"Life keeps throwing me stones.
And I keep finding the diamonds." - Ana Claudia AntunesHindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Kung si Ryan ang nasa likod ng ideya ng teddy bear, hindi malabong matunton siya ng mga tauhan ni Fifth. At sa oras na makilala siya ni Fifth, I'm sure he'll know how he's related to me.
I can't let that happen. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ang tamang panahon para malaman niya ang tungkol sa rape case ko pero alam kong hindi pa ngayon, hindi pa ako handa, hindi ko pa kayang sabihin sa kaniya.
So I should act now. Kailangan ko siyang maunahan kay Ryan. I'm pretty sure he's the one behind the idea of that teddy bear, but what should I do once I find out about it?
"The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open." - Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters Warning: SPG Nagpalakpakan ang mga tao matapos gupitin ni Fifth ang pulang ribbon para sa pagbubukas ng Fiasco. I watched him happily accepting handshake from his visitors. Everyone looks happy. Marami ang bisita at halos kakilala niya. From a few businessman, supermodels, mga artista at ilan pang hindi naman pamilyar sa akin ang mukha ay naroon. And ofcourse, mawawala ba ang media? "Ate pasok na tayo. Wag mo nang hintayin si Kuya,
"I think our love can do anything we want it to." - The NotebookHalos hindi ako makatingin sa mga tao habang hawak ni Fifth ang kamay ko at nakikipag-usap. Pakiramdam ko alam nila ang nangyari kanina at hiyang-hiya ako. Halos hindi ko siya matignan nang natapos iyon.I saw the petite girl he's talking to, looking at me from head to toe. I have much more mature features than her but I don't know why I'm thinking that they are all better than me. Oo, sa pisikal na kaanyuan ay lamang ako, I am aware of that. But deep inside me, I always have this insecurity, that virgins are always better, that people look up to them, na sila ang laging pipiliin.Pinisil ni Fifth
"Broken hearts can live again. Delayed dreams can dream again. Anxious minds can find peace again. Some endings are beginning"."It was a lie, I lied about everything I said. Nicaseane didn't use me, I attempted to harass her. I was.. very attracted, I couldn't wait for her to like me.."I covered my mouth with my palm as tears started rolling down my eyes.I was right, Fifth was talking about him on that phone call. And this is what he said that he wants, Mr. Henson admitting to the public about the truth."Are you saying you.. attempted rape, Mr. Henson?"The silence of everyone in that press conference turned into
"The most painful moments and memories eventually lead to the greatest strengths and growth in life." - Kemi Sogunle"Are you done? Susunduin na kita diyan, overtime kana."I rolled my eyes. Tinanggal ko muna ang hard hat at ibinigay sa naghihintay na lalaki. I murmured my thanks before going back to the site office."Where are you? If you're just near the site then you can pick me up. Pero kung nasa condo ka, magpapa-drop nalang ako kay Engineer Eros.""Dinala ka nanaman niya sa site?""Yes, I'm recreating the AutoCAD drawings so I really have to check the s
"Your trauma is not your fault, but your healing is your responsibility.""I really can't make it, I'm sorry Coleen.." I sighed.She pouted even more. I shot her an apologetic look.It's her eighteenth birthday tomorrow and it will be grand of course. But I can't make it. Una, dahil sa OJT ko. Pangalawa, dahil ayaw ko talagang umuwi at makita si Fifth.I know it looks selfish, Coleen didn't stop convincing me since the preparation started. Alam niyang iniiwasan kong magtagpo kami ng kuya niya kaya naisip pa niyang huwag padaluhin sa celebration si Fifth, which I find ridiculous. Tinanggihan ko pa rin siya.
"She went around with a broken heart, and she wasn't sure who'd broken it. She thought it was herself, mostly." - Ann BrasharesAnd I thought I'm already prepared to see them together, but here I am feeling the betrayal and pain again.I bit my tongue so hard, para doon matuon ang sakit at hindi sa aking dibdib.I saw Fifth watching me, like he's waiting for my reaction, na parang gusto niyang ipamukha sa akin na pinalitan niya ako, na parang gusto niyang pagsisihan ko ang pagtataboy na ginawa ko sa kaniya.But instead of giving in to the pain, pinanatili ko ang matigas na ekspresyon sa aking mukha. I won't gi
"A woman determined to succeed in her life is unstoppable." - Luffina LourdurajGulat ako nang kinaumagahan ay naabutan ko si Coleen na nanonood ng TV sa sala. Buong akala ko ay kinuha siya ng kuya niya kagabi.Nilingon niya ako, "Good morning Ate!" Ngumisi ito.Napakurap ako bago tuluyang nakalapit. "You're still here?"She nodded in confusion, "Yes? Where will I be?""Your brother came here last night, akala ko iuuwi ka niya.." Naguguluhan ko ring sagot.Her forehead creased, "Pumunta siya dito?"
"A woman in love with herself is magnetic." - Abiola Abrams, The Sacred Bombshell Handbook of Self-LoveRivers is very professional when it comes to nude artwork. A first timer like me didn't feel uncomfortable at all. He doesn't give off the kind of aura that makes a woman feel disrespected. All I saw is his focus and his connection to his work.Medyo nakakangawit ang pose ko dahil nakaangat ang isang kamay ko para matakpan ang kalahati ng aking mukha. My lips are parted a bit too giving a pale innocent look. Ang isang kamay ko ay nakatakip sa aking dibdib. I'm sitting sideways, magkadikit ang aking mga tuhod.Binalot ako ng mga pulang rosas na plastik. Their