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14. Worth Every Drop
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2021-06-20 19:45:16I talk to her. I know she can't hear me, I know she isn't even exactly down there, and I like to think of her soul dancing somewhere like she used to do, with the stars or in heaven. I talk to her anyway, as if she can hear me.
I tell her about my first detention, I tell her how many things are different without her around, but I definitely do not tell her about Jen and Jax. I don't even mention Jax. There are fresh flowers near the headstone, other than the live ones, and I wonder who they are from.
Does Jax even come here?
And tell her what?
Hey I'm now dating your other best friend?
Or cry and ask that she forgives him?
I stay for a while, throwing glances to the mass of black on the other side, watching so I’ll see when it's time to leave so that my parents won't miss me.
I tell her about Jude.
"You would have made fun of me, right? And teased me about how I now have the hottest guy in school talking to me. And
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