The last few days were an emotional rollercoaster.
First there was this call from my Nona, the fear of the murders coming after me and now the realisation that I had a crush on the hot soccerguy.
To be honest, I didn't expect that I would have already been falling so hard for him.
Of course he's good-looking and always being nice, but thats not enough reason to fall for someone, is it?
,,Whatever happend between you two, I think you should make up. He seems to be important to you." Vanessa proposed.
,,And don't worry about a home, you're always welcome at our home.", Jack was being nice.
It was nice, that I would get a new family with 16 years of age.
But would it all end like in a fairy tale?
I'm quite pessimistic! ... Well, old habits won't die. Because, honestly all my past adoptive parents were nice and the first few times I was quite optimistic and believed in a future. Thats why it was that words had such an big infact on me. Maybe I was still vulnerable because of the fight with Austin.
I couldn't even remember when I felt asleep that night.
Honestly, I didn't expect that I would run into Mr. Hot Soccerguy first thing the next morning at school.
It was problably not his intention to always bump into me, but I had to hide from him the whole day.
He really put me on the spot.
Suddenly he would appeared when I wanted to get my books from my locker, when I walked down the hallway Austin would come around a corner and I had problems to hide on time in the classroom possible.
The students in there looked at me like I were crazy, and given, I problably looked crazy.
,,Keep going, everyone. Please excuse me!", I tried keeping some of my pride.
Finally we had lunch break, which means lots of food to eat and hopefully no Austin ancidents for next half hour.
But, as you know, Karma is bitch. And in front of the cafeteria it caught me.
I was just one hallway away from food heaven, but I could hear the soccerteam bawling in front of the cafeteria and coming my way. Which made me turn around on the spot.
The first team memembers came around the bend, I catched a glimpse of Austin when his head appeared behind the wall and I could dissapear into the next toilet.
When I entered the boys toilet I heared someone cry and some bad rubbish and noises.
,,Damn, you're such a wimp! You're crying about every fucking thing, it's almost not worth it to even pick at you."
,,At least try to act a bit tough. Where's the fun when we don't have to try at all to mess with you."
Shit, always these bullies at schools. Actually I don't want to get mixed up in this. But these kind of people need to learn a lesson somehow. ... Maybe I just get out of here and call a teacher to interfere.
,,Please stop it. Don't you have enough of messing with me? I don't even any money, why would you mess with like this?"
When I recognised the voice my blood frooze in my veins.
Gab told me, that there where some mean students, but I thought he meant some mean comments, which you just have to ignore sometimes.
But when I heard the toilet flush and Gab scream in fear, I couldn't take it anymore.
,,Yo, what do you think your doing, you asshole?" Jumped on with anger and a bit self-confidence I popped up behind the corner were I was staying.
I was a bit taken aback when I spotted that there weren't just one but three bullies.
,,What's it to you, you little punk? We're just having some fun with our short friend here."
,,Ash ...?" Gab was kneeing in front of the toilet and looking at me wide-eyed in surprise.
To be honest, I don't actually know what I'm doing here either. I'm usually not the type to pick a fight or to stand up for someone. But Gab was already there for me so many times and when I remember how frail he looked that night at the play ground, I can't just leave him here alone with the bullies.
,,I don't know what kind of problem you have with my friend, but let him go now, before I make you regret picking on him!" Maybe I sounded tougher than I was, but I think I'm being excused for standing up for Gab.
,,JD, JH, your taking on this rude little prick. Be REAL nice to him and teach him a lesson in manners. And I finish what we started with this shortie here.", the biggest one of them threatened.
,,Ash, don't be redicilous, please leave. I'm ok, just get out of her..." The little one looked worried, but was interrupted when the big bully grabbed his head and shoved it into the toilet.
,,Stop it, you dick!" I tried to cheat my way through the other two bullies, sadly they catched me before I could pass them and shoved me against the wall.
,,Hopefully you will be more fun than this little crybaby. Don't start crying after a few punches!" They clenched their fists threatening and started throwing punches.
Some of them hit, some of them I was able to dodge and I could even landed some hits.
But to be real, I'm really terrible at fighting.
While I heard Gab gasping for air from time to time.
When I scream now, I could have luck and someone would come to help us or send the teachers. But the teachers aren't normally in the halls at lunch time. They have to overwatch things at the cafeteria. Maybe some student would hear us, but if they would send help? Also, everyone should be eating by now.
Maybe the bullies gave it more thought than you would give them credit for.
Suddenly the door to the boys toilet opened and would show Austin standing in the doorway, looking surprised.
,,What's going on here?"
Suddenly the door to the boys toilet opened and would show Austin standing in the doorway, looking surprised."What's going on here?"He looked at the situation, almost seemed like he tried to figure what happend with these guys and us."Dude, nice that you're here! Come here, we're having some fun with these weaklings! Do you want to mess with them too?", shouted the biggest guy, who was with Gabriel.Austin only exchanged a look with me, most likely to check if I'm ok, before he turned back to the guy."Daniel, what were you thinking to pick on people again?" Austins voice was menacing and ice cold. ,,The last time you messed with people, you promised me to stop this bullshit! Because I beat the shit out of you, have you forgotten that already?""Calm down, man! This tiny crybaby here is crying no matter what you do to him. And the other one walked in, so we had to keep him from telling on us. So it's no big deal."Austin grabbed Da
"And here I thought you wanted to talk about how you called me your crush.", I faked ignorance.Hot soccerguy choked on his own salvia."Uhm ... that was ... abou that ... I'm sorry." He stuttered so bad, he didn't know what he was saying."Don't worry, Austin, I just wanted to tease you a bit." I tried to reassure him."So, I can call you my crush?" With saying that, he seemed more confident."It's your choice who you fall for. What do I have to say how you feel about other people?"His smile in that moment could compete with a hot summerday."I really love you, Ash!" He looked like a child who got his favourite candy.While I didn't respond and just turned my head to hide my blush. Eventhough I was sure he saw it. Because he put his hand on my shoulder, turned me to face him and looked dead serious."You're blushing again. And I still don't know how your feeling about me."I felt like getting dragged into
Shortly after that, Austin and I were laying in my room.Luckily my new family wasn´t home tonight and were staying with some friends, or the sleepovers with Gab and Austin wouldn't have been possible.Austin was taking a shower right now and I switched through the TV channels to search for something good to watch."Thanks for letting me stay over and for the change of clothes ..."Austin stood in the doorway, looking funny but also sexy in my way too tiny top and shorts.My top was too short on him and showed his belly and therefore his packs.Sadly it was embarrissing for him, so he pulled the top down."Hahahaha, your way to big for my stuff!""Thats not funny! I can't do anything about it, that I'm taller than you." The shame set his face on fire. "Thats the biggest stuff you have?""Sorry, I didn't meant to be rude. I don't like it if my stuff is too big for me, so I don't have many wide shirts."He acc
"What happend yesterday after we left?""Nothing big. He just walked me home and we talked. Jonathan is such a nice guy.""Oh? Nice guy, huh? So Gab DOES like him too. Hopefully it all will end well.", was what I thought when I read his answer."Nice guy? In what sense?"Gab blushed a bit when he read my note and played with his fingers flusterd."Nothing, just he was so worried about me when I woke up in the nurses office. Jonathan and Jacob always went easy on me. I was just happy that they apollogized and trying to make it up to me."Well, that was a good response. Hopefully he won't get his hopes up too high.I honestly don't want him to get a heartbreak from his bully."Ok buddy, but don't get your hopes up too high. Don't jump into something without thinking it through and talking the whole bully situation out, please."When he read the note, he looked over to me, nodded and smiled slightly.Gab wrote one la
,,So, ... it's not a date? I guess, I never asked you officially on a date. So ... want to make this our second date?" It was noticeable that he avoided eye contact, which was unusual for him. That I wanted to talk about something must have totally put him on edge. ,,You know, I don't get you. You seem to be interested in me, you went on the first date with me, but rejected me when I asked you out or when we talk about feelings at all. And on the other hand you're sometimes so seductive, like being all cute and vulnerable and all. After the bathroom incident, I understood that you had some seperation anxiety, because of your bad experiences. That time I just hoped that we could stay friends, because I really want to stay in contact. When you said that you had something to say, I feared it was a rejection of some kind again. And then you start with asking me for a date? What's all that supposed to mean? I don't understand anything anymore." Austin looked
,,Do you want to go out with me?" I knew for a while now, that Austin would ask me that. For the month I started at this school, I could see that he would ask me eventually. And I did my best to avoid this situation all this time. Actually for as long as I can remember I ran away from this question and to face this now, not knowing what it would lead to in the end, was scaring. So before I took the jump, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and nodded. "Yes ... let's try that." Austin hugged me tight, not letting go of my hand and I could feel his bright grin against my shoulder. "You finally said yes! Don't be scared, we can overcome every challenge life will give us. I'm so glad to be able to be together with you, I promise I won't hurt you, honey." The nickname made me shiver a bit, but it wasn't all that bad. "Your overreacting. I'm your boyfriend because I trust you and believe in you, but I will ne
,,Make yourself at home.", I said and gestured to my room. ,,Thank you for the invitation." Austin stepped in and looked around my room as if it were the first time he saw it. ,,It's not the first time you stayed over, what's impressing you so much?" Austin set his school bag next to my desk and took a seat on my bed, but still looking around my room. Is it just me, or is he feeling strangely comfortable already after the second time here?
The weekend arrived sooner than we expectet. Maybe that was because Austin and I had to focus on a new thing for both of us. Our relationship. The last few days I watched every soccertraining after school on the sidelines, we kissed in the storageroom, texted through all our classes and he practically moved into my room. So we didn't even recognised that our time was up. ,,Allright, that was the last box, finally. Say your goodbyes, son, and we can get going!", my dad Jack announced, closing the trunk.
The weekend arrived sooner than we expectet. Maybe that was because Austin and I had to focus on a new thing for both of us. Our relationship. The last few days I watched every soccertraining after school on the sidelines, we kissed in the storageroom, texted through all our classes and he practically moved into my room. So we didn't even recognised that our time was up. ,,Allright, that was the last box, finally. Say your goodbyes, son, and we can get going!", my dad Jack announced, closing the trunk.
,,Make yourself at home.", I said and gestured to my room. ,,Thank you for the invitation." Austin stepped in and looked around my room as if it were the first time he saw it. ,,It's not the first time you stayed over, what's impressing you so much?" Austin set his school bag next to my desk and took a seat on my bed, but still looking around my room. Is it just me, or is he feeling strangely comfortable already after the second time here?
,,Do you want to go out with me?" I knew for a while now, that Austin would ask me that. For the month I started at this school, I could see that he would ask me eventually. And I did my best to avoid this situation all this time. Actually for as long as I can remember I ran away from this question and to face this now, not knowing what it would lead to in the end, was scaring. So before I took the jump, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and nodded. "Yes ... let's try that." Austin hugged me tight, not letting go of my hand and I could feel his bright grin against my shoulder. "You finally said yes! Don't be scared, we can overcome every challenge life will give us. I'm so glad to be able to be together with you, I promise I won't hurt you, honey." The nickname made me shiver a bit, but it wasn't all that bad. "Your overreacting. I'm your boyfriend because I trust you and believe in you, but I will ne
,,So, ... it's not a date? I guess, I never asked you officially on a date. So ... want to make this our second date?" It was noticeable that he avoided eye contact, which was unusual for him. That I wanted to talk about something must have totally put him on edge. ,,You know, I don't get you. You seem to be interested in me, you went on the first date with me, but rejected me when I asked you out or when we talk about feelings at all. And on the other hand you're sometimes so seductive, like being all cute and vulnerable and all. After the bathroom incident, I understood that you had some seperation anxiety, because of your bad experiences. That time I just hoped that we could stay friends, because I really want to stay in contact. When you said that you had something to say, I feared it was a rejection of some kind again. And then you start with asking me for a date? What's all that supposed to mean? I don't understand anything anymore." Austin looked
"What happend yesterday after we left?""Nothing big. He just walked me home and we talked. Jonathan is such a nice guy.""Oh? Nice guy, huh? So Gab DOES like him too. Hopefully it all will end well.", was what I thought when I read his answer."Nice guy? In what sense?"Gab blushed a bit when he read my note and played with his fingers flusterd."Nothing, just he was so worried about me when I woke up in the nurses office. Jonathan and Jacob always went easy on me. I was just happy that they apollogized and trying to make it up to me."Well, that was a good response. Hopefully he won't get his hopes up too high.I honestly don't want him to get a heartbreak from his bully."Ok buddy, but don't get your hopes up too high. Don't jump into something without thinking it through and talking the whole bully situation out, please."When he read the note, he looked over to me, nodded and smiled slightly.Gab wrote one la
Shortly after that, Austin and I were laying in my room.Luckily my new family wasn´t home tonight and were staying with some friends, or the sleepovers with Gab and Austin wouldn't have been possible.Austin was taking a shower right now and I switched through the TV channels to search for something good to watch."Thanks for letting me stay over and for the change of clothes ..."Austin stood in the doorway, looking funny but also sexy in my way too tiny top and shorts.My top was too short on him and showed his belly and therefore his packs.Sadly it was embarrissing for him, so he pulled the top down."Hahahaha, your way to big for my stuff!""Thats not funny! I can't do anything about it, that I'm taller than you." The shame set his face on fire. "Thats the biggest stuff you have?""Sorry, I didn't meant to be rude. I don't like it if my stuff is too big for me, so I don't have many wide shirts."He acc
"And here I thought you wanted to talk about how you called me your crush.", I faked ignorance.Hot soccerguy choked on his own salvia."Uhm ... that was ... abou that ... I'm sorry." He stuttered so bad, he didn't know what he was saying."Don't worry, Austin, I just wanted to tease you a bit." I tried to reassure him."So, I can call you my crush?" With saying that, he seemed more confident."It's your choice who you fall for. What do I have to say how you feel about other people?"His smile in that moment could compete with a hot summerday."I really love you, Ash!" He looked like a child who got his favourite candy.While I didn't respond and just turned my head to hide my blush. Eventhough I was sure he saw it. Because he put his hand on my shoulder, turned me to face him and looked dead serious."You're blushing again. And I still don't know how your feeling about me."I felt like getting dragged into
Suddenly the door to the boys toilet opened and would show Austin standing in the doorway, looking surprised."What's going on here?"He looked at the situation, almost seemed like he tried to figure what happend with these guys and us."Dude, nice that you're here! Come here, we're having some fun with these weaklings! Do you want to mess with them too?", shouted the biggest guy, who was with Gabriel.Austin only exchanged a look with me, most likely to check if I'm ok, before he turned back to the guy."Daniel, what were you thinking to pick on people again?" Austins voice was menacing and ice cold. ,,The last time you messed with people, you promised me to stop this bullshit! Because I beat the shit out of you, have you forgotten that already?""Calm down, man! This tiny crybaby here is crying no matter what you do to him. And the other one walked in, so we had to keep him from telling on us. So it's no big deal."Austin grabbed Da
The last few days were an emotional rollercoaster. First there was this call from my Nona, the fear of the murders coming after me and now the realisation that I had a crush on the hot soccerguy. To be honest, I didn't expect that I would have already been falling so hard for him. Of course he's good-looking and always being nice, but thats not enough reason to fall for someone, is it? ,,Whatever happend between you two, I think you should make up. He seems to be important to you." Vanessa proposed. ,,And don't worry about a home, you're always welcome at our home.", Jack was being nice. It was nice, that I would get a new family with 16 years of age. But would it all end like in a fairy tale? I'm quite pessimistic! ... Well, old habits won't die. Because, honestly all my past adoptive parents were nice and the first few times I was quite optimistic and believed in a future. Thats why it was that words had such an big i