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Chapter 37
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Instead of saying, "I'm damaged, I'm broken, I have trust issues" say "I'm healing, I'm rediscovering myself, I'm starting over. - Horacio Jones
End the culture of silence.
To the eyes of the law, rape is a crime. Anyone who is proven to have committed this crime should face a corresponding consequence. The law ends with that.
But to the women who are victims of sexual abuse and exploitation, rape is not just a crime that happened, it's a whole different thing that shattered their life to pieces. And justice won't be enough to seal the wounds of a victim, for it will haunt them for as long as they live, for it will immobilize them and prevent them from
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"You're not worth just a million, but millions, and billions, and trillions, and all that I have." - Fifth MontgomeryEpilogueHindi pa rin ako kumbinsido kahit nang patungo na kami sa Fiasco para sa celebration.Hindi ako sigurado sa nararamdaman, I'm shocked, I'm happy but I'm worried too. Sinong hindi magugulat sa ginawa ni Fifth? 10 million is not an easy money. Pakiramdam ko matatanggap ko pa ang isang milyon pero ang sampung milyon?I'm happy at the thought, yes, who wouldn't? His mere reason for buying it is because he 'has' to have it, not want but he has to. Ang rason niya lang ang pumipigil sa aking magalit.But I'm worried. He ca
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"It is extremely difficult, if not impossible, to find life worth living, and be against rape, if it has led to your existence."The cold breeze of December has always been memorable to me. The lights of the busy city is almost the reflection of the bright stars at the sky above. And even with all the noise and the traffic and the bustle around, I would still look forward to Christmas. A Christmas with my mother, with only the two of us. A Christmas that won't ever happen to me anymore.Even without my father, I lived with happiness and abundance because of my beautiful and loving mother. Ipinagtabuyan man siya at halos isumpa ng mga tao dahil sa pagiging kabit, kailan man ay hindi niya ako itinuring na masamang
Late Night Devil Chapter 1
"She is a soldier trapped inside a barbed-wire fence, but she is still at war and the battlefield is her own body, and perhaps, she has come to realize as a prisoner, that is where it has always been." - Maaza Mengiste, The Shadow KingMaybe there's a reason why there's night and day, so that those who are lonely won't feel all by their self. So they would find comfort in the dark skies, so they would find the darkness around them as companion, so they would look forward to the sun coming down.As an illegitimate child, darkness became my mother, my sister and my friend. Darkness became all that I have, and nights became promises.It's the only time of day that
Late Night Devil Chapter 2
"Beauty provokes harassment, the law says, but it looks through men's eyes when deciding what provokes it." - Naomi Wolf, The Beauty MythTumatak sa isip ko ang mga huling sinabi ni Zyline. I should get out of my comfort zone? Sumandal ako sa headboard ng kama at huminga ng malalim.The last time I tried to get out of my comfort zone, I got raped. I don't think I can risk it again.Hindi ko naman talaga habol ang sumikat sa pagiging modelo. I just do it for a living and as pastime as well. I don't think there's a need to level up. Malaki na ang kinikita ko sa pagiging catwalk model at promotional model.For ca
Late Night Devil Chapter 3
"Judging others is easy because it distracts us from the responsibility of judging ourselves." - Charles F. Glassman"Nanliligaw ba talaga sayo si Kevin?"I rolled my eyes. Hinarap ko si Coleen, her eyes are sparkling for truth kahit na mahigit sampung beses ko nang sinabi ang totoo."I don't like him, how many times should I tell you that, Col?"Sinikop ko ang mga gamit ko sa locker at inilagay sa paperbag na dala. This is the last day of classes for this year, it's our Christmas break now.Napapailing ako habang tinitignan ang mga naipon na love letters sa
Late Night Devil Chapter 4
"Sometimes the shame is not the beatings, not the rape.The shaming is in being asked to stand judgment." - Meena Kandasamy"Saan ka ngayong Christmas?"Sinikop ko ang mahaba kong buhok para i-ponytail. Sinulyapan ko si Coleen na nakamasid sa akin habang nagvavacuum ako sa sala ng condo ko."Like the usual, dito lang." Saka ako nagpatuloy sa ginagawa.I do this when I have free time at dahil isang linggong bakante ay minabuti kong mag-general cleaning ngayon.Noong isang araw ay nagbabad ako sa gym at nakapag-spa rin kasama si Coleen. I haven't
Late Night Devil Chapter 5
"When you inherit a broken family, you can't throw it away and get a new one. What you can do is find people and situations that provide for you what your family cannot." - Iyanla VanzantAng nagwawalang ringtone ko ang gumising sa akin kinabukasan. Kinapa ko ang phone ko na nasa side table at sinagot ang tawag habang nakapikit."Good morning Ate, sorry nagising ba kita?"Tumagilid ako at yumakap sa unan ko, "Why are calling me this early Coleen?"Narinig ko ang pagtawa nito sa kabilang linya. May mga sinabi siyang hindi ko naunawaan dahil hindi naman yata para sa akin.
Late Night Devil Chapter 6
"What made him most attractive was that he was attracted to her. Another's interest can be a powerful stimulant. She could feel his eyes on her as an almost physical pressure." Tracy Chevalier, The Last RunawayNagpatuloy kami sa pagkain ng hapunan ngunit hindi na bumalik ang sigla ni Coleen. Hindi malaman ng mommy't daddy niya ang gagawin para makausap ito ng maayos.Hanggang sa pag-akyat namin sa kaniyang kwarto ay hindi siya kumikibo."We'll leave you first hija, kakausapin din namin si Asha. I'm sorry kung nakikita mo ang ganitong mga bagay."Ngumiti ako at tumango. Nang kami nalang dalawa ni Coleen sa kwa
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Late Night Devil Epilogue
"You're not worth just a million, but millions, and billions, and trillions, and all that I have." - Fifth MontgomeryEpilogueHindi pa rin ako kumbinsido kahit nang patungo na kami sa Fiasco para sa celebration.Hindi ako sigurado sa nararamdaman, I'm shocked, I'm happy but I'm worried too. Sinong hindi magugulat sa ginawa ni Fifth? 10 million is not an easy money. Pakiramdam ko matatanggap ko pa ang isang milyon pero ang sampung milyon?I'm happy at the thought, yes, who wouldn't? His mere reason for buying it is because he 'has' to have it, not want but he has to. Ang rason niya lang ang pumipigil sa aking magalit.But I'm worried. He ca
Late Night Devil Chapter 37
Instead of saying, "I'm damaged, I'm broken, I have trust issues" say "I'm healing, I'm rediscovering myself, I'm starting over. - Horacio JonesEnd the culture of silence.To the eyes of the law, rape is a crime. Anyone who is proven to have committed this crime should face a corresponding consequence. The law ends with that.But to the women who are victims of sexual abuse and exploitation, rape is not just a crime that happened, it's a whole different thing that shattered their life to pieces. And justice won't be enough to seal the wounds of a victim, for it will haunt them for as long as they live, for it will immobilize them and prevent them from
Late Night Devil Chapter 36
Everything started falling back to places.The hearing started a week ago. Si Papa ay nakalabas na ng ospital at kasalukuyang nagpapahinga na sa mansyon, with Tita Trisha taking care of him. I don't know how they are coping up with Alorica being in jail but I will try my best to help them both.Noong huling bisita ko last weekend ay mukhang maayos naman sila. Papa is in maintenance of his medicines, his brothers are handling the company. His relatives apologized to me too, noong naabutan nila ako doon. I accepted all their apologies wholeheartedly.I'm planning to visit again this weekend, tutal ay hindi naman ako abala at literal akong tumatambay lang sa condo habang naghihintay ng graduation.
Late Night Devil Chapter 35
"Everyone heals in their own time and in their own way. The path isn't always a straight line, and you don't need to go it alone." - Zeke ThomasTulala ako kay Fifth habang ginagamot niya ang iilang sugat na nakuha ko nang bumagsak kami kanina. Ang mga luha ko ay natuyo na sa aking pisngi. I feel so exhausted. Sobrang haba ng araw na ito."It's done, you should rest now.." he murmured.Tumango ako ngunit hindi naman gumalaw. Nanatili rin siyang nakaluhod sa paanan ko at nanonood sa akin."What will happen now, Fifth?"Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at marahang p
Late Night Devil Chapter 34
"You are not the darkness you endured. You are the light that refused to surrender." - John Mark GreenI should have known from the very start that Alorica hates me to the pits of hell. Because my mother ruined her family. I should have known she can do everything to make me pay for it.Pero hindi ko inisip iyon. We are sisters, yes half, but we share the same father. At kung ako ang nasa kalagayan niya, siguro nga ay masasaktan ako, but I won't live in anger my whole life, I will eventually try to accept her as my sister.Pero siguro nga hindi pare-pareho ang pag-iisip ng tao. Just like how I held my grudge for my father, maybe that's how she held hers for me
Late Night Devil Chapter 33
"A woman in love with herself is magnetic." - Abiola Abrams, The Sacred Bombshell Handbook of Self-LoveRivers is very professional when it comes to nude artwork. A first timer like me didn't feel uncomfortable at all. He doesn't give off the kind of aura that makes a woman feel disrespected. All I saw is his focus and his connection to his work.Medyo nakakangawit ang pose ko dahil nakaangat ang isang kamay ko para matakpan ang kalahati ng aking mukha. My lips are parted a bit too giving a pale innocent look. Ang isang kamay ko ay nakatakip sa aking dibdib. I'm sitting sideways, magkadikit ang aking mga tuhod.Binalot ako ng mga pulang rosas na plastik. Their
Late Night Devil Chapter 32
"A woman determined to succeed in her life is unstoppable." - Luffina LourdurajGulat ako nang kinaumagahan ay naabutan ko si Coleen na nanonood ng TV sa sala. Buong akala ko ay kinuha siya ng kuya niya kagabi.Nilingon niya ako, "Good morning Ate!" Ngumisi ito.Napakurap ako bago tuluyang nakalapit. "You're still here?"She nodded in confusion, "Yes? Where will I be?""Your brother came here last night, akala ko iuuwi ka niya.." Naguguluhan ko ring sagot.Her forehead creased, "Pumunta siya dito?"
Late Night Devil Chapter 31
"She went around with a broken heart, and she wasn't sure who'd broken it. She thought it was herself, mostly." - Ann BrasharesAnd I thought I'm already prepared to see them together, but here I am feeling the betrayal and pain again.I bit my tongue so hard, para doon matuon ang sakit at hindi sa aking dibdib.I saw Fifth watching me, like he's waiting for my reaction, na parang gusto niyang ipamukha sa akin na pinalitan niya ako, na parang gusto niyang pagsisihan ko ang pagtataboy na ginawa ko sa kaniya.But instead of giving in to the pain, pinanatili ko ang matigas na ekspresyon sa aking mukha. I won't gi
Late Night Devil Chapter 30
"Your trauma is not your fault, but your healing is your responsibility.""I really can't make it, I'm sorry Coleen.." I sighed.She pouted even more. I shot her an apologetic look.It's her eighteenth birthday tomorrow and it will be grand of course. But I can't make it. Una, dahil sa OJT ko. Pangalawa, dahil ayaw ko talagang umuwi at makita si Fifth.I know it looks selfish, Coleen didn't stop convincing me since the preparation started. Alam niyang iniiwasan kong magtagpo kami ng kuya niya kaya naisip pa niyang huwag padaluhin sa celebration si Fifth, which I find ridiculous. Tinanggihan ko pa rin siya.
