The past few days, i tried to distant myself from him but failed miserably. Everytime i look at his face, my heart melts.
He has asked me to think, and all i did was to avoid thinking. I don't want to think…
He grew more protective, holding the small of my back when someone looks at me, not allowed me to sit on the railing of balcony.He did small things but i never failed to notice them.
Professor kay was teaching us…
"People tend to consume steroids in order to built muscles and that greatly affect the gental organs" spoke kay firmly. He was incharge of teaching everything realted to reproductive organs and such topics. He was pretty good at it.
"And i have heard they also have small length" whispered carol in my ear from behind, loud enough for kevin to listen. Kevin turned and wink at her.
Ohhh i know this. I know who she is referring. I ignored her comment.
"Consuming steroids also affect the sperm count in males, which ul
We took our time for few days. As each day passed the more i was attracted to him. The cultural fest came. He was busy with his pre- shooting. But never left my side for more than 10 mins. It was awkward standing between boys, when he and his fellow mates are discussing the shoot and schedule. They would pop out from nowhere and start showing him some presentations. Most of the time I excused myself but sometimes he would put his hand on the small of my back and stop me. I always wondered why. I never liked his team. "You know, i hate them. Just ask them to meet you in alone and not when i am with you." I complained. "I know. It was just 5 mins talk." He said. "Whatever." I sighed. We were walking back to our class after the lunch break. Half of which was wasted by his team. "Finally the couple is back." Teased carol. "We are not." Both me and kevin in unison. "But we can be." He said in my ear.
Its been 8 months here. I never thought my life would change so much. I am happy.i have fallen for him. But i still am afraid of relationships. Commitments. Kevin- Hi beautiful. Me- hello… Kevin- Are you free? Me- sure. Kevin- I miss you. Me- we were together like 5 hours ago. College remember? Kevin- i know. Kevin- Do you trust me? Me- Not at all Kevin- I am serious. Kevin- we have known each other for 8 months now. And we both like each other. Kevin-Be mine kavya. Will you be mine? Omg omg omg He finally asked me. Officially. A lot of thoughts were running in my mind. Afraid of commitments was above all. But I can't be afraid forever. I mean i can't. I have to get it over with. Adrenaline was at its peak. Kevin- kavya? Kevin- listen. Just listen to your heart. Tears rolling down my cheeks. A little voice holding me back shouting No.
Its been 5 days in relationship. We are taking it slow, thanks to me. The first 2 days were awkward because now we can't just say 'look that one is cute' or 'ohh this girl is hell' or 'that guy is handsome'.We decided to keep this thing secret and not tell anyone. I entered the class, raaj was looking at me and smiling widely. He has been smiling at me for last 2 days. What up?I smiled back."Kevin?" I said."Hi darling" he said"Ssssssss…..class" i reminded him. I asked him not to call me with nick names here. "Ohh hi hitler" he laughed."Why is raaj smiling at me?" I asked. He looked at raaj. Then at me again."Umm… i don't know" he looked away. I raised my eyebrows."Okay he knows." He confessed."And?" "Armaan ""Chruch friends" "Best friend" I sighed."Are you ashamed of being in relationship with me?" He asked out of the blue.
Stop" i shouted. I felt myself being lifted up. He threw me on his shoulders. "Jaan, don't act now." He laughed. "I said stop" i shout again. "We have needs, jaan" he said throwing me on the bed. I can't breath. My thoughts are all over the place. I felt a hand on my waist. I opened my eyes. I was breathing loudly, i was panicking. I looked around, it was my room. Arjun was sleeping beside me. "Nightmare" i whispered and got off the bed. My top was wet with sweat. I walked out and entered the kitchen. Gulping down the water i decided to sit on the swing, which was on our terrace. Tears rolled down my eyes. "Jaan" i repeat. I pulled my legs to my chest and started sobbing. After few minutes I heard footsteps climbing up. I immediately composed myself. "Kavya, what happened? Are you okay?" Asked my father. "Yes,papa. Why are you up?" I replied. "I don't know, I couldn't sleep. Why are you up? An
I entered the class next day, kevin was in good mood. He squized my hand and whispered "we need to talk" "What? I mean yes, what is is it?" I asked. "Calm down babe." He winked. "No seriously what is it?" I asked again. "I got a contract, i will be in UDAIPUR for 2 days next week." He informed me. He was so happy, it made me smile. "Congratulations" i hugged him. "We are in class babe, All this can wait calm down." He pinch my arm. I laughed. The lecture started, I couldn't shake the feeling of being guilty. I felt weak. I looked at him. He is happ. " Are you okay? You look tired." He asked. "Yeah, why you ask?" I replied. "Your eyebags tell different story" i whispered. "Its nothing." I looked away. "I will give my 100 percent" "Kavya, i don't know about you but i don't feel like i am relationship" he asked me out of the blue. When we were walking in college gar
I still trust him. May be what I talked with Bella was lie, I can't stop trusting my loved ones because of an outsider. Everytime he hold my hand, my hands went cold. At this point, the nightmare was turned into day-mares. He ushered me out of the class and asked mw.to wait for him. I was replying to sometexts when he returned with few boys. I remember few faces, they were his work mates. "Kavya, i want to introduce you to my team." He said excitedly. Nooooooooooooooo "This is udaiy" he spoke placing his hand on my back I smiled and shook his hand. "This is jay" I nodded and shook hand "This is Parth and his girlfriend" i nodded. "And this is my kavya, my girlfriend." He finally completed. I thought we were going to keep this hidden. They talked for a while and I stood there awkwardly. I don't want to be here. Why did he introduce me with them. I don't like this. I looked at kevin and he understood my discomf
The more I talked to bella the more she told me about him. A part of me wanted to believe her, another wanted to hold onto him. My personal life was ligetly mixed with college life only my professional life was separate. He continued to introduce me with his friends for few more days… "Kavya do you remember? I told you about how a guy came few days back to see my sister." He entered the class in lunch break. "Where were you? I literally called you like 10 times." I asked. He fold his hands on his chest. "Yeah I remember. They are going to be engaged next month. I know." I replied. "Well, he backed off. He said he don't want my sister." He said. "Just like that?" I asked. "Yes. Someone called him and told about my sister's last relationship and he without even asking-" "Calm down okay." I consoled him. He told me everything. How it happened and how his sister is depressed. He kept talking and i listened
Harry and carol were waiting for kevin amd me in a place called Hyderabadi hut, which served best non-vegetarian dishes. Kevin and I left the college together and brought a cake on the way. I was gifting her a traditional top and kevin paid for cake. We entered the place. It was dark themed restaurant with blood red and black seats. I immediately loved the place. We saw them sitting on the far corner. "Happy Birthday my girl." I chirped and hugged her. I felt kevin's hand on my back. "Happy birthday" he wished. And shook hand with harry. "Hi harry." I greet him We sat on the couch together, kevin and me. I chatted with love birds for a while and saw kevin busy in his phone. I moved my hand on this knee in order to tell him that what he was doing is rude but as i touched him he hold my hand. He interwiend his fingers in mine and placed his phone on the table. It bring back the memories of Kay's lecture, how he seduced me that
Finally I am here. I always wanted a solo trip and i am here. After working my ass off for 6 years after graduation i finally managed to gather money and convenience my dad. I wanted to have a solo trip with my money. I still am convincing my dad to let me buy my own house, he will understand soon. Soon that what it feels to be independent. Soon that I don't want a guy to buy me stuff. Soon that i can buy myself a diamond ring. I am in International cruise right now. Sipping my wine, watching the mesmerizing hues of sky. Enjoying myself in my perfect world. "Kavya?" I heard a voice calling me from behind. I don't recognise that voice. I looked back, no- one looking particularly at me. "Kavya" i heard again. I saw a man standing near the pool. I recognise him. "Kevin?" I was shocked. "Indeed." He said walking towards me. " Honey" a small voice came behind him. He turned around and hugged a girl. "Meet my wif
I love my life again. I broke up with him two weeks ago. I can't say I don't miss him. He was in front of me for 6 hours a day. He was not regular in the class. After 2 days of my stunt I apologised to him. Now because what i said, but because in what state i said. It would have gone well if i was sober. But you can't expect normal from me now. Do you? He kept staring at me most of the time. It was like he was longing to talk to me but his ego was stopping him. whatever the reason was, he was not acting mature. I thought Armaan and raaj will stop talking to me after our breakup but turned out they supported me. They talked with us both, kevin and me. Raaj tried to convince both me.and him to talk maturely. I agreed but he didn't. He will eventually come around. Kevin was pretty much angry with his friends talking to me. Even carol stopped talking to him and that amused me. I felt bad for him but deep down i knew he deserves this. He left his friends
Its been few days. I haven't talked to him properly, the last time i talked to him was when he took me armaan and raaj out together. I was not comfortable with him acting my bf, i was upset. "Are you two good?" Asked raaj. "Yes absolutely" answered kevin.Raaj looked at me and I rolled my eyes. "Kavya can you send me the link of that free books app?" Asked raaj. "Sure." I said when kevin spoke. "Look Bella upload the picture of her cake. I wish I could eat that. I loved the food made by her." Chirped kevin. I sat there uncomfortable. Raaj and armaan looked at me. "Ohh that's fine. Kavya is not among that cringe gfs who fights on such topics." He said laughing. Yeah I don't fight bit it bothers me. ------------ Today is shivratri. The hindu festival. And marijuana is served as prasad. I drank too. After drinking i entered my room and laid on bed. I couldn't stop thinking. As I got high, the anger inside
Harry and carol were waiting for kevin amd me in a place called Hyderabadi hut, which served best non-vegetarian dishes. Kevin and I left the college together and brought a cake on the way. I was gifting her a traditional top and kevin paid for cake. We entered the place. It was dark themed restaurant with blood red and black seats. I immediately loved the place. We saw them sitting on the far corner. "Happy Birthday my girl." I chirped and hugged her. I felt kevin's hand on my back. "Happy birthday" he wished. And shook hand with harry. "Hi harry." I greet him We sat on the couch together, kevin and me. I chatted with love birds for a while and saw kevin busy in his phone. I moved my hand on this knee in order to tell him that what he was doing is rude but as i touched him he hold my hand. He interwiend his fingers in mine and placed his phone on the table. It bring back the memories of Kay's lecture, how he seduced me that
The more I talked to bella the more she told me about him. A part of me wanted to believe her, another wanted to hold onto him. My personal life was ligetly mixed with college life only my professional life was separate. He continued to introduce me with his friends for few more days… "Kavya do you remember? I told you about how a guy came few days back to see my sister." He entered the class in lunch break. "Where were you? I literally called you like 10 times." I asked. He fold his hands on his chest. "Yeah I remember. They are going to be engaged next month. I know." I replied. "Well, he backed off. He said he don't want my sister." He said. "Just like that?" I asked. "Yes. Someone called him and told about my sister's last relationship and he without even asking-" "Calm down okay." I consoled him. He told me everything. How it happened and how his sister is depressed. He kept talking and i listened
I still trust him. May be what I talked with Bella was lie, I can't stop trusting my loved ones because of an outsider. Everytime he hold my hand, my hands went cold. At this point, the nightmare was turned into day-mares. He ushered me out of the class and asked mw.to wait for him. I was replying to sometexts when he returned with few boys. I remember few faces, they were his work mates. "Kavya, i want to introduce you to my team." He said excitedly. Nooooooooooooooo "This is udaiy" he spoke placing his hand on my back I smiled and shook his hand. "This is jay" I nodded and shook hand "This is Parth and his girlfriend" i nodded. "And this is my kavya, my girlfriend." He finally completed. I thought we were going to keep this hidden. They talked for a while and I stood there awkwardly. I don't want to be here. Why did he introduce me with them. I don't like this. I looked at kevin and he understood my discomf
I entered the class next day, kevin was in good mood. He squized my hand and whispered "we need to talk" "What? I mean yes, what is is it?" I asked. "Calm down babe." He winked. "No seriously what is it?" I asked again. "I got a contract, i will be in UDAIPUR for 2 days next week." He informed me. He was so happy, it made me smile. "Congratulations" i hugged him. "We are in class babe, All this can wait calm down." He pinch my arm. I laughed. The lecture started, I couldn't shake the feeling of being guilty. I felt weak. I looked at him. He is happ. " Are you okay? You look tired." He asked. "Yeah, why you ask?" I replied. "Your eyebags tell different story" i whispered. "Its nothing." I looked away. "I will give my 100 percent" "Kavya, i don't know about you but i don't feel like i am relationship" he asked me out of the blue. When we were walking in college gar
Stop" i shouted. I felt myself being lifted up. He threw me on his shoulders. "Jaan, don't act now." He laughed. "I said stop" i shout again. "We have needs, jaan" he said throwing me on the bed. I can't breath. My thoughts are all over the place. I felt a hand on my waist. I opened my eyes. I was breathing loudly, i was panicking. I looked around, it was my room. Arjun was sleeping beside me. "Nightmare" i whispered and got off the bed. My top was wet with sweat. I walked out and entered the kitchen. Gulping down the water i decided to sit on the swing, which was on our terrace. Tears rolled down my eyes. "Jaan" i repeat. I pulled my legs to my chest and started sobbing. After few minutes I heard footsteps climbing up. I immediately composed myself. "Kavya, what happened? Are you okay?" Asked my father. "Yes,papa. Why are you up?" I replied. "I don't know, I couldn't sleep. Why are you up? An
Its been 5 days in relationship. We are taking it slow, thanks to me. The first 2 days were awkward because now we can't just say 'look that one is cute' or 'ohh this girl is hell' or 'that guy is handsome'.We decided to keep this thing secret and not tell anyone. I entered the class, raaj was looking at me and smiling widely. He has been smiling at me for last 2 days. What up?I smiled back."Kevin?" I said."Hi darling" he said"Ssssssss…..class" i reminded him. I asked him not to call me with nick names here. "Ohh hi hitler" he laughed."Why is raaj smiling at me?" I asked. He looked at raaj. Then at me again."Umm… i don't know" he looked away. I raised my eyebrows."Okay he knows." He confessed."And?" "Armaan ""Chruch friends" "Best friend" I sighed."Are you ashamed of being in relationship with me?" He asked out of the blue.