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2021-08-04 20:24:16Facade
/fəˈsɑːd/
a deceptive outward appearance.
"her flawless public facade masked private despair"
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4 / 08 / 2021
“Come on , 2 more!” I whisper yell to myself. I yell just loud enough for everyone a few feet from me can hear ; however , it will just pass by them. No body cares here , I could be screaming so loud that my lungs would be deprived of air yet still , no one will even look my way. Letting my hands fall to my side in exhaustion , I relax my head against the cushioned seat. As tired as I am , I let my lips curl into an exhausted smile.
That is the heaviest I have ever gone on this machine ; My chest fills with pride at my semi victory. I celebrate my victory much more when my chest muscles begin to ache ; sweet sweet pain. I can not explai
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