Nakatulala ako habang nasa harap ko si blew na nasa kandungan nya ang anak nya na naglalaro habang nakatingin sya saakin
She's creeping me out when she looked at me like that
"So, what are you doing here?" tanong ko saka naman sya sumimsim sa kape nya saka nilapag ang folders na apat
"Ayan yung pinapahanap mo, stop acting like you don't know the reason why I'm here" saka ako tumawa habang iniisa isa ko ang laman ng folder, it's all about edward and his friends
Hindi ko lang malaman kung bakit ganon, lagi syang wala ngayon at kakagaling nya lang ng vegas kasama sila ej at aalis nanaman sila, nasa bpra sila kasama ang mga kaibigan nya. Hindi ba sya nadala sa ginawa ko
"Sabi ko naman kase sayo, mag anak na kayo para hindi na makaalis lagi ang asawa mo" saka naman ako nagkibit balikat bago pinisil ang pisngi ng anak nya. She's cute
"Mama" reklamo nya saka naman kami tumawa, khalil is standing right beside her at gave a tender kiss to his wife
Sila na ata ang perfect family, para saakin.
"We need to go. Just call me if you need me" saka naman kumunot ang noo ni khalil
"What's that blew?" he asked and she laugh bago binuhat ang baby nila
"It's nothing khalil, ngayon ang uwi ni barbara. Hindi na kinaya ang pag aalaga kaya lumayas" napaling ako saka sila umalis
I want a family like them, pero hindi ko pa talaga makita yon kay edward, he act like he is a bachelor kahit na may asawa na talaga sya
Minsan, i asked myself kung may asawa pa ba ako. Like yeah, he enjoy his life to the fullest pero after ng away namin aalis nanaman sya para gumimik at babalikan ako kapag nakaramdam na naiinis nako sa pagkawala nya
Mas matindi syang gumimik sakin dahil ako hindi ganoong katulad nya
"This is such a boring day!" asik ko ng may makabanggaan akong babae na kulay brown ang buhok at singkit ang mata
She's looking at me, and i look at her too.
"Sorry, my fault" i apologized bago tumaas ang kilay nya at hindi man lang nag sorry
Naiinis kong kinuha ang baso na may lamang tubig bago hinagis sa likod nya and she look at me ng nangigigil
"Ops, sorry. My bitch side is showing up!" i said saka naman nya nilabas ang wine sa bag nya at balak na ihampas saakin ng umagap ang guard
"Ma'am kalma po" i grin at her and leave. It feels sl good na makaganti sa taong nakakainis
I recieved a message from barbara, she said nasa Amsterdam sila bago mag LA ang gulo but damn it, he didn't call me!
"Fuck you edward! I want to kick you ass and-and tease your goddamn balls argh!" sigaw ko habang pinagsisipa ang gulong ng ferrari ko at naiiritang binato sa loob ng kotse ko ang phone ko
He's such a pain in my life! Next time I'll file a divorce ng maging malaya na talaga sya. He's challenging my fucking patience to him!
"What!" sigaw ko ng mag ring ang phone ko
"Calm down Mrs. Go, i just want to invite you. Bridal shower" Saka naman humupa ang inis ko at napangisi sa sinabi nya
It's fun, i hope i can touch a man's body
"Yeah, sure. Saan?" saka ko sinuklay ang buhok ko habang nakangisi
"Sa bar na tambayan before, VIP okay? I'll see you there!" saka ko binaba ang tawag at nakaisip ng ireregalo. It's my time to have fun. Hindi yung lagi akong iniiwan ni edward at puro sya out of the country ang party nila
Well, ej is separated with his wife.He want that.
And si edward lang ang kasal sa kanila, and i swear nakikisabay din yon sa pambababae
I call his number and it's ringing. He didn't answer my calls! Lets see edward kung sino ang mas magaling maglaro
I went to the mall to buy some adult toys para sa bride
"One pink vibrator please and handcuffs" sabi ko sa counter habang namumula ang muka ng babae bago tumango, why. Bakit naman ako mahihiya, it's not mine at all and kung akin man. So what? What's the big deal
It's part of life
"Oh wag mo kakalimutang ilagay yung lubricant okay? a black wrapper please" saka naman tumango yung cashier habang nag titingin ako sa phone ko at inaantay na mag message sakin si stephen kahit na alam kong imposible dahil busy sya sa LA na mahal na mahal nya
Kung alam ko lang na ganito kami lagi sa tuwing idadahilan nya business trip nya ay di na sana ako nagpatali agad sa kanya cause he's getti g into my nerve i also want to enjoy my life but he's inborn selfish
"Thank you po ma'am" saka ko tinanggap yung binili ko at binayaran bago lumakad na makakapag tawag ng pansin
I am a model when edward and i met, well he love women like me a model type. hindi sobra hindi kulang, sakto lahat ang meroon saakin
"Wow" a woman with red hair clap when she see me and hug me tight like she really know who i am
"I am the owner of grende" i smile and accept her hand, pano nya nalaman na ako ito
Stephen and i met in singapore ng may fashion show ako and he's keeping his eye on me and like the other woman nadala nya ako sa ikapitong langit kahit na tinititigan nya palang ako and he decide to have a date with me and boom. Doon na kami nagsimula
"Hi, nice to meet you" saka nya inabot ang calling card at ngumiti saakin
"If you changed your mind call me, i will accept you even you're a married woman" saka sya tuluyang lumampas at nasa likod nya ang mga body guard nya habang lumakad na ako papunta sa bar
Minsan nadin pumasok sa isip ko na bumalik sa pag momodel pero si edward lang talaga ang may ayaw na lagi naming pinag aawayan at hanggang sa mag kainisan na kami
"Look who's here" salubong nila saakin hanggang sa magkayakapan kami
"Oh my god Mrs. Go!" sigaw ng mga kaibigan ko ng makita akong papalapit sa table nila.
"Sino nanamang ikakasal at may party?!" sabi ko at nakangisi ang kaklase ko noong high school. I gave her a black paper bag na talagang matutuwa ang mapapangasawa nya.
"G-grabe ka elisha! Kaya baliw na baliw sayo si edward. Kung ano ano kase pinag-gagagawa mo" sabi pa neto habang pulang pula ang muka at di makapaniwala sa nakikita nya.
Normal lang naman yon.
Lingerie, handcuffs, lubricant, at syempre vibrator.
Kailangan ang foreplay sa honeymoon bago sumabaksa labanan
"Grabe ka! Asan ang asawa mo?" Hinanap talaga nila si edward.
"Amsterdam, magkaaway kami ngayon" sabi ko saka inlagok ang alak sa baso.
"Nako, konting kembot mo lang doon bibigay din yon" natawa ako sa sinabi nya. Totoo yon pero wala pa akong gana. Bahala sya sa buhay nya. Maging masaya sana sya kasama mga kaibigan nya.
Napadpad ako sa dance floor habang may patago akong nangunguha ng inumin ng iba. Nakakatamad magpabalik balik para kumuha ng alak. Nakakangawit kapag bote ang dala ko.
Until i saw a shot glass na puno pa at mukang busy sa pakikipagusap.
I lick my lips and get it saka dahan dahang binalik ng maubos ko ang laman. Nakangisi na sana ako ng may humawak sa pulsuhan ko at hinarap ako.
"Mrs. Go?"
"Mr. Throne?" gulat ko at nagulat din sya. Kaibigan sya ng kaibigan ko. Magulo right?
"Nice to meet you" he said and hinagkan ang kamay ko kaya ngumiti ako.
"Hi! Andito kadin?" i asked saka nya naman inabot saakin ang shot glass at tinanggap ko.
"Talagang naughty ka Mrs. Go" sabi nya at natawa nalang ako sa sinabi nya. 100 percent akong naughty
"Elisha nalang. Sobrang pormal ng Mrs. Go duh" i said saka nya ako inayang sumayaw at ginawa namin. We dance so wild. Nakakamiss ang single life!
"Oh damn! I miss this kind of life!" sigaw ko habang ang buhok ko ay natama na sa pisngi ko.
"Yeah! Night life is the best!" sigaw nya. Nagkamali ako ng bagsak sa pagtalon ko at natapilok.
Akala ko matatapakan na ako pero may braso na nakapalibot sa bewang ko at mainit na hininga sa labi ko.
Nang imulat ko ang mata ko dalawang pares ng berdeng mata ang nakapukol sa labi ko at huli na ang lahat ng maglapat ang mga labi namin.
"Shit!" asik hanggang sa kung saan nya ako dinala at umabot kami sa CR while his eyes was burning
"Fuck" he moan when i touch his chest and he slowly lift me para makaupo ako sa lababo ng Cr at nilock agad ang pinto
"Fucking ahh-" i moan when he tear my panty and lick my precious pearl without saying any word and every touch makes me feel weak and wet at the same time
"Fuck faster" i said bago tumungo ang kamay ko sa ulo nya at mas lalong diniin ang ulo nya roon habang di ko na malaman kung saan ba ako dapat tumingin at kung saan ba dapat ako papaning
"Shit.." pilit kong pinipigil but i already cum and he taste every part of it at kahit saang parte walang bakas
"This is not right.." bulong ko bago sya tinulak palayo at bumaba ako sa lababo
"Maybe it's not, but i swear you'll love this mistake" mabilis ang pang yayari, tapos nya sabihin ang kataga na iyon ay napatalikod ako at isang malakas at malaking bagay ang nagpalambot saakin dahil sa biglaan nyang pagpasok
"Oh shit" i moan when he slowly thrust and make a move that making me feel crazy and crazier
"Fuck" he groan and hold my waist
"I won't stop kahit na mag makaawa kapa" he said and fuck me more harder
Harder than how edward almost break my waist
Kanina pa ako nakatulala sa kisame habang pinapakiramandaman kung gising naba ang katabi ko o hindi pa, kase kung hindi aalis na talaga ako. The fuck i am doing in my life, i'm dead if edward find this shitDahan dahan akong tumayo at dinampot isa-isa ang mga damit at gamit ko sa sahig, we ended up here in hotel na nasa taas lang ng bar"Where are you going?" a cold and baritone voice send a thousand shiver in my body and i slowly face him"Sorry? I'm going home what the fuck it's over!" sigaw ko saka naman sya tumawa at hinaplos ng marahan ang muka ko"You think that i will allow you to go home like that?" saka naman ako kinabahan sa sinabi nya at umiling ako, hindi pwede na magtagal ako. Bat ako mag tatagal dito tanginang yan"Will you get out of my sight, this is not a fairy tale. I am married, and you too. So let's forget about this dumb shi
I'm walking like a queen, but my mind kills me dahil sa sobrang kaba at takot.This is the very first time that he demand and act like a beast, a real beast"Calm down elisha, mag-uusap lang" pagkababa ko sa kotse ay bumungad ang galit na muka ni Edward saakin at nakaabang sya sa pinto ng bahay namin habang may kapit na kopita"Where have you been my wife? You know that when I got home, you're the only one that I want to see" nilampasan ko lang sya at diretsyong pumasok sa living room"Wag na tayo maglokohan dito Edward, sanay nako na aalis ka nanaman ng paulit ulit kahit na pagbawalan kita. I need space, since you never listen to me, may sarilu kang desisyon and my decision is not a big deal to you so that's the main reason why I start to build a wall between us Edward" sagot ko sa kanya bago ako maglagay ng alak sa glass wine at nilagok itoHe hugged me at my back and caressed my arm and tummy
Mabilis akong nag-impake habang nang-gigigil ako sa ginawa nya ngayon, yes. I pushed him, pero it doesn't matter na aalis sya at iiwas tungkol sa usapan namin sa AnnulmentThis is the best thing that will happen to us, hindi na talaga umuusad ang relasyon namin, we're stuck on like Each other's beed warmer. Sana kung ganon hindi nalang ako nagpakasal at nanawala ako sa buhay koI thought my life is a fairytale when I get married to Edward, but it's a biggest mistake that I regret choosingI dial my attorney's number and after a few call sinagot nya na"Hello, Noringco andyan kaba?" I asked habang kinuha ang paborito kong stilettos"Oh yeah, I'm here. W-why?" Kumunot ang noo ko at naiinis na nilapag ang phone ko"Deeper baby, I like that" I roll my eyes and drop my callBalasubas talaga babaeng ito, when I look at my phone it's past 4 AM dali dali na akong umalis hab
After that incident I lock myself at my hotel room, why? Because I can't find my strength. I feel weak at the moment that I saw them.Even china, she said that she'll wait for me until we have a better plan. Syempre hindi pwede na magmuka kaming kawawa sa huliI will do everything for the sake of my pride, I am the legal wife and I won't let them see how miserable and how I look destroyedAs a Elisha, wala sa bokabularyo ko ang matalo. There's no sense if I give up."Ate, kailan kaba lalakad? We're already planning and finalizing our plan. How about yours?" She ask and I stand from my bed and walk way to the bar counter"I literally don't know what I'm gonna do after that shit I saw within my eyes. Yes, he's cheating big time. With some whore here in LA, tangina mukang may HIV yon" I joked and pour a vodka on my glassThis is insane, ewan ko ba pero ang sakit sakit na ganito pala gi
I can't even smile while I'm applying my heavy make-up. Ewan ko ba, parang lamay ang pupuntahan ko ngayong gabi"I will kill that bastard!" Gigil kong saad bago ko nakapitan ang ballpen na may knife sa loob at naibaon sa lamesaI check my pouch, kumpleto na. Pati papers para sa Annulment namin ay handa. Pirma nalang ni edward ang kulang"Ate, let's go. Andoon na sila and they having fun" saka ako nagsuot ng mask at sumakay sa kotse ni baniez"Are you sure na gagawin natin to? Do you think that they'll notice it?" Tanong ni baniez hanggang sa ipark nya na ang kotse at sa likod kami dumaan"Naman, as long that we have power, we will fight. I am China, and it's not on my vocabulary to become a stupid girlfriend. Nakakapagod kaya"They look at me and I just shrugged my shoulder"I'm going to kill them, and off course. After the process of my annulment, I will live
Alas otso na ng gabi matapos kong magising sa pagkakalunod ko sa sarili kong luha at mga sakit na patuloy ang pagdaloy sa isipan koI feel how much pain he cause, sobrang laki ng lamat na naiwan samin. I know that I also made a mistake, but I know to myself that I tried my best to stop what's happeng between the two of usI never compare his love to someone else, I know edward. His love infinite, pero parang nagbago na ang lahatMay uuwian paba ako after this? I don't think that I deserve all of thisBreaking news :Allegedly, Mr and Mrs Go file an annulment, is this the sign that the Go enterprises and the Salvia Corporation is not in a good condition? Is there a third party involve?"We have no idea about that news, my cousin elisha is very happy with edward""That's true, I saw them at LA last week, I think their honeymoon stage is not done yet"It's
"You bitch!" Sigaw nung kasama ni Edward na papalapit saakin ng harangin ni oakley ito at marahang inilayo"Stop this veda, stop making a scene" pigil anf gigil at inis sa tinig ni Oakley habang para namang tuod si edward na nakatayo lang malapit saamin"What? Are you serious Oakley, sasama ka sa kaladkarin nayan-""Explain how I am kaladkarin kung sya pumunta sa suite ko at nagpumilit na mag dinner kami. Tell me, who are you to point your dirty finger inside my property huh?" Matapang na saad ko saka naman sya tumawa"I can buy your suite!" Pagmamayabang nya"Really? Using Throne's money? Oh come on. I can buy a whole country for you wag ko lang makita pagmumuka mo" mas lalo naman sya nainis saakin at pinilit na makalapit saakin while I am still standing at my place like I am a queen"How arrogant bitch, ang kapal ng muka mo. Napakayabang mo pa, sino kaba sa palagay mo eh kabit kal
Tapos na ang lahat ng pag aasikaso ko para sa Annulment pero parang araw lang ang bawat linggo na dumaan.Napakabigat ng nararamdaman ko, it's been two months. Without edward and Oakley. I avoid drama, it's not good to my healthMy family is worried on my situation, pati sa media. People know what edward do to me, and Veda Noringco Throne is hiding, because of what she doI saw a familiar face, and I know it's herI smirk when veda is walking to my direction while her shades is not fit on her outfit."I can't believe that my husband have a interest on a rag" I laugh and show my white teeth"Yeah, I also can't believe that my husband has no taste when it's choosing a mistress. You must be thankful na mas maganda pinalit sayo, kesa naman mas mahirap sayo. Ops, did I hurt you oh so rich ego?" I asked and smile"Shut up! I'm way better than you!" She smile a
When i was young i always seek for attention from all the people that i know they have interest in me, sa murang edad alam ko na pano malaman kung may kailangan ba ang tao sayo o gusto ka lang nila kaibiganinIt's really hard for me to have a real friend because i am crazy rich and all of them want to have the spotlight and money that i haveIt's frustrating for me to watch them walk away from me after they get what they wantIn other word, they took advantage of my kindnessKaya doon ako natuto na lumaban at ipakita ang sarili ko, ipamuka sa kanila na hindi ko kailangan ng kaibigan, all i need is myself and my family.Until i grew older, met Edward in the company. He's wearing his dashing smiles that all woman offer their body to him, his body that really goodI find him attractive but i see him as a simple guy, lahat naman ng lalaki pare-pareho kaya bakit k
"What the fuck? Don't touch me!" sigaw ko habang nakatitig sya saakin"It's me Elisha, si Oakley" nakangiti na saad neto pero tinulak ko ulit sya at pilit na kumakawala sa pag kakakapit nya saakin"I thought you don't remember me, kaya bakit andito ka?!" sigaw ko muli at nag lakad palayo sa kanyaSumunod naman sya saakin agad at kinapitan ang kamay ko"I'm sorry Elisha, nalaman ko na kasama mo si Edward, kaya nagalit ako. Nainis ako at akala ko bumalik kana kay Edward. Kaya sinabi ko na hindi kita kilala, nag panggap ako na di kita kilala kase gusto ko itago na nasasaktan ako" i smirk and slap his face"I can't remember everything, all i know is edward cheated on me and i cheated to him too, and you are my lover and the miscarriage of Edward's baby and the rest hindi ko na maalala. Just because of your pride you act like you don't know me?" naiinis na saad ko sa kanya&nbs
Tulala ako sa ginagawa ni edward habang sya ay busy sa pag lilinis ng yate na nakadaong sa isla. His personal driver is with us at pinag uusapan nila kung saan kami susunod na pupuntaAfter what happen on us he become more careful on his actions. Sobrang maalaga saakin, i can't even walk or go to the bathroom akala nya siguro tatakasan ko sya or whatNaawa ako sa kanya, because of that. Masyado ba akong gago before the accident"Edward, i have questions" he look at me and he smile at me"What is it, love?" he ask and kiss my templeI feel the love when his skin touch mine, i feel like he's really true to his words. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam lalo na kung totoo ang pinaparamdam sayo ng tao, but somehow there's a space inside my heart that i can't explain how i can fill the space"Do you think if the accident won't happen, may mangyayari bang maganda s
Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang nakatitig ako sa kawalanTangging dagat at hampas ng hangin ang nararamdaman ko, natapos ang usapan namin ni oakley ay para bang may kung ano sa kalooban ko na napakasakit, alam ko na hindi pa gaanong kumpleto ang alaala ko pero kahit ganon naniniwala ako sa lahat na sinabi ni edward saakinAno bang meron at nangyari at hindi ko binigyan ng pagkakataon na mag kaayos kami ni edward, bakit ko nagawa ang bagay na iyon noon."Mag kakasakit ka sa ginagawa mo elisha" i look at edward and my tears start falling. Kahit na umiiyak ako hindi nya kita, because its raining"I just want to answer every single questions that keeps bothering me, ang hirap ng ganito." He sit beside me and hold my hand, nilagay sa palad ko ang white gold ring na may naka engrave ng pangalan nya at taon na sa tingin ko ay araw kung kailan kami kinasal"I keep this all the time, kahi
"Sorry! shit, no Elisha, don't cry" he stop kissing me at umalis sa ibabaw ko habang di ko mapigilan ang pag hikbi ko, why i feel so weak"I want to go back where i am" i whisper when he help me to sit"Elisha" he said and i pushed edward"What do you want to me? Bakit parang iniiwas mo ako. Bakit ganto ang nangyayari saakin. I saw at the gallery on my phone, i am with other man. It's Oakley and marcist said him and i have a accident and now. Why i am with you, anong nangyari. You're acting differently, keeping me at this place makes me think that we broke up and you're being crazy now. Now tell me what happened to us? " maayos na tanong ko habang mas lalo syang hindi makasagot"Mahirap ba ang tinatanong ko?!""Hiwalay na tayo, and you cheated on me while i am on LA trip. Oakley is the guy you met on party, and have a one night stand with him, and i also cheated on you for so man
"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me goMy husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effortHindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay koWell, they love each other that's why"Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich"She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap"I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile"I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head"It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka
"Kailan ba tayo tatantanan ng problema, lagi nalang nakasunod saatin ang problema. We can't live in peace" nakapikit ako habang nakasandal lang, kakaalis lang namin sa bahay nila Oakley after kong apihin si veda na santaSanta santahan, deputa. Hindi sya marunong tumupad sa usapan, paiba iba sya ng gusto nyang mangyareShe's a real bitch, kung di nya makuha si Edward babalik sya kay Oakley, nakakahiyang uri ng babae"Don't worry, magiging ayos din ang lahat just trust me okay?" i nod and he smile at me while looking at my eyesHe gently lift my hands and kissed it"You don't know how lucky i am when i found you Elisha, after i saw and tasted you. Alam ko na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kung ano man ang meron sayo na wala sa ibang babae na hindi ko nakita""You're so precious, a woman like you is hard to find. Para kang nag hahanap ng perlas sa disyerto
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina