LILITH POV
This was my world, but tonight felt different. The music's beat throbbed through my chest, grounding me as I stepped onto the stage. Here, I wasn't Lilith Russo, the awkward nineteen-year-old college student who trips on her own two feet. Lilith Russo, who couldn't look into anyone's eyes or make a coherent sentence without fumbling or blasting out classical literature to hide her nervousness. I was known as The Raven. A beautiful seductress, a shadow they couldn't touch but watch, a desire they couldn't hold but feel. Letting out a deep breath, my hands gripped the pole. I started slow, letting the rhythm seep into my bones, each sway of my hips a controlled invitation. I let go of the pole and let my fingers glide along my thighs, a practiced movement meant to tease. Of course, I knew how to play this game and dangle just enough mystery to keep them wanting without giving too much. "How much for that whore?" I heard whispers. It wasn't the first time and I doubted it would be the last time. I knew every response to each word said the moment I took the stage. As for the first question, my boss would snarl, "She's not for sale." "Can I touch her to know if she's real? She feels unoriginal." "I'll pay you triple if I can feel that sweet ass of hers." "Your hands to yourself or I cut it off." That would be the response from Marco, my boss. There were many more silly questions, and I was glad I wasn't the one doing the answering. Marco was often within earshot and ready to give a snarky response to anyone who needed it. I was his valued dancer; hence, for that reason, he placed me on center stage to entertain only the ones above the higher working-class men. Even though, he never clarified that, I didn't ask any questions as I knew what he meant. Those were called the VIPs of La Notte. They were the most important people for Marco and his club, and I couldn't mess up as much as I desired. I sucked in a deep breath as I felt eyes on me. "Don't look, Raven," I whispered to myself. It was rule number one for me. 'Don't make eye contact with anyone in the VIP section no matter what. The world could be ending, La Notte could be getting destroyed, but I'd be on the damned stage swaying my hips to the music playing. I kept my gaze fixed somewhere in the haze of lights and smoke, refusing to meet the eyes in the darkened VIP section. They were trouble. The VIP section was home to the worst of them— the powerful and untouchable. I didn't need to know their names or their intentions; they were a different breed. My job was to entertain and survive, not to invite complications. I bite my lower lip, my body moving on autopilot, twisting and arching. Puffing out a breath slowly, I sucked in another breath. The air felt thicker and charged, and I could feel their stares crawling over me. However, one gaze seared into my skin, hotter and heavier than the others. Fuck. They were urging me to look, trying to turn my head sideways and coaxing me to squint and find the very eyes that were looking at me. "Don't you dare look," I said through gritted teeth. But I couldn't help it. My fucking resolve cracked, and for a heartbeat, my eyes flicked up and I met his eyes— a fucking mistake. The rules I had kept for three damned years, a man had made me break it in just a day and he barely did anything to make me do so. The man I was currently staring at was sitting in the shadow, a face I knew only by reputation: Giovanni Ricci. The man everyone in La Notte feared and wouldn't dare talk awful about him even in his absence. I had always wondered why he was feared that much. He was an ordinary human, like the rest of us, but now, I could almost see it. His stare was dark, intense, as if he could strip away the pretence, and dig into who I really was. The second Rule I had always upheld by heart was: Never let anyone believe you can be owned. I knew that even if I could break the first rule, there was no way I could break the second because no one indeed owned me. I worked for Marco, but that didn't make him own me. I did sign a contract, and that was to keep shut about everything that happened in the La Notte. Every one of us—the dancers— did. Someone could be killed in the most horrible way ever, assaulted, and well kidnapped; we have to keep our damned mouths shut and never speak of it as it wasn't in our right to do so. Marco did have the final say about what I did most of the time, but he still allowed me freedom. And yet, Giovanni's eyes trapped me, like he dared me to break my rules just to let him see a little more. He tilted his head, a silent command that left my breath hitched. Rolling my shoulders, I eventually broke the spell, and spun, my back to him trying to steady my racing pulse. The song crescendos, and I slide to the floor, twisting in a way that should feel graceful but vulnerable under his watchful gaze. Why the hell was he still staring at me? Discretely, I glanced at myself to ensure my costume wasn't out of place. Perhaps he recognized me from somewhere, that could be the only reason he would be staring. "You're too perfect to be in here, Raven. Now I see why Marco is so much into you being on the center stage," Flora, one of the dancers, said. "Thank you," I flashed her a small smile. Even though I didn't care about her compliment, I wasn't one to waste it. We had never had a real conversation until now because it was either she was glaring at me, or saying one or two things about me to the other dancers so I could be hated. "Marco is watching; we need to return to the waiting room for his next instruction. There are some important guests here," Flora said before trotting away. "She acts like she's the boss. She's just a newbie here and should respect everyone because we were here before her!" Candy, a petite brunette, retorted. "You know how Flora can be, I wouldn't cross her path if I were you," I murmured. Candy shrugged, "I am not afraid of her." then she leaned into me despite how tiny she was. "I heard she's sleeping with the boss, so he lets her do as she desires. Such a stanky whore." I heard that too. I knew it wasn't just mere gossip, it was indeed happening, but I didn't care about that. I was okay with that as long as I could get what I wanted to fend for myself. "Come on, Marco is watching," Candy said. I forced myself to back up, plastering on a Raven's sultry smirk. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Giovanni raise a hand, the silent, unmistakable gesture calling me over. I froze, my heart beating rapidly. Rule number 3: Never answer a call unless you know the price. I had seen other girls lured by that beckoning hand, and they never left the same. I desired to turn away and make a dash towards the exit, never looking back because there was no way in hell I was going into that place to meet with the devil himself. Yet, my stupid legs couldn't cooperate with what my brain wanted. I took the first step forward, then the second, ignoring the alarms sounding in my head.LILITH'S POV I gasped as a hand gripped me, stopping me from moving further. A relieved sigh pierced through me as I saw it was Marco. I couldn't be any happier to see his annoying face; at least he had stopped me from making a terrible mistake. He pulled me towards the room's corner, where it was quieter. Many people do not come to this part of La Notte; you only come here when you want privacy. I frown, staring at Marco, wondering what he wanted. "How are you?" His toffee-brown eyes moved over my body. "Um, fine, I guess," I laughed. Even as I was anything but that. My body ached from exerting too much pressure on it. You'd think doing this for three years would make me an expert in the field, but I was far from that. Also, the fact that Marco was asking about my well-being when he had never indeed cared made it even more laughable. "Good," he nodded. "Do you remember the deal from earlier?" Tilting my head, I tried to remember the exact deal he was talking about. W
LILITH'S POV My head hurt, and likewise, my throat. It wasn't easy to keep my eyes open because it closed by itself as soon as I opened them. I couldn't remember the last time I tasted booze. It was my first time in La Notte, and I was clueless about what was being done. Someone had offered me a drink, and I had drunk without thinking. That was the first time I suffered from a hangover, and also the last time I stopped drinking since I tend to do something out of the ordinary. When I mean out of the ordinary, I embarrass myself. Last night, I never wanted to drink, but it was the only thing that could keep me calm. I never would have imagined that a glass would knock me out cold. Shifting on the bed, I heaved a breath, pushing back the nausea that surged through me, before opening my eyes. They slowly accommodated to the brightness of the room. I glanced at myself as I felt exposed. I couldn't remember slipping out of my clothes last night or maybe I had changed before returning
GIOVANNI POVBeing made in the family—it was more than a title. It was a damn oath written in blood. I'd earned my bones long ago, proving to Don Massimo that I had the stomach for what The Life demanded.As a capo in La Famiglia Ricci, it was my job to run my crew with a tight fist to make sure no one got any ideas about stepping out of line. To keep the family's interest protected, to settle debts, to enforce loyalty—I did what was needed to do. And in return? I had the family's backing. Respect, fear.But it wasn't all power and luxury. Being a made man meant you didn't get to quit, didn't get to retire. You either did the work, or you were sleeping with the fishes. That was how it was, how it always would be."Capo." Jacques, one of my muscles said.I stopped walking to stare at him. He was standing by Luca. Jacques and Luca were my muscles, always two steps behind and ready to handle any trouble that came my way. Loyalty was everything in this line of work; they were the only one
LILITH'S POV I felt jittery. Rubbing my clammy palms on the A-shaped brown skirt I wore for the umpteenth time, I placed my hand on my raving heart. "Take a deep breath, Lilith, and remember that the universe is unfolding as it should be." taking two deep reassuring gulps of air as if my life depended on it, I walked towards the entrance of the hall. I had practiced for the test a week before and was sure it was also child's play. In fact, I had skimmed through my notes before arriving at school. However, I couldn't tell why I was afraid of failing. Maybe it was because of Social Psychology (PSY 340), and I had heard a lot of rumors from the seniors about that class. I guessed it was because I learned one could fail without trying, which made me a bit nervous. "Fuck, watch where you are going?!" A voice growled, causing me to jump back in fright. I had almost slammed into him. It was my fault; I didn't watch where I was going. "I'm sorry," I stuttered, bending to pick up my book
GIOVANNI POVMarcella was hurt because of me. I was her big brother and protector. I should have been watching over her!Instead, I had been with a woman. A woman I could not stop thinking about now!Although Marcella had her personal bodyguard, whom Don Massimo had placed close to her school, I still made it my primary objective to look after her.Don Massimo had been good to me, picked me from the damned gutters, and brushed me up. I wouldn't have gotten to this stage of my life if it weren't for him. He had treated me like a son.Honestly, anyone who didn't know the relationship between us would assume I was his child. However, Don Massimo himself had never treated me anything lesser than that.Marcella had gotten hurt under my watch because I was fucking some unknown woman. Yet, I was here thinking of the same woman instead of looking for those who had hurt her and giving them a taste of their medicine.Grimacing, I stared at the boner forming on my pants. The dent was noticeable,
LILITH POV Which of all my important nothings shall I tell you first? (Jane Austen) My mother, Maria Russo, a woman with a slim build and greying hair often tied in a bun. Her hair was once dark brown like mine, often in a loose wave that fell over her shoulders. She was my motivation. She was the reason I had decided to pursue psychology, not just because of the fantastic career opportunity I'd get from it or the scholarship I had been granted. My mother's tumor diagnosis drove me to study Psychology, seeking answers and ways to support her. Maria Russo was a hardworking woman who was responsible for my brother and me. She juggled multiple jobs to provide for us, and despite how low-paying they were, I had always been grateful. She was the kind of woman I desired to be, not in relationship wise because men had dealt with her. They were assholes, and none of them were redeemable in my eyes. Ever since I learned about my mother's illness, I have taken over the responsibility
LILITH POV Who does he think he is? I glared at the spot that his car was in. He allowed me to leave but couldn't return to the clubhouse. I stayed in the position until he left. Giovanni believed he could buy me with his words and money. Just what the hell was he trying to play at? Maybe he knew what was happening. He knew I was trying to gather information for him to Marco, and he was trying to avoid that to distract me. Yet, he could have easily talked me out of it and not offered me a job of his own. At the same time, I didn't want to believe that was the case. Today, just like two days ago, I had blown it off. I wondered if I was ever cut out for this job or maybe Giovanni was doing everything possible for me not to get what I wanted for Marco. It was possible because how could he offer me a job just a few days after Marco did? He certainly was aware of what was happening. I jumped slightly, glancing at where I was, as I heard a rustling sound. This place I was in wasn't id
GIOVANNI POVGuy, my secretary took the phone I extended to him as soon as I was done with the call. Cracking my knuckles, I walked to the man in the room's centre.He whimpered, his bloodied face pressed against the cold concrete floor. The dim, flickering light above threw shadows across his trembling form, his muffled pleas barely audible over the distant hum of machinery. I crouched down, gripping his chin to force him to look at me. His bloodshot eyes darted, searching for mercy he wouldn’t find.Mercy was never in my eyes, to begin with.“Loyalty isn't a choice, stronzo,” I said, my voice calm, “You took a damn oath, James, and for a fucking pussy, you choose to throw all that in the wind.”"Tell me, how many days did she offer to fuck your little dick for you to go against your family and the code of honor?"He tried to speak, but the gag stuffed in his mouth made it pathetic, incoherent. I snorted, and my patience wore thin. With a flick of my hand, one of my men yanked the ga
LILITH POV"Fuck," I muttered as soon as I came awake.I could barely move any part of my body. They were heavy plus my eyes had refused to open. A sharp pain shot through my ribs as I tried to move, forcing me to stay still. When I finally was able to open my eyes, I stared at my surrounding and for a second, I tried to remember where I was or how I got here.And then it hit me. I was in the hospital. The fire alarm. The chaos and burning building!"Giovanni," I whispered, turning my eyes around the empty room. I had heard his voice in the midst of the chaos.Perhaps I was imagining things but I doubted it as it sounded so vivid and sharp.The door opened, and Casey stepped in. She stood by the door briefly, staring at me. She didn't move, and she seemed to be in a daze."Casey," I murmured, my voice hoarse.My voice snapped her out of her daze, and she began to move towards me robotically. Then she stopped."Lilith," she whispered, then her eyes widened. "Oh my God, Lilith. You're a
GIOVANNI POVDespite how often I had denied stalking her, I might as well be called a stalker right now. I sat on a bench near the cinema, watching everyone going in and out.I saw Lilith climbing out of a red SUV with her friend Casey.Diamante was around, and she told me she'd be coming to the movies so we could meet here. Although I had told her to say what she wanted to on the phone, she had refused.Initially, I was furious at her and didn't want to be here, but now I am glad I was. At least, the sight of Lilith would distract me momentarily from her.I watched as Lilith and her friend walked through the entrance. I stood, dusting my pants, and was about to walk, but I stopped as Diamante appeared in front of me."Nino," she murmured, sliding her dark sunglasses down her straight nose. She bites her lower lip, one of her hands now touching my shoulder.I stared at the hand briefly before looking at her. I might have thought this gesture endearing four years ago. Or even thought h
LILITH POV"Don't leave the safety of the house," I read from Giovanni's text."Why not?" I muttered, staring at it. He didn't give any other reasons except for that.I rolled my eyes, depositing my phone into my pocket.I wrinkled my nose as the buttery aroma of popcorn filled the air, leaning back into the cushioned seat, I let the movie draw me in."Goodness, I hate romantic comedies," she sighed dramatically."You picked it," I pointed out. It wasn't as if I had picked it. She was the one who suggested that she needed the laughter and all, and it was the only good fit as far as far as I was concerned."You look at her perfect hair. Nothing out of place. She irks me!" Casey groaned, pointing to one of the characters.I laughed, shaking my head. I knew she loved it because she was still watching it. If Casey hated a movie, she wouldn't pay any attention to it, no matter its high ratings. She only needed to glance at the first scene to judge.But she had been complaining about this s
LILITH POVThe phone fell from my hand, clattering to the floor. My heartbeat quickened, and I let out an inaudible gasp. My eyes widened as I looked around Casey's living room.It was just the two of us, and nothing seemed to be out of the ordinary. In fact, Casey was already calmed and was now staring at me as if I had lost my mind. I must have looked at the part with my mouth open while I gasped for breath."Are you alright?" she bent to pick up my phone, but I snatched it from the ground before she could."Okay," she frowned, nodding her head.I ignored her eyes as I stared at the phone again. The text was anonymous, so there was no way I could have known who sent it or even traced it!Now, I feel even more paranoid. I was right about someone watching me. This just confirmed it. But who the hell was that? What do they want from me?Giovanni was ruled out already, maybe it was Marco.He had contacted me sometime last week to ask about my whereabouts. I hadn't given him an answer be
LILITH POVI think it was paranoia, or maybe I was losing my mind.I glanced over my shoulder for the umpteenth time while crossing the street leading to Casey's apartment.I still felt the feelings from yesterday of being watched, from leaving Giovanni’s penthouse to arriving here.I wanted to believe a car had been trailing me as well! I had seen a car from the rearview mirror. It had tinted windows, so I couldn't see who was in it. But each time the car I was in made a stop, it did as well.The only thing that convinced me I wasn't being watched and that I was just going crazy was when the car zoomed past me.Coming down and about to go to Casey's, I still felt the eyes on me!Using the spare key with me—Casey had given it to me after we graduated high school. She had said I could come to her house whenever I felt like—I inserted it into the keyhole.When I unlocked the door, I looked around me briefly to ensure I wasn't being truly followed, and then I stepped inside.Gasping as I
LILITH POV"Raven?"I swirled, locking eyes with Giovanni as he climbed down the last flight of stairs. I was in the kitchen about to make chicken broth for him. I often made it for Romeo whenever he was sick, and it was pretty effective against the flu, too.This morning, Giovanni's temperature had spiked even higher, so I thought doing that would alleviate the symptoms."You're awake," I said to him. I turned off the cooker and rinsed my hands under the faucet before wiping them on the apron around my neck.I walked up to him, touching his hands. I stood on tiptoes, touching his temple with the back of my hand."How are you feeling?" I asked him."What are you doing here?" he answered my question with one of his."Wrong answer," I replied. "I was hoping to wake you up with breakfast, but now that you're here, I guess it's okay for you to have the soup here. You can take your medication afterward," I said to him."Medication?" Giovanni murmured as I pulled him to the sofa. I nudged h
LILITH POVI left the house as soon as my mother went to bed, claiming to be staying over at Casey's. She didn't say anything as she looked at me with suspicion.Now, here I was, in the usual spot waiting for Giovanni to show up. It took only a few minutes for the black monster car that Rowland often drove Giovanni in to pull up in front of me.Rowland came down at the same time as Giovanni."I'll get the door, sir," Rowland said, approaching me but Giovanni ignored him.He leaned against the car briefly, before heaving a breath, his shoulders moving as he did.Giovanni opened the door, pointing to it, "In," he said.I walked past him and was about to slide into the car when he staggered.I gripped his shoulder, steadying him. "Are you alright?" I asked, placing the back of my palm on his forehead."Fuck!" I winced, withdrawing it. It was scorching.I turned to Rowland who helped me take him inside the car."What's wrong with him? He's running a fever!" I glanced at Giovanni again, an
LILITH POV It was two days since I met with Giovanni at the convenience store, two days since he killed a man in front of me, acting as though it was nothing, and two days for a breath of fresh air without wondering if he was going to appear before me or not. Today was Romeo's birthday. He'd officially be seventeen years old today, and I was hyped up for it. Even though my mother didn't seem the least bit interested, she mentioned not being able to afford to throw a party for him, which made her feel somewhat down, although I assured her it wasn't her fault we were in poverty. I had made it my responsibility to make Romeo feel special today, and I was going to fulfill it without any distractions. "Does he like chocolate or strawberry?" Casey asked, curious. We were in the dessert section of the store to get some prebaked cake because baking would take a lot of time, and we hadn't planned the day before. Also, if we decided to bake, it would be in Casey's house and not mine because
I winced, shoving my hands into my hair. The loud music playing from the old jukebox was beginning to get to me. My head pounded, and my eyes hurt from the disco lights swirling around.I was in the clubhouse, Velvet Haven, in the gritty part of downtown. I know I shouldn't be here. But Casey had guilt trip me into coming. Also, I didn't want to stay cooped up indoors thinking about my pathetic pregnant life.So, I gave in. It wasn't as if I'd be drinking. But I could badly use one drink right now. At least to calm my nerves and to stop me from waking over the pudgy man that was sitting in the corner, eyefucking me.I tried to concentrate on Casey's dancing. She was grounding into a shirtless dude. He was all over her, and I had seen both even share a kiss. Yeah, she was totally fine with it.That was Casey, but she had boundaries. I knew she wouldn't go overboard by fucking this total stranger in the presence of everyone except if he was her date. But he wasn't. She had come alone wi