Zev’s pov
I had no clue why Raiden invited the poor girl. She’s not the type of girl who hangs around him. Not the type of girl he invites back to our room.Not that Raiden’s very picky. As long as they have boobs and a pretty face, he's game. That man is an ass man, though. If the girl has a good butt, he’ll try extra hard for her to like him.Not that he really has to try. Raiden is one of the most well-known Alpha heirs. People want to hang around him all the time, either to try and get a meeting with his dad or to be friends with the next Alpha of the Crescent Moon Pack. Alliences with our pack are like covited treasures.I guess I’m lucky. I don’t have to do anything. I’m born to be his best friend. Our mothers were best friends. They became pregnant together and even gave birth to us on the same day.Mom died when I was young, and ever since Luna Grace and Alpha Ethan took me in.They’re like my parents in a way. I’m lucky to have them in my life. Grace, Ethan, Raiden, and his little sister Joy aren’t my blood, but they have done more for me than anyone else has.“Zev, maybe you could help our little mouse out.”I had no clue why Raiden kept calling her that. Atalanta might not look like the typical student here, but she was pretty in her own way. Very shy, though, which isn’t a common trade for these high-ranking wolves either.Although I’m officially one too, I am not here at the Ardale Academy because I’m studying to become the next beta or alpha. Or even gamma. I’m here because Raiden is here and because it’s one of the best schools in the country.“Help with what?” I asked. Was this some ploy to get me alone with a girl? Because I’m not interested.It’s not that I don’t think about sex or want it. It’s simply that I first want to find my mate and reject her. I never want to be attached to another person like that.And what if I fool around with a girl, develop feelings, and she turns out to be my mate? It will be so much harder to reject her then.Besides, I am not the casual sex type, especially not for my first time. Raiden didn’t even really like the first girl he slept with. He told me everything about it.How awkward it was. How she squeezed his junk too hard. Everything I didn’t want to know from my best friend.But we share everything. Well, almost. I don’t share the letters I write to my mom with Raiden. It was the Luna’s idea, actually. But they’re private letters, and I am not planning to show them to anyone. Ever.Raiden smirked at me, “show her the ropes. Teach her everything she needs to know... about our pack, I mean.”Goddess, he’s annoying.Her big eyes, which kept looking down to the floor, looked up at me with an expression I couldn’t decipher. Her eyes are gorgeous.She is gorgeous.So this is the wrong thing to do. It would be extremely stupid to get involved with her. I’m too busy with my own studies anyway. And it’s obvious a ploy from Raiden to make me fall for Atalanta.My head began shaking no as the words, “sure.” left my mouth.Sure…. I said sure!Raiden clapped his hands, making Atalanta flinch. “Great! That’s great. Now that’s that out of the way, let’s eat!”He looked at Atalanta and Suzie, “what can I get you two?”One of Raiden's best qualities is his generosity. He never lets anyone pay. Not even me.At the Ardale Academy’s cafetaria, we’re able to buy breakfast, lunch, and dinner, although most eat breakfast in their room.“Something with chicken, please.” Suzie replied.Suzie wasn’t really part of our circle, but she had started here around the time we did, and we shared many classes. Whenever we did interact she was friendly and direct. Something I always appreciate. Plus, she doesn't drool whenever she sees Aiden, like a lot of other girls do.Atalanta shook her head and pulled something out of her bag. It was an old paper bag with not even half a sandwich.“No way you’re eating that poor excuse of a sandwich, “ Raiden said.“It’s fine.” She said in a timid voice.What happened to this girl to be so scared? Would I have turned out this way if it weren’t for Raiden and his family?Raiden got up and motioned for me to follow, “We’ll be back. And when we’re back, I better not see you eating that thing you call lunch, little mouse.”She nodded her head and looked down, while Raiden sighed.He hates weakness. It sometimes makes it hard for me to talk to him. He’s a great guy; he’s just never experienced anything difficult. He’s never been hurt or alone.He sees things in black-and-white, but life isn’t always that simple.“Why do you keep calling her that?” I asked as we walked to buy the food.“She’s timid, scared, and little like a mouse.” He replied, shrugging his shoulders. “It fits.”“So why ask her to join us then? If she annoys you.”Raiden smirked and wiggled his eyebrows, “because she doesn’t annoy you, does she?”“You do, asswipe.” I replied, smacking him on the arm.“Yet you love me, Zev. Besides, you can put tutoring a charity case on your resume. It will look great.”I know he was only teasing me, but I felt a growl coming up and the need to punch him. Why did he need to be such an ass?He bit the tip of his tongue, staring at me. “You’ve got it bad, man.”“I’ve got nothing. Just be nice, Shepard.”“Ooh, using my last name. That indicates you mean business!” he said with a chuckle, grabbing a tray and filling it with everything that he walked past.That man could eat like nobody I knew. It’s probably why he’s such a giant.I grabbed a hamburger, some cookies, and a few bottles of soda. I grabbed extra in case Atalanta or Suzie wanted a cookie too. Okay, who was I kidding? It was mostly for Atalanta.After Raiden had paid, we walked back. It was a surprise that nothing had fallen off the tray on the way there, because there were several plates balancing on top of each other.Raiden dropped a chicken salad in front of Suzie, and I put the different sodas across the table for everyone to choose from.Then Raiden picked up some pasta, a thick sandwich with several layers of bread, and a roll and placed them in front of Atalanta. He reached over and grabbed one of the cookies on my tray.“Eat up, little mouse, and when you’re all finished, you can eat the cookie Zev got for you as a reward.”Of course, he knew that I grabbed extra for her. Intuitive bastard.Atalanta’s eyes grew even bigger as she stared at the food.“Eat. You’re too skinny,“ Raiden said, before taking a big bite out of his burger.I started to eat too, but at the same time, I was curious to see if Atalanta would eat everything. If she even could.Raiden and Suzie were thinking the same thing I was, because I noticed all of us staring at the same big-eyed young woman who was taking small bites of her food.Raiden nudged my shoulder, “she even eats like a mouse.”Suzie glared at my friend, “at least she doesn’t eat like an animal. Have you ever heard of chewing? It’s like you’re trying to swallow that burger whole.”I chuckled. Raiden did eat like a caveman.Once Raiden was finished, he moved all of his plates to the side, tore a piece of the cookie, and brought it to Atalanta’s lips.Her eyebrows furrowed, and she slowly opened her mouth. Her lips closed around the cookie, grazing Raiden’s fingers. I wonder how soft those lips feel against your skin.“Good girl,” Raiden muttered softly before looking at the food that was left over on the table in front of Atalanta.He grabbed the rest of the food and began stuffing his face. That man is like a garbage can. No food is ever left behind.Atalanta looked at Raiden and the food and swallowed hard. Honestly, she looked like she was about to cry.“Are you okay?” I asked.She nodded, with a fake smile.Okay, Zev say something to make things better.“So, when are you free to study together?” I asked, because I couldn’t think of anything else on the spot.“You can use our room when I have alpha training,” Raiden said with his mouth full of food.Atalanta blushed, her face unsure.“The library will be fine,” I suggested instead, and she breathed a sigh of relief.“Tomorrow?” she answered in a question.“Yeah, tomorrow after class. That’s perfect.”“Perfect.” Raiden said, smirking again. I was going to make him pay for this. I wasn’t sure how yet, but I would find a way to get him back.It appeared we had a lot of the same classes with Atalanta, and every time we ran into her, Raiden made sure to pick a table behind her or next to her. He would whisper things to her during class or find excuses to touch her.And every time he did, he gave me a look, as if he were expecting me to growl and claim Atalanta as mine. Wolves are possessive, and if there is one thing we don’t like, it’s another person flirting with the one that's ours.But all his flirting had no effect on me. Well, it did make me feel pity for poor Atalanta, who didn’t seem sure how to respond. It almost seemed like this was the first time any boy had flirted with her, but that seemed odd considering the way our kind is.We’re a flirty bunch and very affectionate. Every time Raiden, Joy, or I enter a room, we cough or knock because all of us have seen the luna and alpha in a position we didn’t want to see. They take every opportunity they have to touch each other. It’s a surprise they don’t have a litter of pups running around.Suzie protected Atalanta as best as she could, and I tried to distract Raiden, but it was like he had made up his mind that it would be his mission to make Atalanta as uncomfortable as possible today.And while I felt sorry for Atalanta, it wasn’t my job to protect her. I would help her study, and I would be nice to her while I did, but nothing more.My plan hadn’t changed. I would not get involved with anyone until I had rejected my mate. Even if that meant I’d stay a virgin for a little while longer.Atalanta’s povI couldn’t believe how much food Raiden bought for me. I knew I couldn’t refuse it, even though I could never finish it. But I hoped that I could take some back with me.It meant I would have food for a few days.But then Raiden ate it all, and I’m embarrassed to say I almost cried when I saw him shove everything inside like it was nothing. I shouldn’t have been surprised; he had been cruel to me from the moment we met.Well, not all the time. It was very confusing. He would call me mouse, "our mouse", which meant who's? Zev’s and his? Or everyone’s?And then he would buy me food, which seemed nice but also felt like a test. But then the cookie... Why did he feed me part of a cookie?And why. And this is the big one. Why did I like it when he called me “a good girl”? Probably because no one has ever called me good. Yeah, that must be it.It took a lot of money to send me and my brother here, which I was reminded of countless times. But since General Sweets, our leader,
Raiden’s povCertain classes were mandatory, but there were some you could choose from. Of course, I go to every Alpha class the academy provides, taking full advantage of my time here.It was also a great way to train with other alpha heirs. After a while, it gets pretty boring sparring with the same people. We with alpha genes are built differently, and we’re a lot stronger than the average wolf.So far, nobody has been able to beat me in a sparring match, but that might change once some of these here get their wolves.When we get our wolf, we grow even stronger. We’ll be able to shift, mindlink our pack, and more. I can’t wait.I wonder what my wolf will be like. In some cases, their personalities match those of their human counterparts, but sometimes they’re polar opposites. Whatever the Moon Goddess deems necessary, I guess. Same goes for our mates.And after the day I had, I need to blow off some steam.I have no clue why it doesn’t bother Zev that I keep annoying our little mou
Atalanta’s pov“I can’t be there tomorrow,” Suzie whispered.“What do you mean?” I replied.“I have practice tomorrow. Very early. I’m sorry.”At the academy, they had special werewolf training, but they also had other teams you could join. One of them was tracks, where you, I guess, run on a track? They had a few other clubs; some weren’t athletic either, but since I wasn’t going to stay long, I had not looked into those.It wouldn’t help with my mission anyway. And I was already behind on homework since none of the werewolf classes were mentioned in the homeschooling I received. And even normal classes like math were hard for me because mom would often make me do chores while she taught Archer. She said I didn’t need to know any of that anyway.So I wouldn’t have the time to join a club, even if I wanted to.But this meant that I would be having breakfast with Raiden and Zev, and whoever else would join us, by myself.Thus far, Suzie has stuck up for me. I wasn’t sure why, but I rea
Zev’s pov“You’re going to lose!” I yelled as I started beating up his avatar, pushing buttons as fast as I could.Raiden smirked, “you’re never this competitive. Did something happen? Did I get under your skin? I can’t always step it up, you know. Maybe next mealtime, I will flirt a bit harder. Or maybe, -“I sighed, making Raiden stop midsentence. “Just stop it. It won’t work.”“You’re lying… You like our little mouse.”“If your aim is to get me to fall for her, why do you continue to call her ours?” I teased my friend back.He shrugged, “because she is. Until she’s not... when you claim her as yours."Goddess. Was he always this annoying?Yeah. He was, but it wasn’t usually directed at me. Raiden had always wanted me to meet girls, but he never worked this hard to make it happen. He had said a few things or tried to set me up on a double date, but most of the time it was just jokes and nothing more.But this? This felt different.I hadn’t even seen Raiden hang around a girl he had
Atalanta’s pov Raiden’s questions were making me nervous, and I didn’t even realize I was tapping my food. Lying didn’t come naturally to me. Being close to people didn’t feel normal to me. Having a normal conversation was already very strange since I was usually ignored. But I had done my best to remember my bio by heart. Did the hunter back home think I wouldn’t stand out? That I’d never have to answer even one of these questions? Did they see me as a mouse as well? Someone who’s small and can go wherever she wants without being noticed? Because, for some reason, these two men do notice me. They notice me far too well. Stay calm, Lana. I thought, trying to test the new nickname out. Raiden’s hand grabbed my upper leg, keeping it still. But it didn’t stay there. His large hands moved up and down, trying to calm me. But instead, it was doing something else. Did he notice how dangerously close his fingers came to my core each time his hand went up? Zev sat on my other side
Zev's povI was paying attention to class when Raiden moved Atalanta’s hair out of the way. She had a strappy dress on that was a few sizes too big. It reached just below her knees, but because of its size, it dipped down when she sat down, revealing a lot of her back.Although most of her hair was covering the skin, until Raiden moved it.He leaned forward, his chin resting on his right hand, while the left traced circles on her back.There were small scars on her back, different from the ones that happened during what she claimed was a cooking accident.Not touching the scars, Raiden circled around them. Atalanta began breathing heavy and slow, sounding like she would fall asleep any second.I wish I was the one touching her.No. No, I don’t.Focus on the class, Zev! I scolded myself.Yet when Atalanta didn’t know the answer, it was me who helped her. Not Raiden.The next class was without Atalanta, and it felt good to be able to pay attention without either Raiden or Atalanta distr
Raiden’s pov “Are you up for a date tonight? Or we could head straight to your room.” Lisa said seductively. While I normally like a woman who knows what she wants, some parts of me wanted to say no. The appeal just wasn’t there. But I had to prove to myself and to Zev that this wasn’t about that big, blue-eyed little mouse. That little timid woman who smells like lavender and something fruity. Mom always picks lavender, puts it in the palm of her hand, and rubs her hands together. I used to do it too; my hands would smell like lavender, and I love the scent. It’s like a reminder of my childhood. The packhouse garden is filled with lavender plants, and when the wind blows in the right direction, the whole air smells like it. Atalanta smelled like that, but there was a hint of something else that I couldn’t put my finger on. Something citrusy. It didn’t matter anyway. “Yeah, why not?” I replied, earning a smile from Lisa. She was one of the new students, and she had be
Zev's povI love Grace and Ethan, but they can be a bit overbearing sometimes. And she is just as intuitive as Raiden, always knowing when I’m not feeling well.But I actually didn’t mind calling her this time. I had enough ammunition to get her to focus on her son, if I needed to.Raiden called his mom to videocall, and she immediately picked up. “First of all, it’s really good to see you guys. Secondly, why don’t you text back?”“We’re kind of busy, mom... It's not like we're just sitting around doing nothing.” Raiden replied. I didn’t realize we both weren’t texting her back as frequently as we normally do.“Busy sleeping with every girl there?” Grace replied, raising her eyebrow at me.“Well, actually.” I teased Raiden. “He just cancelled a date to call you.”“Then there really must be something wrong.” Grace said, giving me a knowing wink.He rolled my eyes at me, “and Zev is seeing someone.”“I’m not!” Maybe I protested a bit too much, because Grace giggled at the two of us.“Who
Raiden’s pov“Can I give you a hug?” Alpha Tharon asked Atalanta as soon as we stepped into my office.I growled, “no,” while Zev said, “how do you know you’re her father?” at the same time.We both felt very protective of our mate. None of her family had ever treated her right, so who was to say what Alpha Tharon would be like?From what I knew, he was an okay guy, but that didn’t mean shit right now.Atalanta softly spoke, ignoring us both, “maybe another time? Hugging is kind of new to me.”“What do you mean?” Alpha Tharon asked. “New to you how?”Atalanta smiled, “well, Beta Suzie was the first one to hug me this year. Since then I’ve gotten more hugs than I can count from these two and from some other people, but it’s not something that comes really naturally to me.”“Nobody ever hugged you before?” he whispered it almost, as he stood there staring ahead with his eyes wide.I took my seat, and Zev quickly grabbed a chair for Alpha Tharon to sit in; our little mouse didn’t need he
hi, I know I left you with a cliffhanger. yesterday, I had an appointment at the hospital to talk to the doctor because the surgery didn't work, and the hernia is back.it's painful at times, like mild cramps, but I am getting a ct scan next month, and following that, we'll discuss a possible new operation. Anyway, my mind had been a bit busy with all that. I'm kind of claustrofobic, so I'm not looking forward to the ct scan machine. it's also just the world right now and especially the US that's on my mind. we have our own right-wing politicians, but nothing like what's going on now. from my writing, you should know I don't support hate, discrimination, and just plain evil behavior like what's been happening. I just hope it's not going to be as bad as it looks for the next 4 years. it's scary. I mean, I'm from the city where Anne Frank lived. and her book is now banned. All of it is just making me worried and when I can’t concentrate I can't write. but I'll keep trying.
Atalanta’s povI did not want to go to this meeting, mostly because I didn’t want to sit across from different alphas, betas and lunas who might hate me because of who my mother and great uncle were.They might think the same way our pack did, before they got used to me.‘Used to you makes it sounds like they just accepted you, because they didn’t have a choice. You’ve proven yourself to them and shown the pack who you really are.’ Artemis reassured me.Raiden had forced me to attend and when I pleaded with Zev, he had told me he agreed with Raiden’s choice. I wasn’t just there to represent the Crescent Moon pack, I was there because I have valuable knowledge of the hunter community. Because I have trained to be a hunter and I have witnessed what the general and the doctor were doing first hand.I had been the one to free the prisoners and while there testimonies would be read today, it was important for someone to be here that had seen how they were held and in what conditions.It did
Zev’s pov“You two can leave. Little Mouse and Zev, can you two stay behind? I’d like to talk some more.” Raiden said after we finished our meeting.It was like nothing had ever happened, well, to most people. But Raiden still had his moments where he felt angry or sad or guilty. We had a good talk just a few days ago about what it does to a person to feel so helpless and trapped.He would brag that he had got rid of his shit in just two weeks, as if it were a contest. But everything is a contest to an alpha, and I wasn’t bothered by it. I was just glad I got my friend back.Stephen, Suzie, and the three of us had a meeting to discuss the future of the pack. Stephen, Lana, and I had spoken to the council we had put together several times to see what the pack members thought could be improved.Raiden and Suzie had been out in the pack themselves as well to talk to the people, and he had several discussions with nearby packs to see how we could defend ourselves better. Not just against h
Raiden’s povBeing inside Atalanta felt like coming home. I might have said it as a joke, but it truly felt that way.And not just because her pussy felt like a warm wet hug for my dick. It was more than that.We hadn’t discussed me not being able to get hard. It was like this big elephant in the room. Because we all knew it. It was obvious. I’m usually the one in charge, dominating my mate, while Zev is the one who is more soft and doesn’t mind being told what to do.But lately all I’ve been doing is eating my mate out or working her pussy or ass with my hand. And trust me, it’s not a bad job. Not at fucking all. I love being the reason my little wolf has an orgasm.I love seeing her squirm, hearing her moan because of me.And I didn’t even mind being the only one who didn’t get to finish.It just didn’t feel complete. Like I was failing at another thing.Because that’s what it comes down to, right? I failed as an alpha, as a mate, and now even as a lover, because I can’t even fuck my
Atalanta’s pov“You know how long it took you to open up, so why do you expect Raiden to do it so quickly? It’s been less than two weeks.” Grace told Zev, while I sat on his lap.She had come into the office to discuss something else, but the conversation inevitably led to Raiden.Things hadn’t felt right between the three of us.And it wasn’t just the lack of intimacy; it was like there was a wall between us. It scared me to think what he was hiding.“He tells me everything, Grace. Even stuff I don’t want to know.” Zev replied.She chuckled, “yes, my son does have a tendency to overshare.”“We’re just worried,” I explained.“I understand that. But he’s not acting out. He’s working and behaving normally, albeit a bit down,” Grace answered.Zev sighed while running his fingers past my arm. “You don’t see it, but he’s different. I can feel it through the bond, and I know that holding it in will only make things worse.”“You’re projecting a bit, assuming that Raiden deals with things in a
Raiden’s pov“So, how are you?” Suzie asked, once I entered my office.“Not you too?” I sighed. “I’m fine. Please, just get to work.”She shook her head and tutted, “look, you had your rest for the last two days. Me and Ven held down the fort while you got to sleep in, -“I stopped Suzie, “I never asked you to do that. You offered. No, you more than offered it. You pushed.”Suzie scoffed, “really? Goddess, Raiden. You’re a horrible liar.”“Liar?!” I growled.“Yes!” She shouted at me. “You think nobody can see through this act?! Everyone can see you’re miserable. Goddess, we can feel it! Your mood is like a dark cloud hanging over everyone and making people walk on their toes around you. It’s annoying, and it needs to end!”“What the fuck, Suzie. You’re exaggerating.” I rolled my eyes at my beta. “Let’s just get to work, please.”“No, no, Raiden. Not, what the fuck. Talk to me, or someone... Do something. But this is going too far.”“What do you mean ‘this” is going too far?” I asked, t
Zev’s pov“So, what’s up, man?” I asked, once Raiden shifted back after a while of running around.“Nothing,” he replied. “Just blowing off some steam, you know.”“Yeah, I do know.” I pointed to the mark he had left on my neck. I knew he was full of bullshit. He was not blowing off some steam, he was freaking out.“Motherfucking wolves,” he growled under his breath.I nodded, “yup, so no use in lying.”He shrugged, “I’m fine. Just tired and not looking forward to telling some people their family member died.”“I could come with…?” I offered.He shook his head, “nah, Odin already volunteered, and three big dudes coming to your house might be a bit much.”“And Lana?” I asked. “She’s coming?”“No, I don’t think that would be wise.” Raiden said as he looked around the forest, avoiding eye contact with me.“For her or?” I asked, wanting him to clarify. She’s our Luna. She should be there.Raiden sighed, “there are still some that blame her or tie her to that community. I don’t want to give
Raiden’s povI left Atalanta to go find the prisoners while I chased after the doctor. He was pretty high on my list, and since it would be just the two of us, I might finally get some time to kill him.I had to rush her dad’s death, and her mom was already dead… Her uncle—well, my little wolf got rid of him herself.So the doctor was the last one I really wanted to kill.With arrogance and eagerness to do some damage I chased his scent, hearing his footsteps running away from me.Hunting a hunter, it’s ironic, and it feels so good to finally return the favor.These were the hunters that hurt my grandpa back in the day, that took my people, that killed my people. But most importantly, these were the hunters that hurt my mate. Especially this doctor.I should have paid more attention, because if I had, I would have heard his footsteps stop. I would have heard his heartbeat slow down and his fear replaced with another scent. I would have realized that something was wrong before I felt th