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Max
There are days when I wake up and I feel ok. Then there are days when I wake up and I feel like the world is turned on its head, and I don't know how to function or how to handle the feelings that I'm feeling. I feel everything intensely and therefore I'm an intense person . I've always felt everything intensely like if I have a feeling and I don't know how to describe it ,my loving girlfriend who I love with every fibre of my being helps me to make sense of what I'm feeling and explains the feeling properly.
The past couple of days have been hard on me I have lost my girlfriend temporarily and I'm having nightmares the nightmares are back. I've had really hectic nightmares to the point where I had to take medication, to make sure that I sleep peacefully and now that I am on the road to recovery and I want to stay clean I don't want to be on any meds. When Ellie called me on Monday morning I
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Chapter 124EllieThe trip from the Luca resort, to Cleo and Angelo's Beach House, it was very educational. I showed Daniel the footage I received from Mr Rossi. I saw it in his eyes before he spoke; he wondered how Mr Rossi could give me something so sensitive and so classified without me working up a sweat. Truth is I've always to work hard and everything I do , and Mr Rossi has always been like a father to me he always encouraged me to start new projects and if there ever was a new position that opened up in the company he would ask me to give it a try.The day I got the the head of public relations position , was the day that I will forever be thankful for because it opened doors to a whole new world. Besides meeting Dexter,I knew that you were negations was my forte and I was doing the right thing my following my heart I'm trying out for something that would benefit me in the long run. When Dexte
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Chapter 125EllieI looked at Cleo and she looked at me darting her eyes from side to side . An indication that she found ,what I told her mind blowing and not at all too strange. It was a connection between what was going on and how closely linked it was to Jeremiah style attack.I started eating the cereal that was in my bowl and while I was eating I was thinking if everything that has happened to me up until this point wasn't a coincidence how genuine was my connection with Maxwell and how did I know that Max I wasn't being used as a tool to get to the Luca family.My mind was running wild with endless possibilities of how and why Max and I ended up together, but I knew deep down in my heart that he loved me and I loved him. My grandfather regarded him as an adoptive grandchild. He was part of the family and we all loved I'mIf what was happening now and indi
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Chapter 127EllieWhen Cleo came through she look like she was about to cry. I have a habit of freaking out. This time I wanted to take a deep breath and actually listen to what cleo had to say. I looked at Cleo and she looked at me with sad eyes something didn't feel right, I promised Max that we would both have a conversation this evening before I went to bed. I kept the communication lines open so that ; he wouldn't feel alone alone and feel like I have neglected or abandoned him. We are going to be parents after all and I cannot wait to start the new chapter of our lives .Daniel looks at Cleo and she looked sad ."I don't know anything about the first person he was badly injured so they are keeping his identity classified for now."" wow if it's of any help Max said he was going to go out for lunch with them and he said that he would call me i
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Chapter 131EllieWhen I looked at Brent I saw that he wanted to better understand what had happened on the day everything went wrong. I'm still in shock I can't believe what happened happened.Part of me still feels like it's a dream but deep down in my heart I know that it's not a dream, the people that I regarded as family and had helped, throughout so many difficult situations; have kicked me out disowned me, and claim that I was just someone wanted somewhere to belong and I belonged with them for a while but I am nothing to them now.I wouldn't usually cry if it was someone I care about but I forget about these people for practically half my life and I found love with their son .So at a point where I'm feeling like I don't know what to do I feel like everything that I've done was just for nothing, of course, my heart is broken, of course it's hurting
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