Studio... house... dinning...room...studio... house... kitchen...room...studio... house... dinning... kitchen...roomIt's been on repeat for days and it's driving me nuts.Sometimes I just wanna go out and explore and do some other things and all..I'm even grateful for the studio..it's a small escape from all this sometimes..so I just dedicate myself to it.Today I stayed back a little late Because this particular drawing was a bit complex...by the time I was done it was 8pm.I packed up and locked up and headed outside.To my surprise, there was a black G-Wagon sitting right in front of the building.That's Amber's car.My heart skipped a bit because fuck we haven't had a conversation with more than 3 words In almost 3 weeks now.I looked around and my security guys were there."Is that Amber?", I asked."Yes ma, he dismissed your driver and said he'd take you home himself", one of them replied.I nodded slowly and slightly surprised.I arranged my bags in my hands properly and walke
3 weeks...three fucken weeks and Amber hasn't spoken to me.. it's fucken killing me.I can't even draw anything reasonable without him drifting his way into my mind.I don't know but he's been rather calm lately. He's barely at home and the few times he's around, he's in his room or he's in his office.I've been trying honestly .... maybe a little too hard but I'm looking really stupid these days just trying to get him to talk.I'm sorry but I'm lonely in this place...most of the time I talk to James, Aaron and I don't really relate that well and Asher isn't a social person. Mrs Williams has a lot of things doing and Sam has work to do.Honestly if I didn't get this studio....I don't know how I would have survived But I still need company..I know I said I wanted every damn space and all....but like it's way too much.And I feel like we just started getting along... now this?I looked at the time....it was 10:56pm.I could actually stay longer till like midnight honestly... because th
AmberLexy Fucken MattewsI don't know what exactly this girl is doing to me, but I don't like it...I don't like it at all.I am unconsciously creating a small part of my black heart for this woman to slip inside.I woke up this morning and found myself holding this girl like my life depended on it to survive.I saw myself in the most vulnerable position in the world, and she was holding me back!Like I couldn't move at a point, I felt like I was breaking inside.I started having this nostalgic feeling and it was driving me nuts.It reminded me of my mother, it reminded me how close she use to hold it me... and fuck it was breaking me I pulled away sharply and she stirred.I immediately regretted it.I was lucky she didn't wake up.Fuck this woman is beautiful... like sometimes I wonder how the fuck she's married to me.I remembered last night, and everything that happened.I can't believe I actually told her to stay back....and she fucken did...damn!I took a deep breath in and rele
Lexy...I rolled a bit for the 1000th time that day and to My greatest surprise, those huge soothing hands weren't around me anymore.I opened my eyes, the bed was empty..be was gone.How the fuck did I not know?Everytime he stirred in his sleep I'll be forcefully woken up and I'll have to hug him tightly and tell him to go back to sleep.Gosh he's such a big baby.I don't think I want to go to work today... might just stay back a little and hope that Amber actually tells me why he's been off lately.I got a better view of his room...Damn it was huge and gloomy goshhhWhat kind of dark aesthetic is this???I feel like ripping off those scary drapes and replacing them with something less creepy... But I can't, this isn't my room either way Last time I was here I couldn't really see the room, but now is creepy.I rolled out of his bed and walked out of his room quietly and went into my room to freshen up.***An hour later I was done and went to find Amber.He was having breakfast
Club 001 I just hate this place, I mean seriously we could have gone anywhere in the world than here.He turned off the engine and took his headphones off and then opened the door and got out.I did the same tho it wouldn't be so bad if he oh I don't know opened the car for me and all...I'm just saying.He didn't put his hands around me like last time, he didn't hold me... nothing...he just started walking towards the building.Then he stopped abruptly and turned around and saw me still standing beside his car.He looked at me confused and then sighed and walked back towards me."What?", he asked.I didn't say anything, honestly I didn't even know what he wanted me to say...I just held unto my bag like a three year old."Let's go in", he said."Why?", I asked.He arched his brow, "What do you mean why?"."Why here, what am I doing here, why did you bring me here exactly...I really don't understand", I said.He rubbed his temple,"Lexy, we're not going to do this today, okay? let's go
Two..three.. four... five...I've lost count of the amount of drinks I've had.It's been a while since I last went drunk, and today I want nothing in my head other than bubbles because I don't want to think tonight..I wish that by morning I will forget everything about tonight.I noticed someone sit beside me, but I was least concerned as I forced the bitter liquid down my throat."You declined my presence for alcohol? now I'm sure you do not have taste at all", I heard the person beside me say.I turned to look at him sluggishly and a saw a faint image of this man that looked my dad's age.I scoffed, "What is it with you old men and young ladies, geez didn't you have a life when you were younger?", I mumbled.He smirked, "Old or not, I can take you round the world with just one machine", he said."Yeah sure with your fully erected 5inches dick, of course you can ", I said rolling my eyes."You seem fierce, I like you", he said.I laughed a little."What's funny darling?", he asked."
You see the shit they call Alcohol??Fuck it!!!!I just woke up on Amber's bed today and I wondered what exactly I'm doing here, and then every damn memory of last night flashed into my head and I fucken screamed.Like holy fuck I told Amber that I use to have sex dreams of him, I fucken told him that, and I regret it...!!!!I regret every damn thing that happened last night, what the fuck was I even saying? Shit shit shit fuck fuck fuck shit fucken shit, fuckkkkkkkkkkk.Oh My God all my standards and morals in the trashhhhhh.How am I even supposed to even look him in the face 😭😭Fuck you vodka!I immediately jump out of bed just incase he comes in again, I am not ready to see him, I'll be so fucken embarrassed.I'm so lucky I didn't even talk about my conversation with Tiffany yesterday.Fuck me.I tip toe to the door and opened it quietly, I poked my head out like a three year old and looked left to right about a thousand times before I ran into my room and shut the door behind
There's a very certain sexual tension between Amber and i, and it's very very thick.Like... the eye contacts...The meeting in very uncomfortable positions lately....The stares... the looks...His words... the way he responds to things.I almost forgot what his father did to me.But no I could never tho.This morning while having breakfast with the boys...Aaron said something about his father and I froze.Like on the spot."Amber can you see your dad?", I asked calmly.All of them stopped their conversation and looked at me like I was crazy."You ? you want to see my dad?", he asked confirming if I was normal.Of course I'm not fucken normal!Jesus Christ Tiffany told me not to talk about these people or anything related to them else they'll kill me!But then I want to investigate on this..I want to know the real truth and I want to know who's involved and why they're doing this to innocent people!"Yes", they exchanged glances... very much confused."I'm sorry I gotta ask....uhm..
"Lexy", Amber called out calmly.I couldn't control it , was just flowing and flowing and I couldn't stop myself.It's been so long I felt this feeling, of being completely lost, being hopeless and unable to do anything about it."Lexy", he called again and tried touch me, I stopped him immediately."Your family has cost me nothing more than pain, tears, sorrows. My mother was killed in an accident because your father was looking for young girls and my twin sister happened to be the target, my sister was kidnapped, abused, raped, and destroyed for years. I was kidnapped and I almost died in that ship! my life never went to same way it was after that experience, my father bullied and harassed me, I find out that my twin sister had been alive all along and she has been used by them, all of them! born to be tortured all her life and die in the most painful way ever created, and I thought for one second, just one second! that I was safe with you, that you're my safe haven and you literall
"Or better still, none of you leave", he said and the door shut close behind us.Amber stepped forward."Let me make this very clear, first of all, this ship is surrounded with my men everywhere, so one wrong move and you're gone. Second of all, hand Nexy and Samantha over nicely "."And if I don't?", he asked."I don't take instructions from kids I raised, I can choose to sink this ship or I turn it into a suicide mission and bomb it and we all die here and there's no case at all, I make the rules now, I have you exactly where I want to "."That's where you're wrong ", I said, "We have you right where we want to. Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe one of us is with a wire, or a camera, recording the whole thing and is giving the police informations about everything going on right now?", I asked.Color started draining from his face. I smirked, I've had him right where I want to, I could see the fear in him."You wouldn't, you've also said things to incriminate yourself ", h
I now understand what Aaron meant but childhood trauma, this was it, this was all it. I started moving back slowly, whimpering, I was loosing it, I was clearly loosing it. Amber held my two hands. "Lexy, Lexy look at me, none of it is real, it's not real, he can't hurt you, I'm here, I'm here", he said shaking me but I wouldn't stop. I was having a panic attack, I could feel it. I should have listened to him and stayed back. Darius was Laughing, "What is it? I mean with the way Griffin described you I thought you could handle a little trauma. Is my face that scary?", he laughed. "See this is why we kill you all while you're young, so you won't have to experience this", he said taking a sip of his wine. Amber kept on talking and hugging me so I could calm down. "He's gonna hurt me, he's gonna hurt me", I whimpered. "Lexy fucken Matthew", he said looking me dead in the eye. "No one in this entire fucken world will hurt you!". I closed my eyes and started trying to r
Mayfair.Of course it was Mayfair, that ship! it should be burnt down to ashes.Amber held my hands, "Lexy I don't think you should go in there", he said.He could see the trauma on my face. I was fighting to hide it.I shook my head."Amber my sister and my best friend is in there, I just started enjoying her company and Sam! no Amber I will never forgive myself if anything happens to any of them, I won't!"."Amber I don't think we should wait another second, let's go in there", Aaron said.He's been so worked up about all of this especially since it involves Sam.I could see worry and stress all over him."Lexy this thing is dangerous", Amber said really worried."I've been in that ship before, I survived it, I'm going in", I said firmly.He sighed and grabbed a bullet proof vest and put it on me."Don't leave my sight", he stated.I nodded."We ready?", he asked and everything nodded.Then Amber gave the signal and everyone split up on the dock except the boys, we moved in to the s
So far, things weren't going so bad; I mean, Griffen hasn't brought up anything about Amber yet. He's pleading innocent to the charges; Tiffany was called forth as a witness; she gave her experience with Mayfair, and so did I, everything, in detail! I relived that day again; Tiffany could barely hold herself; she broke down countless times while telling her story. The last witness was supposed to be Nexy, she was the main witness in all of this, she has her journal on her and very vital and delicate information that will ruin Griffen, but the judge asked that the case be adjourned because she could barely process the shit she was hearing and she denied him bail. With that, the court rose, and Griffen was taken by the police back to his cell. "He has a plan, a very dangerous one, Dad's not this quiet about downfalls, especially one that's going to end him.", Asher said behind me "It's gonna have something to do with Amber; I just know, I can feel it," Aaron said. . "We're
"Sir, your father is here to see you". I looked at Amber, Amber looked at Sam and Sam looked at me. For some reason, there was this thick tension in the atmosphere. "Bring him in", he said. "Amber", Sam said, worried, because we were literally discussing how the case was going to be like minutes before he came. "It's okay, it's my house, we're safe", he said and that bastard showed his face in Amber's office, he wasn't smiling. "Samantha?", he called out calmly but fiercely. How does he even know Sam? "You want to resurrect Mayfair's case?", he asked with mockery in his voice. I expected Sam to back down, but she didn't, "No, I want to resurrect Mayfair's case, alongside the abduction of Next and the other 12 girls you kidnapped that period and the other children that you sent as suicide bombers, all of them", she said confidentially. Griffen gave a long laugh. "You're hilarious, you know, when I heard about it, I thought you were joking; do you know how many lawyers died,
Amber had work to do and went out that day and Next had moved in with Sam. She said she's pretty uncomfortable staying with Amber and me in the same house after...you know. Pretending to be me and all, Samantha said it was alright if she stayed with her for a while.Get much information from her concerning the case.I decided to pay a visit to James.I knocked on his door, and she appeared seconds later."Hi Lexy, come in", he said in a little bit cheerful tone. This has been the happiest he's been since I got back.He had an apron on and was covered in flour."What are you doing?", I asked as I followed him into the kitchen."Well, I was trying out this new recipe that I saw online for chocolate chip cookies; I love that stuff, "he said.I nodded not wanting to ask any further."What brings you to my home?", I asked."Well, Amber went out for work stuff, and my sister stays with Sam now, so I decided to swing by so we can talk", I said, sticking my finger into the batter bowl, trying
LEXY**Amber is the sweetest husband and the world and also the sexiest, because tell me why I wake up in the morning and I'm seeing him relaxing on the wall naked looking at me and smiling like a devil."Why are you looking at me like you want to fuck me for the 100th time?", I asked.He chuckled and came over to the bed and kissed me."Just admiring what is mine", he said and then deepened the kiss.I knew where this was going, oh no I'm still badly sore from last night.I pulled away and rolled over to the other side of the bed."Stay away from me, you monsterous sex addict", I cursed.He started laughing, hard."Now that is the Lexy I know", he said."Oh come here, I know you want it, you're the one that came into the house looking like a box of sexy meat", he said coming over to the other side of the bed.True, I was horny as fuck yesterday, but that's all over now."That was yesterday, get a grip on yourself", I said rolling away again."Okay fine, I'll be a good boy, c'mon, I
I explained everything to him in details, James didn't say anything, he was just quiet.James is never quiet, he always has something to say, and he was just staring at me, his eyes held pain."Why didn't you tell me?", he asked calmly."I...I didn't know how to tell you, I was scared and confused and... and.. I talked to Lexy about it and she said I was probably bi sexual and and-""You spoke to Lexy first before telling me?", the pain in his voice when he said it, the pain in his voice."Mr. James I'm deeply sorry about all of this, it's my fault, I take full responsibility and -""You don't... you don't have to say anything Stella, really, you don't. I have nothing against you, this is a conversation between me and Asher. You can leave", he said.She gave me a worried look and then left.James couldn't even look me in the eyes again."Asher do you have any idea how much I love you? do you know the length I would go to do anything for you? to protect you? Being gay is a lot, I know