My Tyrant’s Confession

Seth The sun seems brighter this morning, I think to myself as I stretch squinting my eyes from the sun blaring through the crack of my blackout curtains. What’s the point in having dark curtains if my mother is just going to come in and open them everyday? My mother, greatest woman ever, loves me unconditionally and fiercely. I will miss seeing her everyday, her cleaning up after me, and feeding me everyday but I definitely won’t miss her waking me up early every morning. Graduating from high school last week should mean sleeping in but for my mother she sees sleeping late as laziness. Her and my father are both goal driven people who always have a goal either personally or professionally they work towards. Their marriage is one of the strongest relationships I've seen and pushing their only son to be great is an example of their love for me. Well that's what they tell me when I get pissed not wanting to do anything. I'm sure these are all great l

Seth These last couple of weeks I haven’t seen Bella much. I believe she has been making sure to stay out of my path. I probably shouldn't have been so mean when I first saw her here but I was surprised since my parents didn't warn me. Our run in later that night by the pool with Sarah, I think that was her name. Definitely started with an S. Anyways her name is not important, the 'S' named girl girl riding me definitely gave her the message to stay out of my way. It probably wouldn't have stopped me but I really didn't know she was over there. I wonder how long she sat over there watching us? I am sure she is still a virgin so she may have been taking notes. It did surprise me that it almost looked like jealousy and hurt in her eyes when she went into the house. Im sure I was mistaken though. She couldn't have feelings for me with a relationship like we have. We used to be close when we were little but I can't get past what she did.  If I let her

Seth The first day of classes has went fairly smooth. We have practice almost every afternoon so the football team has its own parking lot next to on of the buildings. Not having to find a spot saves a lot of time in the morning.  It’s a pretty large campus with many stores and restaurants. The restaurants came in use since I didn't bring any lunch. Anyone can easily navigate around so finding my classes wasn’t a problem. Since we realized too late I wasn’t able to switch any of my classes to avoid being with Bella. She would purposefully avoid looking at me but I would steal glances at her. She is such a beautiful girl and we used to get along so well. Why did she have to go and ruin things? Guess I may have taken things too far back then but I was so mad at her for betraying me by going to our parents. Wish I could just forgive her and go on but I can’t trust her to not cause problems for me. Was she afraid I would forget about her when I started getting more friends?

SethDing. I reach over as I hear my phone letting me know I got a text. Bella- "I would like to begin working on our assignment soon. I want to make sure it's all completed as quickly as possible. Let me know your first availability."Inhaling deeply I try to think of what to reply. I know we have to do the assignment but I really don't know what I am feeling right now. I still hate her for what she's done but I also hate the look of hurt in her face. Have I really never paid attention to what I was doing to her or has my anger blinded me from caring? Guess no time like the present. Seth- "I have time now. No time like the present if you wanting to get it done quick" I sounded to much like my parents at this point. Bella- "Um.....ok. Give me an hour and you can head over. I have everything we need here."Seth-"See ya then."Setting my phone down and hope in the shower to get ready. 

Seth "Wow!! That was definitely not my intentions when I came over here but that was amazing Bella!" The shade of pink her cheeks turn when she blushes is adorable. I pull her in for a hug. We are both still laying on her bed. I can't treat her like the typical girls I use and just leave after. We have known each other our whole lives. No matter what has happened I can't just do that to her because she is not a slut and I know that.  Realization begins to set in that moment. Bella is not a slut and she wouldn't have let this happen purely out of desire and passion. What does this mean? "I...I didn't expect this either. But um....thanks?" She said it almost in a question. I leaned down and softly kissed the top of her head. I don't know how she feels about what happened but although I know this was possibly a huge mistake, it's kind of nice. I've never done true intimacy before but this feels very intimate not just sex. We sat there holding each other is silence