Chapter 49

(Renata Pellegrini)

Why am I feeling lonely?

Things happened very fast today, Caio fought for me and got fired, I almost got fired too, when I got home, I hit a girl, who is in love with the man I love, I lost my virginity, I got to know a new house, I made love on the balcony there, and I have also chosen the furniture, packed my bags and it is still only five o'clock in the afternoon...

I can't help it, a tear escapes from my eyes. I have always been alone, since the death of my parents, but after I came here, I had forgotten what it was like to be in an empty house, just me.

I wanted to get a good job, meet a nice guy and have at least three kids, that was the list I set as goals before entering college. But it looks like I will only be able to accomplish two items on the list.

I touch my belly and imagine it big, with a baby kicking inside, I smile bitterly, Filippo won't let me feel that. But, why?

I take a deep breath holding back the tears that want to come out, I better take