"But...but I really can't make it this weekend Ma",I cross my fingers tightly behind my back, hoping she bought my bullshit.
"And why not?",I could imagine my mother scowling at the phone.
"I...I have a presentation,and...and I also have a night duty."
"Good. Leave on Friday evening. Your Dad will pick you when you reach."
"Mom!"
"Shut it Sandy. Stop lying."
"How did you know?",I asked my mother curiously.
"You gave me the exact same excuse the last three times",she chuckled.
"But,please Ma. I'm not up for it."
"Beta, it's just a meeting. It's not like I'm tying your hands and marrying you off. It's just a meeting. You could always just come and meet,and just say 'No'. Your dad's friend suggested the proposal. It's going to sound rude if we keep postponing."
"Why do I have to come all the way there just to say No?"
"Sandy",My mother's voice was sharp,"You will say No if you don't like the guy,not just for the heck of it. Stop being like this."
I frown,staying mum. When I don't say anything for the next few seconds,I knew my mom knew I was miffed,"We miss you a lot dear. You know that right. It's just a chance for you to be home. Don't you want to come home?"
My eyes burn at my mother's tone. I didn't want to come off as ungrateful,and I definitely miss my parents,"Okay. I'll text dad my journey details",I pause,"I love you mom."
"Love you too dear. Take care."
I groan, dropping my body on the bed when my mobile rang again.
"What?"
"Sandy",Anshu whispered,"Dr. Chander is here. He's asking for you."
"What?",my heart jolts.
"Come quickly",my best friend whispers,hanging up.
I grumble to myself,picking my stethoscope and apron.
Today's just not my day.
I make a run to the wards when I am stopped by a friend,"Hey."
"Hi Sahil. I'm kind of in an urgency right now. Can we talk later?"
"Yeah. Sure. I just wanted give this file to you. Your patient's post operative details are in here."
At that moment,I would have kissed him. Not kidding.
"Anshu tell you that?"
"Yeah."
"Thanks a lot dude. See ya later",I whizz past him,panting lightly when I discreetly try to join the rounds.
"Miss Gupta",Professor Chander speaks,"May I know the reason for your tardiness?"
"I had gone to fetch the post operative patient's file,Sir."
He gave me a critical look,taking the file from me when I heard my best friend cough.
I glared at her venomously.
"Alright. But don't make a habit out of this. I expect you to be done with ward work before rounds."
"I am Sorry Sir",I apologise insincerely.
Our team of doctors check upon the patients,the rounds over in a blink of an eye.
"Why were you late?",Anshu asked me as we took seats in the cafeteria.
I give her a blank look,"Mom called."
She laughed,"Same story?"
"Same story", I grimace.
"Any plot twist?",she teased.
I was so going to wring her neck.
"I'm going home this weekend",I blew into my cup,not willing to look at her.
"Finally!",she exclaimed,"It's time."
I struggled to not throw the coffee over her head,my glare interrupted when my hair ruffled.
"Hey Sandy,Hey Anshu."
I give an annoyed look to Avyukth,setting my hair.
I roll my eyes as he takes a seat next to Anshu, giving her a peck on the cheek.
"Come on. Don't make me feel like a third wheel",I mumble.
"Don't worry. You won't feel that way longer. You'll be hitched when you return",the idiotic female in front of me guffawed.
"Really? Sandy?",Avyukth gave me a confused look.
"It's nothing."
"I'll tell you",Anshu jumped,"Sandy is going to meet someone",she air quoted someone.
"Wow. How did this happen?"
"I'm leaving this place in five seconds if you don't stop talking about it."
Anshu gave me a studying look, opening her mouth,then quickly closing it.
"Okay.
"Do you want to go to the beach?",she asked me gently.
"No. I'm good."
We drift into lighter conversation, though I somehow knew I was going to have the talk with Anshu.
******
"Is that all you're going to pack?"
"I'm going for just one weekend. And it's not like I don't have clothes at home",I stuff in jean shorts and a white top.
"Sandy?"
"Yeah?",I glance at Anshu.
"Will you be alright?",she asked me softly,concern evident in her dark orbs.
I frown,"Why won't I?"
She only gives me a pointed look,"You know why."
"I...I...Can we not talk about it?",I ask,my voice soft.
She only stares at me,"I don't think it's a good idea if you are in this frame of mind."
"What frame of mind?",I snap at my best friend,burying the thoughts forcing to come to surface,"I am Okay",I stress.
"At least tell Sneha",she refers to my sister.
"No. I can handle it."
"If you say so. But",she pauses,then sighs as though I'm a lost cause,"I'm just a phone call away. You know that right?"
"I know",I smile.
She glances at her mobile,"Come on. Avyukth is here. We'll drop you."
"Yeah",I mumble, swallowing the lump in my throat.
I am annoyed to see Avyukth mirroring a similar look to Anshu. He opens his mouth but quickly shuts it when Anshu shakes her head.
I laugh internally. She wasn't as subtle as she thought she would be.
He wraps his arms around both of our shoulders,"Text one of us when you reach home?",he addresses me.
"Of course",I smile, getting into the car.
The car ride was silent,my friends on edge.
Anshu gives me a hug when I'm about to leave,"Meet him with an open mind. Okay?",she says gently.
My eyes get glassy,making her pull me into a tight hug,"Shush. Everything will be fine",she consoles me.
I was glad that none of the traitors escaped my eye.
I only gave a brisk nod to Anshu,hoping to let her be in peace.
"Have a safe journey,yeah?", Avyukth wraps his arm around my waist, giving me a side hug.
"And Sandy,don't take rash decisions."
I give him a nod, understanding more than what he conveyed in words.
"Okay. Come on",Anshu clapped,"You got to leave now. And don't forget to get me the crisps Aunty makes",she diffuses the tension.
"Of course",I roll my eyes,bidding my friends goodbye.
I close my eyes as the plane takes off,my heart trying hard to piece together. I stare at the gentle waves crashing against the shore,not bothered that my feet and most of my pants are wet. "Hey" I turn when I hear a voice. "Hey", I'm surprised. How did he know I was here? He seemed to read the question in my mind."Anshu told me you could be here",he explained. "Oh." "Do you mind if I join you?" I shrug,which he takes as a welcome.
I was annoyed when I was continuously shook. Damn it. Let me sleep. I turn to the other side, irritated. "I am going to thrash you if my sleepiness vanishes Sne." I only hear a laugh, she now starts to tickle me. "What the fuck,woman?",I snap,getting up. She winced," Stop swearing." I roll my eyes, yawning,pulling the blanket upto my chin as I close my eyes again,"Why did you wake me up?" "I was bored",she shrugged. "You woke me up at",I glance at the clock,"6:40 i
I only stared at Nikhil,since he didn't answer me. Seeing him was disturbing.There were a lot of unwanted memories threatening to resurface. "Sand-",he started out,"Sandeepthi",he acknowledged, nodding his head. I swallow,flinching at the usage of my full name. No one called me that. I swallow the lump in my throat. How have things gotten so messy? "Should we take a seat?",he gestured to the swing in the balcony. I nod absent mindedly. I had so many questions,so much dis
"Dr. Guptha, there's an emergency. There's a patient with ruptured ectopic pregnancy. You are asked to be the performing surgeon." I swallow my sigh, looking at my junior blankly,getting ready for the OT robotically,"Send me the patient details." I stare at the familiar OT,the place bringing back memories fresh in my mind,after a meeting. There's a life depending on you,Sandy. Snap out of it. I shake my head putting my thoughts to rest,when I hear my phone ping, indicating a message. I quickly go through the patient details that my junior Seema had sent,getting ready for the OT. I was so grateful for the distraction the operation provided me, demanding my entire focus a
I wake up disoriented when I hear a noise.I realize I'm sweaty and that my hands are trembling when I look around for my beeping mobile.I irritatedly switch the alarm off.Whythe fuck do I have so many alarms at such weird times?I swipe a hand on my face, peeling my shirt away from my damp skin,my mind muddled in thoughts.Shower.I need a shower.As I head to the shower, I'm irritated that my body doesn't co-operate as I slide midway into my bean bag,tears sliding my face at an alarming rate.Just once.
Pick up,pick up,I mutter,my head swimming with possibilities as I dial Anshu's number.I am going to have a panic attack.Shit.Deep breaths Sandy."What the hell are you doing,not picking the call!",I snap at my best friend."I'm in the labour room. Wassup?""Wassup?Wassup?You stupid female.""Sandy? You okay?""No",I screech."Okay listen. Someone's calling for me. I think I need to go.""I don't
My throat felt parched,like I hadn't moistened my throat in weeks. I swallow hard,taking in his appearance in flesh.After two whole years.But as we scrutinized each other silently,I could find myself getting arrogant, inspite of my mental state being haywire."It's good to see you Sandy",Dhruv says,the statementsovoid of emotion that I flinched involuntarily."Can't say the same for you",Anshu muttered from next to me, audible enough for him to hear,but not as audible to be counted as a reply.I give an easy smile, surprising myself,"You too."I will myself to hold myself together,at least till
Even though the meeting with Dhruv left me miffed,there wasanotherthing that bothered me.Nikhil'sparents had called.Nikhil's parents had called.Nikhil'sparents had called.Formarriage.Has Nikhil gonenuts?I take a deep breath,annoyed,having too many things to think. I sigh,running a hand through my hair,when I hear another sigh.I glance at my best friend,"Go to sleep Anshu. I'm fine.""Are you?",she cocked an eyebrow.
I give Nikhil a sheepish smile, mentally kicking myself as he gives me a teasing smile.I'm breathless when he places a kiss on my knuckles,the gesture making me swoon.So in Sandy style,I flip my hair behind, shrug,"I know. I'm just reminding you."Nikhil's face swirls with amusement,"You don't have to. But that's a nice remind-Ouch",he laughs when I punch his arm."So?"I raise an eyebrow."So?",Nikhil questions back, entwining our hands,the simple act makes me blush.I try not to show the nervousness on my face as I narrow my eyes,"You went to meet someone."
Nikhil's POVI'm restless as Prachi and I have our dessert.Being with another supposed-to-be a romantic female company seemedwrong. Even though it was just a lunch,it somehow felt like I am cheating on Sandy, inspite of her knowing it.I grin, shaking my head as I have the last bite of dessert,my cheese cake, heart full as I recall how displeased Sandy was when she came to know I was meeting someone.It obviously means she feelssomething.I let the feeling wash over me,the girl I like likes me back, however little or lot it maybe."Uh",I hear a clearing of throat.
"You guys didn't even kiss?""No.""Not even a peck?""No.""What about—""Shut up Anshu",I hiss."Who are you texting?", Anshu peeps into my mobile,"Show me."I tilt my mobile away from her deliberately, even though I'm just texting my sister.Anshu gasps,"You guys didn't even kiss yesterday, but you'resextingalready?""Anshu!",my cheeks turn red.The loon only grins, wiggling her eyebrows dramaticall
"Are you going somewhere?""Yes",I go through my cupboard,look down at whatever I'm already wearing."Where? Withwhom?"I give Anshu a you-know-who look."Where are you going?",she repeats."Dinner."She scans my attire,"You look fine,if it's just dinner, unless you haveotherplans,you know."I try hard to keep the blush out,as I roll my eyes, underplaying it even if my heart raced for a second,"Lol.""Are you returning?"I frown,"What?"
I pull away after a few seconds, acutely aware that we're on the road,inpublic.I sniff,my eyes dry."Okay?", Nikhil questions.I nod, unable to look at him.I sigh in relief when his mobile rings.Nikhil clenches his jaw,"Excuse me",he moves a few feet away."No. I don't want to. I've already told you",I hear Nikhil's side of the conversation.I'mtotallynot eavesdropping.He just happens to be inmyhearing range.Lol. Keep
I'm not sure if I have to be amused or horrified when Nikhil looks extremely uncomfortable,having been caught."Uh...Hi",He pockets his hands, looking at me for a second,and turning his head, although a smile plays on his lips.I recall the conversation with my mother,sighing in relief when I hadn't contributed much,it was mostly my mother talking after I had explained the situation to her.I wonder how long he'd been standing there.Did he... listen to my side of the story?"Hi",I nod,forcing a smile.Apparently, Nikhil didn't have anything to say as he merely stared at me.Anxiet
Things wereextremelydifferent from what I had anticipated.The day Nikhil had accompanied me to the hospital, thirty six hours ago,claiming he had somework,but actually turned out he wanted to give me company as he stayed with me for the majority of time I'd 'hosted' Niranjan uncle and Akhil, quietly monitoring as I let radiologists do their work.My heart felt oddly hopeful when he had even dropped me back at the hostel, giving me only an extremely heated look that had me blushing when I asked him why he had accompanied me.I had thought things had magically fallen into place.I expected us to be awkward for another day or two,and then kiss,and make up,literally.
Is the pain after a break (up) and the strength of a relationship proportional?I ponder at the question, painting my toe nails,three days after Nikhil decided we need to take a... break.There's a bitter aftertaste in my mouth.I letWhatever It TakesbyImagineDragonsplay in the background, conveniently ignoring the tap on my door.I hum to the lyrics,getting up to iron my clothes for the day, ignoring the way my best friend is yelling from the other side."I'm fine. I'm alive",I yell back.There's a pause, followed by a 'Fuck You'.Good.
"It's alright",I smile at a child,about five to six years old when she apologises for bumping into me,in the corridor.I hum to myself,taking a seat."Umm.""Where are we going?"The both of them look at each other.I scroll through my mobile, looking for new places to eat at,as I continue to hum."What do you think of— What?"Anshu looks at me worriedly,and then glances at her boyfriend,to which he just nods.I roll my eyes when Anshu pokes my arm, jumping back a good two feet when I don't respond.