Chapter 78

(Filippo Valentini)

I see the furniture overturned, my collection of weapons scattered on the floor, glass panes smashed. Even though I have vented some of the anger, it still burns within me. I lean against the wall and sit on the floor.

The images of the pain in her eyes as she told me how much I knew nothing, of the tears that fell from her eyes as she spoke in a choked voice, I hurt her too much. Remembering this makes my heart ache, I am gasping for breath, I feel like I am missing the most important things and I feel helpless, it is driving me crazy!

From the beginning, I knew it would hurt her, but I had no idea how much. I stepped on her dream of being a mother, well I wanted her to be the mother of my children too, but I didn't want to deceive her, at least in that, I tried to be transparent... but... I should have kept my mouth shut; I regret so much the things I said to her. Renata didn't deserve what I did.

I don't hold back anymore, I let the tears come down. At that mome