-Karen-He took my hand within his. “A soul mate is someone who inspires you to live your life to the fullest- They can be your best friend and even the love of your life. They’re someone who loves you for you. That person typically complements your personality and makes you stronger in ways you never thought possible. They’re there for you when you need someone most- They carry your deepest secrets and take care of you when you fall apart. They can be a pillar of strength when you feel like you’re about to shatter.” Conor explained. “I’ve been told that a soul mate is someone you absolutely cannot be without. I’ve also heard it’s supposed to be an amazing feeling when you finally find them. Some people, who believe in such a thing, spend their entire lives trying to find their other half…” I guess it must be pretty special…To spend your life doing that.“Oh… I wouldn’t know anything about that then… I’ve not been close to anyone but Lizette or Novo and even they were at arm’s length.
-Karen-I rolled over and searched for something to cling to while I tried to go back to sleep afraid to think of where I was. After searching for a few minutes, I found a pillow and squeezed it to my chest. I sighed into the pillow and laid there still as death. Please don’t be a dream… I could hear two voices speaking quietly from what appeared to be in one of the next rooms. I sat up sleepily as a pair of arms wrapped around my shoulders. “Morning Karen!” Joanne whispered in my left ear. Joanne! What a relief!“Morning…” I sleepily replied after I yawned and stretched. “It’s not a dream.” I felt a happy peace and an extreme feeling of relief descend over me at that moment. Those kisses were real… I want more of those amazing kisses. “The boys are talking and told me to keep an eye on you. How are you feeling today? Conor said he carried you to bed last night. Are you feeling well? Are you hungry?” She asked with a concerned look on her face. I smiled warmly. “I’m alright… It was
-Karen-While she was doing that, I realized she was wearing something other than a uniform. She wore a strapless green dress that fell to her knees. She had a pretty necklace in the shape of a ‘J’ set in dark green stones in silver metal that rested a few inches above her bust. “I like your necklace. It’s really pretty.”“Thanks! Bart gave it to me last month just because he thought I would like it. I try to get him things, but he can be hard to buy for. I usually try to surprise him with imported things when I can. He likes gadgets and anything medical-related… Like I said, I love him so much!” She said beaming with pride as she caressed the necklace. “Let me go show you off now.” She said pulling me behind her into the main room. As soon as we came in the room, Bart and Conor stood up to greet us. “Look at your beauty! I did her up really good today!” Joanne said pushing me out into the middle of the room. His beauty… I like how that sounds.I felt my cheeks tinge as Conor approac
-Karen-“You didn’t do anything wrong, Kay. We just got worried that you were going to get hurt in your state of panic.” Conor explained walking over to me. He stopped in front of me and hugged me. Knowing my luck, I would have fallen down the stairs. I slipped my arms around him as he rubbed my back to soothe me. That helped me calm down a bit. I’m a wreck. What the hell is wrong with me and these emotions? This isn’t like me at all.My stomach growled and I remembered something about eating. “We haven’t eaten yet…” I felt even worse having made a scene over the garden and making them wait longer to eat. “I’m sorry for only adding to this.” I’m not a wreck- I’m a damn disaster!“Do you two know what you want?” Conor asked wrapping his arm around my waist. “What would you like for lunch, my flower?” I blushed at being called a flower after crying like a small child. I pictured myself closer to a rain drenched spiked bush rather than a pretty flower at this moment. “You don’t have to a
-Karen-“Please, Jo- I introduced you two because I thought you might like to make friends with someone away from our father’s group. It just happened to work out perfectly for you.” Conor quipped, sipping his wine. Joanne scoffed and rolled her eyes at him while Bart and I chuckled. “My turn for a story.” He said finishing the glass and setting it down. A servant came over and filled up both our glasses. I sipped the cool wine while he started to tell the story. Our meals were brought out to us as he spoke. “This is when Bart first came on a mission with me a few years back. I was almost sixteen, I think? I was leading three groups into what we later found out to be an ambush. Almost all the men were killed except for Bart, me and six other soldiers. This resistance group had captured a soldier from a previous mission, and he gave them all the details on the mission I was running. So, of course, we walked right into a trap. They tried to torture me a couple times. It didn’t bother m
-Karen-He kissed my lips and pulled away from me. “Stay here.” He ordered, leaving me on the bed alone. I felt confused and worried as I waited for him to come back. I hope I didn’t hurt him. He returned five minutes later but his shirt was gone. He sat down next to me as I took in all his toned muscles. Look at all those muscles… “Sorry. I had to leave or… I was going to make you pay for that moan.” Make me pay? Do I want to even know?I felt my face get hot at that comment and looked away from him. This is getting interesting. I felt him turn towards me and slowly pull the hair clips out of my hair. I could hear him drop them on the floor. He likes my hair down… I felt my hair cascade down my back as he moved towards me and started kissing me again. Slowly, he moved down to my neck. Don’t moan. Kay for all that you’re worth don’t push him over the edge. I fought to restrain the noises I wanted to make. Oh, but it feels so good! He started sucking on my neck until I felt a stinging
-Karen-I stared at the K in my hand and shook my head again. Bart came back twenty minutes later and carried me to a different room in the medical ward. It was closed off with a door and had a chair on either side of the bed. He sat me on the edge, helped me into a patient gown and then tucked me into the comfortable bed. A bowl of tomato soup, crackers and some grapes were brought to me. I devoured it without mercy not realizing how truly hungry I had become. I rolled over on my right side, curling up into a ball and started to drift to sleep. I think I will leave… He got what he wanted. No point in staying now. I’ll need to gather provisions once I leave the medical ward. The question is: do I stay here? Or where should I go? I could go to Ralio. Or Dareme. I’ll think about it more tomorrow… I’m tired now.“He needs to see her Bart.” Joanne exclaimed urgently from beyond the door. “Yes! Don’t argue with me over this.” Don’t make me laugh!“Joanne, I’m the doctor and I’m saying no.
-Karen-I felt much better the next day despite the slight ache every now and then if I moved too quickly. Lucky for me, I had so much practice pushing my emotions and bad memories away that I did the same thing with this situation. After a final checkup, Bart allowed me to leave. Before I was officially released, he asked me what I wanted to do now that this had happened. To be honest, I really wasn’t sure what I wanted to do or what I could do. Technically, I was still his servant. I told him I would think about it over the next hour.Joanne escorted me back to Conor’s apartments in silence. We arrived at the double doors of the apartments. I stood at the doors looking at the handles of the elegant looking doorknob. After a moment, I opened the right door and we walked in quietly. We found him asleep on the bed surrounded by three medium sized bottles of whiskey. I walked over to the bed and picked up the bottles and handed them to Joanne. He must have gotten drunk after he left las