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33. Dopamine
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2024-10-29 19:42:5663. Dopamine
- Jacob -
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It was a mistake to go into my room after Dad belittled me. I wish I had gone out of the house instead. But I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of knowing our conversation bothered me.
I go into my room and try to process everything I just heard from him. His warning. Name-calling. His disdainful tone… laced with disappointment.
Instances like this are not common, but when it happens, it widens the crack in our relationship a little more each time. Still, it doesn’t sting any less when I see how differently he treats me.
I love June to death. But on days like this, I cannot help but envy her.
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