Alas otso na ng gabi matapos kong magising sa pagkakalunod ko sa sarili kong luha at mga sakit na patuloy ang pagdaloy sa isipan ko
I feel how much pain he cause, sobrang laki ng lamat na naiwan samin. I know that I also made a mistake, but I know to myself that I tried my best to stop what's happeng between the two of us
I never compare his love to someone else, I know edward. His love infinite, pero parang nagbago na ang lahat
May uuwian paba ako after this? I don't think that I deserve all of this
Breaking news :
Allegedly, Mr and Mrs Go file an annulment, is this the sign that the Go enterprises and the Salvia Corporation is not in a good condition? Is there a third party involve?
"We have no idea about that news, my cousin elisha is very happy with edward"
"That's true, I saw them at LA last week, I think their honeymoon stage is not done yet"
It's Liandoan and Lesley, my cousin is very happy with his wife, may anak nadin silang dalawa pero parang di sila mag-asawa because of how they treat each other
"My brother is busy on business meeting abroad. I think that's a fake news, if ever that they'll do that my family is the first one who'll know about it. That's a lie" Erjay smile at the camera
"I think that not true, wala naman ganyang issue na napaguusapan. If that ever happen hindi naman maghihiwalay ang Go and Salvia corp." It's tita hynna, her beauty is timeless I can't believe that she's fifty seven
I turn of the television to avoid that news about our marriage, he didn't sign the annulment papers kaya hindi padin kami hiwalay. And I hate it, I can't do what I want
Sunod sunod ang door bell habang wala naman akong inaasahan na bisita, no one know where I am. Kahit isa sa pinsan o kapatid ko wala
I saw their social media accounts and they're defending on us, I know they smell something fishy about my marriage with edward. Kase wala padin akong news kaya wala silang magawa kundi ang dipensahan kami
Hindi padin natigil ang pag-door bell. Maybe the house keeper.
Binaba ko ang suot kong robe at lumakad papalapit ng double door at marahang binuksan
"Manang-"
"Let's talk elisha.." I am surprised when Oakley is standing right in front of me while he's holding a bouquet of flowers
"There's no reason to talk with you throne-"
"Look, I know that I made a mistake and-"
"It doesn't matter to me Oakley, leave my ass alone and stay away from me if you don't want to involve yourself in issue" mabilis kong sinara ang pinto ng iharang nya ang kamay nya at naipit, mabuti nalang hindi ko agad naisagad ang pagsara
"Oh my god!" Sigaw ko ng mabilis na hinatak sya papasok sa loob at naiwang bukas ang pinto
Dinala ko sya sa kusina at kumuha ako ang ice cube para malagyan ang pasa sa daliri nya
"I'm sorry.." usal ko habang ako ang may kapit ng ice bag at kamay nya
"It's okay, a dinner won't hurt" ngumisi lang sya saakin at padabog kong binaba ang ice bag habang nakatitig sya saakin
"What do you want? Wag na tayo magpaligoy ligoy pa Throne" parang feel at home syang kumuha ng baso at tubig habang ako naman ay pinapanood syang kumilos sa kusina ko
"I just want to know you more" natawa ako bahagya sa inusal nya, he's insane
"Know me more in bed? Not me Oakley, once is enough" matigas kong saad saka sya iniwan sa kusina at umupo sa sofa bago binuksan ang Xbox at ang tv
"I'll cook dinner for you"
"What? No!" Sigaw ko saka naman tumama ang tungki ng ilong ko sa balikat nya
"Then cook for our dinner, I'll eat here" parang di nya nadinig ang pag pprotesta ko at di ito pinansin
"I said no-"
"You'll cook dinner or I will eat you for my dinner" I groan in frustration and lumakad padabog sa kusina at hinanda ang pagluto ko ng pesto pasta. He open all the lights kahit sa corridor at sa paakyat sa taas
"I can't belive that you're still playing Xbox" saka naman sya umupo sa pwesto ko at tinignan ang mga bala ng games ko doon
"I'm twenty seven, anong masama sa paglalaro ko sa xbox?" I ask saka nilabas ang mga sahog sa pasta at namili ng wine
"Ang bata mo palang pala" I smile and he start looking at my suite
"You love the view?" He ask habang nasa malaking glass wall sya kung saan kita ko ang kabuoan ng BGC
"Yeah, I chose this noong ako pa nagttrabaho bilang president until binitawan ko, my cousin said that he can handle the company kaya I let go. I am very inlove with shoes kaya gunawa ako ng shoe line, all kind of footware tapos naikasal naman ako kay edward, he believe that if we waste time baka magsisi kami kaya I agree to marry him"
Natulala ako at naalala na hindi nga pala iyon ang sagot sa tanong nya
"Sorry, anf layo ng sagot ko" I apologize pero tumawa lang sya
"I adore you, sa mga business parties lang kita nakikita noon, and as usual wala kang ibang pinagbubuhusan ng atensyon mo kundi ang asawa mo" he said and I laugh slightly
"I am so inlove with him when I first him, every womens dream and I got him, he got me and marry me immediately" tangging katahimikan nanaman ang namalagi saamin saka ko naman sinama na ang pasta na malambot na sa sauce
"You know that I marry veda because of business, my parents never ask me if I am happy or not. They never ask for my opinion, syempre sa una nakakainis, arrange marriage sucks" saka ko nilapag sa mesa ang lutong pasta at ang red wine
"You're lucky, you chose for your own that's why I really like you" he said it like I am not there, I felt my blood is rushing up to my cheeks. He said it boldly, ako pa ang nahiya sa mga inamin nya
"Stop flattering me thorne!" Pag-saway ko sa kanya kaya umayos sya ng upo habang ako naman ay umupo sa harapan nya
"Why? Did I say something wrong?" Bumuntong hininga naman ako at umiling
"What are we doing is wrong Oakley, gusto mo ba na maissue ako na kabit mo?" Tumawa sya ng malakas at nagsalin ng wine sa baso namin
"Off course not, I will take this slow. Ayoko mapahamak ka because of my decision" nakahinga ako ng maluwag sa sinabi nya at tumango ng bahagya
"That's good." Simpleng sagot ko bago inumpisahang kumain ng niluto ko
"Where is your ring?" Tinignan ko ang kaliwang kamay ko kung saan wala nga doon ang engagement or wedding ring namin ni edward, is this the reason why people believe that we are not in good terms, because I don't wear my wedding ring?
"I missed place it I guess, after I went home with you I don't know where my wedding ring is" saad ko bago nya inabot ang kamay ko at may kinuha sya sa bulsa nya na box
"What the-"
"Shhh, just wear this one"
He said and binuksan ang box, it's a platinum ring with a big and well sculpted diamond in the center, halos buong singsing ay may diamond kahit sa palibot nito, sobrang kinang ng singsing at kahit sino ay maaagaw ang atensyon mo kapag tumingin doon
"What is this?!" Gulat kong tanong matapos nyang isuot iyon saakin
"A ring.." he laugh while he said it and I roll my eyes
"I know Oakley, but why did you gave this to me?" Naguguluhan kong tanong saka sya ngumiti na parang may kahulugan saakin
"Just wear it okay? No buts or what if's." Pinandilatan ko sya ng tingin habang kapit kapit nya padin ang kamay ko at tangging ngiti nalang ang naisagot ko sa kanya
"It's confusing me Oakley, wala kabang balak patulugin ako kakaispin?" I said and he laugh while he's caressing my hand
"It suits on you elisha, stop stressing yourself. Bibisitahin kita dito araw araw" mas lalo naman akong naguluhan sa nangyayari at sinasabi nya
"Kahit wag na" I said and I show him my cocky smile
"Why? I love how you cook food for me plus I won't force you to have sex with me" namula nanaman siguro ang pisngi ko sa sinabi nya at inirapan sya
"What? I won't let that happen and get a life. Can you see this is insane"
"I am insane when it comes to you elisha" umiwas ako ng tingin at hinayaan sya na magsalita
"Elisha-"
"What's the meaning of this?!" Napalingon ako and a face of mad men and women
It's edward and veda?
"Elisha.." he whisper while he's looking at my hand na kapit kapit ni Oakley ngayon. They saw the diamond ring
"You bitch!"
"You bitch!" Sigaw nung kasama ni Edward na papalapit saakin ng harangin ni oakley ito at marahang inilayo"Stop this veda, stop making a scene" pigil anf gigil at inis sa tinig ni Oakley habang para namang tuod si edward na nakatayo lang malapit saamin"What? Are you serious Oakley, sasama ka sa kaladkarin nayan-""Explain how I am kaladkarin kung sya pumunta sa suite ko at nagpumilit na mag dinner kami. Tell me, who are you to point your dirty finger inside my property huh?" Matapang na saad ko saka naman sya tumawa"I can buy your suite!" Pagmamayabang nya"Really? Using Throne's money? Oh come on. I can buy a whole country for you wag ko lang makita pagmumuka mo" mas lalo naman sya nainis saakin at pinilit na makalapit saakin while I am still standing at my place like I am a queen"How arrogant bitch, ang kapal ng muka mo. Napakayabang mo pa, sino kaba sa palagay mo eh kabit kal
Tapos na ang lahat ng pag aasikaso ko para sa Annulment pero parang araw lang ang bawat linggo na dumaan.Napakabigat ng nararamdaman ko, it's been two months. Without edward and Oakley. I avoid drama, it's not good to my healthMy family is worried on my situation, pati sa media. People know what edward do to me, and Veda Noringco Throne is hiding, because of what she doI saw a familiar face, and I know it's herI smirk when veda is walking to my direction while her shades is not fit on her outfit."I can't believe that my husband have a interest on a rag" I laugh and show my white teeth"Yeah, I also can't believe that my husband has no taste when it's choosing a mistress. You must be thankful na mas maganda pinalit sayo, kesa naman mas mahirap sayo. Ops, did I hurt you oh so rich ego?" I asked and smile"Shut up! I'm way better than you!" She smile a
I pack my things while I am planning to have a vacation on siargao, after the hot and wild sex with oakley I left him in my suite at tumakasI also don't know why I am hiding like a criminal since that day happen, pinagsisihan ko ang lahat ng desisyon ko in this past two years. Bakit ba kase ang tanga mo elisha, pwede mo naman maging playmateKumuha ako ng isang stick ng sigarilyo at nilagay sa labi ko, I want to unwind. I want to get drunk again. But nagdadalawang isip akoWhat if I made another mistake? Makayog nanaman ako ng wala sa oras neto!I can't call china. Nahihiya padin ako kahit papano, she's Edward's cousin. I remember that day he kneel on me and ask for marriage. I thought it was sweet. Having a marriage proposal and boom. It was nightmareMarahan kong binuga ang usok, kasabay ng mga pagkawala ng lahat inaakala kong magiging maganda sa buhay koBigla nalang bumuk
Nasa private jet palang kami ni kuya sven ay nagumpisa na kaming maginomKuya Felix Sven is anak sa labas ng dad nila raffi and ang mom ni kuya sven ay isang dugong bughaw. Kaedaran nya si kuya scottI smile when I remember my family, my cousins. Andito sila kasama koMy cousins are complete now, since it's my birthday and I will treat themMga bastos! Wasak na nga wallet ko tapos neto, wasak din ang pukenilya ko!"Wow, raffi. Hiyang hiya naman ang itlog ko sayo, who said I am not daks!" Eto lagi ang pinag aawayan ng mga pinsan naming lalakiThey argue when it comes to their dick. Wtf, para silang elementary na nagdikit dikit para lang magpalakihan"I'm bigger" usal ni kuya sven at naupo"Malamang gurang kana! You're fifty years old man""It's thirty jerk, not fifty. And I am not titan gel user!" Bwelta ni kuya sven kay kuya rodd na
"Alam mo ba ang ginawa mo oakley! You ruin my night! And what the fuck are you doing here!" Sigaw ko habang buhat buhat nya ako, he push jack lately and hinatak ako papasok sa hotel"You ruin my hot make-out session with jam!" Sigaw ko at binaba nya ako sa kama ng padabog"It's jack, not jam" inismiran ko sya, I know that it's jack. Iniiba ko lang ang pangalan so he won't ruin jack"I can give you what you want elisha tapos hahanap kapa ng iba?" Naiinis na saad saakin ni oakley saka nagsalin ng alak sa basoTinangay na ang lahat ng meron saakin. Pati panty wala! I just lost my panty!"And you didn't tell me that it's your birthday" mas lalo naman nafrustrate and tono nya ngayon habang ibang iba ang titig nya saakin, his stares warm my heart. I didn't see lust in his eyes now, he's transparent and not lying on me.Is he hurt?"Ano nanaman ba gusto mo? I tol
Nakaupo ako sa upuan ng balcony ng hotel room habang kapit kapit ko ang mga bulaklak na nasa side table ng magising akoPagkagising ko ay halos gumapang ako para makapag cr dahil sa sakit ng balakang at hita ko, he's true to his word. Wala talaga syang balak palakarin akoMabuti nalang may tanda akong yoga position at mabilis na nawala ang sakit ng balakang ko, hita ko nalang ang problema ko kase bigla biglang bumibigay"Kanina kapa gising?" He kiss my temple habang nilapag ang mga pagkain at gatas na nasa tray habang nakangisi saakin"Yeah, ang hirap maglakad" reklamo ko and he laugh and sit in front of me"I told you, hindi kita palalakarin" he wink and nilagay ang plato na may lamang pancake, bacon, French toast at cocktail hotdogs"You cook all of this?" Tumango sya habang hindi padin maalis ang ngisi ng labi nya at pansin ang saya sa kanya ngayon"Do
Hindi ako nagtagal sa siargao at umuwi ako sa bahay ng grandparents namin sa batangas, nag paalam ako ng ayos sa kanila tapos ng birthday celebration koThey tease me about oakley, well. Hindi ako aasa sa panliligaw chenes nya. If he's here and do that, saka lang ako maniniwalaHindi ko naranasang maligawan, sa chukchakan agad ako nauwi. Because of edward, I don't know why he's asking for marriage at nag mamadaliSometimes I feel that he is lusting on me before and after that naghanap ng iba, marriage is not a joke. Kapag kinasal ka dapat mapanindigan moI feel sorry for my unborn baby, she/he doesn't deserve that. I must be careful. Ayoko na maulit yonMy lola walk beside me and offer wine, she's 79 pero parang nasa fifty palang, I adore my lola when she approach all of my cousins and act like a cool grandmother"Elisha, nakakailang buntong hininga kana, masama yan anak.
I look at oakley and he smile at me, nakakatawa sya sa suot nya. Ako naiinitan sa suot nya ngayon, I like him better when he's nakedNaughty elisha! Kapag naiyot iiyak iyak!I cursed softly and hit my head lightly. I swear bibisita nako sa psychiatrist para ipacheck ang kahalayan ko, sagad na sagad walang palya"Do you like the song?" I look at him saka kami umupo sa duwan ng hardin ni lola, I feel refreshing when the fresh wind touch my skin. Ang sarap sa pakiramdan"I love it, where do you study at your college?" I ask him at ngumiti lang naman sya saakin"St. Gregory" I cuss in my mind, kung third year ako, maaring naging schoolmate ko sya"Me too.." I said lazily and place my hand on my thighs and caress it, nahiya ako ng sandali, why I'm acting like a shy teenager
When i was young i always seek for attention from all the people that i know they have interest in me, sa murang edad alam ko na pano malaman kung may kailangan ba ang tao sayo o gusto ka lang nila kaibiganinIt's really hard for me to have a real friend because i am crazy rich and all of them want to have the spotlight and money that i haveIt's frustrating for me to watch them walk away from me after they get what they wantIn other word, they took advantage of my kindnessKaya doon ako natuto na lumaban at ipakita ang sarili ko, ipamuka sa kanila na hindi ko kailangan ng kaibigan, all i need is myself and my family.Until i grew older, met Edward in the company. He's wearing his dashing smiles that all woman offer their body to him, his body that really goodI find him attractive but i see him as a simple guy, lahat naman ng lalaki pare-pareho kaya bakit k
"What the fuck? Don't touch me!" sigaw ko habang nakatitig sya saakin"It's me Elisha, si Oakley" nakangiti na saad neto pero tinulak ko ulit sya at pilit na kumakawala sa pag kakakapit nya saakin"I thought you don't remember me, kaya bakit andito ka?!" sigaw ko muli at nag lakad palayo sa kanyaSumunod naman sya saakin agad at kinapitan ang kamay ko"I'm sorry Elisha, nalaman ko na kasama mo si Edward, kaya nagalit ako. Nainis ako at akala ko bumalik kana kay Edward. Kaya sinabi ko na hindi kita kilala, nag panggap ako na di kita kilala kase gusto ko itago na nasasaktan ako" i smirk and slap his face"I can't remember everything, all i know is edward cheated on me and i cheated to him too, and you are my lover and the miscarriage of Edward's baby and the rest hindi ko na maalala. Just because of your pride you act like you don't know me?" naiinis na saad ko sa kanya&nbs
Tulala ako sa ginagawa ni edward habang sya ay busy sa pag lilinis ng yate na nakadaong sa isla. His personal driver is with us at pinag uusapan nila kung saan kami susunod na pupuntaAfter what happen on us he become more careful on his actions. Sobrang maalaga saakin, i can't even walk or go to the bathroom akala nya siguro tatakasan ko sya or whatNaawa ako sa kanya, because of that. Masyado ba akong gago before the accident"Edward, i have questions" he look at me and he smile at me"What is it, love?" he ask and kiss my templeI feel the love when his skin touch mine, i feel like he's really true to his words. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam lalo na kung totoo ang pinaparamdam sayo ng tao, but somehow there's a space inside my heart that i can't explain how i can fill the space"Do you think if the accident won't happen, may mangyayari bang maganda s
Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang nakatitig ako sa kawalanTangging dagat at hampas ng hangin ang nararamdaman ko, natapos ang usapan namin ni oakley ay para bang may kung ano sa kalooban ko na napakasakit, alam ko na hindi pa gaanong kumpleto ang alaala ko pero kahit ganon naniniwala ako sa lahat na sinabi ni edward saakinAno bang meron at nangyari at hindi ko binigyan ng pagkakataon na mag kaayos kami ni edward, bakit ko nagawa ang bagay na iyon noon."Mag kakasakit ka sa ginagawa mo elisha" i look at edward and my tears start falling. Kahit na umiiyak ako hindi nya kita, because its raining"I just want to answer every single questions that keeps bothering me, ang hirap ng ganito." He sit beside me and hold my hand, nilagay sa palad ko ang white gold ring na may naka engrave ng pangalan nya at taon na sa tingin ko ay araw kung kailan kami kinasal"I keep this all the time, kahi
"Sorry! shit, no Elisha, don't cry" he stop kissing me at umalis sa ibabaw ko habang di ko mapigilan ang pag hikbi ko, why i feel so weak"I want to go back where i am" i whisper when he help me to sit"Elisha" he said and i pushed edward"What do you want to me? Bakit parang iniiwas mo ako. Bakit ganto ang nangyayari saakin. I saw at the gallery on my phone, i am with other man. It's Oakley and marcist said him and i have a accident and now. Why i am with you, anong nangyari. You're acting differently, keeping me at this place makes me think that we broke up and you're being crazy now. Now tell me what happened to us? " maayos na tanong ko habang mas lalo syang hindi makasagot"Mahirap ba ang tinatanong ko?!""Hiwalay na tayo, and you cheated on me while i am on LA trip. Oakley is the guy you met on party, and have a one night stand with him, and i also cheated on you for so man
"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me goMy husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effortHindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay koWell, they love each other that's why"Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich"She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap"I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile"I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head"It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka
"Kailan ba tayo tatantanan ng problema, lagi nalang nakasunod saatin ang problema. We can't live in peace" nakapikit ako habang nakasandal lang, kakaalis lang namin sa bahay nila Oakley after kong apihin si veda na santaSanta santahan, deputa. Hindi sya marunong tumupad sa usapan, paiba iba sya ng gusto nyang mangyareShe's a real bitch, kung di nya makuha si Edward babalik sya kay Oakley, nakakahiyang uri ng babae"Don't worry, magiging ayos din ang lahat just trust me okay?" i nod and he smile at me while looking at my eyesHe gently lift my hands and kissed it"You don't know how lucky i am when i found you Elisha, after i saw and tasted you. Alam ko na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kung ano man ang meron sayo na wala sa ibang babae na hindi ko nakita""You're so precious, a woman like you is hard to find. Para kang nag hahanap ng perlas sa disyerto
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina