-Karen-Over the next several days, more soldiers arrived at the palace. The king found out that I was better so Conor had been called back to start drills with the new soldiers for a while. Conor was gone before I woke up, but he was back around three or four in the evening. Joanne and Bart kept me company while Conor was gone as much as they could. However, they had their own duties to attend to especially since the new soldiers were very rowdy and loved to brawl several times a day. It had become extremely dangerous with all the extra barbarians around, so Conor imposed a rule on Joanne and I. We were not allowed to be alone at all beyond either apartments or the medical ward. If we had to leave, we needed to have someone trusted with us.Conor had caught Lewis trying to listen in on our conversations resulting in him being arrested and sent to the dungeon several times. As a result, I had started to feel more like a burden, so I tried to keep myself busy by cleaning the entire apa
-Karen-It was late in the evening, around nine, as I got ready for bed. I layered several blankets on the floor in front of my armoire and got a pillow from the bed so I could go to sleep alone. It’s odd but I miss him and his warmth. I finally had a friend and now I’m alone again. Why do I feel like I failed? I changed into a frilly nightgown and braided my hair to prevent knots. I was tired and depressed from being shunned like an outcast. I was dumb to think I could be friends with a prince. Or anyone for that matter. I curled up to the soft pillow. I bit my lip so I could focus on that pain rather than the emotional pain I felt. See Eldon? Emotions are stupid and this is exactly why I don’t like mine. As I was falling asleep, I was strongly considering leaving in the morning after he left for his day. I could go back to my servant room in the basement whether I had permission or not. At least I won’t shun myself. But I’m definitely going to take a couple blankets since its turni
-Karen-“You’re thinking about him, aren’t you?” Joanne asked spinning me around to face her. I bit my lip and nodded shyly. She gave me a warm smile. “I’m telling you, Karen. It’s gonna happen! I think you’ll enjoy being his companion. He talks to Bart and me about you almost all the time. He says that he enjoys your witty quips and that you make him laugh without trying.” I felt my cheeks tinge at her words. “Don’t be shy! It’s great! He feels very comfortable around you. Plus, you’ve undone all the mean and cold things Beatrice did to him over the last few years in just a few weeks! He’s back to his normal self now and we can thank you for that.” She exclaimed dragging me out to the table where breakfast was waiting for us. “Before you came into the picture, he was really aggressive and got very depressed easily. Those last few days were just a sample of how he was back then.” How awful! He has such a sweet smile too. I stopped for a moment at the thought. I guess I do like him a
-Karen-“Nervous?” Conor asked with a chuckle. I felt my face get red at the question. “You’re still cute when you get flustered, you know.” That didn’t stop me from drinking one and a half bottles of wine in fifteen minutes. “Kay.” I looked directly at him as he flashed a charming smile. “I have something for you.” Something… For me? He went to his dresser and pulled out a small pink box from one of the drawers and gave it to me. “I apologize for treating you the way I did over the last couple of days. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings and make you feel lonely.”“It’s not necessary-” I tried to give him back the gift, but he rolled his eyes and then gave me a playful grin. Damn you. That’s cheating! I scoffed and gave him a dirty look. “Fine! I know that look Conor... I know exactly what you’re going to tell me. If I try to give it back, you’re going to say that you’re the Prince of Zargo and I have to accept and use the gift you have given me. Right?” I asked with a raised eyebrow
-Karen-“The companion thing? Right?” I asked softly. I felt slightly anxious in his grasp. Maybe he is being truthful. He hasn’t made any advances on me at all since I’ve been sharing his apartment. Aside from trying to kiss me… And saying I’m pretty.He smiled and nodded. “Partly… I want to be better friends with you.” Better friends? He was silent for a few minutes as I sat there trying not to get nervous and run into the next room. Breathe girl. He hasn’t hurt you or given you any of the warnings that he will. He leaned in towards my right ear. “What should I do to you today?” I snapped my eyes over to him while he snickered. “I won't hurt you! I promise, Kay!” He chuckled shaking his head. “Poor choice of words…” He sighed shaking his head. “I have to stop doing that.” I need to trust you. If he were going to hurt me, he would not have gotten me such pretty earrings.“I can’t decide if I should teach you to dance or if we should just talk until we fall asleep tonight.” He wants m
-Karen-“It will add to the experience. It’s not the same if you see it coming.” Conor explained. “I’ll only kiss you once unless I see that you like it… Then I’ll kiss you a couple more times. We have a deal?” I nodded once and closed my eyes feeling completely unsure of this decision. I hope this was a good idea. I felt him lift my chin a little bit. Heart please be still! A few seconds later, I felt his soft lips against mine as he pulled me closer to him. Oh… It’s not what I expected at all. I really like this! It was over relatively fast. He kissed me several more times as he cupped my cheek and held me to him. I can't think… At all… I felt as light as a feather as he pulled away from me. “I have wanted to do that for so long now.” He whispered. I slowly opened my eyes as he gazed at me. “I’m sure Joanne has been harassing you over this for a while too... So, if you see her tomorrow, you can tell her I finally kissed you and it was more than once.” He said softly as my face got
-Karen-“How long have we been here, Conor? A couple hours?” I mused out loud. I hope it’s only been two hours ‘cause I wanna spend all night here.“Like this? Since we had lunch?” Conor asked me nuzzling my cheek with his. I nodded resting in his embrace. “We ate around two… and it’s about seven now…” I gave him a surprised look.“It did not feel like five hours…” I whispered biting my lower lip at the interesting thought that ran through my mind. Time went so much faster with those kisses and cuddles.I heard him laugh softly while I smiled happily. “What are you thinking about?” He whispered in my ear. “I’m interested to know what has caused that cute smile of yours.”“I’ve enjoyed this so much… And I will answer a question you asked me a while ago.” I got with an inch of him.“You have my full attention.” He whispered meeting my gaze. “I would love to have dinner with you again. If you don’t mind dining with me?” I said kissing his cheek. I slipped my arms around him and held him
-Karen-He took my hand within his. “A soul mate is someone who inspires you to live your life to the fullest- They can be your best friend and even the love of your life. They’re someone who loves you for you. That person typically complements your personality and makes you stronger in ways you never thought possible. They’re there for you when you need someone most- They carry your deepest secrets and take care of you when you fall apart. They can be a pillar of strength when you feel like you’re about to shatter.” Conor explained. “I’ve been told that a soul mate is someone you absolutely cannot be without. I’ve also heard it’s supposed to be an amazing feeling when you finally find them. Some people, who believe in such a thing, spend their entire lives trying to find their other half…” I guess it must be pretty special…To spend your life doing that.“Oh… I wouldn’t know anything about that then… I’ve not been close to anyone but Lizette or Novo and even they were at arm’s length.