Five Years AgoHe noticed the birthday girl from the stage while he and the band played a cover of "Kickstart My Heart". He knew it was her birthday because of the crappy dollar store sash across her front painted with the words "Birthday Girl" scrawled in pink glitter across it.But the sash was soon forgotten when he laid eyes on the rest of her. Long dark hair, a lush garden of waves, tan skin, and holy shit, those curves. She had a body no man could resist.And she was watching him too, sipping on a drink, surrounded by her friends who were all chatting and giggling.She was staring at him.Not a hard feat considering he was the frontman of the band and the bar was so small and their sound was so loud. Still. Her gaze made him so nervous his palms started to sweat and his fingers tickled. He played the rest of the set on the brink, afraid he might mess up the next chord, the next lyric.They closed with "Yelling From the Bottom of a Hole," the one song anyone in this bar might act
RexFour days in this wretched hospital. And I’ve only gotten to see Isabella the one time she walked into my hospital room. I’ve been taking walks around my floor, rolling my IV along with me, hoping I might run into her which is a fruitless endeavor considering I’m in recovery and she spends all her time down in the ER.Still… it’s all I can do right now without begging a nurse or Amina to get her to come back and see me. I already got her there under the guise of saying “thank you”. I haven’t yet come up with another brilliant reason to get her to come back.The thing is, I don’t blame her for keeping her distance. I was hasty and overeager. I thought that’s what made me charming back in the day.Not to mention, the way we left things was definitive. Never again. A relationship lost to time.I can’t account for serendipity, though, can I?I feel a hand on my shoulder. “Hey, hey, hey, slow down, champ.”I shoot an annoyed glare at my manager, Mickey, who has taken Blaise’s place as
Isabella“Mrs. Delgado, I just wanted to call about your son’s test results,” a woman’s voice croons through my phone speaker.I’m too nervous to correct her that it’s not missus Delgado but doctor. “Okay. Excellent,” I say, my heart beating faster.“Is now a bad time?”“No, it’s a great time,” I say, shifting my phone to my shoulder and digging through my purse for my car keys. I’ve been waiting on pins and needles for this phone call for days, I’m not about to stop just because I’m walking out of the hospital to my car. “I’m all ears.”“Well, I’m pleased to inform you –’Yes.“Leo’s passed with flying colors. He’s a very bright boy. We think he’d be a great addition to next year’s class.”I breathe a sigh of relief. “That’s… that’s wonderful.”The woman I’m speaking to is the headmistress of Tremain Day School, one of the only non-religiously affiliated private schools in the county. My mother wants Leo to attend a Catholic school, of course. To that, I said, “Heck no,” since “hell”
"Like I'm his father?!" he yells, leaning over the console toward me.Our eyes lock."Don't you dare yell at me," I say in a soft, unforced way. "You can be angry with me, but you know I won't be spoken to like that."Rex rests a hand on the dashboard. "I don't know you at all, Isabella."He's right. We are strangers. One month together five years ago doesn't mean we know each other.And yet my heart breaks. That time of my life, that month, felt untouchable. A perfect crevice of time before life got really real.Now, Rex is back. And everything is different."You were a kid," I say, finally."I was twenty-six.""Yeah," I say. "A kid."Rex scoffs. "Don't act like because you were a few years older than me that meant we were so different.""Rex, we were different! You were literally about to become famous. Don't tell me you would have sacrificed any of your dreams to deal with an unplanned pregnancy," I reply.These are all facts I'm telling him. Not assumptions. We both know that it w
RexI rake my hand through my hair one more time, the gift bag knocking me in the head as I do so. Don't have enough hands for the flowers, the present, and a last-minute touch-up to the hair. Can't help it though. Force of habit.I'm standing at the front door of Isabella's house which is a short drive from the motel I'm staying at for the next week. Maybe longer if things go well and, damn, I hope they do.Though all the houses in the subdivision look about the same, Isabella's sticks out because the door has been painted green and a big crucifix hangs on it. I can almost hear the squabble that must have gone down between Isabella and Marisol over it.I lift my finger to the doorbell but don't press it.There's no way to prepare for a moment like this. I mean, I've tried. I made sure to get some nicer clothes than the bag of Walmart bullshit Mickey picked up for me when I was leaving the hospital, spent a profound amount on the flowers for Marisol, and the gift for Leo. I know nothi
He's a lady killer too. I guess it is genetic."Yes, it is." I hold the bag out toward him. "I hope you like it. I wasn't sure what you liked, so I got you a few things."Leo takes the bag from me, heavy and unwieldy enough that it's hard for him to keep up off the ground. "Thank you. Can I open it?""I think that's up to your mother," I say and give her the same batting of the eyelashes.Isabella's distance melts and she laughs. "Oh God, I'm –" Totally fucked, I bet is what she'd like to say. "Of course, sweetie, let's go sit down."What follows is almost as good as Christmas. Leo takes out each gift with an open-mouthed smile, looking to his mom in shock, then to me like I'm...I won't cry.Once the last present is out of the bag, Leo stacks up his haul on the coffee table in perfect order, making sure all the corners are squared. He lets out a satisfied sigh and then says, "Wow. I didn't expect this."My mouth quirks to the side."That was far too generous, Rex," Isabella says."Ah
IsabellaI never imagined Leo and Rex together. To protect myself.Okay, that's not true.I've blocked the imaginings out. They happened constantly while I was pregnant and even more often than that when Leo was a newborn. Seeing anyone hold Leo, I'd get a flash of what it might be like to see Rex hold Leo.He might not have been ready to be a dad. But I don't know if it's fair that I've assumed he'd have been a bad one.Because as I watch Rex and Leo building this Lego set from the next room, listening to the way they negotiate the pieces and the moments they talk about life and the way they can make each other laugh...It's clear I've made a mistake."A piece of him," my mother says in Spanish, her hand on my shoulder.I don't shrug her off the way I have so many times when she's mentioned Rex. The mentions are sparing over the years because she knows how it upsets me. "A man deserves the opportunity to become a father," she told me. And when I'd inevitably blow up at her, she'd add
I can't suppress my smile. "I guess we didn't really spend a lot of time doing things that weren't...""Depraved?"I gawp. "Depraved?! You make it sound like we were committing ritual sacrifice when you say it like that."He pulls our clasped hands into his lap. They rest on the warmth of his thighs. "Well, it wasn't innocent, how about that?"My heart rate quickens. "No, I suppose not.""I can't imagine how scared you must have been.""I wasn't," I say.He rolls his eyes. "Liar."I laugh. "Not a liar. My body was literally built to have babies, I wasn't scared.""You know I'm not just talking about having a baby. But having a child. The whole thing.""Fair. I'll give you that."Rex shifts in his seat, closer to the window. We're mere inches apart. I keep my eyes downcast on our hands.Fuck. I feel it again. That unavoidable magnetism that pulled us together."Will you let me see him again?" he asks."Yeah, I mean, if you have time.""'Course I got fucking time for him."I feel a pang