You see the shit they call Alcohol??Fuck it!!!!I just woke up on Amber's bed today and I wondered what exactly I'm doing here, and then every damn memory of last night flashed into my head and I fucken screamed.Like holy fuck I told Amber that I use to have sex dreams of him, I fucken told him that, and I regret it...!!!!I regret every damn thing that happened last night, what the fuck was I even saying? Shit shit shit fuck fuck fuck shit fucken shit, fuckkkkkkkkkkk.Oh My God all my standards and morals in the trashhhhhh.How am I even supposed to even look him in the face ππFuck you vodka!I immediately jump out of bed just incase he comes in again, I am not ready to see him, I'll be so fucken embarrassed.I'm so lucky I didn't even talk about my conversation with Tiffany yesterday.Fuck me.I tip toe to the door and opened it quietly, I poked my head out like a three year old and looked left to right about a thousand times before I ran into my room and shut the door behind
There's a very certain sexual tension between Amber and i, and it's very very thick.Like... the eye contacts...The meeting in very uncomfortable positions lately....The stares... the looks...His words... the way he responds to things.I almost forgot what his father did to me.But no I could never tho.This morning while having breakfast with the boys...Aaron said something about his father and I froze.Like on the spot."Amber can you see your dad?", I asked calmly.All of them stopped their conversation and looked at me like I was crazy."You ? you want to see my dad?", he asked confirming if I was normal.Of course I'm not fucken normal!Jesus Christ Tiffany told me not to talk about these people or anything related to them else they'll kill me!But then I want to investigate on this..I want to know the real truth and I want to know who's involved and why they're doing this to innocent people!"Yes", they exchanged glances... very much confused."I'm sorry I gotta ask....uhm..
I've been unable to think properly for the past 2 days without Amber bumping into my thoughts.For months I've thought I was the saint here, I just realized that I was the monster.Not completely but then...If everything Aaron said that day was true, then I have to be honest with you... I've been too harsh on him.For someone to do all those things by himself and is still struggling to keep me, he's beyond strong.Like.... how can one person carry such amount of pain in one body.Amber is not the monster here, it's his father.That bastard!I don't know where he came from honestly... but he has to go.If Amber doesn't kill him then I will.I strolled downstairs and heard the boys arguing about something...I decided not to care and started heading straight to the kitchen."Good, Lexy is here, Lexy can you please come over", James said stopping me.I groaned, "What?", I said switching lanes and walked towards them."So Jonah had a vacation reservation... you know Jonah right?", he aske
There's something they call pretty girl privilege, and it definitely works for me...all the time.Guess who just arrived Dubai after an almost 14 hours plane ride?I did.And guess who was grumbling and murmuring all through the ride?Amber.He finally agreed after I used all my sober ways on him.I'm such an angel.Dubai is fucken beautiful!!!Like this place has to be a second heaven because fuck you have no idea what I'm seeing.Of course there's the heat but then damnnnn.And then they have lovely outfits..I'm so going to take pictures in them...God this place is everything.I keep on squealing like a kid all through the ride to our hotel.Like under this one week I'm gonna have all the fun in the world...at least before I go back to my life of sorrow.Then after almost another hour of driving..we pulled up in front of this hot sleek glass house.I know I know our house is already a glass house, but like this is times ten of it!!!This place is Amazing!!!"Oh my God, you guys rent
This is the life....Me on a roof top sipping wine and allowing the sun spread his fine rays on me.I just came back from a 45 minutes massage and boy do I feel good."Remind me again why Amber wanted to reject this offer?", I asked taking off my shades.βTo stay at home and work",Aaron replied mocking him while taking a sip of his wine.Amber grunted.Honestly since yesterday he's been grumpy and he's not even try to loosen up at all.He bluntly refused to go to the spar with us today, and I had to drag him to the roof top with us."What are the plans for tomorrow?", Asher asked."Well English breakfast here, then a tour round later in the afternoon, and then we're going to a theatre later in the night ", James replied reading the schedule from his phone."I'm definitely not coming ", Amber said standing up and grabbing a bottle of beer from the mini fridge."Why not?", I said sitting up."I don't want to ", he said rigidly."So what, you'll just stay here and do nothing all day whil
"You fucken posted it on Instagram and captioned it life with my sugar daddy? Oh Lexy I will fucken kill you", Amber said tossing a strawberry at me which I dodged.I laughed, "What did you want me to say? late night in the Jacuzzi with my husband that I forced to come on a vacation with me? oh please", I said laughing."I'm not a daddy, Jesus I'm not even up to 30, Don't address me as that ", he said."Okay daddy ", I said giving him a cheesy smile.I watched him bite his lips shamelessly.He leaned in a little, "Well unless like that then sure why not ", he said.I rolled my eyes."Can two of you just quit this lovey dovey stuff God I feel like throwing up "Aaron said stuffing his face with pancakes.I turned to him, "Go get yourself a wife, you're old enough "."Yeah, I've been talking to you about Samantha ", he said smirking."She's off limits ", I said cutting him off."Okay guys I think the tour guy just arrived "James said looking downstairs as a man walked into our house."We
For the past 7 days, I've tried to enjoy this short filled happiness but I can't because I'm scared of what will happen when we go back to Italy and everything will go back to the way it has always been.I had dreaded getting back on the plane ( oh did I mention that Amber has his private airplane? you have no idea, I even heard he has a helicopter) to Italy because all the fun will die down and Amber will go back to that same old person he had always been.But like.. it's been 2 days now and like... everything is still the same way.He's sweet, and he'd pick me up from the studio twice and he's being normal and nice like...I don't know why I didn't meet this part of his earlier.But like I'm just scared that we're gonna fall off again and something horrible is going to happen.And I feel like this time it's me that's going to fuck up.So this is Me walking bare feet to his office by 9pm , I knocked...I didn't wait for a response..I opened.He seemed busy whatsoever yeah but we had to
"Lexy you can't be possibly serious", James groaned for the 100th time tonight.So basically I tied him up with handcuffs I found in his drawer and there's a belt In my hands that I promise you I'm not gonna be nice with."What are you doing with a handcuff anyway?", I asked."Tried BDSM, never doing that shit again".My hand flew to my mouth."On Asher? that poor boy", I said wacking him in the head."Ouch, he suggested it, not me", he defended.I paused, nope, I'm not even gonna ask."James you said Amber's a sex addict and now you're trying to tell me that Amber hasn't had sex with anyone since we got married? oh please", I said."Look first of all, I don't know his sex routine okay? I don't know the people he fucks with, the only person I knew about was Stacey, and that was before you both got married....I don't know anything further please ", I wasn't still satisfied with this."And just to add to this, it's definitely going to be your fault if he cheats, I mean you're like fucke
LEXY **I woke up and rolled to the other side of the bed but it was empty.Amber... But like we're supposed to have a wedding today, where is he?I grabbed my phone and called Sam."Hey"."Hey bitch"."Aren't you coming around? to get my. make up ready and stuff"."Oh uhm... I got an emergency from one of my clients and... damn it you know I wouldn't miss your wedding for the world, I'm just running a bit late, I'll still make it up right on time, I'll send someone down there to help you out ok?".That's disappointing.I sighed."I'm so sorry Lexy, I would have cancelled if I could but unfortunately I can't, I'm so sorry", she said again."It's okay", i said and cut the call.Great.Wonderful way to do a wedding.I called Amber and he wasn't picking up.I called James."Yo, where are you?",I asked."Lexy uhm... my school just called, I have this fucken emergency test That I have to take first thing tomorrow morning, I don't even know if I'll make it before then but I can meet up fo
LEXY *I love this Amber, I love him so much and I wish life would last forever.He's been treating me like I'm the baby. He doesn't let me do anything, like nothing at all.He gives me a warm bath every morning, helps me brush my teeth, gets me clothed in very comfortable clothes, he cooks now since Mrs Williams have been absent for a while now, I think she's staying with her niece that recently gave birth or something.And he ensures we do gentle exercises and we work out often.He turned the basement into a gym. And yes he's becoming pretty muscular now and good in the eyes.My Art Gallery is finally officially open. It was one of the best and happiest days of my life, and none of it would have happened without Nicole Anderson and of course Amber.But since I was pregnant, Mrs Anderson was the one managing everything till I'm fully ready to work. She's literally my art idol, imagine your role model working for you, perks of being Amber's Wife.."So ... I was thinking", he said.
AMBER I've been so anxious to see Lexy. When she called that she had a surprise, my mind went to a million places .I wanted to pick her up at the airport but James already said he was going to.It was so good seeing everyone again, they looked so happy as cheerful, honestly the distance was just what we needed.When I saw Lexy, she looked so different. She had added a little weight and she had this long big gown on her, but regardless she looked so beautiful and happy, the fact that she was happy was everything for me.Seeing her smile so genuinely, it was so pleasant.But then ... she didn't hug me back the way I expected her to... two seconds later she already pulled away.It made me feel weird for the moment.Then she wanted us to talk about our personal growth. To be very honest, I've grown a lot. There's so much personal development that I never knew I could have reached to this point.And then she dropped the bomb shell."You're pregnant?"."Oh my God"."I'm going to be an Au
I called all the boys to suspend whatever shit they were doing and get back to Italy.I was 6 months pregnant now, and I was done with Therapy and every other thing.Besides my Gallery opening was in a week time but I wanted to inform the boys about it first.None of them know about it, even Sam, like I've been so good keeping this a secret from them.Apparently, Amber's seeds swim pretty fast, it was that time he came over to see me and we fucked, I definitely didn't see it coming. I've been so anxious, only Mrs Anderson knew about it. I've been so anxious about breaking the news to them.I was having a little baby bump now, but it wasn't even obviously because I naturally have a flat tummy.At least my vegetarian lifestyle and fitness paid off.But I still didn't want them to notice a thing, so I wore this very long bubba gown.James said he was going to come pick me up and I haven't been any happier to see him.When I arrived at the airport, he ran to hug me.But I had to be caref
I travelled back to Miami and I told my therapist all about it, and in all honesty, she was disappointed initially, but then she said she was also very proud of me for fighting it and the sudden realization that revenge won't solve anything. She said she was also proud of me for trying to help Laura. She said I was making progress.Rodrigo's body was found in his house and apparently, no one was even trying to investigate his demise because they saw it coming, he'd lived a shitty life.I spoke to Amber when I got home, he said he could have sworn that he saw someone who looked exactly like me in Italy.I teased him that he missed me so much he's now seeing me everywhere, but the possibility of that being me is Very very high.I'm ok now, I'm better now. But I'm honestly so worried about Laura. I don't want to get involved in her life because from the looks of it, it's really shitty. But I worry for her everyday.Mrs Anderson was getting a tattoo of a butterfly on her back and so she
I was packing to leave back to Miami, I'm guessing my therapist is really not going to like what I've done.She's going to talk about me not letting go the rage that has been holding me down all these years.My door flew open and Laura barged in with a cigarette."How the fuck did you get in?"."Why did you hesitate to kill that man?", she asked, same look she had the first time I saw her."What?"."He said things that hurt you, badly, and you were going to chicken away, just like that?"."Well now that I've killed him, what happens next?"."So you mean to tell me that you're not getting the least satisfaction from what you did? not even a little?".I shrugged, "I do, buy does it worth it?"."Does it matter? you got what you wanted? aren't you happy?"."No... honestly. Look it was a stupid thing to even think of. Revenge... The Sweetness of revenge lasts only for a second... for the minute, but then the reality kicks in. It was all a complete waste of time. Nothing has changed. ""But
It was 11pm when Laura and I pulled up in front of Rodrigo's house. She had already taken care of everything before now, the security was put to sleep because their drink was drugged. Laura suggested we just poison them to death but I didn't want to get them involved.The security cameras were all turned off and the house was empty, just Rodrigo was inside.We opened the door and went straight to his room.It was a horrible sight, he was having a threesome."Get out!", Laura yelled at the girls there pointing a gun at them.They immediately stopped and grabbed their clothes and ran out of the house.Laura pulled one of them back and pointed a gun to her throat, "If you say a word to anyone about what happened today, I will come for you and your entire family", she threatened.The girl nodded in fear and ran away.We turned back to Rodrigo who was shaking on the bad. He had the sheets covering his nude body.Laura went to him and sat right beside him and kept the gun on his head."Reme
I know I said that I was done with Drama and I just wanted to heal, but there was one more thing I had to do- Find my dad's killer and know exactly what happened.My sister and my mother are resting in peace knowing they've gotten justice, but not my father. And although he lived a shitty life, he made the biggest sacrifice for us to be safe by quiting Mafia.This time around I didn't want to get Amber or his family involved, and I didn't want to get Sam involved either, this was going to be some crazy ass shit but it was going to worth every minute of it.I flew back to Italy quietly, didn't even let anyone know I was in town. I went to my dad's house, I had refused to sell it or give it out ever since he died because too many memories where here, I grew up here, my entire life was this place. It was my safe haven when I was a kid... It ended up being a prison for me eventually because I was asked never to leave but... this was my home.I had a suspect in mind; Rodrigo, he was my fa
I linked up with Mrs Anderson a month later. She choked me with sympathy about what happened, and I really didn't need that. I'd almost say I've become her PA, she takes me to every art exhibition she goes to and she tells everyone about my art and invites as much people as she can for my Gallery opening. Gracefully, this time around, there's no abusive ex to ruin it.I asked her about Conrad and she said he's been sad, that which I was very happy about, she also told me that Amber took care of him, that I definitely didn't expect to hear.We went for one Women conference in Brazil recently and, I must say it's been refreshing traveling out and meeting new people with similar minds and stories as yours.I've met ex wives and mistresses of Don's and Mafia's and all I can say is, I'm truly lucky, because not even one of them mentioned anything about their man changing or becoming a better person, talk less of for them. Everytime I hear a woman who has been with a Mafia man tell their