“Kuronomiya, hey!” Someone called out to me when I picked up my bag after packing up and stood up from my desk. I turned to find two of my colleagues standing near one of their desks and looking my way.
“Yes?”
“You’re finally done with your project, aren’t you?” Shirokawa Touma-san asked. He had joined the company around the same time as I had. We had gotten along pretty well from the start.
“Yes, I am.” I nodded.
“Ah.” Yamato Keiichi-san spoke up. “Then, my client-”
“Sorry.” I interjected before he could even place it on the table. “I’ve my regular work to attend to anyway. I’m not going to take up anything new for a while. Please, try to understand.” I smiled, lest it come off as mean.
“Fair enough. You deserve the rest too. You seem to be the busiest out of all of us here. To be honest, I’m glad you’re starting to say no.” Yamato-san chuckled. “Well then, since you’re finally free, how about a drink or two tonight? We can invite a couple of other guys too.”
Drinks, huh? It had been a while since I last went out for a drink with them. There was a time at the start when I used to accompany them a lot but after Aki-chan was born, I had found myself choosing to go home early instead.
I turned to them completely and nodded. “I’m in.”
“Cool. I have a little more work to do so I’ll finish that up and join you guys directly at the bar. What about you, Shirokawa?” Yamato-san turned to the other man.
“I’m done for the day.” Shirokawa-san fetched his bag and came over to me. “We’ll go ahead then. Kuronomiya-kun, let’s go see who else is available tonight.” He slung an arm over my shoulders and dragged me along towards another colleague’s desk, calling back to Yamato-san. “Don’t keep us waiting, Yamato-san!”
“Yes. Yes.” Yamato-san responded, then settled in and focussed on his desktop’s screen. He seemed determined enough to make it to the bar anyway.
We managed to gather four other men from our department and went to the bar we used to frequent earlier as well. Most of the other guys were still regulars there but it had been quite a while since this entire group had gotten together. As a result, once Yamato-san had also joined us an hour later, we were fully engrossed in idle talk, reminiscence and the drinks. I had sent a message to Hikaru-nii and Kaori-nee informing them that I would be late and that I wouldn’t be needing dinner.
Sometime into the night, the group of women at the table next to ours began talking to us. By the time it was 11:00 pm though, two of us and two of them had wandered off somewhere and the remaining people had fallen rather silent. There was sparse conversation here and there but the fervour from before had died down. It was still pleasant though- slow and easy-going. It felt like a much-needed slowing down of the pace for me, in particular. Finally, the girls announced that they were leaving and soon, it was just Yamato-san, one other guy and myself left at the table.
“Kuronomiya.” Yamato-san called and sat up on the couch to stretch out his limbs. “How are you going home?”
“Mm. I’m not sure.” I… had probably had a little bit more alcohol than I had intended to. “I’ll call my brother and see what the situation at home is like. Our place is nearby. If he can’t come, I’ll walk.”
“Walk? In that state?” Yamato-san laughed. “You’ll walk in front of a car.”
“Don’t say something so ominous.” I made a face at him and then proceeded to call my brother. He answered without much delay.
“Hello?”
“Ah, Hikaru-nii, I-”
“You’re drunk, aren’t you?” He sighed immediately.
He could tell that easily? How? “No. Not… drunk but… probably not entirely not drunk either.” I chuckled sheepishly.
“And? Where are you?”
“The usual place.” I replied. “Are you at home?”
“Yes. Can you hang in there for ten minutes?”
“Yes. You’re the best.” I smiled, genuinely meaning what I had said.
He laughed. “Yes. Yes. I know. I’ll come soon so don’t go off anywhere else, you hear?”
“Mhm. I hear you.” I nodded. “I’ll just sleep here till you come.”
“You… worry me sometimes. Anyway, I’ll be there.” He said gently. After I had hung up, I conveyed the news to my colleagues.
“So nice…” The junior recruit scoffed. “You have a brother who is willing to come and pick you up and I have a mother who is going to question every moment of today.”
I lay my head on the table before me. I was starting to really feel sleepy. The alcohol was getting to me. “It’s nice to have your mother around though. I haven’t seen mine in more than a year.” She and our father were back in our hometown after all. As to when I might see them again… That wasn’t an easy question to answer. I couldn’t quite say that we were on bad terms but we were not as close as any of us would have liked us to be either. Hikaru-nii never really brought the matter regarding our parents up and, frankly, I was on his side too. It wasn’t just our parents either. While matters had improved over the years, we weren’t too close to Kaori-nee’s parents too. Our larger family scene had been a terrible mess till a few years ago. Compared to that, I guess we were at a relatively better place now.
“Oi. Oi.” Yamato-san pat my shoulder. “Don’t pass out yet. You have to go home.”
I waved his hand away and groaned. I was feeling exhausted and sluggish. “My brother’s coming.”
“I feel bad for him.” He chuckled and stood up. “I’m going to leave then. Will you hang back till this guy’s in safe hands?”
“Yeah.” The junior answered. “I’ll be here. I live close-by anyway.”
“Okay. Good. I’ll leave him to you then.” Yamato-san said. “Kuronomiya-kun, I’m leaving first. See you tomorrow.”
“Mm.” I hummed. “See you.”
There was a soft voice in my ear. Then, I was shaken lightly by my shoulder. “Kakeru.” Ah… Too tired… “Un.” “Kakeru? Kake-chan~” The voice continued. I was a little unregistering for a while but then, when I slowly opened my eyes, I was compelled to look around. I was alone at the table- the junior had already left. “What?” The voice asked in a small laugh. “Aren’t you happy to see me?” “I am.” I looked towards the person whose grey eyes were trained on me in amusement. “But… why are you here?” “I came to pick you up. Hikaru said that you were drunk and needed assistance.” Hiro-san shrugged and gave me a casual smile. “He… didn’t have to send you.” I sat up and yawned. “Was I alone when you came?” “No. A friend of yours was here but I sent him off in a taxi.” “Is that so? Then…” I stood up and adjusted my clothes. “Shall we go?” Everything was still a little hazy for me. Even after standing up, I just stood ther
“Kuronomiya.” A female colleague of mine named Futaba Megumi approached me at my desk. “Yes?” “Hamada-san is looking for you.” “Ah. Thank you for telling me. I’ll go now.” I said, saved the document that I was working on and got up from my chair. Hamada Tetsuo-san was my immediate supervisor. We had a very cordial superior-subordinate relationship and so, it wasn’t odd that he would ask for me often. Being a bit of a workaholic helps me get my work done, at least, and so I had earned my place. I knocked on Hamada-san’s glass door. He waved me in immediately. “Ah, Kuronomiya-kun. I have to say, you’ve done quick and good work on your previous project.” “Thank you, Hamada-san.” I bowed. “It was thanks to your timely guidance.” “Mm. Well, I called you here for another reason though. I know that you have just finished a few major projects, both with your team and individually, but I would like to assign you something.” He would alw
Kaori-nee did not look too good but she had been eagerly awaiting our return by the time we had gotten home. Aki-chan and I had stopped by the medical store on our way home and I had bought her her medicine as well. Kaori-nee was more than ready to make me tea as usual too but I drove her out of the kitchen and tasked Aki-chan with keeping her company while I made tea for her and myself and an omelette for Aki-chan knowing that she would be hungry. It made me stop and think, really. Life was really peaceful as it was. I really did not want to move out… However, the fact that I was thinking so much about it was proof enough for me that I actually needed to move. I would be close-by anyway. I could still visit them, at least as regularly as our other “extended family member” did. Said “extended family member” showed up as usual for dinner that night too, just as we were finishing with our tea. “Where’s Hikaru?” Hiro-san enquired as he changed into the indoor sl
He had definitely been surprised to hear of it- my brother. It was two days after the chat with Hiro-san in the kitchen that I finally told Hikaru-nii and Kaori-nee about my decision to move. I had even told them about starting to look for my own place. Initially, the both of them had just heard me out and asked me to think about it more seriously. A day later, Hikaru-nii brought the both of us drinks and came into my room after Aki-chan had gone to sleep in her own room. We had a long brother-to-brother talk about a lot of things, starting from the issues we had had to face when we were still staying with our folks to after we had moved out and all that had happened after Kaori-nee too entered our lives. I figured that the point that he had wanted to make clear to me was that we had been by each other's side through a lot of the important things in our lives. He was sentimental. "We're family." It had taken me some time to work my way through the words t
“Kake-jii!” A shrill cry went up the moment that I opened the door to the house with my key. Even before I could announce that I was home, I had a pair of arms thrown around my legs and sobbing filled the entryway. While this shocked both Hiro-san and I into freezing up, my brother just stood there and shook his head in exasperation. Even Kaori-nee peeked around the kitchen doorway, greeted us and disappeared back inside. The little one, however, was practically pouring her heart out to me. “What happened? How come you’re crying?” I pat her head as soothingly as I could in my confusion. Hiro-san too crouched beside me and looked at her closely. “Hey, Aki-chan. What happened? Did your father get angry at you?” “Why is this my fault?” Hikaru-nii asked, coming over and trying to pull Aki-chan off my legs but to no avail. “Aki, you’re getting Kake-jii’s pants dirty. Give him some space. He just got home.” “I don’t want to! I don’t want to let Kake-jii go!
“Kakeru.” Hikaru-nii called softly and lightly shook me awake. “Oi. Wake up. It’s morning.” “Mm.” I turned over on my side. “It’s Sunday. Please let me sleep…” “It’s already late. Wake up.” He said, voice still low. That was weird in itself but I couldn’t really be bothered by it in my state of sleep. “Kakeru.” “I heard you.” I groaned and stretched my arm out a bit in trying to shoo him off. That was when I touched skin. I touched someone… small. I raised myself by my elbows, on my stomach and remembered the three-year-old sleeping next to me in her favourite yellow night dress only when I saw her peaceful features. She was still fast asleep. So that’s why Hikaru-nii was speaking so softly. “How many nights has this been now?” Hikaru-nii shook his head in defeat. “I don’t know… Four?” I slowly sat up and rubbed the sand out of my eyes. Aki-chan had woken me up at around 01:30 am saying that she wanted to sleep with me. This nigh
Aki-chan and I were playing with her building blocks when Hiro-san arrived a little over an hour later. Once he came, he was the one playing most of her games with her. I settled for just sitting back and watching, occasionally joining in. It was all so peaceful that I found myself promising to keep my Sundays as free as possible even after moving out. Since breakfast was late, Aki-chan wasn’t exactly hungry at lunch time. I did not want to delay it though because Hiro-san had not had even breakfast. So, eventually, all three of us ended up in the kitchen. Hiro-san was carrying Aki-chan and the both of them were following me around the kitchen, lending a hand whenever they could and keeping up a conversation about the most trivial things. … I owed my brother thanks for letting her stay here with me, although it would have been better had he and Kaori-nee been here as well. “She slept?” Hiro-san asked when I returned to the living room after leaving Aki-chan i
It was from the hospital. My perfect and careless Sunday had shattered with that one phone call. It was horrifying how one moment was all it took to make my previous worries seem insignificant. It was unbelievable. Hiro-san had tried his best to remain calm while relaying the news to us. Well, mostly to me. There had been an accident. A pretty bad one too. A T-junction. Hikaru-nii’s car and a truck. Those were all the points of information that my brain could take in. People on-site had reacted quickly. The two people in the car had been sent to the hospital immediately. The call was from a nurse there. Hikaru-nii had been conscious enough to convey to her that she needed to call me. By the time we had gotten to the hospital, the anxiety and fear had eaten me up alive for we had received no further information about it. Carrying a very confused Aki-chan, when we got there, the attending doctor informed us that Hikaru-nii had been taken in for
“Kuronomiya-kun, you’re leaving already?” Yamato-kun asked when I got up from my desk after packing up. “Yes. I have somewhere to go.” I replied and said goodbye to Shirokawa-san as well who was sitting next to my desk. “Thank you for your good work.” “Likewise.” They called back. I dropped by Hamada-san’s cabin and informed him of my progress on the new project that I had been assigned to. He was rather pleased with my progress too. Conscience clear, I headed out into the 06:00 pm streets of Tokyo. I checked my phone out of habit. There were no calls or texts from my brother. There was, however, a text message from my boyfriend. ‘Come fast.’ ‘Half an hour.’ I replied and po
“Where’s Hiro?” Hikaru-nii’s voice came from behind me as I was attending to the egg that I was frying. I turned to the doorway to find my brother leaning against the doorframe, his hands folded over his chest. He had been sleeping when I had gone to check on him earlier. So, I had started preparations for breakfast while trying to think of the various possible scenarios I would have to make my through once he woke up. “Not here… now.” I responded rather cautiously. “He hadn’t stayed?” He frowned. “I thought I had told him that he could.” “You… remember all that?” I had hoped that we could ease into this conversation but this being brought up right off the bat made me a little anxious. “I was a lot more sober by the time you had gotten home. I don’t remember sending
“You’re still not done?” I asked as I sat on the floor next to Hiro-san at the coffee table after my bath. “Maybe… one hour more?” “That’s okay.” I leaned against his arm. “I’ll wait.” “If you’re sleepy, please go to sleep.” “I can’t sleep properly without you, Hiro-san.” A lie… Maybe. “What is with that?” He laughed and patted my head. “Then, you can wait.” I nodded. I was planning on waiting anyway. I had left my phone on the coffee table next to his laptop. When I began looking around, I saw that the notification light was blinking. I reached out to take it. “Had someone called?” “No. I think you had a message though.” Hiro-san replied. “I did not check.” It definitel was a message and it had surprised me enough to make me sit straight up on reading it. “It’s from Hikaru-nii.” “Hikaru?” Hiro-san stopped what he was doing and looked at my phone as I opened the message. There were just two words on the
I was the first one to wake up the next morning. However, I could not even bring myself to move from the position that I was in. For one, Hiro-san was still holding on to me closely. Secondly, my back hurt a bit. Moreover, I did not exactly want to move. The clock on the bedside table revealed that it was a little past 10:00 am. I had managed to somehow apply for leave on my phone last night before falling asleep. Considering that I had been wide awake before it, it was incredible how much that sex had taken out of me- actually, taken out of Hiro-san and I. Once was far from enough for the both of us and by the time we settled into each other’s arms after that, we barely had enough energy left to move. I looked up at his sleeping face. It was no wonder that he was so popular. Anyone would want to see a face like that as soon as they woke up. Ah… Now I wanted to kiss him. It was past 10:00 am anyway. He had slept enough. I moved his arm
He held my gaze and slowly smiled. “You seem sure enough about this.” Sliding one hand down my right arm, he grasped my hand. “Let’s go back to bed though.” Saying that much and indulging in a soft kiss, he led me back to the bedroom. He came to a stop next to the bed, turned to face me and took both my hands in his. I gave him a questioning look. “You don’t have to treat me like one of your women.” “What? This?” He raised our hands to ask. “It’s not that I am trying to be really gentle or anything. It’s… Despite all my experience and how eager I am now,” he placed my hands on his chest and smiled sheepishly. “I feel like such a boy.” His heart was pounding against my palms. I let go of his hands and wrapped my arms around his neck. “When was the last time that you dated someone for real?” “Towards the beginning of college. Why are you asking me that now?” I shrugged. “Because I wanted to know.” Then I kissed him. “Because this is… amu
I opened my eyes fast because it was still too dark for me to see anything. I was breathing heavily and my eyes felt moist. There was a throbbing heaviness in my chest and my entire body felt numb. I had had a dream and it was painful enough to jolt me awake, almost crying, but I couldn’t even remember what it was about. It was rare for me to dream in the first place and, hence, a dream that was capable of leaving me in a wreck like that was even rarer. It made me close my eyes and try to recollect it again but all I could remember were the emotions and that I was not alone. Maybe… it was a good thing that I couldn’t remember it. I turned on my side and picked my phone up from the bedside table. The time was 01:57 am. I had barely just fallen asleep at 12:30 am too… I turned back and looked at Hiro-san. I was still lying on his arm but he had turned onto his back, his other arm lying over his stomach. He hadn't been awoken by my movement
On unlocking the door, Hiro-san let me in first. He followed me in after locking the door and proceeded straight to the kitchen. "I'll get you something warm to drink. Go change or freshen up if you want to.” I could at least change into something warmer. “Mm. I’ll… be out on the balcony after that.” “Kakeru, it’s cold out on the balcony too.” He said apprehensively. “I’ll take a blanket with me.” I said and went into the bedroom. He had offered no further protest, so I changed into warmer home-wear, wrapped a blanket around me and headed out onto the balcony. It was a little cold but I felt a lot better after changing and wrapping myself up like that. With my back to the wall, I sat on the floor and brought my knees up to my chest, covering myself up with the blanket and looking out at the night. My eyelids felt heavy. It was probably because of all that crying from earlier. “Why are you sitting on the floor?” Hiro-san asked on findin
What seemed like an entire lifetime to me was probably just an hour or so on the clock. That was all the time it took for Hiro-san to get there. I had already seen that shocked look on his face two times before. It was easier for me to offer up a smile the third time. Nevertheless, he was by my side in an instant- his eyebrows scrunched up in a way that told me that I was the only one finding this pattern of meeting strangely amusing. “Kakeru, what are you doing out here?” He crouched before me and took my face in his palms. The worry I saw on his face just then- I wished that I was seeing it on my brother’s. “Meeting out in the hallway like this is really becoming our thing, isn’t it?” I chuckled. “It shouldn’t be though. What happened?” He looked me up and down. “Where are your shoes?” He found them soon after asking, then looked at me seriously. “Hikaru?” I looked towards the door. “I don’t think he’ll want to see you now.” “Huh?” “
Did I have to actually say it out anymore? It seemed to me as though he had already figured it out. I could not bring myself to admit it. Confronted like that, I could not bring myself to deny it either.I had thought that it would be easier to tell my brother about us. I had not told him till then because he was still mourning Kaori-nee and I was trying to be considerate. I had thought that he would understand.“Kakeru, answer me.”What for? And, then what?“Kakeru!”“We’re dating.” I finally said it.“What?” He lowered his voice, his eyes pinning me to every word that I spoke.“I-I said that we’re dating.” I spoke deliberately and clearly. “Hiro-san is my lover.”He stared at me, then nodded. “Lover.”I swallowed nervously. “Yes.”“Since when?”“Almost two months now.”