(Renata Pellegrini) Why am I feeling lonely?Things happened very fast today, Caio fought for me and got fired, I almost got fired too, when I got home, I hit a girl, who is in love with the man I love, I lost my virginity, I got to know a new house, I made love on the balcony there, and I have also chosen the furniture, packed my bags and it is still only five o'clock in the afternoon...I can't help it, a tear escapes from my eyes. I have always been alone, since the death of my parents, but after I came here, I had forgotten what it was like to be in an empty house, just me.I wanted to get a good job, meet a nice guy and have at least three kids, that was the list I set as goals before entering college. But it looks like I will only be able to accomplish two items on the list.I touch my belly and imagine it big, with a baby kicking inside, I smile bitterly, Filippo won't let me feel that. But, why?I take a deep breath holding back the tears that want to come out, I better take
(Renata Pellegrini)I turn my face forward again and stare at the tall man, he alternates his gaze between me and the men in black, my heart hammers hard in my chest, I'm too young to die like this, in the middle of a gunfight.I breathe a relieved breath when the guy puts the gun down, stowing it back in his waistband.“Go away, Julio, please.” Amanda requested.“I'm not leaving here without my money you little bitch.” He shouts to Amanda who cringes.“How much is it?” I ask, getting the guy's attention.“You ask me, is Madam going to pay the debt on this one, by any chance?” He asks mockingly, making me angry.“How much?” I insist.“Nine thousand dollars.” He answers seriously.After I became the secretary and personal assistant to the CEO of the company, my salary more than quintupled, I still have three months to go working there, but from my second salary, I didn't have to spend a cent, so I have this amount in my account. How nice it is to receive money in dollars. If I had to
(Renata Pellegrini)Filippo takes the papers from my hands and walks to the counter; I stand behind him watching him pay my friend's expenses.“Thank you, please take it out of my next paycheck.” I speak after we walk away from the counter, feeling happy to stay in my job.The month is already over, in two weeks I will receive my third salary and I will use it to pay this debt and also the part that I agreed with Filippo to pay for the furniture in our new house.“No need, ragazza.”“I insist, please.” I insist.Filippo goes to a drinking fountain and fills a glass with water, he holds my hand and guides me to the outside of the hospital.“Why don't you want to let me pay for things for you?” He inquires when we stop at the side of the hospital, where apparently there is no one.“I am not your wife.” I speak. “You have no duty to provide for me.” I make my point, my mother always told me never to treat a boyfriend like a husband, otherwise he will never want to marry me, I know that
(Renata Pellegrini)“Ann... hmmm.” The nurse huffs, I hug Filippo even tighter, hiding behind him, mercy, we were caught having sex in a parked car in a hospital, what a shame! “Miss Amanda has woken up and is not wanting to cooperate, we need your help.” The nurse warns.I hear the sound of the window being raised, thank goodness the window is tinted, I get off Filippo's lap and adjust my clothes, I look at my boyfriend and he too has adjusted, we open the doors and get out of the car.“Can I see her?” I ask as I approach the nurse, I swallow dryly when I notice that his face is flushed, this guy looks young still, this must be the first time he has seen himself in this kind of situation.“Yes, please come.” He speaks, alternating his gaze between Filippo and himself.We follow him to room thirty-two, but before the nurse opens the door, I hear Amanda's voice:“I want to go out!” She speaks demandingly.“Amanda!” I call her, she stops fighting with two other nurses.“What are you do
(Renata Pellegrini)“È così che parli ai tuoi fratelli maggiori, Filippo?” - 'Is that how you talk to your older brothers, Filippo?' one of the men speaks, watching him, I notice his resemblance to Filippo. Although he looks much older, they have the same eye color and looking at this one, it made me remember the first day I saw Filippo in the company, his aura frightening.I turn my eyes to the other man, force my brain to remember where I have seen him before, where I have seen this little guy before? Ah, I remember! He's the guy who was staying with Amanda in the club while Filippo and I were having our first kiss.I don't think I can disguise my face of surprise and embarrassment at remembering him, as he diverts his attention from Filippo to me and smiles mischievously, sir how embarrassing!“Ciao, bella ballerina!” - 'Hello, pretty dancer!" the guy who stayed with Amanda speaks, I feel as if my face is about to melt from so much shame.I look away from my hand as I feel the gri
“No, I don't think you me betray, ragazza, but I don't want to get into a situation where I have to get in a bad way with my brother, so I prefer to avoid situations. I don't want to have to choose between you or him.”It's even acceptable for his explanation, I understand that he doesn't want to be without talking to his brother because he's hitting on me. The discomfort is still in my chest, I feel that he is lying to me, but as he looks me firmly in the eye, the little I know about life, people when they lie tend to act in a strange way, I, for example, can't face people and start blinking excessively.“Right.” I give in.I look around, seeing the beautiful work of the staff with the decorations of the house, the room is perfect, the black and white furniture is amazing.“Come, let's go and see our room.” Filippo holds out his hand to me, and I stare at him for a few seconds. “Ragazza?” He calls for my attention, I take a deep breath and take his hand.Before I can admire the room,
(Filippo Valentini)“I'm coming, ragazza.” I warn as I wipe my hands on the flannel, I have finished washing the dishes for lunch.“Are you going to meet your brothers?” She asks, coming closer.“Yes.” I answer and button up the sleeves of my social shirt.“Hum, about your cousin's wedding, will you be there?” She asks as she fixes my tie.“Yes.” I answer.“I see.” She speaks and walks away. “Will I meet her one day?” She asks, leaning against the table.“Yes.” I lie, if it were up to me, she would have no contact with any of my relatives.“So, hum-hum.” She clears her throat. “Can I come with you to this wedding?”I control myself not to snort with rage, damn Matteo and Vicenzo. The fact that I don't want to take her as my date to this wedding is because I don't know if I will run into Veronica and James, I don't want to put her on enemy ground.I can't understand why I wanted to protect her, I started dating her because I wanted to kill my desire and know what it would be like to ha
(Renata Pellegrini)“I said, I don't want to embarrass you with my presence.” I say it one more time.My heart aches, my eyes burn asking me to release the tears, but I have forbidden myself to cry. I won't cry.Filippo has already made it clear that he doesn't want me to have contact with his family, first it was with his mother: where he said I was just a friend. Now, after my meeting with his brothers, I have the feeling that we moved so that they wouldn't see me, since on the phone he hinted that they didn't accept Filippo's idea to go to a hotel.“I have already embarrassed him too much in front of his brothers.” I speak bitterly, a lump form in my throat.I am so angry with Filippo, I feel so much like screaming, arguing and beating him up, but I won't act like this, I am not a crazy woman, if things continue as they are, I will just gather my things again and get out of his life.“Why do you say that, ragazza?” He asks, but I remain silent. I feel that if I continue to speak, I
Chapter 2: Other countryAmanda Fernard:Two mercedes benz slr mclaren, are parked in front of the house, with the doors open, if it wasn't for this unfortunate situation, I would admire this car model, with the door in the scissor stido, I always thought it was beautiful, but because of all this shit, I feel dread. The man named Luka, forces me to sit in the driver's seat and closes the door, I look to the side and the man who beat Caio settles behind the wheel."What will they do to me?" I ask, trying to control my fear."Horrible things, young lady! We will burn you, torture you, and then me and twenty other men will rape you," he says seriously, looking me in the eye.The tears come cascading back down my cheeks. God, what did I do that was so bad that I deserved this?"I'm kidding child, you'll find out soon enough, you better behave yourself," he says and speeds up the car.He opens the glove compartment and takes out a gas mask, I watch him put it on his face and my heart manag
Hello, thank you so much for getting this far! What did you think about Filippo and Renata's story? Please, if you can, leave five stars on the book review, it will help this author a lot! And now, a little bit of the next book:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Chapter 1: The Payment.(Amanda Fernard)Even with so many problems, I put them aside a bit and watch my bare feet under the gray-colored wall as my body lies on the bed, as the music plays, my feet tapping to the beat and I swing my head from side to side as the absurdly loud melody of the music: O sétimo Hokage (The seventh hokage) - 7 minutoz, plays in my headphones. I have no idea how I haven't gone deaf yet.This is the part I am most identifying with at the moment:"Hateful looks no longer hurt meNow they only make me want to win moreEven if I wasn't born a geniusEven if I have to try twice as hardEven if I'm cursedI never give up because I have a dreamI won't die until it comes trueThe world will know my willpowerYou can ta
>Three months later: (Renata Pellegrini) With my elbows resting on the balcony of my room, I watch the starry sky, the night is beautiful and pleasant, my loose hair sways with the hissing of the cool wind. The sound of Filippo's car catches my attention and I watch him drive into the garage; I've been married to him for three months now, Filippo has been the best husband in the world, always caring and kind to me. I smile and step off the porch, I grab my robe and put it on over my sweater, I can't walk very fast, but I try to go as fast as I can, I open the bedroom door and walk down the hallway, but before I reach the stairs Filippo finishes climbing them. "Did you intend to run down the stairs, ragaza?" Filippo asks me with narrowed eyes, in his voice there is a slight tone of reproach. "Of course not, marito!" - "Husband," I speak smiling at him, who narrows his eyes at me even more. "I just came to welcome you to your room, Mr. Valentini, follow me, please," I say and turn a
(Renata Pellegrini: One Month Later:)Today is my wedding day, to find out that everyone but him knew who I really was. Filippo's mother received me very well, she explained to me how the house worked and the hierarchy of women here.Lais and I get along very well, he is a very sweet and gentle person, I feel sad that she has not been able to bear her own children, and when Filippo explained to me the fate of the little baby in Lais' arms, I felt even worse. Matteo allowed her to continue with the baby, but said that she would never be his daughter and would never have the last name Valentini. This was harsh, but at least he didn't snatch the child from her arms and give it to some subordinate to raise."I wish you were here, Mom, I wish Dad could walk me down the aisle." - I think as I look in the mirror.I still can't forgive Dominic, even now I understand better the reason for his choices, I still can't stay close to him. Demetrius and I get closer, he will be the one to lead me to
(Renata Pellegrini)“I need to take a shower,” I say, pulling my head away from Filippo's chest. “Do you want to keep me company?”Filippo smiles mischievously, and I smile complicitly. I can't help it, I've been missing Filippo for two months, and it's inside me, it's included in the package of longing.I go up to my room and go straight to the bathroom, take off my clothes and get into the box, turn on the shower register, the contact of the water with my body makes me relax, but before I can turn around, Filippo presses me against the wall and the contact of the cold tile with my breasts and belly makes me shiver all over.“You have no idea how much I missed you, piccola!” Filippo whispers in my ear and starts to make a trail of kisses from my shoulder to my jaw causing light shocking sensations all over my body. “Now I will show you going deep and hard inside of you the size of my longing.”My intimacy throbs at what Filippo says, abruptly he grabs my waist and turns me facing him
(Renata Pellegrini)I watch the arrows of light through the tinted window, a thick silence hovers inside the car, my mind wanders to the memory of the first time I was inside the same vehicle as Filippo, the car is not the same as that time, but just like the other one, this one smell new. I swallow dryly, remembering the butterflies in my stomach and the nervousness of being so close to a man like him. But now, it is like the first time, and I am hating myself for it!For three long days I ignored him and ran away from him, I didn't answer his calls or return his messages, I even blocked him, I changed the locks on the gate and the door so that he could no longer enter, and now I am here, inside his car.I feel his gaze on me, several times, but I don't have the courage to face him back, I am afraid of what my eyes will say to him, I am afraid of being betrayed and him finding out that I still miss him.Seeing him open that door and the tears shining in his eyes as he heard the sound
(Filippo Valentini)I see the furniture overturned, my collection of weapons scattered on the floor, glass panes smashed. Even though I have vented some of the anger, it still burns within me. I lean against the wall and sit on the floor.The images of the pain in her eyes as she told me how much I knew nothing, of the tears that fell from her eyes as she spoke in a choked voice, I hurt her too much. Remembering this makes my heart ache, I am gasping for breath, I feel like I am missing the most important things and I feel helpless, it is driving me crazy!From the beginning, I knew it would hurt her, but I had no idea how much. I stepped on her dream of being a mother, well I wanted her to be the mother of my children too, but I didn't want to deceive her, at least in that, I tried to be transparent... but... I should have kept my mouth shut; I regret so much the things I said to her. Renata didn't deserve what I did.I don't hold back anymore, I let the tears come down. At that mome
(Renata Pellegrini)“I know I hurt you.” Filippo begins to speak. “I know that right now you are feeling a lot of anger towards me, but I promise…”“Shove your promise up your ass!” I shout interrupting him, I don't want to hear empty promises, made only to manipulate me.Filippo looks at me stunned, I have never been one to swear, and even I myself am surprised at how dirty-mouthed I have become now, but fuck it.“You don't know anything!” I keep my voice down, I don't care about the tears that fall from my eyes, I need to get it all out, I want to get it all out of me. “You don't know how I felt when it was clearly your mistake, but you made it seem like it was mine... You don't know how I felt when you said you would never have children with me, how I felt when you flirted with other women saying it was my fault, how I felt when you threw in my face how active your sex life was before me, you don't know how I felt when I woke up that morning with a cold bed! You don't know how I fe
(Renata Pellegrini)“Are you sure you don't want to stay for lunch?” I ask as I walk Caio to the door.“I have to go visit my girlfriend.” He says sadly.My heart aches for him, Caio has always been a good friend and when he was finally happy with a great girl...unfortunately, a little over two weeks ago we found out she is with ovarian cancer, it is still in the early stages so still has a great chance of a cure. I pray a lot for them.“Tomorrow, I will visit her.” I speak, since she was admitted to the hospital, I haven't visited her yet.Well, for a long three days I was in jail, but four days before she was hospitalized and I didn't have time to go, I was always working and going to appointments, and I kept putting it off and putting it off... until the kidnapping happened...“Get well first, you are also going through a difficult time.” Caio kisses my forehead and simultaneously opens the door. “Take care, okay?”“Yes, take care of yourself too, okay?”“Okay.” Caio answers smilin