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My mouth watered the moment I spotted the food he cooked. It's seven in the morning, kaya mga pang-agahan ang mga niluto niya."I didn't know that you can cook." nakahalumbaba sa lamesa kong sabi. He's now cooking garlic fried rice. Wala itong damit dahil suot ko ang tshirt niya kaya naka-boxer shorts lang ito.He turned his gazed into my direction and smiled. I sucked in a sharp breath as his shirtless torso was exposed to me. Gawking wouldn't quite describe my state. "You didn't asked," the side of his lips rose. "All you know is to eat me.""Napakabastos!""Ikaw yun.""Whatever! I wonder how does it taste!"His brows shot; smirk is still evident on his face. Binitawan niyang bahagya ang sandok. "Ng alin?" bigla niyang pinausdos ang kamay niya sa hubad na dibdin niya. Iminuwestra ang katawan. Parang nang-aakit. His body was drool-worthy. He had a chiseled chest and the skin on it was glowing healthily. His abdominals were sculptured to perfection as his six-packs pop, instantly
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Pagkatapos maligo ay dumiretso ako sa may vanity mirror para magblower ng buhok. I was only wearing a white robe. Naririnig ko ang tawanan at kantiyawan ng mga kaibigan ni Lazarus sa labas."Hindi ka na babalik ng seminaryo?" his friend asked. Manipis lang ang dingding at maliit lang ang unit kaya naririnig ko pa rin ang ingay nila sa labas. Kanino kayang unit ito? At nasaan kaya kami? Hindi ko pa pala natatanong sa kanya."Hindi na." It was Lazarus. Naghiyawan ang grupo. Inaasar ulit siya. "Welcome to the club! Si Garreth nalang ang last man standing sa grupo!""Sigurado ka na dyan, Lazarus?""Oo nga. Baka nabibigla lang ang titi mo?""Ang bastos naman, Trevor!""Ay pasensya na, Father Garreth.""Pero di nga? Sigurado ka na dyan sa desisyon mo?""Sigurado na ako sa kanya, Finn.""Goosebumps pare! Never thought that you would say things like that!" The group's laughter exploded. I could feel the heat growing on my cheeks. Napapailing ako habang hindi maalis ang ngiti sa mga labi.P
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I woke up from sleep as I felt a hand seemed to assume a life of its own as it caressed and explored my body. I lightly pushed it but he started kissing his way down my neck, to my firm young breasts, his lips found their way to my left areola and nipple. "Shit. What the hell- Ahh. Lazarus!" I moaned with increased pleasure. I was about to stop him but worshipfully, he extended his lips around it in long, slow, repeated kisses, even as he caressed and gently squeezed my left tit. "Ahh..."For a long, long time he kissed and gentlysucked my breasts, his tongue running circles around the nipple as it first hardened and then receeded into my swelling areola.Gradually, his mouth engulfed more and more of my breast in his mouth as he continued to gently suck."Ang sarap, Lazarus..." He couldn't get enough of my tit in his mouth; hewanted to swallow it all, whole.My hands gently pushing his head away from my breast and down towards mytummy. He began kissing his way slowly down to m
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Tulala akong lumabas sa banyo. Sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso. Gulong-gulo ang isipan.Hindi iyon imposibleng mangyari dahil ni hindi ko siya matandang gumamit ng condom o anumang proteksyon kapag nagtatalik kami. Sa sobrang sabik namin sa isa't-isa hindi na namin naisip iyon.O ako lang ang hindi nakaisip? Paano kung pinipikot ako nito?Pero paano kung hindi niya alam na ganun? We're both virgin before we did that. Hindi ba iyon tinuro sa seminaryo? Baka labag sa kanila ang iputok sa labas, baka isiping abortion na iyon!Mag-iisang buwan na simula nang mangyari 'yon. Inisip ko ang mga oras na may nangyari sa amin. Imposible namang, last week iyon nabuo, alam ko sa loob niya rin pinutok eh- nung pumasok siya sa kwarto ko. Hindi naman pwedeng ganun. Ang bilis naman. Ang alam ko 3 or 4 weeks bago mo malaman na buntis ka.Buntis. I shivered with that thought. Shit. Ako? Buntis? Kay Lazarus?If that was the case, if my hunch was true, are we ready to be parents? Am I ready to be a mothe
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"Aviona?" he called. Hindi ako sumagot. Kumakain lang.Nilalantakan ko ang cheese na natira sa ref nang hingal na hingal siyang dumating. Nagliwanag ang mga mata niya nang makita ako. Subo-subo ko pa ang cheese sa bibig ko nang madrama niya akong niyakap. He pulled a chair beside me. Naestatwa tuloy ako doon habang niyayakap niya lang ako."Thank you, Aviona! Oh my god, I'll be a great father, I promise!" his eyes twinkled with excitement when he looked at me.How can someone become a good father? I think, it is dealing with your own problems in the most mature way that you can, so that your children can look up to you, so they can call you their hero. It means taking responsibility for your actions. It is sacrificing and it means putting your children before yourself because you love them more than you have ever loved yourself.Lahat nang nasabi ko puro kabaliktaran ng tatay ko. Sana naman hindi maging ganun si Lazarus. Well, I believe Lazarus would be a great father for our chil
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Pinadausdos niya ang kamay niya papunta sa tiyan ko at marahan iyong hinaplos. Napangiti siya bigla. Nasa kama na kami at naghihintay nalang na antukin."Ilang linggo na kaya 'to?""Baka apat palang.""Nagpa-appoint na ako kay doktora. Bukas sana para magpacheck-up.""Excited ka masyado." humalakhak ako.I poke his nose and hold him close, brushing a strand of dark brown hair away from his face. Ang bilis. Hindi na ako mamomroblema pa. Sana palaging ganito. I bit my lower lip trying to stop myself from smiling.Ang sayang mapunta sa tamang tao na susuportahan at aalagaan ka ng walang pag-aalinlangan."Kung alam mo lang. Papapuntahin ko nalang sana dito kaso baka hindi kayanin ng schedule niya."Kung pwede nalang ngang papuntahin niya nalang dito. Kaso, baka mapagastos pa siya. Madami-dami ang gagastusin namin kaya dapat magtipid kami.Ang kaso kasi, natatakot akong lumabas. Ang tahimik ng mga magulang ko ngayon. Iyon ang mas nakakatakot. Wala akong balita sa kanila. Hindi ko alam kun
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"Baby, what's wrong?" I was bitting my lower lip while my knees were trembling when Lazarus arrived.Tinignan muna nito nang nakakunot-noo ang dalawang tauhan bago nag-squat sa harap ko. Parang nagtatanong pero walang naisagot ang dalawa.He cupped my face, pilit hinaharap ang mukha ko sa kanya. He seems worried. "Baby..." he called.Para akong anak na nagsusumbong sa tatay niya. Parang gusto 'kong maiyak sa takot. "M-may lalaki do'n, Lazarus..." tinuro ko ang pwesto kung saan ko nakita ang lalaki. Nagtutubig na ngayon ang mga mata."Nakatingin sa akin na parang papatayin ako. Natatakot ako! Natatakot!" I added then I covered my eyes with my hands while tears streaming down my face.Pakiramdam ko may mga matang nakamasid sa akin. Kukunin ako at ibabalik sa bahay na 'yon. Ikukulong. Ayoko. Hindi ako papayag. Ayoko nang bumalik sa impyernong 'yun!I'm scared. Super. I know this fear isn't always rational, but my brain can't override my body's reaction to the fear I faced because of my
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The water is cascading down my hair and all over my body. Suddenly, I can feel someone's eyes watching me as I shower. My eyes remained close as I rinsed-off the shampoo, along with all the stress and dirt last night. Gabi nang nakauwi ang magkakaibigan. Lazarus was so wasted last night. Kulang nalang ay matulog siya sa terrace sa sobrang pagkalasing. Good thing, Garreth helped him. He didn't drink much though, siya kasi ang magddrive sa mga lasing na kaibigan at didiretso na din daw siya sa seminaryo pagkatapos."Lazarus, is that you?" I asked."Who else would be watching you take a shower?" he jokingly replies back.As I opened my eyes, just in time to see him slip-off his black boxer briefs and step into the standing shower with me. Damn, he is really a sight to behold. I stepped backwards to allow the shower head to spray him with droplets that do nothing but accentuate his strong shoulders, glisten off of his arms and trickle down his chest. I tried not to watch the droplets
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Trigger warning: suicide, depressionHalos maglupasay ako sa narinig. I was stunned for a few minutes. Hindi malaman kung ano ang unang emosyong mararamdaman. Parang gumuho ang mundo ko. Nanginig ang buong katawan ko sa gulat. Hanggang sa emosyonal akong niyakap ni Lazarus, doon na bumuhos na para bang walang kontrol ang luha sa mga mata ko. "W-What happened?! Tell me you're just kidding, Lazarus!" garalgal na ang boses kong sabi. Streams of tears flowed faster than my heartbeat. "I'm sorry for your loss, baby. I won't say it's okay because it's never okay to lose a loved one ... but be strong. I'm just here." Malamlam ang mga mata niyang sabi. Mas lalo akong napahagulgol. Doon ko nakumpirmang hindi nga ito nagbibiro. Itong ganitong mga mata niya ang nakikita ko kapag nagsasabi siya ng totoo- kapag sinasabi niyang mahal niya ako."Hindi pwede! Hindi ito totoo! Panaginip lang ang mga ito!" humahagulgol kong sabi. "H-hindi sila pwedeng mamatay! Hindi ko pa sila nakakausap!" Habang
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One thing I know for sure, it's hard...It's hard to forgive someone who hurt us.It's hard to forgive someone we put on a pedestal and they knocked themselves off of it. It's hard to forgive the closest people in our life when they hurt us or abandon us or neglect us or tell us things we can't forget.It's hard to forgive those we sacrificed a lot for.It's hard to look at someone who caused us so much pain and still love them with all our heart or treat them with the same respect but sometimes we have to forgive those people and remember that they're also human.That we have had our days when we erred too and hurt people we loved because we were still healing our own issues, we were still growing and learning how to love again, we were still evolving and we got many things wrong.I think sometimes we get caught up in the wrongs that people inflict on us. We get hurt and we get bitter. Understandably so, but instead of letting that pain dissipate, we keep it close to our hearts. We
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"A-Aviona?" hindi makapaniwala niyang sabi.Gulat na gulat ang mukha ni Paulino nang makita ako. Napaatras siya, nanginginig at namumutla na ang mukha, habang patuloy sa pagbuhos ang butil ng pawis."Aviona, ikaw ba talaga 'yan?" pilit inaabot ni Paulino ang kamay niya sa akin, nanginginig pa rin."Patawad!" nagulat ako nang lumuhod siya sa harapan ko bigla. Hindi ako makapagsalita. Gulat rin sa bilis ng pangyayari at sa mga sinasabi niya. Anong nangyayari? Bakit siya humihingi ng tawad sa akin? Ako nga ang dapat humingi ng tawad dahil nahulog ko ang cellphone niya."Patawarin mo ako! Hindi ko iyon sinasadya!" nakayuko na ito at nagtaas-baba ang balikat. Kunot ang noo kong napatingin lang sa kanya."Napag-utusan lang ako, Aviona! Patawad! Patawarin mo ako!" sabi niya habang nakaluhod pa rin, umiiyak."Anong pinagsasabi mo?!" sa wakas ay nasabi ko na rin. "'Yung nangyari sainyo limang taon na ang nakalipas... Planado iyon ng tatay mo! Tinakot niya akong tatanggalan ng scholarship ku
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"Uhm, so..." Mr. Del Madrid started after the long silence.No one dared to speak. Their gazed were all plastered to Alu who's sitting beside me; wondering, like a puzzle that needs to assemble.Lazarus was still holding my hand. Kanina ko pa kinakagat ang pang-ibabang labi ko dahil hindi ako kumportable sa presensya nila."Care to explain everything, Lazarus?" his father finally asked. Tahimik namang nakaupo sa tabi niya ang nanay ni Lazarus na taimtim na nakamasid sa anak ko. Grabe ang tensyon, tunog ng kalabog ng puso ko lang ang naririnig ko.Tumikhim si Lazarus at umayos ng upo. "Surprise? Lolo at lola na kayo!" Lazarus let out a warm hearty laugh. It echoed in the corners of the room. No one dared to laugh or say something though. Mas ramdam pa rin ang tensyon ngayon."Gago. Paano?" Aquilino finally asked after the long minutes of silence.Hindi ito mapakali. Hanggang sa lumingon ito sa akin at tinuro ako. "Akala namin patay ka na, Aviona!""She isn't, obviously, that's why sh
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I woke up early to cook breakfast. The two were still asleep when I left. When I finished cooking, I covered it for a while so that I could take a bath already.As the towel hung over the side of my shoulder, I returned to the room to get my working clothes. Nang papalapit na ako sa banyo ay dinaanan ko muna ang dalawang mahimbing pa rin ang tulog hanggang ngayon.Nakatalukbong ito ng kumot habang magkayakap at naghihilik pa. Alas singko na sa umaga, may trabaho kami Lazarus at medyo malayo pa ang ibabyahe namin."Lazarus," I lightly shook his body."Hmm?" He stretched his body a bit and then slightly squeezed the side of his eyes. He's still struggling to concentrate in my direction because of drowsiness."Bangon na, may pasok pa tayo sa trabaho." but instead of getting up, he lay on the bed and embraced his sleeping son by his side."Lazarus," niyugyog ko ulit ang balikat niya pero hilik lang ang sagot sa akin.Napakamot ako ng ulo. Medyo inis na. Napagod itong dalawang ito maglaro
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"What do you do for a living, Papa?" tanong ni Alu.Nakakandong ito sa kanya ngayon habang nagmamaneho. Napairap ako. Hindi pa rin magkamayaw ang inis kay Lazarus."I advise individuals on legal issues and disputes, and then I represent them in court and legal transactions." he said in his tone casual and light. Alu's mouth turned to 'o'. He's looking at his father with so much amusement and adoration."You are practicing law, Papa?" he asked still amuzed.He nodded. "Yes, son. I'm a lawyer.""Oh, my. My father is a lawyer! Is that your dream, Papa?"Bahagya niyang ipinilig ang kanyang ulo at ngumuso. Ang mga mata ay nasa unahan pa rin at ang kamay ay abala sa manibela. Nakaangat naman ang tingin ng anak namin sa kanya. Parang may sariling mundo ang dalawa. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pa ako sa kanila sumama."To be honest... no."Of course he will answer no to that. Bahagya tuloy akong napaisip. Ano bang pangarap talaga nito? He was only forced to become a priest because of his grand
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"Eh?!" I heard my son said in disbelief.Inalis ko ang nakatalukbong na kumot sa mukha ko at nakita kong nakatalikod na ito sa akin. Ang buong atensyon nito ay nasa amang tulog na tulog pa rin hanggang ngayon.Hinayaan ko lang siya. Hanggang sa ilang minutong pagtitig ay niyugyog na nito ang natutulog na si Lazarus para gisingin."Wake up! Why did Mama said you are my Papa?!"Upon waking, Lazarus burrowed himself into the warm, soft sheets. He rubbed the remainders of sleep from his eyes and gazed out Alu. He suddenly sat on the bed when he saw our child sitting in front of him and now seemed annoyed and full of questions."Are you guys dating? Mama said my father is dead a long time ago! Explain it to me! Are you Mama's boyfriend now? Or are you getting married that's why you are now my Papa?" bakas sa boses nito ang inis.Ayan, nagpakilala pa kasi siyang kaibigan nito. Ngayon, parang mahihirapan pa ang anak naming maproseso ang katotohanang tatay niya talaga si Lazarus. Paano ba
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I held my lower lip with my thumb. Natulala at hindi pa rin maproseso ang nangyari. He closed his eyes as he swallowed hard. Napasandal siya sa barandilya, doon humanap ng suporta."Let's go. My head is spinning." he finally said after some minutes. He then pulled my hand. Dire-diretso ang lakad namin hanggang sa makalabas na kami ng bar. Agad kaming dumiretso sa mga nakahilerang kotse."H-how about Maureen? How can she go home?" sa wakas ay natanong ko na rin."I'm pretty sure she's with my friend by now. Stop worrying about her. Let's go." sagot niya habang naglalakad pa rin."How about her car? What will she use? Did you bring your car with you how-""If you will not stop asking I will kiss you again."He said looks threatening. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from saying something. His forehead twitched while his eyes focused on my lips.Napaiwas ito ng tingin. He swallowed hard, gumalaw ang adams apple nito habang inililibot ang mga mata sa mga kotseng nakaparada."Where's her
