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Prologue
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2024-10-29 19:42:56How many times do I have to say I love you to the wrong person? How many tears do I have to waste crying for the wrong person?
It is true when they said falling in love is easy but staying in love with that person is difficult. It’s hard to stay in love in one person who keeps doing you wrong. It’s hard to fall deeper for someone who’s hurting you and killing you little by little.
I can’t do suicide. I can’t stay in a relationship full of wrongs and pains.
But the thing is, I fall easily. It’s just that I can’t sustain it.
I’m a flawed, imperfect woman. I have made wrong choices and decisions that made the people around me see me in a different perspective.
The woman who can’t be contented, the woman who asks for more. That’s how they see me.
But the thing is, they don’t really know what I really am.
I’m just a girl who longs for a man who could make me happy with simple surprises; a man who could assure me that I’m the only one; a man who wouldn’t get mad and shout at me when I get jealous; a man who could understand what a woman like me goes through.
That kind of man that’s hard to find.
I wonder if there’s a man like that.
…Especially when I’m a woman who’s viewed as the woman with a long list of ex-lovers.
Kaugnay na kabanata
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 1
“Let’s break up.”I took a very deep breath as Jervic Perez, my eleventh boyfriend, broke up with me in front of his club members. He’s the president of the computer geek club and he’s overly devoted to this club of his.I looked at him and sighed. “Why?” I managed to ask before my tears fall. I’m trying my hardest to not look weak in front of him – especially now that we’re in front of his club mates.To be honest, this isn’t the most embarrassing break up scene that I have ever encountered in my whole life. There was one time when Hades Cortez, my eighth ex-boyfriend, broke up with me in front of the whole student body at prom night after being crowned as the King and Queen of the Night.He told everyone that I am the most gullible girl in the whole world to actually believe that a Casanova like him would like a woman like me. A woman who a lot of men have kissed. A woman who a lot of men
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 2
Knight and I stood side by side under the shed under the rain that’s pouring harder and harder by the second. There still aren’t any buses around and I’m starting to get impatient.I really wanted to talk to him but I don’t know how to open up the topic to start a conversation. I am probably not like this but maybe it’s because my mind is still preoccupied by the fact that I had faced my eleventh breakup just minutes ago. My eyes are probably swollen, right now.I heard him cough. He probably knows how awkward it is for us right now.“Uhm…” he paused. “I don’t think the rain is going to stop anytime soon.” He beamed.I sighed. “And I don’t think there would be buses anytime soon, as well.” I responded then it was his turn to sigh.I looked at the part of the road where the bus would come from and there was no sign of any vehicle coming on. There were even no cars o
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 3
“So you broke up with Jervic?” My sister, Asher, asked me as she visited me in my room that night.I sighed and looked at her. “It’s the other way around. He broke up with me.” I replied with emphasis on the pronouns in the right sequence.She looked at me and rolled her eyes. “Why are they always the ones breaking up with you?” She asked in frustration.“I wish I know why.”I’m curious as well. None of my breakups was initiated by me and I don’t know what kind of pride I have for myself at this point of living. I always think we could work it out but they’re thinking the other way. It’s like there’s no other solution other than ending it.Maybe it’s better like that. Maybe it’s better to end it sooner than hurt the whole while. But I can’t really keep myself from thinking of the what ifs.What if we worked it out?W
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 4
“At least people liked her. What about you? Why do you keep bullying her? Do you like her?”Knight’s question hang in the air as all of my classmates looked at him. I did too.Everyone was shocked that this new guy is already talking back to the number one bully in the campus.I have never expected a cute and adorable Knight who eats a burger like a kid is looking really serious and scary right now.Julian, who was silenced for about ten seconds, found himself and scoffed at Knight. He was to him and cocked his head to the side. “And just who are you?” He asked him. “Do you know who you talked back at?” He asked again but now, with a warning in his voice.I looked at Knight and he’s looking back at Julian with equal flames in his eyes. He’s not even taken aback at all!“You. Who else?” Knight replied with an equal threat.Everyone gasped at his remark. He just defied Ju
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 5
“Oh my gosh! Are they back together?”“But I thought Jericho doesn’t get back with his exes?”“Why are they kissing like that?”I closed my eyes as Jericho’s lips move over mine. Don’t get me wrong. I am not responding but he’s moving his head making everyone think that I am kissing back.I am not.He broke off from the kiss and looked at me. “I missed your lips, Ashejan.” He told me garnering mixed reactions from the crowd.Some are disgusted that Jericho just kissed me. His fan girls are heartbroken because they think that we got together. And some are mad. They’re all probably thinking of the reason why Jericho kissed me.He kissed me after breaking up with his latest fling.“I heard you and that Jervic broke up.” He told me but his hand is still on my cheek and the other on my hand. “Is that true?” He asked me.I gav
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 6
Days went by and the speculations on me and Jericho getting back together are just getting fired up each second. Well, how couldn’t it be when Jericho is always waiting for me outside our classroom every day? I, myself, am not believing any of this.“What are you doing here again?” I asked Jericho as he grinned at me at lunch.He blinked at me. “What? I just want to eat with you.” He replied acting all so innocent and it’s making me irritated at most.Why is he thinking trying to start a new beginning with me? He’s probably just playing with me. I mean, it’s Jericho Marquez. He’s known to be one of the leaders of the Playboy Club and I am not falling for him ever again.I rolled my eyes at him. “Well, I don’t want to eat with you.” I was trying to be downright honest with him. I don’t want him to think that this is fine with me.Damn. I have this Dating Queen ali
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 7
“What the fuck, Jericho?!” I pushed him away as he tried to kiss me in front of the public again. Jesus! When will this playboy learn? I’m not interested anymore! My goodness!He still managed to smirk even after seeing my disgusted look on my face. “Okay then, Baby. We’ll take it slow.” He beamed and I almost puked at his remark.“What slow, you ass? I don’t want to get back with you! What in the world in that freaking simple sentence can you not understand?” I asked, fuming in anger. I swear one more word from him and I am punching his face right here, right now. I don’t care if his fan girls attack me and kill me spot on.He raised his brow at me and cocked his head to the side. “What’s the problem, Ashejan? Why are you so mad?” He exasperated. “You don’t shout at people like this even though they irritate you so much.” He pointed out and I sighed heavily.I
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 8
The next days were worse because I couldn’t stop my heart from getting suffocated when I see Serena and Knight together. And they were always together. Before classes begin, at break times, at lunch, in dismissal.I have proved to myself that I am indeed attracted to Knighton Javier. But he doesn’t even talk to me anymore. I wonder what the real problem is. Why doesn’t he talk to me? I want him to talk to me. He should at least tell me why is not talking to me.I’m getting really paranoid. Have I done something wrong? Did I look like a big slut to him because he saw me jump from one guy to another?Hell, I’m going insane. Especially now that I can see him laughing with Serena in the lockers. God! Even in the lockers, he’s still with Serena! Damn this!An uneasy feeling grew inside me. I just need him to talk to me. Or maybe I should talk to him. I just don’t know when the right time is. Or is there even a right ti
Pinakabagong kabanata
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Epilogue
Three years later…“Mom! Buy me ice cream!” A young girl beamed at her Mom as they walked past me. I have been hearing her whine for a while now and I think her mother wasn’t even paying attention to her. She was busy talking to someone over the phone.I looked at her and smiled to myself. Serena should be her age right now. I haven’t seen that girl for a while now, though.The young girl kept on insisting that she wants an ice cream but her Mom is ignoring her request. She’s too close to crying and I want to run to her and give her what she wants.“Mommy!” She continued to shout and I can see some streaks of tears flowing down her cute, chubby cheeks. How could her mother resist this girl’s cuteness?I stood up from the bench I was sitting at and walked to the little poor girl. I take back everything I said about not liking kids. If kids are as cute as this one, I would endure their n
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 32
The room went all silent and the only thing heard is my loud gasp at how shocked I am with Mark’s words. How can he manage to make his image bad on his first day of class? Why did he have to say that in front of the whole class?He didn’t have to save me from Julian Paredes’s hands. I can manage. Besides, I’m already used to it – Julian Paredes’s bullying.Genina looked at me with wide eyes as her eyes darted to the man beside me. Hell, I didn’t want to look at him. I don’t want to look at Knight.I looked at Julian Paredes and he is also as shocked as everyone else. He looked at me alarmed. Fuck it. Why did he have to push buttons of someone anyway?I heard Mark smirk. “Don’t talk as if you know everything.” He told Julian before he went back to his seat behind me. And at the mere loss of contact with Mark, I felt relieved. It’s as if I was freed from prison.“Are you al
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 31
Semester break came in as fast as a second and I didn’t even notice that it’s, once again, the start of school. Hell, I didn’t want to go back to school.Hell knows how hard I tried to not to go out of the house during the vacation because I’ve been avoiding Knight with all my might. I didn’t want to see him. I didn’t want to bump into him. Heck, why did I even fall for him?I don’t know what to do.Since that day I broke up with him face-to-face, he hasn’t shown his face to me. Or did I just not go out that I haven’t seen his face? But he didn’t send me anything. No messages. No calls. No letters. None at all. So, I thought he accepted it whole-heartedly. And perhaps, maybe he had a good time with Serena and his family. He should…right?Ugh. Why am I feeling bitter? I am the one who broke up! I shouldn’t feel bitter! Not to him.“Ashejan Araullo, come down now!” I
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 30
“What’s with the face, Ashejan Araullo?” Julian Paredes is gawking at me with his swagger outfit. Psh. As if he looks good with that thing. He looks like a gangster. No wonder Genina wouldn’t like him no matter what he does.First, he pesters me. Second, he dresses like a gangster. Duh! Who wanted to date a person as mischievous as that? Psh.I rolled my eyes at him. I don’t even know why I am stuck with this person when all he wants to meet is Genina. And where is that woman anyway? I said I needed her and now she’s nowhere to be found. Why would she be not around when I needed her the most?Ugh.“You should smile more, Ashejan,” Julian is really trying to pester me. I glared at him and he snickered. “Oh, come on! Loosen up! Relax!” He beamed raising both of his hands up in the air.One more word and I will really throw this unopened mineral bottle right onto his face. He’s really g
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 29
Chadwick drove me home after making me stop crying. I swear if he isn’t Chadwick, I would’ve cried even more. But since it was him, I reduced a liter from my falling tears.Good thing, though. Because I wouldn’t want to faint in dehydration.He muttered some comforting words as I was crying my heart out. He, too, was shocked to know that Knight is a family man. He had never expected me to fall for a guy with a daughter at such a young age.Oh, who said I wanted to?If only I had known him for a little more time, I wouldn’t have let myself fall for him. But I was too gullible to still do.I walked to my room, trying my best ninja moves so as to not cross paths with my sister or with my parents. I swear if they saw me looking like this, they’re going to ground me for the whole winter break. That’s torturous!Who in the world would want to be grounded for the whole season break? Not me. Definitely not me!
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 28
I rolled my eyes as I saw Chadwick waiting for me outside my class. I was kind of relieved that Knight has taken the exam earlier than me, so, he couldn’t see this. I’m pretty sure we’d fight over this.And I’m sad because I know that this is going to be my fault…and partly Chadwick’s.I don’t really know what’s going on inside this jerk’s head so I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what my next move should be because he always counters back really flawlessly that makes me speechless, with no thought in mind.“This is the last day of your exams, right?” The jerk asked me as he walked to me, offering to carry my books. Since when has he learned good manners, anyway?I looked at him and rolled my eyes. “Yes, so what?” I asked back as I walked, totally ignoring the helping hand he was offering me.He ran after me and walked by my side. “Then, we can spen
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 27
I was busy kissing Chadwick and the next thing I know, he was down on the floor. My legs trembled when I saw Knight punch him really hard.“You, asshole.” He spat at Chadwick as he motioned to punch him again.It was good that I held onto his hand and pulled him away before his fist could land on Chadwick’s face again.Why did I even kiss him in the first place?I made Knight look at me. “Knight, please, calm down.” I told him as I stroke his arm while I hold his other hand tight. Shit. This is all because of me.I am very stupid that I think I should be in Guinness. Really.He looked at me with his angry eyes and I won’t complain. It was my fault for kissing back. It was my fault for not looking away. It was my fault for even looking at Chadwick. I should’ve just gone out of the cafeteria but I didn’t. It was my entire fault.He sighed hard and hugged my tight as he kissed the top of my
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 26
“Who she, Dada?”I almost wanted to run away from here when I heard Serena speak to Knight. I was so nervous that I think I could even match her broken, baby language.I swear I admire Knight for introducing me to his daughter but I don’t think I’m ready for this. I didn’t know it was this hard – accepting that the person you love have had experienced something special with another woman that’s not you.I wanted to know how it felt when he did it with her but then again, I don’t want to bring the past back. I wanted to know what he felt when he knew he was going to be a father but then again, I don’t want to be disappointed.He must really love Serene so much to be this happy.He scooped Serena into his arms and made her face me. “Serena, this is Ashejan,” Knight introduced her to me. “She’s my girlfriend.” He added even though we both know that little Serena doesn&
Her Long List of Ex-Lovers Chapter 25
“Ashejan, please talk to me.”I don’t really know what I will say. Damn. I can’t even move an inch after his revelation. I wanted this right? I wanted to know everything. But why do I feel so regretful that I had to know the truth? I got what I want but why does this hurt so much?I looked at him with my mind blank. I don’t know what to say or how to react. I’m way too shocked to even give him a better reaction.He’s a father. He has a two-year old daughter and she’s named Serena. All this time, I was jealous of the wrong girl.So that’s why he said he would never date Serena, our classmate. He’s just close to her because she’s a nerd and she’s the same name as his daughter.Knight held my hand. He must have noticed that I wasn’t myself. Hell yeah, I wasn’t myself these past few days. I don’t know if I will ever be.I can be with a playboy or a Casanova
