As a feminist, marrying someone you were forced to or being an exchange for money or power was something I swore never to do.I had set my standards to be one woman that men will crave but never get.But today,I was going to break them all.I was going to change everything I had ever built and suffered for years.I took a deep breath in and released it as I stared at myself on the mirror.I didn't have a choice.I had to do this for my father.My dad was into dirty businesses and they started backfiring at him and it's not only affecting him but he says he feels like his enemies are going to come for me too .I tried to convince him that nothing would happen to me and that I'm a strong woman and that I don't need protection, but he insists.Few weeks after my convocation from college he calls me to come home for an emergency and he says that I must get married immediately.I laughed and told him that it is not in my list of things to do presently to get married and he pleads with me,
I think I dozed off for a while...but then I jerked awake when we pulled up in front of this massive gate.The gate slowly opened and we rode into this huge massive but mini estate.There were Four buildings in the place all together and each of them looked heavenly.The place had flowers and gardens all around it , it looked too beautiful to be true.Then we drove into one of the houses and alighted.I stared at the house in shock.The down part was completely glass... everything.It was a duplex and it looked extra ordinary."Welcome home", James said smiling and he helped me with my dress as we walked into the building.I walked inside and observed the place.Everything was either white, grey or gold.He had a nice taste of fashion and the furnitures and lighting looked bloody expensive.I took my time to admire the beauty of this place...it was heavily.Are you sure a heatless Mafia boss lives here?Then, a middle aged woman appeared from one of the doors."Hello Mrs Williams, thi
He was handsome.... extremely handsome.He had this hot boy aura whenever he walked and he carried himself like what he was -a freaking king.But regardless of his amazing physical appearance, he had a very bad character and his name is well spoken of.In all honesty, I was expecting to meet him all pissed up with an angry look on his face and yell out me and probably punish me for shouting at him or something.But no.. he seemed calm and the total opposite of how I imagined him to be... maybe I caught him in a good mood.James did say he had fifty shades of his personality.I went back to my room and told Sam about it and man did she scream.She asked me if he was ugly and I couldn't lie... he was too hot to even lie about.But then I told her not to freak about it too much that he was a criminal, a gangster and a Mafian, all in one.I took a shower and found some comfort clothes to wear and found Mrs Williams and asked her if she could get me some paint.. like a lot of colors.She d
I was freaking hungry as hell.I was used to going to bed without eating honestly...but maybe it was because I barely ate anything at all during the day time.I stared at the clock,it was 2:35am.I groaned and got outta bed.I got downstairs and headed to the kitchen hoping I would find at least even milk to drink . I got into the kitchen and turned on the light. I went to the fridge and it was empty.Damn it.I just remembered Mrs Williams saying that she had to go grocery shopping tomorrow.I heard someone chuckle behind me and I swiftly turned and saw Amber leaning on the door with a black tank top and some shorts, he was smirking."What?", I asked."I'm guessing your diet turned out bad?", he said dragging the diet.I rolled my eyes."No...I just need milk", I mumbled staring at the fridge."You hungry?", he asked.And I swear to God I was badly hungry.But no...I wouldn't give him the satisfaction to prove me wrong."No", I mumbled.He strolled past me and opened one of the cupbo
I decided to take James words to heart pay Amber a visit talk to him.And trust me... it's not going to be a nice sweet conversationThe next morning, I headed straight for his house office without knocking and walked in.All eyes in the room went on me and all conversations stopped.Amber was sitting behind his chair doing some paperwork, he slowly lifted his head up when he noticed his brothers stopped talking.His eyes raked my body thoroughly and I swear if eyes had powers I would have been naked by now.His stares were getting really uncomfortable,so I cleared my throat."My eyes are up here", I said and rolled my eyes.He slowly took away his stares from my body to my eyes and then gave me a questioning look.I don't know if it's me or is it that killers have to be so goddamn handsome...is it like part of their eligibilities while signing up? because dammmnnn this man is fucking hotttt.His hair is everywhere on his face and he's not making any effort to remove it, and then the
"Hey James", I said."Sorry uhh, I kinda overhead your conversation, shit that was bad", he said.I shrugged, "Well I was just taking your advice", I said with a shrug."No no no, I said talk to him about it, not yell at him Jesus Lexy no one in the universe has ever yelled at him like that, I swear not even his dad", he said."So what's he going to do? throw me out? or kill me? punish me? take me through painful torture?, I don't mind, anything to get me out of this house", I said with a shrug.He stared at me with a shocked face."You know you're a very wild lady", he said.I laughed, "I'm not, I'm just a feminist and I don't see my feminism dreams coming true if I stay in this building like this", I said."Just try not to upset Amber that much, he's really temperamental", James said."Oh my God I will so upset him till he looses it and actually send me out of here", I said heading back to my bed."Think about Martins, do you really think this whole marriage thing is going to work?
Maybe this is how I'm meant to be.Caged...Alone...And unloved.This was my destiny maybe, to be moving from one circle of danger, fear and restriction to another.I had lost everyone in my family because of this same Mafia nonsense, and now the only way to protect me is sell me into another dangerous and destructive family that'll probably lead me to suicide if I'm not careful.All I want is happiness and true freedom.But what do I get?Pain and suffering... after everything I ever went through before now this?I sighed.My door flew opened interrupting my thoughts.I jerked up from my bed."What the fuck Amber what happened to knocking?", I asked.Ever since our fight two nights ago I've done my best to avoid him and his entire family completely....well except for Mrs Williams and James."My father wants to say you", he says impatiently ignoring my comment.I froze, "What?", I asked."My father wants to see you", he repeated again."Why?", I asked."Geez I don't know Lexy, he hea
Samantha was crying the time she met me on the floor unable to do anything because I felt like I was being choked by something I could barely see."Just take me to my room, please I'll direct you", I managed to say and she carried my in her arms and headed towards the door.Immediately she opened it, Aaron was standing there."What happened to her?", he asked asked seemed like he was panicking."I don't know, she just fucken called me that she needs help, I'm supposed to be asking you that! if anything happens to my best friend I swear to God it won't be funny ", she said pissed.She and Aaron managed to get me upstairs and dropped me on my bed."Breathe Lexy, breathe. Take a deep breath in, release it, in , out, in out, in out ", she said placing her hands on my shoulder."Fuck this is bad, I'm going to call Amber", Aaron said standing up."No", I managed to choke out."I'm sorry Lexy, but he needs to see this ", he said and left the room.Sam grabbed a towel and ran to the bathroom
LEXY **I woke up and rolled to the other side of the bed but it was empty.Amber... But like we're supposed to have a wedding today, where is he?I grabbed my phone and called Sam."Hey"."Hey bitch"."Aren't you coming around? to get my. make up ready and stuff"."Oh uhm... I got an emergency from one of my clients and... damn it you know I wouldn't miss your wedding for the world, I'm just running a bit late, I'll still make it up right on time, I'll send someone down there to help you out ok?".That's disappointing.I sighed."I'm so sorry Lexy, I would have cancelled if I could but unfortunately I can't, I'm so sorry", she said again."It's okay", i said and cut the call.Great.Wonderful way to do a wedding.I called Amber and he wasn't picking up.I called James."Yo, where are you?",I asked."Lexy uhm... my school just called, I have this fucken emergency test That I have to take first thing tomorrow morning, I don't even know if I'll make it before then but I can meet up fo
LEXY *I love this Amber, I love him so much and I wish life would last forever.He's been treating me like I'm the baby. He doesn't let me do anything, like nothing at all.He gives me a warm bath every morning, helps me brush my teeth, gets me clothed in very comfortable clothes, he cooks now since Mrs Williams have been absent for a while now, I think she's staying with her niece that recently gave birth or something.And he ensures we do gentle exercises and we work out often.He turned the basement into a gym. And yes he's becoming pretty muscular now and good in the eyes.My Art Gallery is finally officially open. It was one of the best and happiest days of my life, and none of it would have happened without Nicole Anderson and of course Amber.But since I was pregnant, Mrs Anderson was the one managing everything till I'm fully ready to work. She's literally my art idol, imagine your role model working for you, perks of being Amber's Wife.."So ... I was thinking", he said.
AMBER I've been so anxious to see Lexy. When she called that she had a surprise, my mind went to a million places .I wanted to pick her up at the airport but James already said he was going to.It was so good seeing everyone again, they looked so happy as cheerful, honestly the distance was just what we needed.When I saw Lexy, she looked so different. She had added a little weight and she had this long big gown on her, but regardless she looked so beautiful and happy, the fact that she was happy was everything for me.Seeing her smile so genuinely, it was so pleasant.But then ... she didn't hug me back the way I expected her to... two seconds later she already pulled away.It made me feel weird for the moment.Then she wanted us to talk about our personal growth. To be very honest, I've grown a lot. There's so much personal development that I never knew I could have reached to this point.And then she dropped the bomb shell."You're pregnant?"."Oh my God"."I'm going to be an Au
I called all the boys to suspend whatever shit they were doing and get back to Italy.I was 6 months pregnant now, and I was done with Therapy and every other thing.Besides my Gallery opening was in a week time but I wanted to inform the boys about it first.None of them know about it, even Sam, like I've been so good keeping this a secret from them.Apparently, Amber's seeds swim pretty fast, it was that time he came over to see me and we fucked, I definitely didn't see it coming. I've been so anxious, only Mrs Anderson knew about it. I've been so anxious about breaking the news to them.I was having a little baby bump now, but it wasn't even obviously because I naturally have a flat tummy.At least my vegetarian lifestyle and fitness paid off.But I still didn't want them to notice a thing, so I wore this very long bubba gown.James said he was going to come pick me up and I haven't been any happier to see him.When I arrived at the airport, he ran to hug me.But I had to be caref
I travelled back to Miami and I told my therapist all about it, and in all honesty, she was disappointed initially, but then she said she was also very proud of me for fighting it and the sudden realization that revenge won't solve anything. She said she was also proud of me for trying to help Laura. She said I was making progress.Rodrigo's body was found in his house and apparently, no one was even trying to investigate his demise because they saw it coming, he'd lived a shitty life.I spoke to Amber when I got home, he said he could have sworn that he saw someone who looked exactly like me in Italy.I teased him that he missed me so much he's now seeing me everywhere, but the possibility of that being me is Very very high.I'm ok now, I'm better now. But I'm honestly so worried about Laura. I don't want to get involved in her life because from the looks of it, it's really shitty. But I worry for her everyday.Mrs Anderson was getting a tattoo of a butterfly on her back and so she
I was packing to leave back to Miami, I'm guessing my therapist is really not going to like what I've done.She's going to talk about me not letting go the rage that has been holding me down all these years.My door flew open and Laura barged in with a cigarette."How the fuck did you get in?"."Why did you hesitate to kill that man?", she asked, same look she had the first time I saw her."What?"."He said things that hurt you, badly, and you were going to chicken away, just like that?"."Well now that I've killed him, what happens next?"."So you mean to tell me that you're not getting the least satisfaction from what you did? not even a little?".I shrugged, "I do, buy does it worth it?"."Does it matter? you got what you wanted? aren't you happy?"."No... honestly. Look it was a stupid thing to even think of. Revenge... The Sweetness of revenge lasts only for a second... for the minute, but then the reality kicks in. It was all a complete waste of time. Nothing has changed. ""But
It was 11pm when Laura and I pulled up in front of Rodrigo's house. She had already taken care of everything before now, the security was put to sleep because their drink was drugged. Laura suggested we just poison them to death but I didn't want to get them involved.The security cameras were all turned off and the house was empty, just Rodrigo was inside.We opened the door and went straight to his room.It was a horrible sight, he was having a threesome."Get out!", Laura yelled at the girls there pointing a gun at them.They immediately stopped and grabbed their clothes and ran out of the house.Laura pulled one of them back and pointed a gun to her throat, "If you say a word to anyone about what happened today, I will come for you and your entire family", she threatened.The girl nodded in fear and ran away.We turned back to Rodrigo who was shaking on the bad. He had the sheets covering his nude body.Laura went to him and sat right beside him and kept the gun on his head."Reme
I know I said that I was done with Drama and I just wanted to heal, but there was one more thing I had to do- Find my dad's killer and know exactly what happened.My sister and my mother are resting in peace knowing they've gotten justice, but not my father. And although he lived a shitty life, he made the biggest sacrifice for us to be safe by quiting Mafia.This time around I didn't want to get Amber or his family involved, and I didn't want to get Sam involved either, this was going to be some crazy ass shit but it was going to worth every minute of it.I flew back to Italy quietly, didn't even let anyone know I was in town. I went to my dad's house, I had refused to sell it or give it out ever since he died because too many memories where here, I grew up here, my entire life was this place. It was my safe haven when I was a kid... It ended up being a prison for me eventually because I was asked never to leave but... this was my home.I had a suspect in mind; Rodrigo, he was my fa
I linked up with Mrs Anderson a month later. She choked me with sympathy about what happened, and I really didn't need that. I'd almost say I've become her PA, she takes me to every art exhibition she goes to and she tells everyone about my art and invites as much people as she can for my Gallery opening. Gracefully, this time around, there's no abusive ex to ruin it.I asked her about Conrad and she said he's been sad, that which I was very happy about, she also told me that Amber took care of him, that I definitely didn't expect to hear.We went for one Women conference in Brazil recently and, I must say it's been refreshing traveling out and meeting new people with similar minds and stories as yours.I've met ex wives and mistresses of Don's and Mafia's and all I can say is, I'm truly lucky, because not even one of them mentioned anything about their man changing or becoming a better person, talk less of for them. Everytime I hear a woman who has been with a Mafia man tell their