Charlotte
“Dalton!” I called after him, as I got out of the car. “Dalton, will you wait a dang minute!”
He wasn't listening to me. He just took quick, angry strides towards his house, his nostrils fuming from anger. I don't know what went down here when I was away, but now, with the stunt these brothers pulled in front of me, I had to know why they were acting like barbarians.
“Dalton Tyler Parkerson!” I used his used full name, knowing he doesn't like it when I call him that.
I guess I got a reaction from him in less than four seconds.
He spun on his feet, strode towards me with eyes raging like wildfire, and growled. “What?!
Unfazed by his anger, I let my own stand up to his, matching his level. “What's the matter with you?” I asked, my voice coming out like a growl. I pushed his chest as hard as I could, though my strength didn't do a thing to his strong build. “Why did you punch your brother like that?”
This got him even madder. “You want to know why?” he asked menacingly. I know I should tread lightly. Dalton rarely gets mad, and when he does, it's not good, but I didn't care. I was blinded by my rage with the recent situation.
I nodded. “Yeah, why did you do it? You're brothers for crying out loud!”
He laughed cynically. “Brothers? Terry and I? “ he asked incredulously. “You have no idea what you are talking about, Charlie. You weren't here for the last four years. You weren't here when he said hurtful things to mom and dad. You weren't here when he gave me a lot of grief. You weren't here when he became a criminal!” At the last part, he said it with so much distaste, I could punch him for it.
“Don't,” I said through gritted teeth, “say it like you're brother is the most disgusting person in the world.”
He smirked, crossing his arms over his chest, his muscles bunching up.
“Because he is.”
I was appalled beyond belief. How could this person be my best friend, to say something so callously like that to his brother? Just because Terry had done something bad, that didn't mean he wasn't worth saving. Family is family, no matter what happens. If the situation were reversed, I would have done anything for my baby sister, even though she's a selfish brat.
In fact, I already did.
By letting Dalton go.
But that was not the case right now.
This is not the Dalton that I know.
All my anger had dissipated, and I felt utmost disappointment with the person in front of me. Time has changed people. I did, and who's to say he didn't as well.
I sighed. “You know what, never mind I said anything.” With that, I spun on my heel, and headed towards my house.
* * *
Dalton
I couldn't get Charlie's look of disappointment out of my mind. It stayed stuck in my head, eating away my insides like a corpse being ravaged by worms. She could have looked at me angrily, sadly, or whatever. Anything! Just not disappointed...
Because of my big mouth, I just had to say something that I didn't mean. I sighed. I really screwed up even more this time.
Can you really blame me? I was so angry that I couldn't hold it in. Terry has been giving our family trouble, and I was this close to hating him.
Hate.
It's such a strong word, that one could feel such emotion, you'd end up bitter, vindictive and worst...
Vengeful.
But, I couldn't feel like that towards my brother. I could never hate him, no matter how many times he hurt our family.
I just wanted to understand him. That's all I wanted.
But he wouldn't let us in.
At this point, I don't know which one failed who... us, the family, or him.
When I thought about the words he said to me at the parking lot, I couldn't help but be bothered. What did he mean about giving up too soon? For not fighting for her, when what I want, or even need all along was right in front of me...?
God, my brother was speaking in riddles.'Way too confused me, Terry' I thought dryly.
I heard my bedroom door open, and then closed. I was lying in my bed, with my eyes closed as I heard light footsteps padded on my carpet floor.
“Dalton?” a soft, familiar voice asked. “Are you okay? I heard what happened.”
Hearing her voice always takes the tension and stress away. She has that effect on me, and right now, I need all I could get to take it all away.
I needed Caroline to take it all away.
I smiled, and then opened my eyes to see Caroline standing at the side of my bed. Concern encompassed her beautiful face. “I'm all better now that you're here. Now come here,” I said, while opening my arms wide for her.
She smiled, and fell into my arms without hesitation. I felt her body flushed against me, as she snuggled into my chest. Just like that, all that tension melted away with just her touch.
Just like magic.
We stayed like that for half an hour, me stroking her hair, while she caressed my chest. I knew Caroline wanted to say something with the way she sighs every ten minutes. I guess I should put her out of her misery.
“I know you're dying to say something,” I told her. “Now spit it out.”
She giggled. “How did you know?” she asked, looking up at me.
I chuckled, staring at her blue orbs. “Because you've been sighing for the last ten minutes, and it's bugging the hell out of me.”
She sighed. There she goes again. “I think I should go to Terry and talk to him... try to knock some sense into him.”
Say what? She wants to talk to Terry? Oh, no, no, no. There is no way I would let her near that hot tempered brute!
Caroline could see that I was going to disagree with her so, she sat right up, held up her hand, palms facing forward. “Just hear me out, okay?”
I sat right up too, ready to argue about this stupid idea of hers. “It's hopeless, okay? We tried so many times, and look where it got us.”
She glared. “We are getting married, and I want everybody to be there, even your brother. He's family too, you know.”
“Why are you so adamant about this, huh?” I asked, suspicious all of a sudden. She's been like this ever since we got engaged, and had been persistent in fixing our family issues. “Why are you so keen in talking to Terry out of this, and what? Be a happy family again?”
She hesitated, and that is not a good thing. She opened her mouth, and then closed, like a fish out of water trying to say something, anything at all. In a matter of a minute flat, she gave up with a sigh. “Maybe you're right,” she mumbled.
That's it? She gave up just like that?
“What happened to knocking some sense into my brother?” I asked, my eyebrows quirking up.
All of sudden, that kind of smirk showed its way onto her lips. Uh-oh. “You want to know what I really want to do right now?”
“What?” I asked wearily.
In a flash, she straddled me, catching me off guard. She purred into my ears with the words that sent shivers all throughout my body. Hot damn. “I want to ravage you all over 'till you can't walk properly when you wake up tomorrow.”
She wasn't kidding when she said that. She knew how to work that body of hers. She knew how to please a man, their every desire, and fantasies.
Her body was built for it.
She raked her fingernails on my bare chest, and I hissed, loving the feel of it. “Oh, yeah?” I asked, challenging her. “Are you sure you can deliver?”
She smirked. “Never question me again, boy.”
I never again question her skills.
It's going to be a long night for the both of us.
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"Tooo theee window! To theee wall! To the sssssweat drop down my ballssss! To all you bitchessss crawl! To all skee skee motherfu--oops!" then giggled when I lost my footing."Oh god," Mike groaned, very frustrated as he righted me up again. We continued to walk through the deserted hallway, heading for my apartment.I continued rapping and added a little of my own version, something along the lines of doing body shots with Brad Pitt.He rolled his eyes. "Jeez, will you stop rapping that crap?" he muttered, still holding my waist, making sure he had a tight hold on it. My arm was slung over Mike's neck for dear life and at the drunken state that I am in, I was pass piss drunk and could barely even stand straight. If anything, from the look on Mike's face right now, his scowl was directed to my rapping, which sounded like a cat being drowned.After graduation, Mike and I decided to grab a quick bite at some Italian restaurant and then head for the club from downtown Los Angeles, in a h
I often ask myself, could life be any harder than this? The day I left home four years ago felt like I was leaving pieces of my broken heart as a trail for me to follow, if I did decide to come back. With each piece, I would pick it up and put it to where it fitted perfectly and then do the same with the others, carefully and surely. However, if I'd reach the last piece to make my heart whole, it would all come crumbling down, having me to start all over again.That was what I felt the moment the plane touched down Colorado soil.Mike had this crazy idea that I should bring him along and pose as my boyfriend. I thought he was crazy, but when I thought about it, it would make things easier for me when I'll come face-to-face with Dalton.I wasn't exactly looking forward to this reunion. We hadn't spoken a single word, not even an e-mail or a phone call since I left for L.A., and I had no idea how this idea of mine would turn out.Would he smile when he sees me?Would he welcome me with
The moment I closed the door of my old bedroom, I went straight to my bed and plopped down on it heavily with a grunt."I can't believe I just did that..." I muttered as I stared up the ceiling of my old bedroom. My anger had somehow dwindled a bit, but it was still there, just like an adrenaline waiting to crash.Despite that, I felt better, now that I had let it all out in the open. Well, not everything when it came to Dalton, but the repressed feelings that I had against my family for so many years came tumbling out of my mouth like a waterfall. To be honest, it felt good, and it made me feel better about myself."Nice room," Mike said and l looked up. He was pursuing my room with such scrutiny in his eyes, I didn't know if he was being honest or just mocking me."Thanks, I guess..." I said, not really sure.He shrugged and put our suitcases down near the closet. He walked towards my bed and plopped next to me and on instinct, I scooted closer to him, laid my head on his chest as h
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Charlotte“Dalton!” I called after him, as I got out of the car. “Dalton, will you wait a dang minute!” He wasn't listening to me. He just took quick, angry strides towards his house, his nostrils fuming from anger. I don't know what went down here when I was away, but now, with the stunt these brothers pulled in front of me, I had to know why they were acting like barbarians. “Dalton Tyler Parkerson!” I used his used full name, knowing he doesn't like it when I call him that. I guess I got a reaction from him in less than four seconds. He spun on his feet, strode towards me with eyes raging like wildfire, and growled. “What?! Unfazed by his anger, I let my own stand up to his, matching his level. “What's the matter with you?” I asked, my voice coming out like a growl. I pushed his chest as hard as I could, though my strength didn't do a thing to his strong build. “Why did you punch your brother like that?” This got him even madder. “
Charlotte“Mrs. Parkerson?” I couldn't hide the surprise in my voice the moment I saw Dalton's mother. It’s been four years and her radiant beauty still took my breath away. She looked like she hadn’t aged a day. Tears welled in her eyes and without hesitation, she rushed towards me and gave me a tight hug. Ow, that’s going to leave a mark on my ribs. “Oh, honey...” she cooed and there was a slight crack in her voice. “I have missed you so much.” I smiled and let out a soft sigh. “Me too, Mrs. Parkerson. Me too.” Laughing softly, she let me go and laid her hands on both ends of my cheeks, squishing them together. “Look at you.” With her scrutinizing eyes, she roamed starting from my feet all the way to my head. “You look gorgeous, sweetheart, and you are so skinny! I am going to fatten you up, oh yes, I am going to. I'm going to bake you tons of your favorite goodies and shove them up your mouth. What were you eating in L.A.?!” “My
DaltonSeeing Charlie again was like subjecting me to complete familiar heartbreak. I felt like I was transported back to being an eighteen-year-old, confronted with that excruciating pain of her rejection, knowing that she didn't feel the same way about me. I won't lie, it hurts like hell at how frosty she had regarded me. I was like an unwanted person that she wanted to expel out of her life like vomit. What was I expecting? That she would run into my arms and say she missed me like crazy? I would give anything in the world, even my arm and a leg just to hear her say that, but it was just wishful thinking. It would never happen again. A day after the confession, I was tempted to fight back and never give in to defeat. I'm a stubborn guy. I wanted to prove to Charlie that she would learn to love me and we could make it work if she would give me that sliver of a chance, that one single opportunity. But it was clear in her eyes that she only cared for me as a friend, so
It was just a kiss. Yes, I believe with all that is holier than thou that it was only done to show Dalton his place, but I couldn't help but wonder if it meant something... Unknowingly, my fingertips reached to touch my lips and I thought, 'Was it?' Was it really just a kiss to me? To my best friend, Mike? Mike and I spent four years of our lives not making any types of physical love. The only form of touch allowed was the offering and receiving perfunctory kisses and hugs. None of it means a thing; just good old familial affection. But how can one heady lip locking moment have my emotions in a turmoil, or - swallowing a huge lump lodge up on my throat here - have stupid butterflies flutter in my stomach? I'm seriously going to burn in fiery pits of hell for this. Minutes of silence followed as we walked, heading to the town's diner. Each step I took, I tried so hard not to dwell on it, but my mind was making it harder. 'Bra
There are different ways in showing discomfort.One would fidget with the hem of their shirt like it is the most interesting piece of wonder in the world. The other is when one would look around, avoiding eye contact with the person. Shifty eyes, if you must call it, or the wandering eye. The other is rocking the balls of their feet back and forth as though having trouble keeping still.These were common reactions of being nervous. However, mine is sort of... weird.Gross even. As I gaze upon Dalton's handsome face, I had this sudden urge to go happy poo poo. I know, I know! Very weird, but the nervousness I'm feeling made me want to bolt right out of there and head straight for the bathroom. Not an appropriate reaction, but this is me... dealing with such emotion. As we stood silent, rooted to the ground, it amazes me that after four long years, I am still standing upright even though on the inside I am ready to crumble in front of him. Dalton was my stre
Annoyance.Three syllables, nine letters, one word, and yet, it held such intense definition.Such words pertained to different things, yet, I could only pin point to one specific thing or someone who was the exact definition of the word.Caroline, my little sister.Yes, she was the epitome of all things holier than thou. The woman knew her craft in the art of annoyance down to a tee, and as for me? I can only say this: can a woman take a break and sleep in complete silence?!But I guess, it was too much to ask for, since Caroline was doing my bedroom door a number."Charlie!" she called out, banging incessantly on my bedroom door.The sudden banging had me jolt upright, my vision groggy and disoriented. What on Earth was Caroline doing that she has to bang on my door that hard?"What the hell?..." I murmured as I scratched my head furiously. I took a glance at the clock on my nightstand, and when I did, my eyes went wide as a flipping owl when I saw the time.It's 8:00 o'clock in the