Luna Renounced

Kit’s POV

                My chest heaved as I looked down at my untouched plate at the dinner table. I didn’t know that he, of all people, was going to be here. It had been five years since I had laid eyes on him. Five whole years, since I had to tolerate the feeling that one look gave me, just at the sight of him, and five years later, he gave me the same feelings. Feelings that I didn’t want, at least not from him.

                Our destiny had been written in stone as the elders would have said, two born on the blood full moon, four years apart, one of Alpha’s blood, and one of Beta’s blood, joined to breed the perfect next heir. But I had taken my destiny into my own hands years ago, when I stumbled acrost my perfect to be mate with another.

                The whole facade of this crazy world our Alpha was allowing to happen wasn’t what our Moon Goddess had wanted for us, and I wasn’t going to be apart of it. I wasn’t going to allow myself to be bred to the Alpha’s son, because I was deemed the best blood and the prettiest of the she wolves, just so they could keep their status and power.

                So, five years ago when I stumbled upon him with that she wolf, I made a vow to myself that I planned to keep, and that vow was he would never lay his hands upon my flesh as long as I had a breath in me. And for the last five years that vow was easy to keep with the distance that was between us, but now as I sit here at my sister’s dinner table, with him in the same room as I, with his gaze now on me, burning a hole through me, I’m not so sure how I am to hold onto that vow, especially when he opens his mouth and speaks my given name, “Katrina”, sending heat straight to my core.

                My eyes moved from my plate up to meet his, but as they moved to his eyes, I noticed not one but two she wolves on each of his arms, and I knew that nothing had changed over the last five years. If anything, he had become more like his father, and by now I was sure he had bedded half the she wolves in the pack. When our eyes connected, all I saw in them was darkness. He was lost to the lust that was sold to him by taking what he wanted, and there was no coming back from the path that he had taken all those years ago.

                “Katrina, our future Alpha has addressed you.” My father now said, pulling me from my thoughts, and as I look over at my father, I can see a sternness in his look towards me. I had made him a promise tonight that I would be on my best behavior, but I never thought that I would find myself in this situation.

                My skin began to crawl, and my flesh began to heat from the embarrassment that I was causing my family, but I couldn’t bear another second of the torture. Standing abruptly from the table, I ran from the lavish dining room, and all my sister’s guests, not wanting to ruin their night. I was already the family’s outcast child by my own demise, and I didn’t want to bring further shame upon my family’s name than I had already done.

                Tonight was to be a celebration for my sister as she was providing an heir for her rich mate and my father was proud of her, and here I was once again ruining a moment for our family. I should have known with her husband’s status that the Alpha and his son would make an appearance, but I never gave it a second thought as my father demanded that my presence was needed.

Now I know why my father was adamant about me being present for the dinner. It had nothing to do with my sister’s party, but he knew that he was going to be here, and I believe he held onto the hope that the contract the Alpha renounced for me to be mated to his son, would be put back in place, but that was never going to happen.

                As I ran down the long hallway, I stumbled upon an opened door, and quickly moved inside the room, shutting the door behind me, as I reached inside my handbag, pulling out my small bottle of pills, taking two of them and swallowing them down dry. I had already taken my pills today to suppress my wolf, but being here so close to him, I could feel her stronger than I ever have trying to break free, and I couldn’t allow anyone to know that she existed.

                Being without a wolf was the only thing that was keeping me safe from being forced to be mated. It deemed me undesirable to the males, and as long as I had no wolf, I had my freedom. I knew that I could have scarred myself, like some of the others had done, to prevent themselves from being sold into the world, but on the other hand, I went a step above that. I kept my beauty which killed them all to look at me, teasing them knowing that I was nothing to them without a wolf. In my heart, I knew one day that I would find someone that wasn’t like the others, maybe even my fated mate, and that I could stop taking these pills and show my true self, but for now, I had to stay hidden, especially from him, and the rest of them.

                As I lean against the wall trying to breathe and get my thoughts together, the door to the room opens, and I quickly stand, taking a step back, as he now steps into the room, alone with me and shuts the door behind him. The air in the room feels like it is being sucked out as his presence becomes too much for me to bear, and I reach deep inside of myself to find the courage to continue to resist him after all these years.