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2020-10-27 12:00:12LEVI'S POV
Exploring my own dreams was an exciting for me to do, and just as the moment I realized that it was a dream, I didn't feel any fear at all. It was probably around 3 in the morning, and I was right as I glanced at my wristwatch.
I was standing in the middle of an old road with no sight of coming vehicles nor houses around. There were no street lights except for one broken lamp post near me, seemed like the place was abandoned. It was airy and eerie, and the moment that a cool breeze blew down on me, I hugged myself. Only the little light coming from the moon made me see a little what was around.
"Hello?" I called, but no one answered. I took small steps as I brushed my shoulders.
"Does anyone hear me?" I called once more, but still, no one replied. I was like walking in an endless road with nothing to see, but just blackness.
"What am I doing here?" I mumbled to myself, thinking why
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