I close my eyes as the plane takes off,my heart trying hard to piece together.
I stare at the gentle waves crashing against the shore,not bothered that my feet and most of my pants are wet.
"Hey"
I turn when I hear a voice.
"Hey", I'm surprised. How did he know I was here?
He seemed to read the question in my mind.
"Anshu told me you could be here",he explained."Oh."
"Do you mind if I join you?"
I shrug,which he takes as a welcome.
We stare at the sea for some time.
"Why are you here?",I ask softly,my heart skipping when I felt him stare at the side of my head.
"Don't you want me to be here?"
"No. Not like that",I say quickly,"I mean",I start off slowly,not wanting to make myself look like an idiot,"I don't mind."
"I'm sure you don't",he teases.
I was surprised when he shifted closer to me.
I only blushed,my heart palpitating when our hands brushed against each others.
I turn to look at him, unable to understand what's happening.
"I didn't want you to be alone when you are upset",he answers eventually.
"I'm fine. It's not that much of a big deal",I shrug gently.
"Maybe",he took a deep breath, interlacing our fingers together,"But I wanted to be there for you."
"Thank you",I squeeze his hand bravely,leaning my head against his shoulder.
He flicks his eyes at me,my heart racing when his eyes lowered to my lips-
"This is to announce we are going to land in the next fifteen minutes. You can collect your belongings from baggage belt 3."
I stir awake, surprised that I'd fallen asleep the entire flight,my heart aching at the dream,my body still familiar with the one I leaned on,the lips that-
I shake my head, getting out of my thoughts.
I was going to meet someone. It's not fair if I think about him.
I take a deep breath, looking around, drinking in my father's appearance when I saw him,my heart coming to a sudden relief pleasantly.
I am so glad I'm back home.
I squeeze my father,coccooned in his protective embrace, missing the warmth of his embrace immensely,now that I could bask in it.
I send a quick text to Anshu,saying I reached safely.
"Good flight?",I heard my father ask, kissing my hair for a fraction of a second.
I nod my head,"Yup."
We settle comfortably in the car, conversation flowing, mostly me talking and Dad inputting here and there as I updated about my life back in Mumbai.
I grow restless, waiting for my mother to open the door as I ring the bell.
"Mummy!!",I screech into her ear, jumping into my mother's arms.
"Wow. So much excitement? And you didn't even want to come home",my mother teased.
I ignore her words, squeezing her tightly, tears pricking the corner of my eyes.
"Come on in",my mother patted my cheek.
"Finally",I heard a voice.
"Why are you here?",I ask my sister, surprised.
"Thank you. I feel very welcome. I came home three days ago",she rolls her eyes, pulling me into a hug.
"Oh. Brother-in-law too?"
"No. He didn't come."
"Cool",I squish her once again, secretly happy my brother in law is not here.
Don't get me wrong. I respect my brother in law a lot. But the selfish younger sister in me has a teeny tiny bitter feeling that he stole my sister from me. We couldn't go to sleep talking or spend time completely with the other.
I loved drifting to sleep as my sister and I talked about anything and everything. I miss that after she got married,we no longer could do that.
"I am so hungry Ma. Feed me something?"
"At least go freshen up Sandy",my sister teases.
I give her a blank look,"You take shower in the evenings usually."
She shrugged,"Only when I'm on leave."
I roll my eyes,making way to my room.
"Wow. I can't believe I miss home food",I say,taking a seat.
Everyone around the table laughs,"You do?"
"Yeah",I address my sister,"All the time at home,I wanted to eat fast food and restaurant food. And now that that's all I eat,I want home food."
I see my father laugh, shaking his head.
We have a noisy dinner,talking and laughing along.
Damn. It's good to be home.
I stretch my hands,making a weird sound as I'm seated on the couch.
"Don't stretch as soon as you eat Sandy",my mother scolds.
"Yeah yeah",I grumble, flipping the channel.
"Why don't you go to sleep?"
"It's not even twelve Mom."
"You should be up early tomorrow."
"Wrong answer."
"Sandy!"
"What Ma?"
"The guy's family is coming to meet us tommorow afternoon."
I yawn,"It's in the afternoon."
"What kind of a creature have I created?",my mother laughs.
"The best,the most intelligent,and the most unique one."
"Behave yourself tomorrow Sandy",my mother gives me a concerned look.
"I'm anyway going to say No. What's the point?"
My family only sighs,"Fine. Just be polite at least."
"Of course",I nod,"Can we finish watching this?"
It was almost one when my sister and I settled in my room.
"Why are you in my room?",I tease her,though I'm secretly happy.
She only rolled her eyes.
"Sandy?"
The way my sister took my name was enough to ring warning bells.
I yawn over exaggeratedly,drooping my eyelids for extra effect,"What? I can't hear you. I'm so sleepy Sneha",I nod my head.
She slaps the back of my head, irritated,"Don't you want to know anything about the guy?"
I pause, pressing my lips,"Should I?"
"It would be weird if you ask his name on his face. They expect you to know some details."
"You can tell me tomorrow."
"Is something the matter?",she questions.
A pair of honey brown eyes come to my memory, making me let out a harsh breath,"No. Why would you ask that?"
"But you'll tell me if something is the matter, right?", she presses, catching on my lie.
I turn my head away. There really was nothing to say.
Everything was over. I didn't have anything to say.
My heart cried,as I gave my sister a forced smile.
I let out a single tear as my sister pulled me into a hug, silently comforting me.
I close my eyes, willing to stop crying,not allowing more than that single tear that leaked it way through the crack in my heart.
No matter how many times I vowed to not cry over him,I broke it. Every single time.
"You'll be fine."
I nod my head, wondering why she's not drilling me. I would have,if our roles reversed.
But I could only see understanding and love when my sister pulled away.
"Go to sleep, Sandy."
I close my eyes,willing to push away the image of honey brown eyes that never failed to make my heart skip it's beat and a gentle smile that always managed to ease my worries.
I was annoyed when I was continuously shook. Damn it. Let me sleep. I turn to the other side, irritated. "I am going to thrash you if my sleepiness vanishes Sne." I only hear a laugh, she now starts to tickle me. "What the fuck,woman?",I snap,getting up. She winced," Stop swearing." I roll my eyes, yawning,pulling the blanket upto my chin as I close my eyes again,"Why did you wake me up?" "I was bored",she shrugged. "You woke me up at",I glance at the clock,"6:40 i
I only stared at Nikhil,since he didn't answer me. Seeing him was disturbing.There were a lot of unwanted memories threatening to resurface. "Sand-",he started out,"Sandeepthi",he acknowledged, nodding his head. I swallow,flinching at the usage of my full name. No one called me that. I swallow the lump in my throat. How have things gotten so messy? "Should we take a seat?",he gestured to the swing in the balcony. I nod absent mindedly. I had so many questions,so much dis
"Dr. Guptha, there's an emergency. There's a patient with ruptured ectopic pregnancy. You are asked to be the performing surgeon." I swallow my sigh, looking at my junior blankly,getting ready for the OT robotically,"Send me the patient details." I stare at the familiar OT,the place bringing back memories fresh in my mind,after a meeting. There's a life depending on you,Sandy. Snap out of it. I shake my head putting my thoughts to rest,when I hear my phone ping, indicating a message. I quickly go through the patient details that my junior Seema had sent,getting ready for the OT. I was so grateful for the distraction the operation provided me, demanding my entire focus a
I wake up disoriented when I hear a noise.I realize I'm sweaty and that my hands are trembling when I look around for my beeping mobile.I irritatedly switch the alarm off.Whythe fuck do I have so many alarms at such weird times?I swipe a hand on my face, peeling my shirt away from my damp skin,my mind muddled in thoughts.Shower.I need a shower.As I head to the shower, I'm irritated that my body doesn't co-operate as I slide midway into my bean bag,tears sliding my face at an alarming rate.Just once.
Pick up,pick up,I mutter,my head swimming with possibilities as I dial Anshu's number.I am going to have a panic attack.Shit.Deep breaths Sandy."What the hell are you doing,not picking the call!",I snap at my best friend."I'm in the labour room. Wassup?""Wassup?Wassup?You stupid female.""Sandy? You okay?""No",I screech."Okay listen. Someone's calling for me. I think I need to go.""I don't
My throat felt parched,like I hadn't moistened my throat in weeks. I swallow hard,taking in his appearance in flesh.After two whole years.But as we scrutinized each other silently,I could find myself getting arrogant, inspite of my mental state being haywire."It's good to see you Sandy",Dhruv says,the statementsovoid of emotion that I flinched involuntarily."Can't say the same for you",Anshu muttered from next to me, audible enough for him to hear,but not as audible to be counted as a reply.I give an easy smile, surprising myself,"You too."I will myself to hold myself together,at least till
Even though the meeting with Dhruv left me miffed,there wasanotherthing that bothered me.Nikhil'sparents had called.Nikhil's parents had called.Nikhil'sparents had called.Formarriage.Has Nikhil gonenuts?I take a deep breath,annoyed,having too many things to think. I sigh,running a hand through my hair,when I hear another sigh.I glance at my best friend,"Go to sleep Anshu. I'm fine.""Are you?",she cocked an eyebrow.
"I...",I clear my throat.Spit out the words Sandy."Idon't want to marry Nikhil",I tell my mother."Oh",the disappointment in my mother'sOhrings in my ears,making me squeeze my eyes shut.I can never make anyone happy."Is there a particular reason?""Just...I spoke to him for a bit. I don't think we are compatible",I lie through my teeth.I'm Sorry,Mom."Sandy",my mother tsks,"You decided you weren't compatible in just one conversation? Take some time beta. Try to get to know him better.""Ma!",I exclaim,"You said
I give Nikhil a sheepish smile, mentally kicking myself as he gives me a teasing smile.I'm breathless when he places a kiss on my knuckles,the gesture making me swoon.So in Sandy style,I flip my hair behind, shrug,"I know. I'm just reminding you."Nikhil's face swirls with amusement,"You don't have to. But that's a nice remind-Ouch",he laughs when I punch his arm."So?"I raise an eyebrow."So?",Nikhil questions back, entwining our hands,the simple act makes me blush.I try not to show the nervousness on my face as I narrow my eyes,"You went to meet someone."
Nikhil's POVI'm restless as Prachi and I have our dessert.Being with another supposed-to-be a romantic female company seemedwrong. Even though it was just a lunch,it somehow felt like I am cheating on Sandy, inspite of her knowing it.I grin, shaking my head as I have the last bite of dessert,my cheese cake, heart full as I recall how displeased Sandy was when she came to know I was meeting someone.It obviously means she feelssomething.I let the feeling wash over me,the girl I like likes me back, however little or lot it maybe."Uh",I hear a clearing of throat.
"You guys didn't even kiss?""No.""Not even a peck?""No.""What about—""Shut up Anshu",I hiss."Who are you texting?", Anshu peeps into my mobile,"Show me."I tilt my mobile away from her deliberately, even though I'm just texting my sister.Anshu gasps,"You guys didn't even kiss yesterday, but you'resextingalready?""Anshu!",my cheeks turn red.The loon only grins, wiggling her eyebrows dramaticall
"Are you going somewhere?""Yes",I go through my cupboard,look down at whatever I'm already wearing."Where? Withwhom?"I give Anshu a you-know-who look."Where are you going?",she repeats."Dinner."She scans my attire,"You look fine,if it's just dinner, unless you haveotherplans,you know."I try hard to keep the blush out,as I roll my eyes, underplaying it even if my heart raced for a second,"Lol.""Are you returning?"I frown,"What?"
I pull away after a few seconds, acutely aware that we're on the road,inpublic.I sniff,my eyes dry."Okay?", Nikhil questions.I nod, unable to look at him.I sigh in relief when his mobile rings.Nikhil clenches his jaw,"Excuse me",he moves a few feet away."No. I don't want to. I've already told you",I hear Nikhil's side of the conversation.I'mtotallynot eavesdropping.He just happens to be inmyhearing range.Lol. Keep
I'm not sure if I have to be amused or horrified when Nikhil looks extremely uncomfortable,having been caught."Uh...Hi",He pockets his hands, looking at me for a second,and turning his head, although a smile plays on his lips.I recall the conversation with my mother,sighing in relief when I hadn't contributed much,it was mostly my mother talking after I had explained the situation to her.I wonder how long he'd been standing there.Did he... listen to my side of the story?"Hi",I nod,forcing a smile.Apparently, Nikhil didn't have anything to say as he merely stared at me.Anxiet
Things wereextremelydifferent from what I had anticipated.The day Nikhil had accompanied me to the hospital, thirty six hours ago,claiming he had somework,but actually turned out he wanted to give me company as he stayed with me for the majority of time I'd 'hosted' Niranjan uncle and Akhil, quietly monitoring as I let radiologists do their work.My heart felt oddly hopeful when he had even dropped me back at the hostel, giving me only an extremely heated look that had me blushing when I asked him why he had accompanied me.I had thought things had magically fallen into place.I expected us to be awkward for another day or two,and then kiss,and make up,literally.
Is the pain after a break (up) and the strength of a relationship proportional?I ponder at the question, painting my toe nails,three days after Nikhil decided we need to take a... break.There's a bitter aftertaste in my mouth.I letWhatever It TakesbyImagineDragonsplay in the background, conveniently ignoring the tap on my door.I hum to the lyrics,getting up to iron my clothes for the day, ignoring the way my best friend is yelling from the other side."I'm fine. I'm alive",I yell back.There's a pause, followed by a 'Fuck You'.Good.
"It's alright",I smile at a child,about five to six years old when she apologises for bumping into me,in the corridor.I hum to myself,taking a seat."Umm.""Where are we going?"The both of them look at each other.I scroll through my mobile, looking for new places to eat at,as I continue to hum."What do you think of— What?"Anshu looks at me worriedly,and then glances at her boyfriend,to which he just nods.I roll my eyes when Anshu pokes my arm, jumping back a good two feet when I don't respond.