Chapter 129
Max
I can't stop thinking about my conversation with Raphael . If I was his age when I met Ellie and I grew up in the same neighborhood with her without knowing that she lived in the same street and she was in the hospital the same day I was admitted as a toddler then , I must have seen something as a child and every time I tried to access the memory I feel pain. So the memory need to remember associated with pain and seeing something that I shouldn't have seen at the age I was.
I am so thankful for my family . I know I can't see them right now, but I will eventually see them in due time. I just need to focus on being well mentally and physically. My father had scheduled an appointed for me with Brent and he was going to be the first person I was seeing properly and talking to properly after I had the machines removed from me. I needed to clear my head and I needed to be calm because the next co
Chapter 130EllieI so miss Max . I'm capable of going long periods without being with someone if it was me who initiated The separation at first but in this case, separation and now I'm regretting everything. I was supposed to go back home on Monday but I had to go back on Wednesday.It's been 3 weeks since I came back home to find my boyfriend lying in a hospital bed hooked up on all sorts of different machines because he was involved in a fire accident that happened at a popular restaurant that was supposed to be safe for everyone else. Part of me feels like this was a setup and somebody knew where he was going to be and what time Max was going to be there because stuff like that doesn't just happen. Having been a victim of stage attacks . I have reason to believe that the fire and the explosions were planned.The last time I talked to Max;
Chapter 131EllieWhen I looked at Brent I saw that he wanted to better understand what had happened on the day everything went wrong. I'm still in shock I can't believe what happened happened.Part of me still feels like it's a dream but deep down in my heart I know that it's not a dream, the people that I regarded as family and had helped, throughout so many difficult situations; have kicked me out disowned me, and claim that I was just someone wanted somewhere to belong and I belonged with them for a while but I am nothing to them now.I wouldn't usually cry if it was someone I care about but I forget about these people for practically half my life and I found love with their son .So at a point where I'm feeling like I don't know what to do I feel like everything that I've done was just for nothing, of course, my heart is broken, of course it's hurting
Chapter 132MaxI like Brent and I'm so sad that he is leaving today . I didn't know that he knew Ellie . When he told me that he knew her I thought to myself it's a small world after all. I didn't know that they hung out in the same circles but then again it's Ellie , so she hangs out in every circle she's always been versatile , even at school before the other girls got jealous of her, and started spreading lies . We had an inside joke when we were alone together . I called Ellie a versatile geek.I've been wondering why Ellie hadn't to come to visit me over the past few weeks it's been 2 months . 8 weeks is a very long time actually and she is carrying my child. Brent is on his way back to Johannesburg but before that I told him to go check up on Ellie and see if she was doing okay because it was unlike her to pull the radio silence card . I told him to call me when he landed in Johannesburg, and tel
Chapter 133MaxI took a deep breath calmed down and dialled Ellie's number again . I pressed the call button and waited for her to answer the call . She had to answer . I've bee cut off from the whole world and I don't know what is going on right now .All I know is that I was going to brunch with my family and for the first time in a while without Cleo because some thing went down while I was out cold from the injuries I had sustained in the fire . I didn't have a phone but I needed to talk to Ellie. Hence I ask my father to borrow me his.I changed the phone settings to private for the specific call, and Call her again and, so that she can pick up and let me explain myself. I know her too well and for her to just hang up on me when I tell her that it is me is cause for alarm. It was an indication that she was angry or mad and she was being passive aggressive . E
chapter 134EllieDaniel has always been a good friend he is there when you need him; he's got your back when you least expected and most of all he is dependable and when he loves you he loves you completely. His previous exes said that he was very controlling, his words not mine. Truth be told I think he's just misunderstood but he wants the best for everyone else including himself but, sometimes it comes off as being either too controlling or judgemental which is not his intention.As soon as I got the call from Maxwell I was happy and sad at the same time. I was happy because I was hearing his voice after a very very long time, it was like music to my ears. I flashed back to when he would whisper sweet words in my ear and tell me that he loves me and worships the ground I walk on. I then felt sad because the good flashbacks were accompanied by memories. I hung up the first time he called; because I was hurting and I was at work. I can'
Chapter 135EllieWhen I arrived at the restaurant with Daniel our table was already set up. I should have known that he doesn't ask things unless he has thought everything through. It was a lovely day the sun was out and the clouds, well there was not a cloud in the sky. The table Daniel had packed was the perfect table because I could see the ocean and its beauty. It was during the day so it looks like they were pieces of mirror and the ocean glistening and a blue aquamarine color. Fees for change from blue to turquoise to greenish-blue all shades of blue I love that because blue was a calming color and it happened to be one of my favorite colors.I loved Carlo's restaurant for many reasons but the table that Daniel got was the hardest table to get especially during any hour it was a miracle that he managed to call him into giving us the table. I was thankful. I was also thankful that he suggested taking me
Chapter 136MaxI cannot believe I trusted Daniel. He wanted Ellie all along. I didn't pay attention when Blake said that the car that was parked outside in the VIP parking area, looked like Daniel's. I was focused on clearing up a lot of confusion. I was struggling to wrap my head around the fact that Ellie could cheat. She's not the type.I wanted to know what happened with my girlfriend and my family. There are two sides to every story, Ellie told me her version, I wanted to hear my family is very good and hopefully, everything would go back to normal. That's just wishful thinking. I wasI'm still connected to Ellie and part of me could still sense her energy and presence. I had brunch what the family and all of them avoided the elephant in the room. I knew all of them had to answer me, but I didn't think it was the right time. I knew that my mother was hiding something, and my sister was acting way too guilty, Blake was angry, and he
Chapter 137MaxI looked at Ellie and I could see the worry and fear in her eyes. I nodded and took a deep breath ;" I know I broke your heart ten years ago by not believing you and I feel like it wouldn't be fair to you to make you wait. I will talk to my family and I promise to talk to you when I am done."" Oh by the way Maria is in town, and since she's the one spreading lies about everything I suggest you set the record straight with her before things get out of control I mean it."" I will. "" Take care. I have to go your dad is on his way here. "Ellie left the room and when I looked at Daniel he had a bruised jaw. I kind of felt guilty about the whole incident and I should have approached it differently instead of assuming. Truth be told where Ellie is concerned any reasoning goes out the window. She drives me crazy. I looked up at Daniel who seemed calm. 
Chapter 374 Ellie I locked eyes with him, placed my spoon down, I placed both the palms of my hands on either side of his jaw and kissed him. "I have always had the fear of you leaving me and us not getting back together again. We almost lost it all but we fought to get to every year and I don't want us to not be with each other and have each other's backs when we're down. I know that sometimes our Lives can get hectic and thank you for forgiving me for what I did with Matteo. We both don't want to risk losing the people we loved and it seems as if Paulina is in love with you." "That may be true but my heart belongs to you I love you and I will never stop loving you you went when I was with other people I could think about was you so we also have something that we did together in that binds us so nice and I will never forget the day that we had our binding rooms done together at the same tattoo parlor. That was one of the best days of my life because you admitted strawberry ice cr
Chapter 373 Ellie I've been in pain before both emotionally and physically but combined it's a different kind of pain. Pain has levels that transcends by either triggers or events that trigger the same sensation that you felt before. It's like seasonal trauma but on a bigger scale because you feel it physically and you also feel that emotionally and no matter how hard you try not to feel like you always end up feeling it because it's meant to be felt. I always said that if you have torrents for paying you can tolerate anything, any blow that hits you or any fall that you suffer. I didn't expect what would happen. It wasn't supposed to happen if I had just said that I wasn't pregnant and just kept quiet and walked away instead of letting my ego get the better of me. I had to help my territory. Paulina needed to know that what she was doing was wrong. I already admitted to wrongdoing by trying to stop her friendship with my fiance from blooming because I was afraid of losing him
Chapter 372 Max By the time we made it to the hospital we had to enter another section of the hospital which was in the main entrance. I was a betting man. I'd say that these people have sections of hospitals everywhere they have wings .even when I traveled abroad with Daniel he had to go see a friend of his who was involved in a shooting that he wasn't supposed to be involved in and the level of security clearance was out of this world I had never seen security clearance like that and me being a football player which of course I'd need to get back to playing football our security clearance is nothing compared to the security clearance these guys have to get you have to be identified you have to know that you will be searched and the people that are searching you have to know that you're coming so for me to be tagging along with Fabio was a miracle. As soon as we walked in we were offered something to eat and drink but I don't have the first to drink anything in all the appetite
Chapter 371 Max have you ever been connected to someone so much so that you know that when something is wrong you can feel it in your blood bones and everything including your soul and you wonder if it might be something good or might be something bad or maybe it's just your mind playing tricks on you but I believe that when you are connected with someone and you've created love with someone you can feel when something is a bit off or something is wrong and in my case I did feel that something was off when I got taken away all of the sudden when I organised a meeting between Romano and Claudio. however understand reason why it happened but what I don't understand is the way I'm feeling right now because if you deserve the right has been pulled out from under me and I don't know how to react how to respond or 38 I don't know how you feel because I cannot comprehend how I feel everything was going ok I knew that the person that I loved and my loved ones are ok but all of the sudden t
Chapter 370MaxwellI don't like being hurt preferably I would love to do the hair thing because I know that I I'm getting something out of it I'm getting cathartic experience but the only thing I like getting as a punching bag which of course I love hurting because it doesn't fight back and it's just there for me to take out my frustration but when somebody takes out their frustration when you turn extent it's called abuse if you allow it to happen on a constant basis but in this case it wasn't to be my best friend who I really appreciate right now and I am happy and Proud to call a friend.I have to say that he pulled a number on me I'm in pain and I'm recovering from The Blues that he told me to make it look like I was involved in an attack this guy's a professional at what he does and I didn't have any makeup so he made it look like it was very young and I have been coming for a little while I don't know how he does it but he's a genius and I'm thinking that Daniel bought the fact
Chapter 369 Ellie The worst thing about setting up a meeting is if the person who set up the meeting doesn't pitch for the meeting and were civil and swine you know that the meeting is very important to both parties because it has to do with me marrying someone who requested for a meeting that I so wanted and now he's not here to eat the fruits of his labor. I'm still confused as to why Maxwell decided to have cold feet and not come to the party he's not the type of guy to chicken out of something that he said that he would do he's always been dependable and he's always been directed deliberate and intentional so for him to do what he did at a very important time of my life and at a time when I needed him the most is sort of out of character because it's not the guy that I've come to know and it's not the man that I thought and mind you thought being the operative word I was going to marry. I had to focus on the positives if I was still confused at how things had turned out and if
Chapter 368Max I'd like to believe that I'm not a skeptic but that would be lying. I know for a fact that I am a skeptical person because sometimes people don't always tell the truth, sometimes they just do and they sometimes make it into something that they want you to believe. There are always three sides to a story. I will say that there's always four sides to every story, there's the part that you hear, there's the part that the other person has to tell, the part that people believe is their own opinion of the truth and then the one that balances all is the real truth. When somebody says something it is always right to ask the person that they are talking about if what you heard was true if you don't it means that you choose to believe the truth that the other person who's lying told you and then you have to either verify the truth or believe the truth or someone else's version of the truth instead of hearing it from the horse's mouth. Deep down I knew for a fact that Matteo Ma
Chapter 367 Ellie If there's one thing that I don't want and one thing I don't want to go through again is the same hurt that I felt when Maxwell left me. You can love someone and give your all in a relationship but if the trust is not there then there's something that's missing people often say they trust is like a plate once you break it you can't put it back together but I beg to differ because once you break a plate it's up to you if you sweep up the pieces burn them making your plate it's ceramic for crying out loud so why would you not want to fix what was once broken and see if this person is capable of changing because everyone is capable of change if they want to change and if they are changing for the right person because if someone refuses to change they can actually limit the growth I always say a person who doesn't want to change as like a stagnant water , if doesn't move it can harbor filth. Water like blood is a life force. It's constantly moving and it's constantly
Chapter 366Maxyou know very well when you're about to go play a match whatever you have is enough to get you through the performance, whatever you wear and what every feeling you have means. I normally work through the nerves and of the times that I've been nervous my go-to thought all my go to safe place has always been the person that I want to marry and it turned out to be the person that I am engaged to right now. I've had nerves and I've had instances where I don't feel confident about the game I'm going to play but the only way to beat that is to have safe thoughts recently it has been only my son and my fiance but now I've got more things to think about than the usual soccer game and a performance that I have to put on. This is one of those days when I am not supposed to put on a performance because if I couldn't performance they are going to pick it up and if I act all weird they are still going to pick it up so the only thing to do is to act normal around both men who are