(Renata Pellegrini)“I said, I don't want to embarrass you with my presence.” I say it one more time.My heart aches, my eyes burn asking me to release the tears, but I have forbidden myself to cry. I won't cry.Filippo has already made it clear that he doesn't want me to have contact with his family, first it was with his mother: where he said I was just a friend. Now, after my meeting with his brothers, I have the feeling that we moved so that they wouldn't see me, since on the phone he hinted that they didn't accept Filippo's idea to go to a hotel.“I have already embarrassed him too much in front of his brothers.” I speak bitterly, a lump form in my throat.I am so angry with Filippo, I feel so much like screaming, arguing and beating him up, but I won't act like this, I am not a crazy woman, if things continue as they are, I will just gather my things again and get out of his life.“Why do you say that, ragazza?” He asks, but I remain silent. I feel that if I continue to speak, I
(Filippo Valentini)“You look stunning!” I compliment her as I feel my pants tighten."Easy boy, it's not time to rip that dress that's getting in the way of our view yet." - I mentally speak to my member that is tightening inside my pants with just the sight of her.Renata comes parading towards me, a black bonded dress draws all her curves, the neckline is not very revealing, but the little bit of exposed skin is enough to make me salivate and want to stick my face back in between those two rounds, soft pillows. I move my view down to the bottom of the dress and notice the medium slit in the side of the dress that leaves from the knee down exposed, her hair is loose.“Thank you!” Renata speaks, smiling shyly.I extend my arm to her and she accepts, and we leave the house.I'm trying to keep calm, I really don't want to take her, but I can't deal with her coldness, I can already imagine the headache I'll have when I get there: my mother will fill us with questions, she will surely ge
(Filippo Valentini)Before the motherfucker can squeeze the trigger one more time, I squeeze faster, hitting the shot in his hand causing him to drop the gun. He screams at the sight of his own blood and tries to run, but I gladly make him stop hitting him with a shot in each thigh. The bastard falls face down on the ground, his agonizing screams are like a melody to me. I approach him and pull the trigger one more time, I hit him right in the middle of his spine making him scream and squirm even more on the floor, this motherfucker will never be able to move his legs again.“Take him away, later I'll finish the job,” I tell the security guards, who have only just come in here.“Yes sir.” They answer together, I control myself not to shoot each of them in the head.I run to the altar, where Matteo lies unconscious on the floor, feeling my heart stop for a few moments as I see the pool of blood rising beneath him. Our mother holds his head as he screams and cries, begging God not to ta
(Filippo Valentini)“You have to eat!” Renata exclaims again.“I'm not hungry.” I repeat for the fifth time without looking her in the eye.From the time we got home, the only thing I did was to take a shower and sit on the bed. I put my cell phone in the center of the mattress and didn't take my eyes off it for a second. It has been about three and a half hours that I have been in the same position, I am agonizingly waiting for news.“Filippo.” Renata calls me, sitting down next to me on the bed. “I know you are worried about your brother, I am too, but I need you to drink at least a glass of juice, I don't want you to faint from faintness, you have been more than six hours without eating. Please, can you do this for me?” I can feel the concern in his voice.I look away from the cell phone and look into her beautiful eyes, they are watery, you can see how much she is holding back from crying, I take a deep breath. I know that she is worried about me, and it is nice to feel that someo
(Renata Valentini)I grope to Filippo's side of the bed and don't find him, not strange, I never manage to wake up before him, even though I wake up at six in the morning. Yesterday I slept so well, Filippo kept cuddling me until sleep consumed me. I hope he was able to sleep too, I know well what he was feeling yesterday.I shake my head, I want to push away the saddest memories of my life, the death of my parents, right in front of me, I hate to remember that day.I stretch and get out of bed, with light steps I approach the bathroom, Filippo must be taking a shower by now. But I wonder if I don't hear the sound of the shower. I turn the knob and find the bathroom dark and empty, 'Is he in the kitchen?' I ask mentally and walk, I open all the doors in the corridor, but he is nowhere in the house.I run back to the bedroom and grab my cell phone on top of the nightstand, I dial his number, but it just says it's out of range, I feel my chest tighten. Today is still an ugly Thursday, I
(Renata Valentini)"- Live, in an abandoned shed, the bodies of two FBI agents were found, a man and a woman, we have no information on who the man is, he is disfigured, the woman has been identified as Camily Fox, head of the alpha team... One second... We just confirmed, three bodies were found, the third is of a woman identified as Veronica Lins, a civilian, she worked at the Computing Diamond company, she was butchered, her body parts were burned and..."My eyes flutter and I feel my spine freeze, a fearful chill runs through my entire body, I feel as if the air is thinning inside my lungs and I end up swallowing without chewing the cookie, which Amanda gave me after I calmed down from my crying fit on her lap, scratching my throat. The reporter's voice is muted in my ears, I can only hear the sound of my heart beating hard in my chest. Camily. The woman who was looking for Filippo is an FBI agent; Veronica is also dead... On the same day that Filippo left...“Renata?” I come out
(Renata Valentini)I can't stop crying, it's been a day since I found out that I am pregnant by the man who abandoned me and who is also most likely already married to another woman.It took me a week to accept that I was really abandoned. For seven long days, I called every five minutes, stopping only when the female voice on the line said that the number dialed did not exist. This was like a bucket of cold water in my head that insisted that he would come back, that he would explain himself and that we would continue together.At work, Sophie disappeared the day after the discussion in the boardroom. I asked Lucas, and he replied that she went back to her country with her husband. At lunchtime, without wanting to, I overheard some girls gossiping that the current president (Lucas) was having an affair with Sophie and that this was why he was so angry, because his mistress had left. I was shocked, I would never have imagined that a woman as gentle as she was would be capable of betra
(Renata Valentini)One week later:“Mi scusi!” - “Excuse me!”, I speak with my face burning with embarrassment and quickly close the door to the presidency.I really don't want to have seen that scene, my stomach turns, tears are burning in my eyes. On that table... in the same position that woman was in, two months ago I was too, and Filippo was between my legs as we kissed madly before we went to the meeting room.I sit on the chair at my desk, and lovingly caress my belly. I am now seven weeks pregnant and tomorrow will be the day I can hear my baby's little heartbeat, ah, I am so excited!Again, I feel my heart squeeze, Filippo will not be with me, he will not follow the development of our baby, nor meet him... I still miss Filippo, even though I have been abandoned, I really wanted to see him walk through that door, enter the President's office, sit in his chair and tell me: this is all just a bad dream. I wish so much that I could wake up and have him beside me; open the bathroo