(Renata Pellegrini) Why am I feeling lonely?Things happened very fast today, Caio fought for me and got fired, I almost got fired too, when I got home, I hit a girl, who is in love with the man I love, I lost my virginity, I got to know a new house, I made love on the balcony there, and I have also chosen the furniture, packed my bags and it is still only five o'clock in the afternoon...I can't help it, a tear escapes from my eyes. I have always been alone, since the death of my parents, but after I came here, I had forgotten what it was like to be in an empty house, just me.I wanted to get a good job, meet a nice guy and have at least three kids, that was the list I set as goals before entering college. But it looks like I will only be able to accomplish two items on the list.I touch my belly and imagine it big, with a baby kicking inside, I smile bitterly, Filippo won't let me feel that. But, why?I take a deep breath holding back the tears that want to come out, I better take
(Renata Pellegrini)I turn my face forward again and stare at the tall man, he alternates his gaze between me and the men in black, my heart hammers hard in my chest, I'm too young to die like this, in the middle of a gunfight.I breathe a relieved breath when the guy puts the gun down, stowing it back in his waistband.“Go away, Julio, please.” Amanda requested.“I'm not leaving here without my money you little bitch.” He shouts to Amanda who cringes.“How much is it?” I ask, getting the guy's attention.“You ask me, is Madam going to pay the debt on this one, by any chance?” He asks mockingly, making me angry.“How much?” I insist.“Nine thousand dollars.” He answers seriously.After I became the secretary and personal assistant to the CEO of the company, my salary more than quintupled, I still have three months to go working there, but from my second salary, I didn't have to spend a cent, so I have this amount in my account. How nice it is to receive money in dollars. If I had to
(Renata Pellegrini)Filippo takes the papers from my hands and walks to the counter; I stand behind him watching him pay my friend's expenses.“Thank you, please take it out of my next paycheck.” I speak after we walk away from the counter, feeling happy to stay in my job.The month is already over, in two weeks I will receive my third salary and I will use it to pay this debt and also the part that I agreed with Filippo to pay for the furniture in our new house.“No need, ragazza.”“I insist, please.” I insist.Filippo goes to a drinking fountain and fills a glass with water, he holds my hand and guides me to the outside of the hospital.“Why don't you want to let me pay for things for you?” He inquires when we stop at the side of the hospital, where apparently there is no one.“I am not your wife.” I speak. “You have no duty to provide for me.” I make my point, my mother always told me never to treat a boyfriend like a husband, otherwise he will never want to marry me, I know that
(Renata Pellegrini)“Ann... hmmm.” The nurse huffs, I hug Filippo even tighter, hiding behind him, mercy, we were caught having sex in a parked car in a hospital, what a shame! “Miss Amanda has woken up and is not wanting to cooperate, we need your help.” The nurse warns.I hear the sound of the window being raised, thank goodness the window is tinted, I get off Filippo's lap and adjust my clothes, I look at my boyfriend and he too has adjusted, we open the doors and get out of the car.“Can I see her?” I ask as I approach the nurse, I swallow dryly when I notice that his face is flushed, this guy looks young still, this must be the first time he has seen himself in this kind of situation.“Yes, please come.” He speaks, alternating his gaze between Filippo and himself.We follow him to room thirty-two, but before the nurse opens the door, I hear Amanda's voice:“I want to go out!” She speaks demandingly.“Amanda!” I call her, she stops fighting with two other nurses.“What are you do
(Renata Pellegrini)“È così che parli ai tuoi fratelli maggiori, Filippo?” - 'Is that how you talk to your older brothers, Filippo?' one of the men speaks, watching him, I notice his resemblance to Filippo. Although he looks much older, they have the same eye color and looking at this one, it made me remember the first day I saw Filippo in the company, his aura frightening.I turn my eyes to the other man, force my brain to remember where I have seen him before, where I have seen this little guy before? Ah, I remember! He's the guy who was staying with Amanda in the club while Filippo and I were having our first kiss.I don't think I can disguise my face of surprise and embarrassment at remembering him, as he diverts his attention from Filippo to me and smiles mischievously, sir how embarrassing!“Ciao, bella ballerina!” - 'Hello, pretty dancer!" the guy who stayed with Amanda speaks, I feel as if my face is about to melt from so much shame.I look away from my hand as I feel the gri
“No, I don't think you me betray, ragazza, but I don't want to get into a situation where I have to get in a bad way with my brother, so I prefer to avoid situations. I don't want to have to choose between you or him.”It's even acceptable for his explanation, I understand that he doesn't want to be without talking to his brother because he's hitting on me. The discomfort is still in my chest, I feel that he is lying to me, but as he looks me firmly in the eye, the little I know about life, people when they lie tend to act in a strange way, I, for example, can't face people and start blinking excessively.“Right.” I give in.I look around, seeing the beautiful work of the staff with the decorations of the house, the room is perfect, the black and white furniture is amazing.“Come, let's go and see our room.” Filippo holds out his hand to me, and I stare at him for a few seconds. “Ragazza?” He calls for my attention, I take a deep breath and take his hand.Before I can admire the room,
(Filippo Valentini)“I'm coming, ragazza.” I warn as I wipe my hands on the flannel, I have finished washing the dishes for lunch.“Are you going to meet your brothers?” She asks, coming closer.“Yes.” I answer and button up the sleeves of my social shirt.“Hum, about your cousin's wedding, will you be there?” She asks as she fixes my tie.“Yes.” I answer.“I see.” She speaks and walks away. “Will I meet her one day?” She asks, leaning against the table.“Yes.” I lie, if it were up to me, she would have no contact with any of my relatives.“So, hum-hum.” She clears her throat. “Can I come with you to this wedding?”I control myself not to snort with rage, damn Matteo and Vicenzo. The fact that I don't want to take her as my date to this wedding is because I don't know if I will run into Veronica and James, I don't want to put her on enemy ground.I can't understand why I wanted to protect her, I started dating her because I wanted to kill my desire and know what it would be like to ha
(Renata Pellegrini)“I said, I don't want to embarrass you with my presence.” I say it one more time.My heart aches, my eyes burn asking me to release the tears, but I have forbidden myself to cry. I won't cry.Filippo has already made it clear that he doesn't want me to have contact with his family, first it was with his mother: where he said I was just a friend. Now, after my meeting with his brothers, I have the feeling that we moved so that they wouldn't see me, since on the phone he hinted that they didn't accept Filippo's idea to go to a hotel.“I have already embarrassed him too much in front of his brothers.” I speak bitterly, a lump form in my throat.I am so angry with Filippo, I feel so much like screaming, arguing and beating him up, but I won't act like this, I am not a crazy woman, if things continue as they are, I will just gather my things again and get out of his life.“Why do you say that, ragazza?” He asks, but I remain silent. I feel that if I continue to speak, I