It took a moment before I could speak again to ask. There was a burst of very loud laughter behind me and that saved me from my apparent incapability of speech because I was trying hard not to laugh.
He was shaking his head as he watched me fight it off. “Let up. You haven’t met her. You’ll understand when you do.”
“Why can’t you just tell your mother the truth?”
“I did and she wouldn’t. It was so stupid that she wouldn’t even lift a finger to help me. She’d say I made my bed so I should lie on it. But she’s incredibly romantic and this is the way. This is easier.”
“And you think I can help? How?”
“I like you.”
I blinked.
“And that hasn’t changed as I observed you for days now. So I know it will work.”
The man was a tease after all.
I almost shook my head.
“Yes… you did a background check on me. That’s an invasion of my privacy.”
“I had to make sure you’re a fit.”
I should be angry, but I was more curious than any desire to feel the right emotion for this. “Fit how?”
“Somebody intelligent, honest, hardworking, beautiful, too. And I need a clean background. Someone in need of money would work. That way, the business part will be very clear on both ends.”
I winced at the last description he’d used of me. “That is kind of… cold-blooded, don’t you think?”
“I know you need the money badly, Gia,” he says somberly, looking at me with those eyes as if he actually cared. “You already told the registrar at your college you’re not gonna make it the next year. Your mother needs to pay for her treatments and medicine. You’re going to be working all day and all night to keep up without telling her you’re not going to school because you know she’d rather not receive help from you if it means you don’t finish. You can’t go back to her house because she would find out you’re waitressing and not doing temp jobs.”
“How did you—”
“Lucy talked. Easy peachy. I can take care of all that for you.”
I gulped. How did he know too much about my mother’s condition? Has he talked to my mother’s doctor? Lucy couldn’t know all that. Was it the background check? It must be a professional background check.
Drat.
My face must be readable because of what he’d said next. “One of those guys I was with the other week owned a pharmaceutical company who has a contact at Memorial Sloan Kettering. You know cancer patients’ medical records are sometimes submitted to pharmaceutical and insurance companies for further studies? They pulled out her records with other patient candidates upon request for possible study. They told me your mother’s cancer has a high chance of remission but she sometimes missed her chemo appointments. She needed those, Gia. Do you know she skimps?”
I knew it. I knew I needed the money. That’s why I wouldn’t be registering for the next term.
I could do this. I didn’t need his money.
I can do this? Right?
You know that’s fifty-fifty.
“Do you know how scary you are?” I asked.
“Because I knew enough? Or am I scary as me? I am not. I’m harmless.” Then, he seemed to think more about it. “Do you really feel that way?” he said worriedly, his eyes on my face. “I wanted you for the job. I have to know why I feel that, and that it can be possible to make a proposition. I wanted to know the leverage I could use against you, not because I am your enemy, Gia. I know what you’re giving up if you accept this job, and I wanted to make sure it will be worth it for you in all the things that mattered.”
Jesus… he’s an amazing salesman.
He started to smile again when I didn’t speak.
Then his eyes softened into something almost… affectionate.
“I can be a bastard when I have to be brutally honest. I haven’t even started with you and you know why?”
He lowered his tone and continued on his litany softly.
“Because you’re a good daughter and you work so hard… and I admire you and respect you tremendously for it.”
His eyes lowered, looked at my barely touched plate while I worked at deconstructing the lump that got stuck on my throat.
“Eat. I’ll send you a dossier of everything about me. You will see that someone like you have nothing to worry about someone like me.”
“I’m not saying ‘yes’ nor do I even believe this is real,” I protested.
“You will… because your mother needs you to say ‘yes.’ I wouldn’t have even let you know about this if I had any doubt you’d say ‘no.’”
That night, sitting yoga-like in my bed with papers from his ‘dossier’ scattered around me, I couldn’t help but admit to myself—at least with everything that I had read so far—that he was legit.
His parents were living in Texas, Nevada, in a famous farmhouse. They virtually owned a whole town, building up and managing almost all commercial and residential properties in the past thirty years.
His mother was a beloved matriarch who loved rescuing families and houses.
His father was from old money who had enough to fund her ideas.
Two colleges were founded in two nearby towns to provide residents to the community. A mine was operating in another neighboring town that his father owned shares on. Bain and his brothers owned a high-end chain of boutiques and restaurants.
Bain himself dabbled in technology and was the CEO of a company that invented innovative machines that processed food, which he collaborated with his parents.
His fiancée was the daughter of a casino mogul and a socialite.
Brooke Lebowitz was known in her circle, a socialite like her mother, and a known jet setter.
Her I* alone generated millions of dollars a year, and she wasn’t even in Hollywood or in the fashion scene as a model.
I, frankly, didn’t know how she could hide her affair with the married man, but her fiancé’s beautiful physique was displayed on her posts so he could have provided a worthy distraction from any roving and speculative gossipmongers.
I had heard about wealthy people like them. It was just something in the periphery, like people in I* I never bothered to follow because they did not influence her life.
I was only concerned about finishing school, my mother surviving cancer, and finding good work.
Meeting someone like Bain was surreal.
Him saying he liked me was plain laughable, like an unfinished fairy tale because it just jarred halfway.
The offer of money for payment to pose as his girlfriend—with the possibility of doing what girlfriends and boyfriends do behind a closed door and most of all, the possibility of a marriage contract should they had to—was like a splash of cold water to the face.
And that was the reason behind the exorbitant fee he was offering me.
That wasn’t even the end of it. The fees mentioned were just for the girlfriend job. There’s going to be a million US dollars for the marriage contact, subject to change depending on what difficulties we might find hard to work out if we do get married.
“You are not being paid to prostitute yourself, Gia,” he said last night in a somber tone, though it still had me feeling cold.
He looked like he wanted to reach out, and I was glad he didn’t. It was just too much. But he sighed.
“And that’s exactly why I want you. You make me feel anxious and guilty, but not like a bastard. It is because I like you that I know I’ll do good by you. That’s what my mother needs to see, and she’d face Lebowitz like a tiger for me. It’s what will work. “
In the next two nights, he answered all my questions about him as I sit at his table, with references of proof already sent to my e-mail that I could look into when I got home.
My co-workers thought something romantic was going on and displayed good-natured jealousy. He told me to let them think that way.
He stayed longer last night and remained until my shift was over to have a drink with me in a much quieter place.
“I’m going to leave New York in two days,” he dropped. “You have to make your decision official.” He was looking at me, his eyes all-knowing.
Shit, he was right. By continuing to ask him questions and receiving verified documents, continuing to talk with him, and remaining interested were all smack of an unofficial ‘yes.’
“I want to spend the last two days with you. I’m just staying here for you. Just two days. Let’s go around the city this weekend. You’re all done with your papers.”
“I’m not… sure what to do.”
“Sure, you do.” On a more serious note, he said, “I’m a businessman, Gia. I know the value of money more than anyone else. It’s freedom, security, and health. It is education. It’s used to take care of families. You’re accepting it doesn’t make you bad. Think about it while you spend the next two days with me. I’ll cover a whole term’s worth of school expenses and your mother’s treatment for the next six months just for that. Then decide if you’ll come with me for the whole offer after that.”
“This is all so ridiculous, Bain,” I said. “And surreal. I really don’t know what to do.”
“Think about it tonight,” he said. Then he smiled. “I feel almost insulted. Like I have body odor or something.”
I stared at him.
I couldn’t even laugh.
That night, I went home to my mother’s house. The only light that was turned on was a soft lamp in the living room when I got in. I walked towards her bedroom door. She looked like she’s peacefully sleeping in her bed. Her face looked pale. I always felt sad about how she’d lost her beautiful hair to chemotherapy. She still looked beautiful, but frail. She looked disturbed. Like she was having a bad dream, or she was in pain. “Gia?” I turned to the soft call to my name. “Nana,” I replied just as softly to the older, Asian woman standing by the open door. Nana Maria was my nanny when I was young. We were doing fine until my father died in an accident. He was an accountant. My mother was a housewife. Life hadn’t been the same since then. Not very bad, but not easy either. Nana Maria stayed, and we were able to maintain the mortgage to the house as my mother found one work after another. Nana had her garden at the backyard that put herbs and veggies on the table for the three o
“I’ll take those two days, Bain.” There was a pause for just a tiny moment on the other line. In that tiny moment, I suddenly panicked. Was he going to tell me he’s found someone else? Of course, I mustn’t be the only one he’s ‘screening,’ for lack of a better word, for the girlfriend job. “I’ll get you early in the morning.” I didn’t know I stopped breathing until I had to breathe again to talk. “How early?” “Hey, breathe. You sounded choked. I’ll be there as early as when you can open your door for me.” The relief that passed over me was so huge, I didn’t even hear him say goodnight until I heard the click on the line. He didn’t ask for my address. Of course, he knew where I lived. Bastard. But I was smiling. I put the phone down on my night table. Then I laid my head on my pillows. “As early as when you can open your door for me.” It was in his voice, low and dewy, that although he was expecting my answer, he wasn’t truly sure until now what I would say. For the first
It was the doorbell that woke me up that morning. I stared at the slowly rotating ceiling fan above the bed as I searched my memory for the identity of the stupid sound. It all came back to me at the same time—everything that happened last night—and I was suddenly out of bed, tripping over the panties that I didn’t get to put back on the night before. I was out of the bedroom when I realized I only had my nightshirt on. I went back, got my robe, and frantically wore those, then dashed out again to answer the door. But I made sure it was him through the peephole first. “Do you know what time it is?!” I asked the moment I saw him, grateful for what I did last night because he was such a sight in the morning light and it would have been hard to pine for him and be unsatisfied. “Six,” he replied, his eyes on my face for just a second before they started to explore. I gulped. I might have found relief too soon. I suddenly felt naked standing there. I couldn’t complain because as he
“I mean, the job was for the position of a girlfriend, so that’s checking out the merchandise for you. Not that I’m innocent. I’m fine. But if this is like… something a man and a woman do like… something I haven’t seen yet except in movies…”What the hell am I babbling about? “I’m saying I haven’t done the ‘how’ of this play ever yet.” “Are you fucking kidding me?” “No. I have a dildo in my room, that’s the best that I can say.” I even said that proudly, because that couldn’t be more embarrassing than saying I hadn’t had a boyfriend in my twenty-one years. “No, I’m not a lesbian either.” He was looking at me now like I was a specimen in a petri dish under a microscope. “I thought at first that you'd just been very private with your relationships that it wasn’t shown in the report. But… you’ve liked men before?” “Sure. But not enough to want to have sex with.” “Have you been asked out? I mean, of course, you have…” “Of course, I have been! I’m not completely hopeless.” “Oh, baby,
Bain’s head came down, and I find myself angling my face for what was coming before my head could even register what I was doing. Then he was kissing me. And anything coherent still left in my brain dissipated like alcohol exposed to air. I was only aware of the way his lips felt over mine, pressing a little, as they moved to caress my lips. His arms tightened their embrace and our bodies came together, and I could feel the contour of his hardness against the softness of mine. My arms went around his neck, and his kiss deepened as I tentatively opened my mouth, asking for more of this curious thing called kissing. I was melting on him, thinking again, as I eagerly kissed him back… how Mr. Beast couldn’t give me this. The kiss was getting hot, fast. My mouth welcomed the delicious assault of his tongue. I consciously surrendered to what I remembered telling myself the first time I saw him in the bar before those piercing dark eyes even saw me. When I had thought wistfully—that’s
“Oh, Bain…!” I whimpered as I held on to him for my dear sanity. He was moving, measured stroke upon measured stroke. It wasn’t just that. The way his body moved against mine, skin to skin, there was nothing more erotic. His arms held me protectively and I couldn’t feel any safer. That sensation began again, something small and solid inside me, building and building with each thrust of his. I could hear his harsh breathing. He couldn’t talk anymore as his attention was consumed by our coupling like mine. I couldn’t control my moans either. I couldn’t even think. It’s just all him and this. “Bain! Oh, oh… I’m… cumming… again!” “There… yes, baby. There you go… fucking let go… I’m here…!” I did, and he nursed it, diving in deep and anchoring me with his arms as my whole body writhed from the waves that kept coming and coming… I felt his kiss on my forehead when he took himself out a moment after I subsided. Curious, I pried my eyes open. I wasn’t sure, I didn’t think he had cum
In five minutes, he was tapping his pass key on the panel of his hotel room door. And as soon as that door closed behind us, we were in each other’s arms, giggling like fools, kissing. “Bain…” I whispered as he started to decimate the buttons on my shirt. “Yes, I was celibate that long. Oh, were you asking that?” he asks, breathing heavily as I. “This is crazy,” I said. “What are we doing? This isn’t supposed to be like this.” “Right, we haven’t even gotten your pills yet. I’ll have to use another condom,” he said as he pushed me to the bed. He followed me right away and kissed me on my exposed breasts. We hadn’t even discarded all of our clothes yet. And I wanted to touch him, feel his nakedness against my skin. That was taken care of at the next minute. I was lying across the bed, and he was on the edge of it, between my legs. He pulled me towards him while he opened my thighs at the same time. My legs went over the edge, and he kneeled on the carpeted floor. His fingers open
So from the hotel, we visited my mother’s clinic, and Bain talked to the doctor about the procedures and the financial aspect of my mother’s care. I was dazed after we left the clinic, as I was now in possession of a check worth twice the amount the doctor surmised was going to be the approximate cost of my mother’s treatment. My mother and Nana Maria had just been told that a pharmaceutical company had chosen my mother to be a part of the study program for a chemotherapy procedure she was already undergoing. All of her treatment expenses and medicine would be paid because of it.Although I was grateful after we’d left the hospital that my mother’s treatments would continue without fail and that she wouldn’t have to secretly scrimp on her pills, I felt anxious as the day went on, waiting for the shoe to drop. I was secretly attacked by misgivings. I shouldn’t have slept with him this morning. No, that was wrong. As he’d said, it was mutual consent to practice.But I shouldn’t be
THE dinner went as romantic as how Bain planned it to be. He warned me before they left the car that he was so sure about her now it could be possible we would show on some socmed posts, just in case, so make sure to act in character. That part had become easier, since I mostly followed his lead. I thought it would be daunting when he started ordering fancy-sounding food names, but as we ate and he told me what he expected I would enjoy in each dish, I relaxed and really started enjoying the meal in his company. I didn’t know how the restaurant ranked among the city’s best-ranking fine dining restaurants, I just left that to him. He told me on the aside that should my trainer suggest I learn places in the city that a well-rounded young college woman like me should know, just relax and enjoy the experience because I would need it later. I didn’t tell him I already expected that whatever happens to me during my time of training, I would know to use later. I planned to read more boo
“What do you think?” I asked after I, smilingly, made a turn in front of him. “Passable?” “Passable? Are you kidding me?” he said slowly. His eyes were glazed and he looked like he was in a trance. “I saw this color on an online dress I was looking through this morning and I knew I wanted to see you in this color.” His eyes went back up her face. “You’re breathtaking. I knew it.” I giggled nervously. And nodded. “I did like how I looked in the mirror. I’m glad you like it, too. So…” I shifted to a more serious note. “Is this how I’m expected to dress when I get there?” His hand reached out and caressed my cheek. “Don’t worry about the wardrobe. I’ve already got you booked with an agency and they’re going to take care of everything. I got something for you tonight, though.” And he produced a box of jewelry which, when opened, produced a set of diamond earrings, a necklace, and a delicate bracelet all in gold. “Oh, these are beautiful.” I bit on my lower lip as he made me turn so he
I pushed back and faced him, arranging my thighs and legs on the mat as I looked at him. “Can I ask some more questions about you?” “Ask away,” he replied casually, but his eyes were curious about my questions. “What else do you want to know?” “These just occurred to me. So, before Brooke, how many girlfriends have you had?” A smile slipped over his lips. He was clearly remembering happy memories. “I can’t say they were girlfriends, but I dated a lot during college and later, before I got serious about building up my companies. I had a lot of… casual… encounters. I can’t say anything about serious ones.” “Ooohhh… I feel jealous. I barely have time to date… or notice guys that I might like. But you’ve never felt any inclinations to turn your arrangement with Brooke around?” He shook his head. “Don’t get me wrong. She’s a beautiful woman. She’s not bad as a brat. She’s spoiled, but she’s that good kind of spoiled. She can be unselfish and she treats people she’s really close to ver
I looked over at him and smiled. “I think I’m okay.” He was watching me closely but was quiet, as if he knew intuitively that I was wrestling with personal boulders and needed time to organize their placements inside my head. Alone. “You are?” he asked as if confirming. I nodded. “I am.” I looked down at our pizza and suddenly, I was hungrier. I put the last piece of the sliced pizza he’d cut for me in my mouth and chewed cheerfully. I thought this was the first time I admitted to myself that I was really having fun and it was alright to feel this way. Since my mother’s sickness, it’s been tough to feel even remotely happy about anything. And being a gloomy idiot was not going to help my cause. I felt him pulling at me. I slid towards him and leaned on him as we ate companionably. He pinched my cheek a little when I was biting on my second slice of pizza. Then I smiled as I thought about how we both liked pineapples on our pizzas. Again, I was reminded of how lucky I was to be doi
I always enjoyed my visits to Central Park. I loved the feeling of being in the open air, surrounded by nature, with other people enjoying the same thing I did, so even if I wasn’t talking to them, I felt connected. It was always calm here, and it was easier to think—or not think—and to plan about what I’d like things to be in a few years. In ten years, I wanted my own business, a comfortable home with a yard, and my healthy mother and Nana Maria grandmothering my kids. I could sometimes even smell cookies baking in the oven. Of course, there was going to be a husband there, too. I just always couldn’t picture him, because I wasn’t sure I could find the ideal man to trust my life with this early. That was a dream I just couldn’t visualize, even if my life depended on it, which it didn’t. So there was no incentive to try very hard at this at present. So, it was a testament to say I had never walked here in the park with a man holding my hand before, enjoying the sunshine and the c
So from the hotel, we visited my mother’s clinic, and Bain talked to the doctor about the procedures and the financial aspect of my mother’s care. I was dazed after we left the clinic, as I was now in possession of a check worth twice the amount the doctor surmised was going to be the approximate cost of my mother’s treatment. My mother and Nana Maria had just been told that a pharmaceutical company had chosen my mother to be a part of the study program for a chemotherapy procedure she was already undergoing. All of her treatment expenses and medicine would be paid because of it.Although I was grateful after we’d left the hospital that my mother’s treatments would continue without fail and that she wouldn’t have to secretly scrimp on her pills, I felt anxious as the day went on, waiting for the shoe to drop. I was secretly attacked by misgivings. I shouldn’t have slept with him this morning. No, that was wrong. As he’d said, it was mutual consent to practice.But I shouldn’t be
In five minutes, he was tapping his pass key on the panel of his hotel room door. And as soon as that door closed behind us, we were in each other’s arms, giggling like fools, kissing. “Bain…” I whispered as he started to decimate the buttons on my shirt. “Yes, I was celibate that long. Oh, were you asking that?” he asks, breathing heavily as I. “This is crazy,” I said. “What are we doing? This isn’t supposed to be like this.” “Right, we haven’t even gotten your pills yet. I’ll have to use another condom,” he said as he pushed me to the bed. He followed me right away and kissed me on my exposed breasts. We hadn’t even discarded all of our clothes yet. And I wanted to touch him, feel his nakedness against my skin. That was taken care of at the next minute. I was lying across the bed, and he was on the edge of it, between my legs. He pulled me towards him while he opened my thighs at the same time. My legs went over the edge, and he kneeled on the carpeted floor. His fingers open
“Oh, Bain…!” I whimpered as I held on to him for my dear sanity. He was moving, measured stroke upon measured stroke. It wasn’t just that. The way his body moved against mine, skin to skin, there was nothing more erotic. His arms held me protectively and I couldn’t feel any safer. That sensation began again, something small and solid inside me, building and building with each thrust of his. I could hear his harsh breathing. He couldn’t talk anymore as his attention was consumed by our coupling like mine. I couldn’t control my moans either. I couldn’t even think. It’s just all him and this. “Bain! Oh, oh… I’m… cumming… again!” “There… yes, baby. There you go… fucking let go… I’m here…!” I did, and he nursed it, diving in deep and anchoring me with his arms as my whole body writhed from the waves that kept coming and coming… I felt his kiss on my forehead when he took himself out a moment after I subsided. Curious, I pried my eyes open. I wasn’t sure, I didn’t think he had cum
Bain’s head came down, and I find myself angling my face for what was coming before my head could even register what I was doing. Then he was kissing me. And anything coherent still left in my brain dissipated like alcohol exposed to air. I was only aware of the way his lips felt over mine, pressing a little, as they moved to caress my lips. His arms tightened their embrace and our bodies came together, and I could feel the contour of his hardness against the softness of mine. My arms went around his neck, and his kiss deepened as I tentatively opened my mouth, asking for more of this curious thing called kissing. I was melting on him, thinking again, as I eagerly kissed him back… how Mr. Beast couldn’t give me this. The kiss was getting hot, fast. My mouth welcomed the delicious assault of his tongue. I consciously surrendered to what I remembered telling myself the first time I saw him in the bar before those piercing dark eyes even saw me. When I had thought wistfully—that’s