TARAH "Mamimiss ka namin, Tarah. Lalo na ng mga labada mo. HAHAHA!" Sabay na tumawa ng malakas ang magkapatid. Idinaan ko nalang sa buntong hininga ang inis ko. Nilagpasan sila, at dumeretso na sa aking kwarto. Pareho silang nakatambay sa labas ng kwarto ni Sam. Mukhang hinintay talaga ako para inisin. They didn't told me exactly what's about to happen but I know it already. Sa mga parinig palang nila ay alam kona. Pagkalipas ng kalahating oras ay pinuntahan ako ni Mrs. Lucille sa aking kwarto. As usual, may hawak na glass wine na kakapurit lang ang wine na laman. Sumandal siya sa hamba ng pinto sa aking kwarto. "Today is the day, Tarah." binigyan niya ako ng pekeng malungkot na ngiti. "Pack your things. Lilipat kana sa bahay ng asawa mo." Kunwari pa ay may luha siyang pinunasan. Inalis ko ang tingin sa kaniya. Pinag-igting nalang ang aking panga dahil hindi ko siya mairapan. Sinasabi ko na nga ba. Kaya masaya ang dalawa ay aalis na ako. Masaya din naman akong iwan sila. Ayoko nam
TARAH I can foresee how bad this year's going to be for me. Enrolment palang ay ginugulo na ako ng dalawa. Ikalawang linggo palang ngayon mula nang ampunin ako ng pamilyang 'yon ay naguguluhan na ako sa apelidong gagamitin ko. Bakit na ako naguguluhan? Ala naman sa usapan na papalitan ang apelido ko, ha?Atsaka, do you really want to affiliate their surname to your name, Tarah? Ang ganda ng pangalan mo. Gusto mong maging kaapelido sila? No way! Isang malaking no. Kasalanan ng submission paper na ito, e! Napaisip tuloy ako kung ano ang gagamitin kong apelido. Sinulat ko ang buo kong pangalan. Gamit ang pangalan na ibinigay sa akin ng tunay kong magulang. Kahit kailan ay hindi ako magiging Fuentebella. Medyo maganda lang pakinggan ang apelido nila, pero walang maganda sa pamilyang iyon. There was one person, but she's gone now. Bumuntong hininga ako. Sumandal sa aking upuan at pinakatitigan ang aking pangalan. Pero kahit ganoon, kundi dahil sa pamilyang yon ay baka hindi ako mag-eenr
TARAH"You want me to marry someone I don't know? At bakit po ako? Ako na dalawang linggo palang mula noong ampunin niyo, at patirahin sa bahay niyo. Bakit ako ang ipapakasal niyo sa pamilyang hindi ko naman kilala bilang kabayaran sa utang niyo?"Hindi ako nagulat nang malaman na may iba silang pakay mula sa akin, pero hindi ko inakala na ganito kabigat ang gustong nilang gawin ko. Kasal ang gusto nilang makuha mula sa akin. "Hindi kita inampon para kwestyunin ang mga pagpapalakad ko sa pamilyang ito. Didn't you you let me adopt you to lessen the burden of your family? Hindi mo ba kayang gawin iyon para sa amin? Hmm? Kami na ang bago mong pamilya. Pamilya mo kami, Tarah. Won't you help us?"Ibang usapan ito. Kasal ang pinag-uusapan dito. "Hindi ko po kaya ang gusto niyong gawin ko." Gusto nilang pakasalan ko ang isa sa mga anak ng pamilyang pinagkakautangan nila. Hindi ko alam kung paano sila nagkautang sa pamilyang yon. At kung saan napunta ang perang inutang nila. Ni hindi ko nga
TARAHIt never felt like I was married. For a while I've forgotten about it, that I was married to someone. I was too occupied taking care of my mother. Her operation was successful. And thankfully she didn't have any fatal illness, but still they're serious. This school year has started, but I skipped my class for two days now. Kailangan ako sa hospital ni mama, atsaka opening of classes palang naman. They won't start the lessons yet.For a while I've forgotten about my marriage, but coming to school reminded me about it. Kalat na naikasal ako sa pangalawang anak ng mga Schneider. Sa dalawang araw na hindi ko pagpasok ay ako pala ang usap-usapan ng halos buong school. Lantaran nila akong pinagchischismisan. Ang iba ay nagtatanong pa sa akin kung totoo ba. Wala akong binigyan ng pansin sa kanila. Tinignan ko ang schedule ko, at agad na hinanap ang room ng klase ko. "So totoo ngang may anak sa labas?""Kung hindi totoo, edi kanino kinasal si Tarah? Malamang totoo dahil kinasal siya
PRESENT (The day Tarah moved in.)TARAHSumilip ako sa labas ng bintana. The gate was closing on its own. Darn! Is it automated? Before it completely closed I saw a black car passed by. That's Ezekiel I guess. Realizing I'm truly alone now got me a little nervous. Wala naman sigurong multo dito?Mas matatakot ako sa tao kaysa sa multo. Ghost couldn't kill me. Real people can. I looked around the house once more. Tinignan ko kung makikita ko ang address ng bahay na ito sa fridge na sinasabi niya. It was there. I saved it on my phone. Pati narin ang number niya. Para kung ano man ang mangyari ay agad akong makatawag.I like to be alone, but not in a huge house like this. Kung sanay na siguro ako dito okay lang. I haven't looked around the place. I thinks this house is a part of a subdivision. Nabawasan ang pangamba ko. Maybe there's security securing the place. Then I remembered he told me the securitys tight here.Pumanik ako sa taas, muling tinignan ang mga kwarto at nagayos ng kaunti
TARAH"Wait. You mean... you'll stay in the house? Mag-iistay ka dito ng ilang oras? O hanggang bukas? O... ng ilang araw?""Ng ilang araw. If that's okay with you.""No! I mean--- This is your house. Your brother's house. Hindi ako ang may karapatan magsabi kung sino ang titira dito o hindi. So you don't need to ask permission from me.""You're the wife. Bahay niyo itong mag-asawa. You have a say who get to stay here. "Kumalabog ang puso ko sa "You're the wife." na sinabi niya. Ilang sandali akong napatigtig lang sa kaniya. "No. I don't want that. I don't want to do that. Ask your brother." I'm not going to claim this house. I'm not going to act like I own it. "Already did." Mabilis niyang sagot. Sobrang kalmado habang ako ay kabado na natataranta na hindi ko alam."He's okay for me to stay here. Actually he's the one who told me to look over you. He doesn't want you to be alone."I froze. Really? He's concern about me? I didn't realize we were staring at each other's eyes for a m
TARAHWhy does it have to be today? Bakit ngayon pa walang pasok? Gumising pa naman ako ng maaga, at ano ang maidadahilan ko ngayon para makaiwas kay Ezekiel? Tumayo ako sa tabi ng pinto. Pinapakiramdaman kung may ingay sa labas. Ang kalam ng aking sikmura ang narinig ko. Hindi kasi ako kumain ng kanin kagabi. Dinuwag akong bumaba ulit matapos maubos ang dalawang slice ng pizza. Kabado akong makasalubong si Ezekiel, at lalo naman ang makasalubong ng multo. Madaling araw na kaya itinulog ko nalang ang gutom.Maaga pa, baka tulog pa 'yon. Ito na ang tamang oras para bumaba. Maingat akong kumilos, siniguradong tahimik ang aking mga galaw. Tumigil ako sa harapan ng pinto ng kaniyang kwarto, pinakiramdaman ang ingay sa loob. Tahimik, baka nga tulog pa. Ala sais palang, e. Okaya naman ay baka nasa baba na? Kinabahan ako. Sinuklay ko ang aking buhok. Eh? Ba't ka nagpapaganda? Pinilig ko ang aking ulo saka na tumuloy sa baba. Para akong magnanakaw, patiyad na naglalakad at nililibot muna an
TARAH"I brought some food." he said dryly. Not the usual tone he uses on me. He put his hand inside his pocket, the one that was pinned on the wall earlier. Looked intently at my face then he just walked away, towards his room. My heart pounded when he stopped and faced me."Next time you'll leave the house, tell me. And if you could tell me where you're going, tell me as well." He said darkly. My mouth opened a little. He didnt blink while he looks at me intensely in the eye. "I'm responsible for you." he said with a hoarse voice. Then went inside his room.I was left speechless. Is that how he looks when he's mad? Well not really mad, I say sulky. Daunting. Hindi niya nagustuhan na umalis ako ng walang paalam? Sa asawa ko nga hindi ako nagpapaalam. Well kahit gusto kong magpaalam wala naman akong koneksiyon sa kaniya. Alam kong hindi tama ang ginawa ko, ang umalis ng walang pasabi. Pero hindi din naman mali iyon, diba?Bumaba ako para tignan ang pagkain na sinasabi niya. Una kong
TARAH“Anong gusto mong pag-usapan?! Kung paano natin pinagtaksilan ang kapatid mo?! Kung gaano na ako makasalanan ngayon dahil sa gabing iyon?!"I tried to hold it in, pero ito ang gusto niya. Sige, pag-usapan natin."It wasn't a mistake.""It was, Ezekiel!""Not to me.”I can’t believe he doesn’t see that a mistake. Lumakas lalo ang pintig ng aking puso sa kaniyang paunti-unting paglapit. Nakakafrustate na hindi siya galit magsalita. Hindi ko tuloy mapanatili ang galit ko.“Maybe for you. Or maybe not too. You’re just being denial.”“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Kahit ako ay hindi na nasusupladahan sa aking tono. Naduduwag na ako sa mga sinasabi niya at dahil sa gamit niyang tono. Imbis na maging away ito ay parang inaakit niya ako.“You say it was just lust? Not true.”My back hit the door. “It was just lust. Ganoon din sayo.”"I wouldn't go to this extent if I wasn't in love with you.""W-what?”Halos sumabog na ang puso ko habang siya ay kalmado at masuyong nakatingin
TARAH"Not even one reply." He hissed with clenched jaw. I swallowed hard. Kabado sa galit na nakikita ko sa kanyang mukha. Tensyonado sa lapit namin.I must be crazy. Imbis na isipin kung paano makakatakas sa kaniya, ang laman ng isip ko ay kung gaano siya kagwapo at ka-hot ngayon. Namumula ang kaniyang leeg hanggang dibdib.He moved closer. His legs brushed mine. I felt electrified."E-ezekiel."Hindi ko alam kung itutulak ko ba siya palayo, itanong kung bakit siya nandito, kung alam niya ba na nandito ako, kung sinabihan ba siya ni Eve, o ipaalala sa kanya na baka makita kami ng kapatid niya sa ganitong posisyon kaya dapat siyang lumayo."What, Tarah? You finally have something to say? You wanna talk to me now? Now that I caught you?"He was being sarcastic. "Eve's around." Makahulugan kong sambit. Pero hindi siya natinag doon. "Lumayo ka ng konti.""You've been avoiding me for a week!" Lumakas ang boses niya. Pumikit ako ng mariin. I'm guilty as fuck. "Ezekiel...""We will talk.
TARAH"You're not coming home? It's late already. Sunduin kita?""Are you at your parents house? When are you coming home?""Come home, Tarah. We need to talk.""I miss you. I'm waiting for you outside your school.""Answer my calls, please.""I know you don't want your parents to know about me. About us. But I really wanna see you. Baka hindi kona mapigilan puntahan ka sa bahay ninyo. Magkita tayo. Talk to me, please!""Mag-usap tayo please, Tarah.""Hinintay kita sa tapat ng school mo kahapon. Kanina naghintay ako sa kanto ninyo. Did you not come home? Or you successfully hid from me again? Tarah, please... Mag-usap tayo.""Naghihintay ako sa tapat. Ihahatid kita sa Cafe. We don't need to talk for now. Just let me see you.""Please let me know if you're okay.""Tarah...""Darling, please..."Isang linggo higit na mula noong bumalik ako sa puder nina papa. Hindi kona muli kinita si Ezekiel. Ni text niya hindi ko sinasagot. Maging ang kay Gabriel.Alam kong ako ang may ginawang kasala
EZEKIEL"You at school?""On my way. Why?""Is there any way I could speak with Tarah's teachers?" "Why? Something wrong?""Nothing. She'll be absent today, so..." "She sick?"I looked at the beauty sleeping on my bed. So pretty even when she's sleeping. I smiled like an idiot at the memory of last night. "No. But she's in some kind of pain." I can't tell him that his sister-in-law is sore down there because we had our honeymoon last night."O... kay?" Tinulak ko ang sarili mula sa pagkakasandal sa pinto. I walked out of the room. "Should I go there? Para makausap ko ang teachers niya?" I don't think she'll wake up anytime now. I got her exhausted last night. I smiled like an idiot again. Darling, look at what you're doing to me. Someone might think I'm crazy. Well, I am crazy. Crazy over you, Tarah."Would she want that? Pag-uusapan sigurado ang pagpunta mo sa school." Napatigil ako sa paglakad. "Right." She wouldn't want that. Pero ayoko naman din maliban siya sa klase ng wala
(Warning! R18!) TARAH"Let me stretch you a little."I gasps at the feeling of my walls being stretched. His fingers moving like a scissor inside me. Weird, but it feels good. "What are you doing?" I asked, getting dizzy from the pleasure. "Preparing you." He said looking up to me. That damn ridiculously handsome face is inch close from my pussy. And that damn skillful tongue is now back on licking me dry. He's not restraining his moves anymore.Yeah. I do need to prepare. He's huge. That thing is supposed to go inside me. Bumaon ang aking mga daliri sa kanyang buhok nang abutin ko ang rurok. Habol habol ko ang aking hininga. Damn this is exhausting. I might faint before the real thing.He crawled up to my face, planting kisses on my body all the way up. "Lights off? Or on?" He asks. "On." Nakita na niya lahat. At gustong kong makita ang kanyang mukha habang inaangkin niya ako. "Are you ready?" He asks hoarsely. I tasted myself in his sweet mouth. Akala ko ay mandidiri ako, pero
Warning! R18EZEKIELA beauty is on my bed. My beautiful wife is finally on my bed. I have prayed every night for this. To spend the night with her. To sleep with her, literally and figuratively. I'm no saint. My thoughts aren’t all pure. I dreamt of making love with her, with my wife. To have the honeymoon we didn't had. Just one touch of hers, I'd burn for her. Gustong-gusto ko siya. Ayokong madaliin ang mga nangyayari sa amin. Pero habang tumatagal, hindi ko na kayang magpigil. Hindi ko na maitago kung gaano ako ka baliw sa kanya. I want to make her know of my dreams. I want those dreams to come true. One just did. She likes me back. A damn dream come true. And I think another dream of mine will be made true tonight. My dream to make love with my wife. Such a beautiful sight beneath me. Her wet hair sprawled on the sheet, her lips redder and plumper from our wet kisses, her perfect body bare below me, blessing my eyes. My gaze stayed longer at her glistening flesh. My mouth w
(Warning! R18!)TARAH"W-what?"He pulled my underclothes down my thighs. One swift move I was put down on top of the table. He then completely remove my underclothes off my body."You don't mean..." Kabado ko siyang tinignan. He sat me on the edge. "Oh my God!" I moaned as he touch me there. Nakatukod ang dalawang kamay ko sa mesa para hindi mahiga."Spread your legs, baby."My breathing hitched. He parted my legs. His eyes burned with desire as he stare at my naked sensitivity. I feel so exposed. But my legs didn't even flinched to deprive him of the sight.Our eyes met. They burn me. He attacked me with a hungry kiss. Sucking the breath out of me. Hawak niya ang magkabila kong tuhod. Iniyakap ang aking mga paa sa kaniyang baywang.Gumapang pababa ang kaniyang kamay mula sa aking leeg pababa sa aking gitna. Napadaing ako ng malakas nang mahanap muli niya ako doon."You're dripping wet, darling." He say between our kisses. "I did that." Mayabang niyang sabi bago kagatin ang gilid ng
(Warning! R18!)TARAH"Bakit mo tinatanong?""Tarah kaibigan mo ako. Pwede mo akong pagsabihan ng mga bagay-bagay."Sumipa ako sa lupa para lumakas ang ugoy ng duyan."I asked you if you love him or at least like him 'cuz obviously you're intimate with each other. He didn't forced you, right?"It's about the hickey."No!" I exclaimed. "No." Mas kalmado kong sabi. "Hindi niya ako pinilit.""You like him." Seryoso niyang sabi. Bumaba sa duyan. Tumayo sa gilid noon hawak ang tali. Hindi ako tumango at hindi ko rin itinanggi."Why are we talking about this?" Ang akala ko ay pag-uusapan namin kung saan ko siya ililibri. We're at the elementary's school park."Pero hindi mo alam kung mahal mo na ba siya?""Hindi pa ako komportable para pag-usapan ito, Elliot. This is the first time I got into a relationship." Tapos ganito pa kakomplikado. Tinukod ko ang paa sa lupa."At ikaw ang unang lalaking kaibigan ko. Naninibago pa ako. Hindi ko pa kayang magsabi sa'yo, at sa totoo lang hindi ko alam k
TARAH"Do you want to have the dessert now?""Hindi pa ako tapos. Istorbo kalang kaya tumigil ako." Bumalik ako sa pagkain."You can have my lips for dessert. It's sweeter and it won't melt until morning." Malandi niyang sabi."No, thanks." Sagot ko agad."I want yours." Bulong niya sa tenga ko. I felt a knot in my stomach."Tumigil ka Ezekiel." Saway ko."What's your favourite food?" he randomly asked. Tapos na yata kumain."Marami.""Kasama ba ako doon?"I side-eyed him. "Hindi ka pagkain.""Pero pwede mong kainin."Pumikit ako ng mariin. "Please stop. Gusto kong kumain ng maayos.""No really. What's your favourite food?""Marami nga. Hindi ka kasali doon." Hindi pa kita nakain. Wait, what?! Napainom tuloy ako."I know you like chocolate mousse cake. You don't like pepperoni but okay with pineapple on your pizza. You mostly cook meals with soup at night. You like ice cream. Yogurt as well. I noticed you like it when Eve makes you one of his yogurts. What else do you like?"You. I me