12. Stay

,,Do you want to go out with me?"

I knew for a while now, that Austin would ask me that.

For the month I started at this school, I could see that he would ask me eventually.

And I did my best to avoid this situation all this time.

Actually for as long as I can remember I ran away from this question and to face this now, not knowing what it would lead to in the end, was scaring.

So before I took the jump, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and nodded.

"Yes ... let's try that."

Austin hugged me tight, not letting go of my hand and I could feel his bright grin against my shoulder.

"You finally said yes! Don't be scared, we can overcome every challenge life will give us. I'm so glad to be able to be together with you, I promise I won't hurt you, honey."

The nickname made me shiver a bit, but it wasn't all that bad.

"Your overreacting. I'm your boyfriend because I trust you and believe in you, but I will need some time to loose my loss anxiety. So please be patient with me. I will do my best to be there for you too."

It almost felt like Austin would burst with happines and I asked myself how it would be possible for his grin to still be growing.

"Honestly, it doesn't really feel real that this is happening. I promise that you won't regret it."

He tightened his grip around my hand a bit, as if to say, that he never want to let go.

Austins whole reaction of us getting together made me blush and my heart beat faster, eventhough I didn't want to admit it. Luckily his face was burried in my shoulder and he didn't looked me in the eye the entire time.

"Come on, calm down. People get together every day.", I tried to reassure him and not to get caught blushing.

Austin flinshed suddenly and put his hand on my chest.

,,Ash, your heart is beating so fast ..."

He lifted his head and looked at me wide-eyed, in surprise, only a few inches away from my lips. Not that I were any better.

Even the setting sun couldn't hide that my face was set on fire.

Austin tried to hide the fact that he was nervous, that his lips were shivering, when he carefully approached closer to me.

,,A-austin ..."

,,I-i know this is sudden, but ..."

He tried to stop himself, but something between us pulled him closer ... and to tell the truth, I felt it too.

Many would say, that it wasn't the right place or the right timing, but my heart told me clearly that this was the moment. It would happen, right here, right now.

Our faces were so close, that I could almost feel our lips touch, our breaths were mingling.

But when I started closing my eyes, Austin began to panic.

"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't do this ..."

I wasn't having any of this, I grabed his hair in the neck and pulled him in for the kiss I've waited for.

It was a gingerly, soft kiss as I was still scared to get rejected and to regret this move.

Carefully I began to move my lips against his, eyes closed.

Austin didn't responded, he didn't do anything.

Scared, that all my worries would still be proven right, I pulled away, ready to apollogize and to run away.

I opened my mouth, but Austin just smiled, grabed me by the collar and kissed me.

This one had much more passion and emotions shown and he didn't waited for me to put his tongue in my opened mouth.

During the kiss, he changed our positions by sitting up again, leading me with our hands still intertwined, finally letting go of my hand, letting his hand slide over my back till he settled them on my butt and lift me on his lap.

I almost wouldn't have realized what he was doing while through all this he wreaked havoc on poor little me.

Our kiss felt like something that was long overdo, as if it was the last call to finally do this. As if we didn't kiss right then, we would have never done.

Sitting on his lap, I ran my finger through his hair and kissed him back, now more demanding.

His hands didn't stand still either, one hand was massaging my butt, the other wandered under my shirt and I could tell he was thinking of taking my shirt off, because I could feel something pocking between his legs. Not that I were any better.

I guessed that both of us were at our emotional limit for the day, because he was thinking what I was thinking.

He pulled away, gasped for air and I was honestly impressed how he managed not to blush or showing any shame.

"Sorry, we - we should stop here.", Austin said.

"Don't apollogize all the time. We're boyfriends and I kissed you first."

"Yeah, but we just got together, you have to think about a lot and I initiated the kiss and ..."

I interrupted him with a peck on the lips.

"I said it's ok, or else I wouldn't have kissed you, boyfriend."

Now we both couldn't hide that we were ashamed anymore and looked the other way.

"Anyway, it's getting late and I still have to pack my stuff."

"Really? You have to go already? Thats a shame ..." Austin looked like a lost puppy which favourite toy was stolen.

A short moment I fought with myself to ask him to stay over or not to.

I'm way too into this situation to say no, huh? I should seriously work on controling my behaviour more. But I promised him and myself to try this and there won't be many chances  to spent time like this, once I moved.

So, I cleared my throat, looked him in the eyes and asked him.

"Do you want to stay over?"