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I cannot believe that I am where I am right now at this point I’m supposed to be at a stadium where’s Paul viewing a sold-out game and having the time of my life watching Maxwell Play his first national match after a very long time of not playing. Instead, I’m in the hospital hooks up on all sorts of different machines and I have Daniel he's decided to go into doctor mode because of what happened on Thursday morning.
I was all dressed up I was all dressed up ready to get to work and, forget that I had problems with Maxwell because what happened on Wednesday just really shook me to the Core.
I’ve had fights with Maxwell before but this time I think I might have struck a chord. I don't like fighting with him and I won't beg for him to come back. He expects me to call and text him and apologize for being friends with Daniel. I am not going to do that. He knew that I had a history with Daniel when we
Chapter 116.MaxYou don’t get good at something by doing nothing. You get good at something by putting in the hard work showing up everyday and doing your best. I’m an athlete I put on 100 and 10% and what I do and I do it to the best of my ability.I’ve always known that Paul wanted to test me. When Paul walked in my room and asked me where Ellie was. I wasn’t the least bit worried. I’ve been so mad at Ellie that all I wanted to do., was making feel the same pain I felt. If I was friends with all my exes and I went to them for advice ,Went behind My girlfriend’s back had fun with all my exes had dinner breakfast or lunch have them come in and cook for me and talk to my girlfriend when my girlfriend needs advice I bet you’d feel like she was useless and question every question she had.It’s not that I don’t trust Daniel he has helped me when I needed help the most and he has given me solid
Chapter 117MThere are times when you need to listen and listen very carefully. I have a habit of listening and listening very carefully. Paulina is a troublemaker ;she's always been a trouble maker and she's always causes trouble where ever she can . I don't believe anything that comes out of her mouth especially anything that concerns me and EllieI don't remember anything my dad did with me when I was a kid and anything I remember is associated , with pain . I have the scars and stitches to prove it . The only person besides my mother who has loved me scars and all had been Ellie . I was initially going to go back to the hotel and sleep off the alcohol. My blood was drowning in alcohol and I was lucky to have Aaron arounI wasn't going to entertain Paulina's nonsense ,she was trying to start trouble where there was none. When was the female version of a form. If there was someon
Chapter 118EllieI love the sea and pretty much anything that has to do with water . Water has the quality of retaining it's shape after breaking no mater what form it takes sold ; liquid or gas every drop is vital. Water has the power to give life and death . It's gentle enough to cleanse ; rejuvenate and bring back to life what was once dead and do the direct opposite of what I just said . All in all water gives and it takes away .Daniel works to hard and he obsesses over every little detail . Even if he appears calm he has a tendency to just start overthinking the obvious . He wanted to give me his phone to call Maxwell and congratulate him on his hat trick and performance. Even though he was being pushed around band bullied by his teammates he caught back with everything he had which was nothing short of amazing . I couldn't call him on Saturday because I was busy processing the ne
Chapter 119MaxHave you ever wondered what went wrong in your relationship, to the point where you keep on going back and forth trying to find ways to find solutions only to come up with more problems and then you realise that you are the problem.I brought up Daniel with good reason and I have more reasons not to like Paul and Paulina. I passed Paul's test and when I was woken up with a phone call this morning by Ellie who was using Daniel's phone my heat stopped for a second . I thought it was Daniel calling to tell me bad news ."Ellie I've had little to no sleep and you are calling me using Daniel's phone . I don't know what you are talking about ."I heard movement and for a moment I thought that Ellie wasn't in the coast ; I heard waves crashing and I breathed a sigh of relief ."Maxwell you were ki
Chapter 120EllieI love Max I do. I just can't be with him when he does something wrong knowing that; I will forgive him. I knew that he needed a scapegoat when we were arguing about Daniel Luca being my friend.The relationship between me and Daniel is strictly a friendship kind of relationship. We've been through a lot together and we've seen each other through the worst of times. He has was already going through hell because some of the girlfriends he had either; cheated on him with people he knew, they were either killed, or they were just with him for the money.I have always loved him for who he was and not what he had. He is always been a dependable friend and to an extent a brother. He convinced me to call my boyfriend who I didn't feel like talking to until he answered the phone and he was sobbing. Maxwell wants me back home. I'm not ready to go back home to a guy wh
Chapter 121EllieDavid looked at me seriously; and darted his eyes, from side to side . He has this thing where he looks at you and he looks like he's very serious ,but he's got a poker face at the same time which of course you cannot tell what he's thinking." This is a trick question right? You are my friend and in an ideal world you would be my baby .I'd be raising kids with you and taking care of you and treating you like a Queen ."I smiled at Daniel and he smiled back drumming his fingertips on the table . The salty fresh smell was somehow calming and it made me feel at ease . I needed Daniel to speak his mind without feeling judged or fear being laughed at . It was just the two of us ... Well make it three because he had someone else driving ."It was a trick question . "" I knew it . What k
Chapter 122MaxThere are days when I wake up and I feel ok. Then there are days when I wake up and I feel like the world is turned on its head, and I don't know how to function or how to handle the feelings that I'm feeling. I feel everything intensely and therefore I'm an intense person . I've always felt everything intensely like if I have a feeling and I don't know how to describe it ,my loving girlfriend who I love with every fibre of my being helps me to make sense of what I'm feeling and explains the feeling properly.The past couple of days have been hard on me I have lost my girlfriend temporarily and I'm having nightmares the nightmares are back. I've had really hectic nightmares to the point where I had to take medication, to make sure that I sleep peacefully and now that I am on the road to recovery and I want to stay clean I don't want to be on any meds. When Ellie called me on Monday morning I
Chapter 123MaxIf you've ever suffered a childhood trauma ; or have been involved in an accident that you somehow blocked out as you grew up you don't want the same thing to happen again when you're older.Lunch hour is the most busiest hour in any restaurant and what happened during lunch hour shook everyone. Our table was in the VIP section where no one could get access to us except for the managers and the waiters.Everyone who's sitting in the middle of the restaurant got a chance to escape when the first explosion happened there was no smoke but when the second one hurt my heart sank.There was smoke everywhere and I couldn't breathe the smoke was so thick that you couldn't see a thing I couldn't even see my hand or any part of my body . I don't like it feels pain on my leg if part of t the structure had coll
Chapter 374 Ellie I locked eyes with him, placed my spoon down, I placed both the palms of my hands on either side of his jaw and kissed him. "I have always had the fear of you leaving me and us not getting back together again. We almost lost it all but we fought to get to every year and I don't want us to not be with each other and have each other's backs when we're down. I know that sometimes our Lives can get hectic and thank you for forgiving me for what I did with Matteo. We both don't want to risk losing the people we loved and it seems as if Paulina is in love with you." "That may be true but my heart belongs to you I love you and I will never stop loving you you went when I was with other people I could think about was you so we also have something that we did together in that binds us so nice and I will never forget the day that we had our binding rooms done together at the same tattoo parlor. That was one of the best days of my life because you admitted strawberry ice cr
Chapter 373 Ellie I've been in pain before both emotionally and physically but combined it's a different kind of pain. Pain has levels that transcends by either triggers or events that trigger the same sensation that you felt before. It's like seasonal trauma but on a bigger scale because you feel it physically and you also feel that emotionally and no matter how hard you try not to feel like you always end up feeling it because it's meant to be felt. I always said that if you have torrents for paying you can tolerate anything, any blow that hits you or any fall that you suffer. I didn't expect what would happen. It wasn't supposed to happen if I had just said that I wasn't pregnant and just kept quiet and walked away instead of letting my ego get the better of me. I had to help my territory. Paulina needed to know that what she was doing was wrong. I already admitted to wrongdoing by trying to stop her friendship with my fiance from blooming because I was afraid of losing him
Chapter 372 Max By the time we made it to the hospital we had to enter another section of the hospital which was in the main entrance. I was a betting man. I'd say that these people have sections of hospitals everywhere they have wings .even when I traveled abroad with Daniel he had to go see a friend of his who was involved in a shooting that he wasn't supposed to be involved in and the level of security clearance was out of this world I had never seen security clearance like that and me being a football player which of course I'd need to get back to playing football our security clearance is nothing compared to the security clearance these guys have to get you have to be identified you have to know that you will be searched and the people that are searching you have to know that you're coming so for me to be tagging along with Fabio was a miracle. As soon as we walked in we were offered something to eat and drink but I don't have the first to drink anything in all the appetite
Chapter 371 Max have you ever been connected to someone so much so that you know that when something is wrong you can feel it in your blood bones and everything including your soul and you wonder if it might be something good or might be something bad or maybe it's just your mind playing tricks on you but I believe that when you are connected with someone and you've created love with someone you can feel when something is a bit off or something is wrong and in my case I did feel that something was off when I got taken away all of the sudden when I organised a meeting between Romano and Claudio. however understand reason why it happened but what I don't understand is the way I'm feeling right now because if you deserve the right has been pulled out from under me and I don't know how to react how to respond or 38 I don't know how you feel because I cannot comprehend how I feel everything was going ok I knew that the person that I loved and my loved ones are ok but all of the sudden t
Chapter 370MaxwellI don't like being hurt preferably I would love to do the hair thing because I know that I I'm getting something out of it I'm getting cathartic experience but the only thing I like getting as a punching bag which of course I love hurting because it doesn't fight back and it's just there for me to take out my frustration but when somebody takes out their frustration when you turn extent it's called abuse if you allow it to happen on a constant basis but in this case it wasn't to be my best friend who I really appreciate right now and I am happy and Proud to call a friend.I have to say that he pulled a number on me I'm in pain and I'm recovering from The Blues that he told me to make it look like I was involved in an attack this guy's a professional at what he does and I didn't have any makeup so he made it look like it was very young and I have been coming for a little while I don't know how he does it but he's a genius and I'm thinking that Daniel bought the fact
Chapter 369 Ellie The worst thing about setting up a meeting is if the person who set up the meeting doesn't pitch for the meeting and were civil and swine you know that the meeting is very important to both parties because it has to do with me marrying someone who requested for a meeting that I so wanted and now he's not here to eat the fruits of his labor. I'm still confused as to why Maxwell decided to have cold feet and not come to the party he's not the type of guy to chicken out of something that he said that he would do he's always been dependable and he's always been directed deliberate and intentional so for him to do what he did at a very important time of my life and at a time when I needed him the most is sort of out of character because it's not the guy that I've come to know and it's not the man that I thought and mind you thought being the operative word I was going to marry. I had to focus on the positives if I was still confused at how things had turned out and if
Chapter 368Max I'd like to believe that I'm not a skeptic but that would be lying. I know for a fact that I am a skeptical person because sometimes people don't always tell the truth, sometimes they just do and they sometimes make it into something that they want you to believe. There are always three sides to a story. I will say that there's always four sides to every story, there's the part that you hear, there's the part that the other person has to tell, the part that people believe is their own opinion of the truth and then the one that balances all is the real truth. When somebody says something it is always right to ask the person that they are talking about if what you heard was true if you don't it means that you choose to believe the truth that the other person who's lying told you and then you have to either verify the truth or believe the truth or someone else's version of the truth instead of hearing it from the horse's mouth. Deep down I knew for a fact that Matteo Ma
Chapter 367 Ellie If there's one thing that I don't want and one thing I don't want to go through again is the same hurt that I felt when Maxwell left me. You can love someone and give your all in a relationship but if the trust is not there then there's something that's missing people often say they trust is like a plate once you break it you can't put it back together but I beg to differ because once you break a plate it's up to you if you sweep up the pieces burn them making your plate it's ceramic for crying out loud so why would you not want to fix what was once broken and see if this person is capable of changing because everyone is capable of change if they want to change and if they are changing for the right person because if someone refuses to change they can actually limit the growth I always say a person who doesn't want to change as like a stagnant water , if doesn't move it can harbor filth. Water like blood is a life force. It's constantly moving and it's constantly
Chapter 366Maxyou know very well when you're about to go play a match whatever you have is enough to get you through the performance, whatever you wear and what every feeling you have means. I normally work through the nerves and of the times that I've been nervous my go-to thought all my go to safe place has always been the person that I want to marry and it turned out to be the person that I am engaged to right now. I've had nerves and I've had instances where I don't feel confident about the game I'm going to play but the only way to beat that is to have safe thoughts recently it has been only my son and my fiance but now I've got more things to think about than the usual soccer game and a performance that I have to put on. This is one of those days when I am not supposed to put on a performance because if I couldn't performance they are going to pick it up and if I act all weird they are still going to pick it up so the only thing to do is to act normal around both men who are