Maaga kaming umalis sa mansyon ng mga Fabros. May iilang regalo rin agad na ibinigay sila Tita bago kami umalis. I woke up late, so they probably told someone to buy gifts for us. We haven't been able to open it yet so I really don't know what's inside but it's most likely stuff for our son. Narito na kami ngayon sa mall dahil nag-aya si Kiel na mamili ng mga gamit para sa anak namin. Excitement immediately ignited throughout my body and so I am now happily choosing clothes for our son. We are in an infant wardrobe right now. As usual, our baskets were full of white and blue shirts. Naglagay na rin si Kiel ng maraming baby bottled milk and toys. Siya lahat ang pumili niyon dahil busy ako sa damit. I want my son to look like a model too! I'm now picking shirts that match Kiel's taste of fashion so that if ever our son looks exactly like his father, it would be easier to style him the same as his father! Imagining them wearing twining clothes is so cute! Right?!Kiel snake his arms ar
After we ate our breakfast, Kiel drove to our company to sort out things. Hindi n'ya pa sana balak na isama ako, pero nagpumilit ako. I should now stop working, he said. But, I told him I can still do some work. It didn't convince him, though. Dahil oo nga naman, napag-usapan na namin ang tungkol dito noon pa; na kapag malaki na ang tiyan ko, panandalian muna akong titigil sa pagtatrabaho. It just sounds so weird because he kept on pushing for it now. I don't know and I'm not sure, but I really think there's something wrong….. Hindi naman siya ganito mapilit dati. Ngayon lang. Ngayon lang s'ya tila ba may tinatago. "What time are we having our dinner?" tanong ko habang pinagmamasdan siyang busy sa pagbabasa ng mga papers na nasa lamesa n'ya."I already reserved at 8:00 pm," sagot n'ya, hindi man lang inaalis ang paningin sa mga papeles."The same restaurant?" "Yeah. Your favorite," he said in a monotone, nakatuon pa rin sa mga papeles. After the call he had earlier in the morning,
Sa mga nakalipas na araw, bihira na umuwi si Kiel. Kulang na lang ay isipin kong nakalimutan n'yang buntis ako o may asawa s'yang kailangan ng alaga n'ya.The caring Kiel had gone, I don't even know why… I don't understand.I bit my lower lips while we were silently eating together at the dining area. I suddenly felt like I wanted to cry. Wala kasi akong nakitang watermelon sa lagayan ng fruits namin, and I wanted to eat that.Clouded by those thoughts, I didn't even notice that my tears were now flowing down my cheeks. I am also sniffing right now which caught Kiel’s attention.His worried eyes were what I've witnessed. Tinarayan ko lang s'ya at saka ko iniwas ang aking paningin. “What do you want this time?” He said, coldly. Look at him! I thought he was concerned but it turns out he is not.Hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit naging ganito s'ya bigla. Sobrang biglaan talaga! Nakakainis lang dahil mas nagiging emosyonal ako sa mga trato n'ya sa akin lately. Pregnancy really suck
“Oh, my baby! What happened?” Sinalubong ako ng yakap ni mommy. I cried on her shoulder.Kanina nang nagsimulang paandarin ng driver namin ang kotse, tinawagan ko si mommy habang umiiyak. I informed her that I'll be home today. Ganito naman sila ni Daddy noon pa. Tuwing umuuwi ako, and it took me weeks or months to come home, lagi nila akong sinasalubong sa bukana pa lamang ng aming bahay. Pero ngayon, alam kong hindi lang ito dahil sa masaya silang makita ako, bagkus paniguradong nag alala sila sa akin. Tumawag ba naman akong umiiyak, who wouldn't be worried with that.“Mommy, I don't want to see Kiel anymore po.” Patuloy akong humagulgol sa bisig n'ya.I can feel mommy's sigh. “Let's go inside first, okay? We will have a talk,” anyaya n'ya. Wala na akong nagawa kundi ang magpa akay sa kanya. I walked like a lifeless pregnant woman still clinging to my mom.“Hon, get some water for our baby girl,” utos ni mommy kay daddy nang makaupo kami sa sala.Agad namang tumalima sa utos si Dadd
Pagkagising kinabukasan, hindi ko inaasahan na bubungad agad sa akin si mommy.“Ezekiel stayed here last night. Dito na rin namin pinatulog dahil ayaw umuwi. Kawawa naman kung hahayaan namin s'ya sa labas buong magdamag.”You should have let him stay outside. Mataray na saad ko sa aking isipan.“He is still here. Your Daddy is talking to him right now. Nakahanda na rin ang breakfast, sabay-sabay na tayong kakain.”Napanguso ako sa narinig kay mommy at saka paulit-ulit na umiling.“I don't want to see him right now po. Ayaw ko rin po muna s'yang kausapin.” Dahil sabi nga ni mommy, I should not be driven by my emotions dahil makasasakit lang ako ng tao. “We already told him about it and he respects your decision. Promise, he won't force you, darling. Napag usapan na namin iyon kanina. So, let's go?” Anyaya n'ya, kinukumbinsi ako.At dahil alam kong wala naman na akong magagawa, tumango na lang ako at nagpaalam na mag aayos muna at gagawin ang mga pang umagahang ritwal bago tuluyang buma
“Mom, can you help me po with the soup?” Bungad ko kay mommy. Naabutan ko silang dalawa ni dad sa sala na para bang may malalim na iniisip. Nabunutan lang ng tinik ng dumating ako. Both of them immediately smiled, then my mom furrowed her brow, confused with my sudden question.“I'm planning to make a soup for Kiel po. It makes him cope with stress, so…” I shrugged.Muling nabalik ang ngiti sa labi ni mommy. My dad on the other hand chuckled a bit. “Seems like you two had a talk already, hmm?” Mapanuyang saad ni mommy kasabay ng pag akbay sa akin.Nahihiya akong umiling sa kanya at saka nagpagiya papuntang kusina. Nagpaiwan naman si dad sa sala habang panay pa rin ang pagtawa habang nanonood ng TV.“What kind of soup does he want, darling?” Tanong ni mommy habang tulungan kami sa pagkuha ng ingredients sa refrigerator.“Anything that is spicy, mom.”Pagkasabi ko nun, mom then added a chili on the basket where we put all the ingredients we will use. Nang masigurong kumpleto na, nagsim
Kiel is making everything complicated. I can't understand why he can't say it to me right now. Kanina pa naman ay desidido na akong bumalik sa bahay naming dalawa pero sa inis na naramdaman ko, parang balak ko tuloy gawing one week ang stay dito kila mommy.“How's your talk, darling?” Mommy asked, naabutan n'ya akong nakabusangot sa aming garden, nagpapahangin dahil sa disappointment at inis na naramdaman kay Kiel.“It didn't go well po,” I pouted. Mom opened her arms, I immediately went to her and hugged her. Pagkasubsob na pagkasubsob ng aking ulo sa kanyang dibdib, hindi ko na napigilan anh pagluha. Mommy lets me burst out. I am now like a crying baby being comforted by her mom.“He said po that it is not the right time for me to know. I don't understand, mommy. Is there really a right time for everything? If he won't tell me everything right now, it might ruin our relationship. Hindi n'ya po ba naiisip ‘yon?” Nagpatuloy ako sa paghikbi. Mom heaved a deep sigh then proceeded to
Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa lahat ng pwede kong i-crave, ‘yung mga pagkain pa talagang bihira kong nakain or natikman.Paano ba kasi, tuwing nag s-scroll ako sa social media, kung anu-anong pagkain ang lumalabas sa news feed ko. Natatakam tuloy ako, at ayun… hanggang sa nararamdaman ko na lang din na I want to eat those food. Like what I watched earlier, I saw a girl cooking beef tapa and eating it. And another vlogger cooking a marinated chicken! Ngayon tuloy, gusto ko rin kumain at tikman pareho iyon. I know for sure Kiel deep down is questioning all my cravings because the food I request is usually not my kind of food. Ngayon lang talaga na buntis ako kaya parang takam na takam ako sa kahit anong klase ng pagkain.It was nine in the morning when Kiel finished cooking. Pumasok s'ya sa kwarto kong may malawak na ngiti sa mga labi habang bitbit ang isang tray kung saan nakalapag ang mga niluto niya.Pinagsama ko ang aking mga kamay. I giggled and wet my lips while waiting for Kiel to