell him. I took his hand and we went to the dining room together. If it wasn't for Mommy Miranda calling us for dinner, I probably have broken down in front of my son. And I don't want that to happen. I know he still won't understand
"Who is he, Mom?" Andrei inquired. His gaze shifted from me to Zandrey. "B-baby.." I uttered. I knelt in front of him and held his face with both my hands. He looked at me and I could see the worry on his face when he saw my tears. "Why are you crying?" He asked, his voice also shaking now. I don’t know if destiny’s playing a game with me now. The past few days, I've been thinking about Zandrey and telling him about Andrei. I was preparing myself for that. But things didn't go my way. And now, on the most random day that we thought of visiting Andres, he's here... and I don't know how to tell the two of them about their existence in each other's life. I never thought this day would come this soon. I was preparing myself for meeting Zandrey. I thought of telling him first then I'll bring him to Andrei. I'll give us time to cry and sink everything in first before I let them meet. Not like this. Not a surprise for all of us like this. "You're asking who's your daddy, right? This ti
"Hi," Zandrey greeted. We decided to meet at a cafe near Andrei's school. I just nodded at him as I took my seat in front of him. I got the menu that was on the table and scanned it. I was busy doing just that when I realized that Zandrey is just sitting there. His intertwined fingers were under his chin and he was looking intently at me. I positioned the menu even higher, enough to cover my face so he couldn't see me. I feel so conscious with the way he looks at me. What happened yesterday felt like a blur for him. It was like we never fought and I never said bad things towards him. I was hurt by my own words. But how come he doesn't seem as hurt as I thought him to be? I ordered first because I was already starving. I had quite a day at work. My head even ached because of the number of report I had to check. I also have a site visit this week. I’ll be very busy for sure. "What?" I asked when I saw Zandrey just staring. He’s just plainly staring at me. There's not even a smile o
When I arrived at the shop one Saturday morning, Daisy was there, waiting for me. I was quite shocked that she was there as I was not expecting her. She didn’t tell me she’ll be visiting. She already told me about what happened when she told Dom about the baby. She was expecting Dom to want to be out of it, but he said he wanted to be in the baby's life. I thought of how similar our situations are. It seems like we’re going through something quite similar. The only difference is that Dom asked her to marry him. I kind of have the feeling that he has feelings for her since college and the recent happenings just confirmed my thoughts. But Daisy was still hesitant about it and just told him to give her time to think about it. Dom agreed and gave her all the time she needed. Now, weeks have already passed since he said he’ll marry her and I don't know if Daisy already made up her mind. Her belly will be bigger soon so I think she probably has a decision now. "Have you decided already?
What Dominic said never left my head. But everytime I think about it, what happened years ago would also pop in my mind. Even if he said what he “knew”, I still don’t want to believe. It’s hard to believe things these days."I think I’m hungry again," Daisy suddenly said. Every weekend, I have been staying at the shop because I’m helping Daisy with their wedding preparations. She wanted to have it as soon as possible since her stomach was growing. So whenever I don't have site visits on a weekend, we‘re always together.She would always tell me what happened between her and Dom. While I was still not 100% convinced about his intentions, I can see he really cares and I think that's important. At least Daisy has someone who takes care of her while she's pregnant. "Let’s have lunch, Ai?" Daisy mumbled. She already ate almost the whole pizza I ordered. Almost because I only ate 2 slices. And I thought she wouldn't be going to eat lunch, but she was even the first one to ask for lunch.
"This is the day," Daisy happily said. She's standing in front of the full-length mirror while holding her wedding gown carefully."For sure, you'll be the most beautiful bride," I commented. She looked at me through the mirror and gave me a smile.I couldn’t contain my happiness. I'm happy she's getting married. I'm happy she doesn't have to be alone in raising her baby. The make up artists who will do our hair and make up finally came. They have a few people they need to take care of but Daisy was the priority.When the make-up artist was done, I went ahead and went to check on Daisy. She’s also almost done with her make up so I informed her I need to go first to the church to check everything- just one of my many duties for today as the maid of honor. "Mommy?" Andrei called and I turned to look at him. I was talking to the event organizer. She instructed me what to do since I wasn’t here when they were doing the practice. She said I shouldn't worry because my partner can guide m
I’ve been at the garden for what felt like forever. I don’t want to go back inside just yet. I need to calm myself down. I need to get my senses back.Everything happened so fast and I don't like the way it's making me feel. It was like I was standing in a dimension where my mind won’t cooperate with my body. Not to mention the eyes that were all focused on us, making me freeze and vulnerable.I'm wearing a blush spaghetti-strap dress. It has a very thin fabric, which allows the cold to get into my skin. I don’t have a jacket on, but I’d rather freeze to death than go back there. I wanted to ask if we could go home but it seemed like they were enjoying themselves and I don’t want to be the one who cuts their joy for today. I was just silently sitting on a bench, facing the dancing fountain that was surrounded by sunflowers. On normal days, I would enjoy it because the flowers are so pretty, but today’s far from normal.I was just looking at the beautiful fountain as I let my thoughts
"Good morning, Ma'am Aira," Jelyn greeted when I entered the office."Do you have my schedule for today?" I asked."Yes, Ma’am," she said as she followed me to my table. She opened her iPad and told me my schedule for today. I have meetings with my staff at 10 am, and a site visit after lunch with some of our Junior Architects."Is Arch. Morales here already?" I asked. "She has a presentation to prepare for and I'd like to see it before she presents it to the client.""She’s not here yet, I believe. But I’ll let her know to come straight to you when she gets here,” she said. I nodded and opened my laptop. It's when I noticed the to-go cup of coffee and small paper bag beside it. I haven't had my caffeine this morning because I woke up quite late. I had to take care of Andrei’s morning routine and I had to drive him to school since Zandrey can’t do it because of his shift. Because of all of those, I was not able to have any breakfast."Thanks for this," I said to Jelyn as I showed her
Zandrey should know because he's a doctor. I wanted to ask him, but I suddenly felt conscious. Even if we've done it many times, I still have an ounce of shyness in me.I saw him walk towards me. He's carrying our son in his arms. I saw how the kid ran to him earlier and how excitement filled his face when he saw his father. And now, the kid was talking non-stop while they were on the way towards me, yet Zandrey's gaze remains on me.He has that usual smile on his face. He looks so carefree and problem-free. He's always glowing. I feel like the world is really unfair because those who has stressful jobs are the ones more glowing. Zandrey is a walking example. He's busy with his job and does not have much time for himself, but he still manages to smile like that.He radiates so much positivity, and I just realized how much I needed someone like him in my life. I feel like we compliment well. Even when we just knew each other, we already clicked. I know he's a good person and has a good
"Are you joining in the van with us?" Daisy asked. They're currently loading all the stuff we need to the van. Dominic will be driving. All their stuff are already inside. They just dropped by here to get the stuff we will bring. After that, they'll go to Mommy Emily to get her. As for Zandrey, I'm not sure. He's not here yet. "I'm not sure," I answered. They did almost everything, while I just sat there watching them. I wanna help but I know lifting heavy stuff isn't for me, especially right now. I get clumsy sometimes so I should move as less as possible. "Where's Zandrey?" She added. He has work last night. I just don't know if his shift is over. His schedule often changes and he wasn't able to inform me. "I also don't know," I replied. I kind of feel sad that he's not here yet, but I cannot do anything about it. "Can you give me some of that?" I added. She was eating some chips and she was eating it with gusto that I felt the need to eat some as well. She handed me the pack. I
We weren't able to push through our plan of going to the beach after my birthday. When I knew I was pregnant, I told everyone we can't go because I was not feeling well. Maybe I lied well in that part because they never doubted me.However, maybe we were bound to go one way or another, because Daisy decided to set another date. And this time, I was not able to invent a lie, unfortunately. "This will look good on you!" Daisy mumbled. She handed me the hanger with a pair of swim suit. I frowned at her. I shouldn't wear something like that. I'm not sure how visible my bump is. We're currently at the mall, buying stuff for our beach getaway which wil happen this weekend. She wanted to buy some new stuff for herself so I just tagged along. She ended up choosing things for the both of us. "I don't like that," I said. "This really suits you," she insisted. I shook my head and tried to look for something else. I don't want something so revealing. "What do you want?" She asked as she put
Since we haven’t told anyone yet about the pregnancy, we were very careful when it comes to doing things. He wants me to stay at home for now, and maybe work from home too. But I don't want to. People will definitely wonder why I’m not doing my normal routine. So here I am, in the office and doing all the things I’m supposed to do. I even drove myself coming here while Zandrey drove Andrei to school. “Good morning, Ma’am Aira,” Jelyn greeted when she saw me coming. I smiled at her and gestured to her to follow me to my office. This time, I was not wearing heels and was walking as carefully as possible. I'm still afraid I'll trip and fall. Of course, I don’t want that to happen so I’m being extra careful. Jelyn then proceeded to tell me all the things that I need to do today. That includes some meetings and site visits. But I declined the site visits. It's too risky for now. “Can you ask my Dad if he can do the site visit instead?” I asked. “Yes, Ma'am. I'll inform him
I’d like to think that this is my pregnancy hormones craving for Zandrey, craving for his presence and all of him. I’m definitely not the clingy type but I have this feeling that I just want to see him all the time. I want to feel his presence all the time. I want to hear his voice all the time. I’m getting used to this feeling of wanting him to be just around all the time. It has been two weeks since we knew about my pregnancy. I haven't said anything to anyone just yet. Even Zandrey hasn't said anything too. It’s just the two of us who know I’m carrying his child. We have already been to the OB-Gyne. I was so nervous. I was reminded of the time I also went to the OB-Gyne when I was pregnant with Andrei and Andres. I was also very nervous that time. But unlike now, I have someone I can hold when I’m trembling in fear. Before, I used to go to my appointments with Dad or Mommy Miranda. But being accompanied by Zandrey hits different. The entire time I was being checked by the d
I feel like I look like a kid waiting for her parents to come home. I was sitting on the balcony of my room. I could see the gate from up here and I could see anyone coming. I sat there patiently, waiting for a car to arrive- waiting for Zandrey to arrive. I already cleaned myself after puking. I'm already wearing fresh clothes. I don't want to go downstairs just yet. I wanna know he's already there before I go down. While I was waiting for him, I was also thinking about a lot of things. I was thinking about when I should tell the people close to me about my pregnancy. I need the perfect timing. Mommy Miranda just passed away and Daisy lost her baby. I'm really not sure if it's okay to tell them just yet. I really have to think about it. I'm also not sure how Andrei would react. The kid would be thrilled, I can imagine. But I also don't know if I should tell him already. I probably need Zandrey’s perspective on this. While thinking about things, I saw Zandrey’s car parked o
"Daisy," I called. She asked me to meet her at a restaurant just near my shop. I don’t know what’s going on. She didn’t tell me anything, but I know something is bothering her. Her calling out of the blue and asking me to hang out somewhere definitely tells me something. "Oh Ai," she murmured. She motioned me to sit in front of her so I did. "Why did you call me again? Is something wrong?" I asked the moment I sat down. She smiled at me. I’m just not sure if it was a genuine or forced one. She suddenly became hard to read. Before, I could read her by just looking at her face. It seems she has become better at hiding what she really feels. I don’t know if that’s a good thing. "I just needed someone to talk to,” she answered and then she stifled a sigh. I suddenly feel bad. I don’t know just yet what’s really the reason why she’s like this, but I already feel so bad. "Tell me what's wrong," I grumbled. "A lot of weird things are just happening in my life lately,” she replied and it
The thought that I am pregnant didn't register in my head right away. I still can’t believe it and the idea’s still out there, in the abyss of my thoughts and is refusing to be acknowledged. We ate the ice cream together, but that was just it. We barely spoke a word, and I don’t know what to feel about it. I know Zandrey is also thinking about a lot of things right now. When he left, I was left there with my thoughts. It was surrounding me that I almost thought I was drowning. I tried swimming and then gave up. And then there it is… It finally sinked n. I am pregnant. Andrei’s going to have a sibling. Dad will have another grandchild. Daisy will have another niece or nephew. God, Daisy… I don’t know why but I suddenly felt guilty about getting pregnant unexpectedly. I’m not sure how it happened. I was prompt with my pills… or was I? I know it happens, but it’s crazy to have happened to me. We were careful, since we started the agreement. Were his sperms that strong? Does t
Zandrey’s POV I don’t want to agree on the arrangement Aira wanted. I’m not just after her body. I want to be in her life, to be in our son’s life, to be included in her priorities. But I can't just push that thought, can I? I want her for myself, but I don’t want her to think I’m selfish. In every decision I make since we met again, she was in my head. Every step I make, it’s her that I consider. I just wanted to win her back. But destiny has been so playful. We see each other, but she doesn't like seeing me. But still, giving up on her was not in my plans. I’ll do everything I can to win her trust again. If it means waiting for her until I turn seventy, then I am okay with that. She’s worth the wait, so I am willing to wait. Giving her pleasure was so important for me. It’s always her over anything. Even if I don't get mine, I'm fine, as long as she’s satisfied, and I make her moan for my name, I’m good with that. Nothing feels better than that. Everytime she scratches